wind on the other side

I am not a beautiful flower

I'm just a tough grass on this shore

sun and rain of life

I will bow my head

But the stubborn soul still stands

no whining, no madness

only stubborn and strong

Courageous patience and indifference

watch the wind on the other side

Your heart is like the wind on the other side

like to wander freely

Wherever I go, I look up to your strength

like your tenderness

But who knows that under your strength and beauty

Bound forbearance and loneliness

Only the grass on this shore

I can feel every emotion of the wind

no matter how far apart

the wind will pursue

no matter how long

grass will watch

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☆, across the shore

"Liuyu, Liulan!"

"Mom, I'm fine. Can I be alone?"

Jin Liuting called out from his bedroom.

"Flowing..."

"Don't worry, Mom, I won't worry you any more."

Hearing the distant footsteps outside the door, Jin Liuting breathed a sigh of relief and sat gently on the chair in front of the desk.Unknowingly, he raised his left hand and stared at his wrist absently.The skin on my wrist is very thin, and I can clearly see the fine blood vessels inside.Life throbs in it, young blood.

Are you... wanting to commit suicide?Jin Liufeng smiled helplessly, how could it be possible.I have never felt that my life is not entirely my own.Even if you lose yourself, you still have to be responsible to your parents who gave birth to you.No one stipulates, just your own beliefs.So, you don't even have the right to die, you know?Well, what else do you have?

Knowing why mother would leave with confidence.Because I have always been obedient and will not mess around.Maybe my mother just took it as a moment of insanity for her unrestrained nature.

That day, the angry mother slapped her in the face when she knew the relationship between them.She didn't cry, she didn't cry out in anger, she didn't even touch her burning cheek. "Mom, I love you, I really do. That's why I always listen to you. I'm just an ordinary person, and life lets me go with the flow. I think as long as you and Dad are at ease, that's enough. The only one, I though It's my love that doesn't hold back hope, and won't back down. Don't I even have the right to choose?" Jin Liuting said, holding back tears.She knew this day would come, and she knew what the outcome would be. She felt that she would bear it, at least once bravely.

Then she hurried away.Jin Liuting has tried her best to control her emotions, if she doesn't leave, she can't stay calm anymore.She didn't know what happened afterwards, what Juhuo said to her mother.Now those don't matter anymore.

When her mother Liu Jin found her, she was squatting at the door of her house.Liu Jin let out a sigh of relief.Father Jin Zhihe also hurried over, glanced at her, and walked in with a sigh, leaving the mother and daughter outside.

"Liu Bi, don't be stupid. You don't know what love is, I..."

"Mom, don't worry, I won't run away from home or commit suicide. I've already made you and your father sad, unless you killed me. I won't do anything worse." Jin Liuting interrupted Mother's words, said calmly and without emotion.

Liu Jin sighed, nodded, pulled Jin Liuling up, and entered the room.

Afterwards, the family didn't talk about it, until today, a week later, when the wind and fire wanted to break up with her without any room for negotiation, she suddenly felt that the matter was not over at all.Myself, too naive.

Looking for something to do, Jin Liuting opened the drawer and took out the picture book.Sad to numb emotions are the best for painting.Opening the picture book, the picture came into view.Suddenly, I felt unbearable pain in my heart.The scene in the morning clearly emerged.

In the painting, the self four years ago and Feng Ruhuo stretched out their palms to face each other, looking at each other with trust and expectation in their eyes.Is that when they haven't noticed love yet, or has it already begun?At that time, the wind and fire were already very beautiful.Long shawl hair, reflecting a somewhat angular and handsome face.She exudes the feminine beauty of a woman and the calm domineering aura of a strong man.It was not an indistinguishable face, but it revealed a heroic and feminine masculinity that was not lost to a man.There is a trace of melancholy in the eyes that has not faded away, but deeper there is a fire-like enthusiasm that is about to start a prairie fire, and a renewed youthful and vigorous strength.And at that time, I was just like a simple and lovely ordinary student.Clean ponytail, ordinary and gentle face, bad figure and even a little bloated, a head smaller than Youhuo, just an ordinary grass in front of the powerful Feng Youhuo.But the clean eyes are full of kindness and tenacity, not pure, but an inviolable and persistent purity.

Jin Liuting picked up the paintbrush and carefully began to paint the cracks between the two of them.That serious look, as if he was just finishing a painting, not venting his emotions.Be careful not to let the pen hurt either side, just lightly separate.In the past, Feng Ruhuo's envious eyes when he saw himself painting suddenly flashed into his mind.He smiled helplessly.

