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On the commonality and symbiotic conditions of assholes and perverts.

-------Inscription

The same thing, for a period of time, can get completely different processes and even results from different people.

Right now, right in front of me, on the coffee table, are two pieces of paper, two blank pieces of paper, which are now filled with words.One was written by me, and the other by Meng Wanli.We are playing a "game".

The way to play the "game" is to write down what happened recently, from your own perspective.

As follows.

My angle:

"On 05/03, Meng Wanli punched me on the left cheek once."

"On 05/10, I was hit in the waist once by the owner of the massage parlor with a folding chair."

"When I was detained on 05/14, I was hit in the abdomen by Meng Wanli once because of a quarrel."

"Caught by Xia Jun on 05/20, and publicized his personal revenge and hit the head, upper limbs, lower limbs and lower back N times."

"On 05/27, he was hit on the head three times as a pervert."

"On 05/28, I was hit in the abdomen by a provocateur who appeared inexplicably on the street."

"From the perspective of subjective and objective perspectives, the results obtained are obviously very different. 』----- I finally got this conclusion.

Meng Wanli's perspective:

"05/03 hit Meng Wanli's lower abdomen and waist three times, and his right cheek once."

"05/10 hit the massage parlor owner's lower abdomen, waist, upper limbs, lower limbs, and face N times, and insulted his language twice."

"When I was detained on 05/14, I quarreled with Meng Wanli. I verbally insulted each other's mother [-] times, my sister three times, my grandfather six times, and my ancestor sixteen times. I also threatened him twice."

"On 05/20, I was caught by the police officer Xia from the 'Happy Slip'. I was fined because of my friendship. After the blood test, I verbally insulted the other party's mother six times, insulted the other party's father four times, and insulted the other party ten times. Behaviorally indecent/molested the other party many times.”

"On 05/27, I stared at the breasts and thighs of strange women N times and whistled six times on the street."

"On 05/28, he insulted the mother of a gangster on the street twice with the help of alcohol, and acted indecently/molested a teenager once. When his elder brother stepped forward to stop him, he hit the opponent three times in the face, three times in the belly of companion A, and three times in the abdomen of companion B. waist twice."

……

After this "game" was over, Wen Jie concluded in a phone call: She understood Xia Jun's feeling that he wanted to beat me up, and finally put it into action.

Sometimes, if you are not too perverse or arrogant, there are only two explanations for these actions.

The first explanation is: psychosis.

The second explanation is: too selfish.

And I belong to the second type, which is why I am not qualified to complain no matter what. In fact, there are certain reasons for how I am treated, which is why I get different opinions from different angles. The relationship between the answers, but the sorting out and conclusion for a while is not about reflecting or not...

I'm actually thinking...

Why am I like this again?

Instead of thinking: why am I doing this.Or: I'm doing it wrong.

So for the next three days, I held on to "there are no good people in this world, and I have done nothing wrong".I have continued to repeat the reason for this strong rhetoric and lack of confidence several times: the act of committing a crime --- being arrested--- committing a crime --- being arrested -- committing a crime again --- being arrested again Finally, when Meng Wanli, the stabbing head, and Meng Qianli, who had been pestering me all this time and wanted to be my relative, couldn't take it anymore and prepared to pack up and go home, things took a sharp turn and turned into an unforeseen disaster!

"On a spring outing, the apricot blossoms are blowing all over your head. Someone in the Moshang family is young and full of flair. The concubine plans to marry her and marry her for life. Even if she is ruthlessly abandoned, she can't be ashamed."

It's a dull day in May.

Although the sky is clear, it feels oppressive for some reason, and my chest feels stuffy just like the weather.I stood in the middle of the living room, holding a sharp knife in my hand, my mind went blank, the pool of blood on the floor and the blood dripping from the knife in my hand at this time were clearly telling me what happened something happened.but……

I looked down at the strange young woman lying naked in a pool of blood, and what filled my heart was not shock or fear, but confusion.

who is she?How come here?

Before I had time to think about it, the door was opened, and the people who pushed the door in were my friends who had been patient with me all this time...

Zhao Boyang stood at the door and looked at me in disbelief, his limbs were so stiff that he couldn't move, and the key in his hand fell to the ground.

As soon as Xia Jun saw this scene, he rushed up to grab the knife and restrained me who was still in a daze.

Mo Yan quickly covered Mo Ran's eyes with his hands.

Wen Tao is only angry.

Wen Jie is smiling.

"what happened?"

"Ah? What's going on?! Let me go!"

When I realized it was too late, it was different from the self-directed and self-acted farce three years ago. This feeling of being no longer trusted and disappointing completely wiped out the hidden deep in my heart. A kind of shame and madness were aroused.I began to struggle and wriggle like a fish being dragged ashore.

"asshole."

Not just from which mouth spit out two words coldly, with strong hatred.

"It wasn't me! It wasn't me! Believe me! It wasn't me! I didn't kill it!" As much as I wanted to say it, I closed my mouth and then my eyes.I began to laugh like Wen Jie, but unlike her, I laughed out loud.

Calculated again.I think so.

Zhao Boyang seemed to finally wake up from the shock and anger.

A criminal policeman and a forensic doctor. It turned out that the special occupations of these two people were finally used on me.

After being escorted to the police car, I began to lose my mind and kept silent during the interrogation until Xia Jun took over.

trial room:

Me: "Trust me." I put my hands on the table, and the shining handcuffs made some cold noises.

Xia Jun: "How do you tell me to trust you? You got the stolen goods, the knife was in your hands at that time, and there is no one in the family except you."

Me: "I didn't kill anyone."

