Lin Road

Lin Jingxian walked down the street in a daze, holding the piece of paper in his palm, he couldn't think about anything in his mind, and he couldn't comprehend the constantly vibrating cell phone in his pocket.

A few days ago, I went to his grave and put incense sticks on it.

Right there in the cemetery.

Didn't you plan to visit him after you returned home?

Lin Jingxian felt a throbbing pain in his chest, he bent down and grabbed the clothes on his chest, almost struggling to breathe.

He gulped down the biting cold wind, as if trying to cool his boiling blood.

Finally, the phone stopped vibrating, and Lin Jingxian gradually calmed down.He wiped his face and got water on his hands.Fortunately, there were no people on the road, otherwise I would scare many people with my appearance.

"Hello, Yan Jin?" He called him with the little battery left.

"What's the matter?" Yan Jin immediately asked as soon as he picked it up, "Just now when Lu Jinghua was looking for you, all the calls reached me."

"Is there anything you want to tell me?" Lin Jingxian asked lightly, "About Ayu."

There was silence on the other end of the phone, Yan Jin didn't know what Lin Jingxian knew, so he thought about it, and asked cautiously: "What about A Yu?"

Lin Jingxian read out word by word according to the content on the piece of paper.

"Xiaoxian, listen to me." Yan Jin on the other end of the phone panicked, "I'll find you tomorrow, and we'll talk face to face."

"See you in Q City." Lin Jingxian hung up the phone after finishing speaking.

Finally, we have to go back to the starting point of all the stories - Q City.

"You're back." Lu Jinghua saw him enter the door, and immediately walked over from the sofa.

"...Mmm." Lin Jingxian stared at the familiar face in front of him, in a daze.

"Where have you been so late?" Lu Jinghua cupped his cold cheeks with both hands, "Hurry up and take a hot bath."

Lin Jingxian stepped back slightly, avoiding Lu Jinghua's warm palm, lowered his head and said, "I... have something to do, I'm going to Q City."

"When are you leaving?" Lu Jinghua asked.

"Now."

"I'll go with you."

"No need." After Lin Jingxian finished speaking, he staggered and walked past Lu Jinghua, "I'll tidy up a little, and I'll leave right away."

Lu Jinghua stood still, watching Lin Jingxian blankly as he took his ID card and wallet, added a coat, and was about to go out.

Lin Jingxian was thinking about his own affairs in his heart, and he didn't care about Lu Jinghua's strangeness.He packed some necessities in his bag and hurriedly called to book a flight.

"Don't go." Suddenly, Lu Jinghua said such a sentence.

"What?" Lin Jingxian hung up the phone and turned to look at him.

"Don't go." Lu Jinghua suddenly hugged him vigorously, the warm breath, the smell belonging to Lu Jinghua enveloped him all at once. "Don't go, Jingxian. Don't go to him."

Lin Jingxian froze all of a sudden.

Lu Jinghua hugged him and didn't want to let go no matter what.The lover who passed away, the similar appearance, Lu Jinghua didn't want the love he gave sincerity to be just a joke.He wanted to try his best to prove that the person in his arms loved him, and loved himself as Lu Jinghua, not someone else's substitute.

For a while, Lin Jingxian obediently let him hug him. Just as Lu Jinghua was about to breathe a sigh of relief, he heard Lin Jingxian say in a small but clear voice, "I'm sorry, Jinghua."

Hearing these words, Lu Jinghua almost lost all his strength.With a light push, Lin Jingxian left that warm embrace.

"I'm sorry." Lin Jingxian lowered his head, not daring to look him in the eyes, "I must go."

Lu Jinghua closed his eyes, and asked in a hoarse voice: "Jing Xian, who do you think I am?"

Lin Jingxian didn't answer, he took a deep breath, bypassed Lu Jinghua, opened the door and left without looking back.

Lu Jinghua was the only one left in the huge house, standing there like a statue for a long time.After a long time, Lu Jinghua suddenly laughed at himself, and then made a call.

"Hey, Jiang Shaofeng, come and pick me up by car."

"Everything is going smoothly according to our plan. Master." Secretary Liu reported to Jiang Shaofenghui, "Mr. Fan's allocation has been in place, and he will be busy for a long time. He will not appear in the forest for at least a year. Besides, according to my observation, he was completely unaware that he was being used by us, and he always thought that seeing Zhao Yu's tomb and meeting Mr. Lin was all a coincidence."

Jiang Shaofeng nodded, "What time is Jing Xian's plane?"

"It has taken off now and is expected to arrive at 8 o'clock tomorrow morning."

"Where's Lu Jinghua?"

"The driver has already left, and there may be 40 minutes to the airport. We will arrive at Q City at about 7:[-] tomorrow morning by special plane."

"Let's go." Jiang Shaofeng stood up, looking at the deep night outside the window, without a gleam of light, but his eyes were extraordinarily sharp and bright, "There should be a conclusion."

Yan Jin's reputation was so prosperous that he could not show up in public at will. Lin Jingxian finally made an appointment with Yan Jin at the side entrance of H University.

Looking at the familiar school gate, Lin Jingxian couldn't help stretching out his hand to caress the brick wall with a heavy sense of history. It was here that he hugged Zhao Yu for the first time.It's not really a hug.When climbing over the wall, he shook his body, couldn't stand firmly, and threw himself into Zhao Yu's arms.At that time, Zhao Yu laughed at him so loudly that he almost attracted the security guards.

