[full-time master bg] I don't feel like smiling

The white clouds outside the porthole piled up into hills, and the little boy sitting by the window excitedly turned around and told his mother that it was cotton candy.Wan'er heard the sound from the book, raised her eyes to have a look, it was very white and soft, but also far away.

The little boy said in a childish voice: "Mom, our plane will pass through this string of cotton candy, will it also taste sweet?"

The adults sitting next to me laughed.His mother patted his little head, "Sit down obediently. Brother Kong Shao will come later and ask you what drink you want, what do you want?"

"Sprite!" The little boy gave a very simple answer, "Because it is white and sweet like cotton candy."

"It will cause tooth decay!"

The little boy pouted his cheeks, "That's also a sweet tooth decay."

The young master pushed the cart over, and first asked Wan Er in the outermost seat, "Miss, what would you like to drink?"

"Coffee, thanks."

"Borrowed, thank you."

The hand that flipped the book stopped, and Smile suspected it was an auditory hallucination.How could she hear that person's voice in this small airplane cabin [-] meters above the ground?But he was unwilling to reconcile, and looked sideways, and the figure had disappeared in the aisle.

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"Borrowed, thank you."

In memory, this is the sentence An Wenyi said to her the most.She clearly remembered the four words and the beginning and end of a middle pause. His voice was soft, and the last two words were used to pressing in her throat, which always sounded like a vague sigh.

It's just that she and him are just ordinary high school deskmates, and really have no position to comment on his pronunciation.

For some reason, she gradually became addicted to these four characters.Obviously, I can give up the empty seat considerately first, but I always wait until he speaks before moving the chair and letting him out.

In fact, Wan Er's initial treatment of this deskmate was no different from that of others.I don't know which class it was, the head teacher compared the two of them for the first time, and praised them as very sensible and calm children.After hearing these words in other people's mouths, it gradually became commonplace, and I could hear them from time to time.When she was a teenager, she couldn't help but compare herself with him. She quietly compared herself with him, and instead of getting more and more frustrated, she cared more and more.

But so what?

Her eyes chased him, so she could see clearly that there was another dazzling presence in his eyes.

Like a paintbrush, she knows she doesn't have the ability to finish, so she doesn't want to paint at all.

This was a real setback. For the first time, she smiled bitterly for her rationality, and she was powerless.

Later, he got his wish to stand side by side with that dazzling existence.When she checked Weibo, she saw him post a photo of them kissing.It's not a state of mind, but at this moment, her sanity finally collapsed, and she didn't send her blessings with a smile.

The face is still calm, only she knows that jealousy has swallowed her.

She remembered watching Jin Yong's martial arts when she was a child, like a girl looking forward to love, she also liked every love story in it.It's just different from others, she likes Hua Zheng, Guo Xiang, Li Wenxiu...every girl who can't love her.At the end of the fading memories of high school, she opened those books again, thinking of herself, as if looking at those girls through the books and smiling wryly.Fate is doomed, there is no sooner or later, if he doesn't like her, what can she do?

I like "White Horse Roaring West Wind" the most. The taste of martial arts is very light, and even love is light.It is hardly mentioned in Jin Yong's novels, but it is so realistic, "If the person you love deeply falls in love with someone else, what can you do?"

She has no choice, and she also knows that one day someone better and more suitable for her will appear...but she is as stubborn as the girl in the book.

That's all very good, very good, but she just doesn't like it.

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"Miss, your coffee."

Smiling back to her senses, she thanked her and took it. She touched her lips, and the smell of instant coffee lingered in her nose. She placed the paper cup on the table and turned to the next page.

She was concentrating on watching, when she suddenly noticed that someone was poking her with a finger, she turned to look with a smile, the little boy by the window struggled to get over half of his body, holding the empty paper cup, "Auntie, can you throw it away for me?" Yet?"

"Call me sister." His mother taught him, "I tell you to sit still and don't disturb other people. My sister is reading a book, you disturbed her."

The little boy was very obedient, "I was wrong, I'm sorry."

Smiling, "It's okay." He raised his hand sideways to ask the stewardess to collect the trash, and when he looked up, he saw that person walking from the aisle.The plane was slightly turbulent, he supported the seat and walked all the way, Wan Er was dazed for a moment, holding his hands in a daze, seeing him as if he had just walked out of her memories.

An Wenyi approached and asked her politely, "What's the matter?"

The little boy's mother apologized, "I want to ask the flight attendant to collect the garbage on the table."

"I'll call for you." An Wenyi helped them find the young master.Wan'er lowered her head to read the book, feeling his eyes turn around her body.After all, he couldn't keep his composure, and he stumbled and crumpled a page when turning the pages of the book.Fortunately, he didn't look at it for a long time, stopped for a while, and then went to his seat.

Only then did Wan Er dare to raise his head.

The phrase "Long time no see" was pressed on the tip of my tongue. I thought it would be embarrassing to say it, but I didn't expect that I couldn't say it and swallowed it, and I felt embarrassed.

"Long time no see" is a lie. She has been quietly paying attention to him these past few years, knowing that they broke up, and also knowing that he took a break from college to become a professional player, and in the first season of his professional career Got the championship.

It's been a while since I said it for him.For the third grade of high school, they each rationally chose arts and sciences, and filled in the volunteers for the college entrance examination, and they also filled in two cities in the south and the north very rationally.

There was probably no contact for three or four years. She took it for granted and thought he still remembered her.

Strangers don't have to say that they haven't seen each other for a long time.

She smiled slightly, but when she lowered her head, she felt tightness in her chest.

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She has always liked her name very much, and she smiled, just looking at these two words, it seemed that a smile leaked from the paper.Mom used to say that as long as the corners of her mouth were raised, it was a smile.

But later she saw another word, "unconscious smile", which is said in the dictionary to be a smile that comes from the bottom of the heart unconsciously on the face.But she saw another meaning, didn't realize it, didn't realize it, if he didn't mean it, no matter how high the corner of her mouth was beside her, in his memory, she probably didn't exist.

She liked him, he didn't notice it at all.

The author has something to say: When thinking about Vice Zhang's plot... I was fishing again x

Forgive me...Xiao An's writing is very emotional...