Xia Jun: "Did you really not kill anyone?" This sentence was not a question, but a sarcasm.

Me: "..." Yes, even this time I didn't kill that strange woman who appeared out of nowhere, but I was not really innocent.Yes, I've killed people, though not this one this time.

Xia Jun: "Acquiescence?" Still sarcastic, Xia Jun seemed to be starting to feel ashamed for me.

Me: "I did not kill that woman."

Xia Jun: "Then how do you explain this!" He reported a stack of 'bang'!It slammed on the cold metal table.

Xia Jun: "Your DNA was found in the body of the deceased, this cannot be denied!"

Xia Jun: "You raped an innocent young woman! You strangled her neck and threatened her! You ended up mercilessly piercing her lungs with a sharp knife! Didn't you!" Xia Jun knew me very well the past, so when he vividly painted these images, I almost saw me doing it.

I don't!This is not true!

Xia Jun: "Oh! I have nothing to say, how long do you want to deceive yourself!"

Me: "...No...I didn't kill people."

Xia Jun: "Then you come and explain this to me properly! And these! What are these!" The sound of the report being slapped on the table by him was bang bang, shrill and strong.

Me: "..." I have no way to explain, but I'm sure I didn't rape/rape the woman I have no memory of, let alone kill anyone.

"I don't know that woman at all! I was reading a book in the living room, but suddenly I was standing there with a knife in my hand, and the dead woman was already lying in a pool of blood. How could I Know how to explain?! You blame me, who am I going to blame?!" Shouting silently, I stared at Xia Jun, but he didn't even look at me anymore.

Xia Jun: "The law will give you the punishment you deserve. I can only say that I am really blind to believe that you can still be saved!"

Me: "I don't fucking!"

finally!A swell of emotion erupted, and I stood up abruptly and began to vent loudly.

Because I think he is the one who has the least qualifications to hate me and accuse me, because he is not Zhao Boyang, not Mo Yan, not Wen Tao, not Mo Ran, not even Aurora, any one of them is qualified to hate me I, I accept!But only Xia Jun can't!He has no right to do that!He is nobody!I don't owe him anything!

Xia Jun: "Oh! Didn't you?!" He also stood up, teasing with a look of contempt that seemed to be looking down on me.

Xia Jun: "Do you want me to show you your own past criminal record? Huh? You haven't?! Haha!" That look seemed to say: You have!You just have it!You depraved scum!

Me: "You don't have the right to say that about me..." I sat down and slumped on the chair, as if my strength had been drained for a moment.

Me: "You don't have the right to look at me like that..."

Me: "I don't owe you anything!"

Xia Jun: "Bastard!" These two words represented the end of the interrogation, and he slammed the door and left without hesitation.

"Everyone is like this..."

"Always self-righteous thinking that I have occupied the moral high ground. Because I am righteous, so..."

"That's why you're so upright."

"Because I am not alone, and you are all human, so I can tolerate all of your past. But isn't this another kind of betrayal?"

I began to feel fatigue, inexplicable fatigue, the same as three years ago, but also different, this time I did not jump off the cliff, this time I was pushed down by an unknown force...

"Which one is it?"

"How dare you...!"

I became anxious, the cold and hard atmosphere in the interrogation room was almost suffocating, suppressing the beating of my heart.

I looked up at the pale wall, and slowly slid down on the chair. The room was very quiet, so quiet that there was no life.

"Everyone is...self-righteous..."

"Idiot! Fake kindness! Fake justice!"

My badness to everyone has now finally been replaced by everyone's badness to me, but until now, I still insist that I do not owe them, I am not sorry to them, and I do not even think that I am wrong.

"What is right? What is wrong?"

"Did I do something wrong? What did I do wrong?"

"I……"

"Did you owe them anything?"

"I……"

"A sinner?"

"I……"

"He escaped from hell."

It's very hard to figure things out all of a sudden, but once I figured out who I really am, I had to learn to let go.Because I found out that the person who is really unqualified is actually myself all the time, because I am not alone at all!I was able to live here by snatching someone else's body!Just like what Wen Jie and even that 'Luo Qiqi' have expressed or implied to me before.

"Don't take yourself really as a person!"

"The days are so comfortable, I almost forget my sins!"

"You're guilty! You're guilty! You're guilty!"

Something was clamoring in his head, and his stomach was churning with nausea.I started throwing up constantly.

When I was awake again, I was on an intravenous drip, and they said I was an adverse reaction to an overdose and almost died.But the truth is only known to me, I didn't kill anyone, I didn't touch any nasty drugs, and I didn't let myself do anything that would cost me my life again...

However, letting others believe it at this time is really whimsical.

I have never been persistent, and I gave up quickly. I have never really cared about anything, so I will not fight for it. The only things I have been persistent and fought for are terrible and disgusting things. After I found out that I returned to the human world, the life I lived with this body was like shit!

"Negativity and silence are always unpleasant... Hypocritical!"

But I still felt a little annoyed, because of Xia Jun's attitude, and also because of the fact that I was under control.I hate this feeling of losing my freedom!I hate bondage!Hate prison!Hate all the pain and darkness in hell!I hate these!

but.

I can't change anything.

I also don't want to actively change.

"A meaningless shit-like human life..."

As I was thinking like this, I suddenly thought of whether I could just plead guilty and let them shoot me and let it go, so that I don't have to endure this feeling that I can't bear anymore. After I have nothing, I will Can……

"become free!"

"But, really..."

"is that so?"

While I was dizzy, these questions were circling, and a burst of sharp laughter echoed in my ears, and someone came again...

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