"Xiaoxian." An unremarkable car stopped beside him, Yan Jin lowered the window, "Get in the car, go to a place where you can talk."

"Isn't it good to be here?" Lin Jingxian looked inside the school, "It happens to be a holiday, and there are no people there."

"Okay." Yan Jin agreed, "I'll go over there and park the car."

The tree-lined avenue, statue square, Weiming Lake, library, teaching building, every step and scene, all coincide with Lin Jingxian's memory unexpectedly, without any change, as if he had never left here.

"What do you want to tell me?" The two sat on the bench by the lake, looking at the library opposite.The cool wind set off waves of water on the lake, which shattered the reflection of the library.

Yan Jin didn't speak, took out a cigarette from his pocket, and lit it skillfully.Because he was concerned about his image, he hadn't smoked for a long time, so he suddenly wanted to indulge here.

When the cigarette burned to the end and the sparks were almost burning his fingers, Yan Jin threw the cigarette butt on the ground and crushed it out with his feet.

"Look for yourself." He suddenly lost the desire to speak, handed over the information in the bag, and lit another cigarette.

Lin Jingxian took the documents and opened the first page, which was Zhao Yu's death certificate.His heart suddenly became completely quiet, without the magnificence he had imagined, and he was almost numb, looking at this document as if he stayed out of it—the document that clearly proved that Zhao Yu was dead.

The hospital's certificate, the testimony of the medical staff, the introduction of the cemetery, and even a thoughtful introduction of Lu Jinghua's life at the end to distinguish the two.

Lin Jingxian read very slowly, word by word. He seemed to have read the thin sheets of paper for over an hour.

"Are you hungry?" After Lin Jingxian read the information, the first sentence he said was actually this sentence.

"Well, a little bit." Yan Jin didn't seem surprised at all, and answered the words naturally, "Let's go to the shops in front of the school and have a look."

Stone pot fish, chicken pot, revolving hot pot, home-cooked restaurants, snack shops, and temporarily closed barbecue stalls.After so many years, these stores are still here, welcoming students one after another.

The two simply ordered a few dishes at the home-cooked restaurant.The boss saw few people, and did not entertain them very warmly, so he huddled behind the cashier and watched TV dramas.If he took a serious look at Yan Jin, he would find that this man was the leading actor in the TV series.

At the dinner table, Lin Jingxian ate couple's lung slices in small mouthfuls. The dish was so spicy that Lin Jingxian's mouth was slightly swollen, but he still stubbornly refused to stop the chopsticks.

Yan Jin silently watched without stopping.This dish is Zhao Yu's favorite, and he must order it every time he comes.He took the teapot, and when Lin Jingxian's cup was almost empty, he filled it up with tea.

"Let's go." After a silent lunch, Lin Jingxian finally spoke again, "Let's go see Ayu."

Yan Jin drove to the cemetery, Lin Jingxian looked out the window all the way, his eyes were lost, and he didn't know what he was thinking.Yan Jin always turned his head to look at the people around him every few seconds, so that he didn't notice that there was a car following them from afar.

In that car, the atmosphere may not be much better.One of Lu Jinghua and Jiang Shaofeng turned to the left, and the other sat on the right, with no desire to communicate at all.The dull atmosphere lingered in the small space.

When he arrived at the destination, Lin Jingxian walked out as soon as the car stopped, as if he was completely unaware that Yan Jin was following behind him.Yan Jin parked the car aside, and chased in that direction without thinking.Sure enough, at the end of the path, Lin Jingxian was standing there.

Facing the short tombstone in front of him, Lin Jingxian bent down, leaned closer to it, looked at it for a long time, then turned his head, and said to Yan Jin who was chasing him, "Ayu, it must be here."

"En." Yan Jin responded.He didn't dare to speak out all his doubts and guesses at this time, because even he couldn't help but feel heavy and sad when he looked at the tombstone, so why bother to say something uncertain to stimulate Lin Jingxian who might collapse emotionally at any time.

"Ayu, long time no see." Lin Jingxian was able to smile, as if he really saw an old friend and greeted him. "I miss you."

Yan Jin couldn't bear to turn his head, and said "I miss you very much", expressing how many heartbreaks he has suffered.

Lin Jingxian's eyes felt dry for a while, and today he finally saw the picture that had appeared in his dreams countless times.Suddenly, there was an indescribable sense of relief.

It turned out that all the hopes and expectations, all the unease and hesitation were settled.

There is no need to search hard anymore, because Zhao Yu is here and will never leave again.

Lin Jingxian slid his finger over the word "Zhao Yu" on the stone tablet as if he was gently stroking his lover's face.

"Ayu." Lin Jingxian called softly, "I've come to see you."

Tears suddenly filled the smiling face without warning.Lin Jingxian turned his head slightly, as if worried that Zhao Yu would see his tears, he stretched out his hand to wipe it desperately, but he couldn't stop it.

"Xiao Jin," Lin Jingxian looked at Yan Jin helplessly, "I am obviously very happy, but why am I crying all the time?"

Yan Jin stepped forward and pressed Lin Jingxian's head against his chest. "That's all right," Yan Jin muffled, "He can't see, so don't worry about crying."

Hearing this, it seemed that all emotions finally had a channel to vent, hoarse panting, mournful wailing, and tears wet most of Yan Jin's shoulders.

In the end, all good things are deceitful lies woven by oneself.His life simply ended abruptly in a car accident five years ago.

Now, after waking up from the dream, he was left alone in the end, experiencing the sorrow of separation.

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