Just this morning, we broke up.Like countless broken up lovers.Obviously normal, but so fresh in my memory.For everyone who has ever loved with heart.I fell in love for the first time, and broke up for the first time, but it seemed that I had exhausted all my energy, and I didn't even have the strength to mourn.

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Jin (jin four tones) Liufeng (lan two tones)

Liu Jin (sound of feng)

For the first time, the number of words is not many, and the quality is guaranteed as much as possible.

Liu Ling is a good boy, always obedient and respectful to his parents.

How will such a good boy face such unapproved feelings?

In fact, our grass friends have a gentle and obedient side, but also a wild and unruly side.

☆, the wind stops and the grass calms down

"Juhuo, are you alright?"

"You Huo, did my mother tell you anything?"

"Youhuo, it's okay, let's find a way together."

"Feng, don't talk, at least let me feel at ease."

Jin Liuting was picked up by his mother that day, and after getting home after being slapped in the face, the first thing he did when he calmed down was to send a text message to Feng Youhuo.But there was no response.Jin Liujin hated talking on the phone very much, and always felt that this kind of conversation across the space would be inexplicably embarrassing.Compared with talking on the phone, Jin Liuting prefers text letters, which make people feel calmly.As long as it's not work or something urgent, Jin Liuting will not call others, especially hates the emotional exchange on the phone.

When Jin Liuling called Feng Ruhuo "Feng", most of them expressed a more serious meaning, which was almost the same as calling his full name.

After half an hour, Jin Liufeng, who had been very patient, couldn't bear it anymore.Probably because although her mother's reaction was expected, it still gave her a lot of stimulation.Just when Jin Liuting was about to call Feng Ruhuo, a text message from Feng Ruhuo came.

"I'm fine." There were only three short words.Jin Liuting let out a long sigh of relief after reading it.Some fiery brains gradually cooled down.

Juhuo also needs to calm down, maybe her mother said something that made her sad, she must be very upset now.It may be because of this that I didn't have time to read my text messages.I shouldn't have forced her to face me like this.I should give her time.

Jin Liuzhen always likes to excuse others, and forgive others for their indifference or even malice.For the wind and fire, it is very considerate psychologically.

Liu Bi can be said to be a standard model of a worry-free and trouble-free girlfriend.As long as you recognize you, you will be believed.Don't be jealous, don't play tricks, don't need you to bother to coax her, don't waste your money, have strong self-care ability, and will silently care about you in every possible way.Many parents will think that it is a very correct choice to find Liuqi to be their girlfriend.But they seem to have forgotten that being too nice is also a problem.Love without any little trouble is always without passion.I don't know why Feng Ruhuo can love Jin Liuling tirelessly.

"If you have something to say, you can find me at any time." The next day, Jin Liufeng sent another text message.There is no persuasive tone, and the understanding remains the same.

"Hmm." There was only one short word this time.

Just understand, I'm always here, I won't force you, Jin Liufeng thought.

In this way, a week passed without any contact between the two.

"I want to see you." A week later, Feng Ruhuo sent a text message.

"Location, time." Jin Liufeng also asked briefly, feeling a little uneasy.

"In half an hour, that park."

Of course Jin Liuting knew which park it was, and he was slapped there only a week ago.

After lunch, Jin Liuting was a little sleepy, but she couldn't control it so much.I told my parents and left.After returning home that day, life remained the same, but no one mentioned it anymore.Jin Liujin's freedom was not restricted either.

At noon in summer, the sun was scorching hot, and there were few people in the park.Without an umbrella, Jin Liuting walked towards the place where the incident happened that day under the scorching sun.It was a hidden corner of the park, surrounded by a few dwarf trees, whose leaves cast mottled shadows, darkening the surrounding environment.Below is a field of weeds, deep green, mixed with some withered and yellow fallen leaves, the grass sways in the wind, and I can't find my way.

Jin Liujin, who has never had romantic fantasies about love, would never have imagined that one day he would come to the park, a place where young couples go, with someone he loves deeply.But in this place, there is still pain and incomprehensible love.

I could see the back of that person from a distance, with the same strength and aloofness as before, but this time he seemed a little lonely.She was wearing the dark blue short-sleeved shirt when I first saw her, but her figure was taller and more beautiful than before.

Jin Liuting was also wearing a light green T-shirt when he first met, and the baggy clothes swayed in the wind.

"You're here." Sensitive and familiar with Jin Liufeng's breath, he turned around like a fire, Jin Liufeng was surprised by the gloomy and desolate eyes.What about You Huo's unrestrained and passionate eyes?Now she is even more melancholy than when we first met.

