Lin Road

On a night when he was supposed to be in a happy mood, Lu Jinghua was restless and tried to hide his emotions with calmness, but Lin Jingxian still sensed that his companion was absent-minded.

Lu Jinghua parked his car in the parking lot downstairs and was about to open the door when Lin Jingxian pressed his arm and asked, "What's wrong with you today? You seem to be distracted in the second half."

The information that Jiang Shaofeng inadvertently revealed that Lin Jingxian likes the same sex flashed across Lu Jinghua's mind, and he withdrew his hand as naturally as possible, "It's nothing, I was thinking about something about the company."

"About the company?" Lin Jingxian asked with concern, "Is there something wrong?"

Lu Jinghua shook his head and opened the car door while talking, "It's just a trivial matter."

Lin Jingxian looked at the back of the elevator, frowned, quickly caught up with him and walked side by side with him, and asked hesitantly: "Is it true, Jiang Shaofeng... He said something strange?"

"No!" Lu Jinghua quickly denied, his voice was particularly loud in the quiet parking lot, he somehow felt a little guilty but with an unknown anger, he added forcefully: "We didn't say a few words."

Looking at his reaction, Lin Jingxian guessed what Jiang Shaofeng must have said.He saw that Lu Jinghua didn't tell him what he meant, so he changed the subject tactfully, "I'll book the ticket to Mount T this week when I get back."

While talking, the two of them had already boarded the elevator. Looking at the changing floor numbers, Lu Jinghua recalled the image of Lin Jingxian taking the coffee just now, so he said bluntly, "This week, I may not be able to go this week, the company You can't go away if you have something to do. You can go with someone else."

After hearing this, Lin Jingxian suddenly raised his head and stared at him, "Are you busy this weekend?"

"En." Lu Jinghua briefly looked at him, then quickly looked away, not sure if he noticed the second part of the sentence.

"It's okay." Lin Jingxian tried his best to smile and conceal his emotions, "Let's go together when you are free."

Maybe next week too.Lu Jinghua wanted to say this at first, but he didn't say it after rolling around for a few times.Fortunately, the elevator arrived at this time, and Lu Jinghua strode out, "Go home, good night."

Lin Jingxian stood quietly at the door of the elevator, watching him open the door and go in.what happened?It was obvious that he was fine while eating, but suddenly Lu Jinghua seemed to be afraid to avoid him.

Have something on the weekend?How could it be possible, Jiaren had already sent herself the work schedule for nearly a month, if there was any temporary change in the schedule, maybe she would know it before Lu Jinghua.

Jiang Shaofeng.

Lin Jingxian could only think of him.With a long sigh, he returned to his home, and without even turning on the lights, he took out his mobile phone and called Jiang Shaofeng.

"Alas..." Lu Jinghua also sighed.He took off his coat and threw it aside casually, unbuttoned his neatly buttoned shirt, and lay down on the sofa in a relaxed manner.

Looking at the bright lights on the ceiling, Lu Jinghua began to reflect on himself three times a day.

Devil Lu: Why did you reject him just now?You're fine for the weekend.

Angel Lu: Me, I'm going home to see my parents on weekends.

Devil Lu: Hmph, excuses!You are angry!

Angel Lu: I'm not angry, I'm just shocked that Jing Xian is GAY!

Devil Lu: You also have other friends who are gay, you are angry because he didn't tell you!

Angel Lu: I'm not angry, everyone has things they don't want to talk about.

Devil Lu: But you guys are good friends!

Angel Lu: Good friends also have their own space.

Devil Lu: You actually found out about it from someone else, which means he doesn't trust you at all!

Angel Lu: ...

Devil Lu: Admit it, you are upset because Jiang knows him better.

Angel Lu: I'm not unhappy, this matter has nothing to do with the surname Jiang.

Devil Lu: Stop pretending, you feel hurt now!That's why you reject him!

Angel Lu: QAQ please don't tear it down.

Lu Jinghua covered his eyes. To be honest, compared to knowing that Lin Jingxian was gay, he didn't know about it, but that Jiang who knew it made him feel more uncomfortable.Since getting along these days, Lin Jingxian's status in his heart has become higher and higher. He really regards each other as an important friend.But suddenly, someone appeared with a haughty attitude, filling in the blank part before he knew Lin Jingxian, and he felt that he was excluded.

This kind of mentality is like a second-year boy who thinks that the world revolves around himself, and the position next to Lin Jingxian belongs to him alone.Now a person appeared out of the sky, drawing an invisible boundary, and I could only stand on the side of the line, anxiously watching the two people on the opposite side talk about the common past that I didn't understand, but on the surface, I wanted to pretend that I didn't care look.

It's true that the more you live, the more you go back, Lu Jinghua laughed at himself.Such a domineering thought of eagerly wanting to monopolize someone is the same as a kindergarten child meeting his favorite toy.Everyone understands the truth, but I still panic in my heart. Thinking of the days when I didn't know Lin Jingxian, there were other people in his life, and I could never really understand what they experienced together, and I felt restless and uneasy. I can't help it.