Feeling distressed, he approached unconsciously, and Jin Liuting's hand caressed his hot cheek.Liu Bi rarely takes the initiative to get close to Feng Ruhuo so obviously. In her life, she is always silent and passive.

"Let's break up." Feng Ruhuo's low voice, charming voice, if it weren't for those few words, it would be too harsh.I can't let Liu Bi get close anymore, I'm afraid I won't be able to be ruthless.

Jin Liuting's hand stopped and slowly lowered it.She felt that it was difficult to breathe, and she took a step back silently to wake herself up.

"What did you say?" You still wanted to ask after hearing clearly.

"Break up." Feng Youhuo spat out two simple words, his eyes became firm, and he regained some of the momentum of the past.But she will never be able to really harden herself in front of Jin Liufeng.

It felt like my heart was being filled with lead and fell into a cliff again. There was a buzzing sound in my ears, and the gentle breath on Jin Liuting's body gradually dissipated.What would have often been misinterpreted as a child's face becoming mature and serious.The breath converges in the body, as if protecting himself at any time from collapse and shattering.Habitually stabilize yourself and protect your dignity before emotional outbursts.

"You've been thinking about it for a week just to say these two words to me?" Without any ups and downs in his voice, Jin Liuting stared straight at the wind.

No overt display of emotion, no outbursts.Feng Ruhuo felt distressed instead.

"Liu Bi, we won't have any results."

"I was the one who said there would be no results!" Jin Liufeng's tone became low and sullen.She felt as if a flame was about to burst out of her chest.Jin Liuzhen has never been angry, and the wind and fire can always easily arouse her emotions.

"I was the one who said it was crazy and absurd at the beginning! I was the one who didn't believe in love! I was the one who didn't dare to admit love!" Jin Liuting gritted his teeth, "Who said so capriciously? Love me? Who said that love is not afraid of anything? Who gave me hope and made me want to become stronger? Who said that as long as I don’t say give up, she will never say give up?”

"Liu Bing, I..." Feng Youhuo looked at the already angry Jin Liu Bing, obviously feeling that her aura was getting stronger.Knowing that Jin Liuting is not a kitten but a lion, a gentle lion.It's just that he didn't expect to release his anger in front of him like this.

"I said earlier that some feelings should not start, so don't let it start. I will not start a relationship that is impossible to have results, and in the end both sides will suffer. But you, make me feel at ease, and change the stubborn me. Inspire me The wildness in your heart is fighting against fate. Now, you want to say give up?!" Jin Liuting said as if venting.

"Feng, are you serious?" Jin Liuting suddenly calmed down.

Swallowing, Feng Ruhuo nodded.With a serious expression and a frown, her decision will not change.

"Sure enough it's the wind, I can't keep it." Jin Liuting sighed, tears finally flowed down, so thick and thin, it made people feel distressed.

"I've been through life and death, and I've never been afraid. No matter what the reason is, we still can't pass this level. I really regret that you saved me." (What's the use of regretting, God, this thinking)

Jin Liuting took a step forward and walked to the side of Feng Ruhuo, "The person I love is dead, and I will only love one person in my life. I will never fall in love with anyone again. Thank you for the lesson you taught me, and thank you You made me strong. This is the last time I cry for the one I love."

Tears soaked her clothes, and Jin Liuzhen left unhurriedly, which was her stubbornness.Suddenly there was a gust of wind, and the fallen leaves rolled up all over the ground, hitting Jin Liuting's body, but he was unable to fall again.The grass will still survive tenaciously and silently, and the wind is just a passerby.

The wind stopped and everything returned to calm.

Putting down the brush, I suddenly felt sleepy and wanted to change clothes and go to sleep.Jin Liuting stood in front of the mirror, took off his upper body clothes, saw himself in the mirror, and suddenly froze.I seldom look at my body like this, not only because of my reserved personality, but also because I didn't have a good figure in the past, but I was a little fat on the contrary.But the current self is completely different, different from the self four years ago.It has a beautiful female body line, but a stronger body shape than ordinary women, showing a little muscular and smooth outline.I never thought about losing weight deliberately, but for various reasons, I asked myself to exercise like a fire, and I accidentally created my current beauty.Even his body is engraved with that person's imprint, and he has indeed become stronger. Without her, he might still be the same as before.Both physically and mentally.

But now, only myself is left.Never betray yourself.Therefore, it is always the most useful to become stronger yourself.

Involuntarily picking up the paintbrush, Jin Liuting drew another painting according to the layout of the previous painting with his upper body naked.It's just the two people in the painting, the past self and the present self.Now, protect yourself.

The author has something to say: I am thinking whether to write Qingshuiwen? Or add something.

I wrote the breakup scene as soon as I came, the two people's usual personalities are different from the personalities they showed when they broke up.

There is arrogance in Liu Bi's bones.

Flashbacks, flashbacks, novels have never been written like this.

Do you have any friends who study medicine, please share your questions.

☆、Broken Wing Dead Leaf Butterfly

"The butterfly with broken wings and dead leaves that can't find flowers will never see withering..." Xu Hao's "Broken Bridge and Remnant Snow" came to mind.

Feng Youhuo put his hands in his trouser pockets and walked down the street with his head bowed.This kind of lonely posture is very rare for Feng Ruhuo.

Is not never in love, there will be no harm?Without flowers, there will be no withering.Liu Bi, why did I meet you.Others envy my strength, my dazzling figure shines everywhere.But as strong as I am, I don't even have the ability to keep the one I love.What am I?What do I want and what do I not want, who knows?

"Hehe..." Feng Youhuo looked up to the sky and laughed softly, "As expected, I'm still too weak." I don't know who said this sentence.

Just during this summer vacation, when the relationship between the two was gradually on the right track, a sudden change caused this flower to bloom and wither before it had time to bloom.

Perhaps it is precisely because of the motivation of this relationship that the two are working crazily, becoming stronger and making rapid progress.Jin Liuting, who had mediocre grades in an ordinary university, jumped to the top ten in his grade.And she was a grade older than her, and she was originally a top student of the famous F University, and she was like a racing car that was fueled up, flying straight all the way. ps: Feng Juhuo is three years older than Jin Liuting, and only one grade older than Liuting for a reason.

This summer vacation, the two meet in the library every day, not to talk about love, but to study together.Because they know that their future is very difficult, so the stronger they become, the more chances they have to keep this love alive.Jin Liufeng is preparing for the CET-[-] and CET-[-] exams.I have already finished the TOEFL exam and I am preparing to take the BEC exam.Before meeting Feng Ruhuo, Jin Liuting had never had such a great enthusiasm for learning.And her English level has also improved rapidly under the guidance of Feng Ruhuo.

But paper can't contain fire, how long can this feeling be concealed?It's not that I haven't thought about it, it's just that now is not the time.But everything came so suddenly.

Liu Jin, who noticed this through some channel, began to pay attention to Jin Liuling's whereabouts.Although she was very reassured about her daughter, how could a mother be calm about this kind of thing.How could my own daughter be gay?It must have been broken.I really didn't see that Feng Youhuo is such a good kid, how could he do such a mess.

On that originally beautiful afternoon, in that park, the two of them relaxed after studying one end.Feng Youhuo, who hadn't kissed Jin Liufeng for a long time, couldn't help but touch Jin Liufeng's lips lightly.She could even count the number of times they kissed, not many times at all.And there is no entanglement, just so gently, just like their love, tender and natural.

And all of this was seen by Liu Jin who followed, she couldn't hold back after all, went up and pulled her daughter and gave her a slap.Feng Youhuo hastily squeezed his body to block Jin Liufeng, it's all over, I'll be responsible for anything.

After Jin Liuling held back his tears and left, the rest of the confrontation with Liu Jin remained.

"Auntie, don't blame Liupin, I was the one who chased her first." Feng Youhuo hurriedly explained, fearing that Liu Yu would get angry with Jin Liupin again.

"You Huo, you are a good boy, but when did you get this hobby? Love is not a child's play..."

"Auntie, I really love Liu Bi, this is not a hobby..." Feng Youhuo held back his anger, after all, this is Liu Bi's mother.No one can insult the true feelings between them.

"I don't understand, what's going on with the children nowadays. It's like fire, I know you saved Liu Bi, you are the benefactor of our whole family. We owe you a lot, and we will pay it back slowly. But it doesn't mean Liu Bi must Play with you!" Liu Jin said seriously.From her point of view, homosexuality is the play of immoral children.The daughter who has always received a good traditional education can only be led badly.

"Auntie, I know you can't accept it for a while..."

"Enough! It's not just for a while, it's impossible for a lifetime. You don't know what love is, and you don't know how to respect love. You must separate now, or you will regret it in the future!" Liu Jin didn't have the slightest intention to back down.

"No." The wind was like a low voice, it was impossible to back down.

"If you don't break up, I will sever the mother-daughter relationship with Jin Liuzhen. If you really understand Liuzhen, you should know what that means, right? Whether you want her to break up or I will intervene, you choose yourself." Liu Jin threatened directly.Don't blame me, for my daughter... It is you who choose this wrong path.