To put it bluntly, in fact, it was just him unilaterally getting awkward and venting his anger on other people.Worry about gains and losses, a little jealous, and a little unwilling.What's wrong with me?Inquiring emotionally with rational doubts.Lu Jinghua didn't quite understand what this indescribable emotion represented.

"Hello~" Jiang Shaofeng replied lazily.

"Are you home?" Lin Jingxian leaned against the door and asked.

"Just arrived." From Jiang Shaofeng's side, there was a rustling voice, which seemed to be on the hands-free, "I'm changing clothes."

"What did you and Lu Jinghua talk about today?" Lin Jingxian asked in a casual tone as much as possible.

"Oh," came Jiang Shaofeng's low-pitched laughter, "I'm still wondering if it's something important that you called so late. Don't worry, I didn't say a word that shouldn't be said. For example, why did you go abroad? , or who Zhao Yu is."

"..." Hearing that name, Lin Jingxian couldn't help but feel a sharp pain in his heart, "I'll just hang up if there's nothing wrong—"

"You are always like this." Jiang Shaofeng interrupted him, "Why can't you admit the reality?"

"What are you talking about?" Lin Jingxian's eyes fell on the darkness of nothingness, "Admit what reality?"

"Zhao Yu, he can't come back anymore." Jiang Shaofeng said, "Why do you find a substitute to deceive yourself and others."

"Ayu is not dead!" Lin Jingxian couldn't control his emotions and said out loud. "You all don't understand, Ah Yu is really not dead, I can feel that he is alive, he is waiting for me!"

"That's Zhao Yu too," Jiang Shaofeng said patiently, "It's not Lu Jinghua."

"He is A Yu," Lin Jingxian said firmly, "I can't admit my mistake."

Jiang Shaofeng really didn't know what to say.He had seen photos of Zhao Yu, and Lu Jinghua did resemble him, but anyone could tell that they were definitely not the same person. "Lin Jingxian, why do you believe that he is the person you are looking for?"

Lin Jingxian was in a place where he couldn't see, with a gentle smile on the corner of his mouth, "I can feel it, it's him. Even though he has changed a lot, I recognized him at a glance."

"Look, experience, family background, living environment, two people who are all different, how long are you going to lie to yourself?"

"You don't understand." Lin Jingxian's tone was rarely cold, "You all don't understand that the appearance can be deceiving, but the heart can't."

Jiang Shaofeng was silent on the other side. Zhao Yu's death hit Lin Jingxian too hard at the time. During that time, he couldn't tell what was the day and what was the night. His body and spirit collapsed at the same time, and he went abroad to treat his illness.With the help of the doctor, Lin Jingxian gradually recovered his health, but he began to firmly believe that Zhao Yu was not dead, and even said that he would go back to China to find Zhao Yu. This belief helped him out of the haze.

Jiang Shaofeng still remembers the first time they met. He accidentally passed by Lin Jingxian's ward, and saw a thin figure sitting on the window sill. The sunlight outside shone on his pale face. The morbidity is in stark contrast to the vibrant green outside the window, as if it will dissipate in the air in the next second.He heard footsteps and turned his head slowly.Jiang Shaofeng will never forget Lin Jingxian's eyes, full of cautious hope, countless fireworks bloom in his eyes, lighting up the whole space.But the moment he saw the person coming, the light in his eyes went out like a burnt candle, and his eyes returned to emptiness, and the whole colorful world couldn't enter it.Lin Jingxian turned his head slowly, and continued to lean against the glass, looking out of the window, trapping himself in a corner isolated from the world.

Jiang Shaofeng felt distressed for this stranger. He had never seen someone torture himself with despair and hope at the same time. The loss of vitality seemed to be visible to the naked eye.

"Why can't you stop and look back?" Jiang Shaofeng said softly, "Look at the other people around you."

"My heart is only as big as a fist, and it's already very difficult to hold another person." Lin Jingxian said calmly, "Even if I look back, all I see is his scenery."

Jiang Shaofeng on the other end of the phone showed a bitter expression. "Then what are you going to do now?"

"Dr. Wen Sen discussed it with me," Lin Jingxian said lightly, "A Yu may have lost his memory, he suggested that I get in touch with him slowly, and don't just use the past to provoke him."

Heh, the so-called amnesia is something everyone came up with to lie to you.No one has the heart to extinguish the light of hope that you finally ignited.Jiang Shaofeng once again felt a deep sense of powerlessness, relying on his own strength, he was invincible in everything, until he met Lin Jingxian.From the first day he knew Lin Jingxian, his eyes would only stay on one person.Then, if you don't get his favor, don't let others think about it either.Let the one who never returns be the only victor.

"No matter what you do, I will always be with you." Jiang Shaofeng suppressed the crazy thoughts in his heart, and said good night to him tenderly.

Ah Yu.

Lin Jingxian read silently.He slid a little along the door to the floor, chin on his knees, hands wrapped around his shoulders.How he longed for that warm embrace.

I believe that you have been waiting for me, just as I have been looking for you.

This time, I will never let go of your hand.

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