Feng Ruhuo fell silent, she never expected that Jin Liuting's mother, whom Jin Liuting regarded as a god, would threaten her so cruelly.If she insists on not breaking up, then Liu Bi will definitely fall into painful choices.And Liu Jin bet that her feelings for Liu Bi would not make Liu Bi suffer.so ruthless...

"One week, I limit you to break up with Liu Ling within one week. Don't let her have any hope in you. I'll just pretend nothing happened. Otherwise, you know the consequences." Liu Jin said, her tone slowed down again , "You will hate me now, but you will thank me later. I didn't let you get deeper and deeper. You can't give each other a future"

The windy throat is a little tight, and the heart is as heavy as lead.That's right, now I can't make any promises, I don't have the strength to convince others, and I don't have the capital to convince Liu Jin.If you insist desperately, you will only drag Liu Bi into a painful situation.

Gritting her teeth, a deep voice sounded like fire, "I know, I will be the bad guy." Then she sneered and said with anger and sadness: "Our family has been in business for so many years, how many times have we been threatened. I have never been afraid of death or life. I really didn't expect that I would lose here. I never thought that that cruel person would be the mother of the person I love the most. How ironic, hehe..." After finishing speaking, I didn't even bother He left without hesitation, leaving behind a lonely and cold figure.

Liu Jin froze in place, seeing Feng Ruhuo's injured appearance, she didn't hesitate.But, are you wrong?No.Maybe Feng Ruhuo is sincere, but this is a feeling that shouldn't be there, let it go away.She believes that one day, these two children will understand her painstaking efforts.

The Windy Home is a two-story villa.His father, Feng Shangyan, started from scratch and worked hard to start a modest company, and his family was considered well off.Mother Liu Shuwen is six years younger than Feng Shangyan.This is a marriage that has almost nothing to do with love, full of helplessness.Feng Ruhuo is Liu Shuwen's only emotional sustenance. She respects Feng Ruhuo emotionally and doesn't want her to go her own way.

After the breakup, Feng Ruhuo opened the door and entered the house, and saw her mother sitting on the sofa.Everyone is a lady, it is more appropriate to describe Liu Shuwen than Feng Ruhuo.My mother, who has a doctorate degree, only chose a Chinese teacher in an ordinary junior high school. She is obviously rich enough to work.During the summer vacation, Liu Shuwen was relatively free.

Mother's gentle attitude and sincere listening and understanding can always make Feng Ruhuo feel at ease.Seeing his mother, Feng Ruhuo's expression softened a little, and he habitually looked upstairs.

"He's not here." The mother said gently, seeing the forbearing expression on Feng Ruhuo's face, she couldn't bear it.

Feng Youhuo breathed a sigh of relief. The person who had oppressed her for many years was not so much her father as her leader, and not so much her as his daughter as his trained assistant.In the years of getting along, from being oppressed to developing one's own momentum and resisting, the wind and the fire have grown up in the torment.

"Come here, dear." Liu Shuwen gave the place.

Only in front of her mother, Feng Ruhuo will let go of her stubbornness and become a gentle and well-behaved daughter.

"Have you quarreled?" Liu Shuwen held her daughter in her arms, leaning lightly on her shoulder like fire.

"broke up."

"Is there a contradiction?"

"It's not between us."

Liu Shuwen sighed and did not speak again.

"Mom, aren't you angry? It's about me and Liu Bi." Feng Youhuo straightened up suddenly.

"Although a little surprised, but not angry." Liu Shuwen said calmly.

"I'm gay, Mom. Can you understand?" Feng Youhuo was a little surprised, since her mother knew about her relationship with Liu Bi, she was just a bystander, and sometimes helped her hide it from her father.

"You are not gay, you just really like someone, it has nothing to do with gender. Just like you liked Wen Ziwen back then, he was a boy. Even if you were, it can't be your fault, it can't be changed." Liu Shu Wen said with a smile.

"Mom, thank you."

"Mom, do you think I'm too weak?"

"If you really want to persevere, your path will be difficult. Not only do you need to trust each other and persevere tenaciously, but you also need to have the strength to give each other happiness. You are so old, you can choose for yourself. I respect you It's always like this when you're young...but you have to be responsible for your actions." Liu Shuwen sighed, and she didn't know whether it was correct to say this to Feng Ruhuo.It's just that she will never interfere in the love of her children.

"I see, thank you, Mom." Feng Youhuo closed his eyes and snuggled into his mother's arms again.

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