lonely patient

Wen Luming asked word by word: "If anyone can do it, what about me?"

I looked at his face and shook my head slowly: "I don't like alpha."

As if expecting such an answer, Wen Luming stared at me intently, his gaze as dark as the night outside the window: "You don't like anyone, do you?"

I don't like anybody...yes, I don't like anybody.

What is liking, liking is falling from the edge of a cliff, surging in the sky, burning for a short time and dissipating in the nameless wind.

What is love? Love is falling into the sea and drifting blindly.

I have burned and sunk, and I have long been turned into a handful of damp ashes, unable to float or fall.

"No. I like it..." I stretched out my index finger and pressed it against Wen Luming's heart, "You."

The blood oozing from my lips stained Wen Luming's lips, like bright red roses, tacky and charming.I held his face in my arms, kissed off the redness, saw his trembling eyelashes, and smiled lowly: "...Liar to you, baby."

After I finished speaking, I grabbed Wen Luming's shoulders to get up, and staggered towards the bedroom, "I'm going to bed, good night, Teacher Wen."

"Yan Qiao." Wen Luming pulled me into his arms before I went in, I bumped into his chest, and he blocked me in the corner of the door frame and the wall.

"I'm not joking," he said.

I was so drunk and sleepy that I couldn't quite figure out what he meant by that.

"I only accept open relationships..." My eyes struggled to focus, and they stayed on Wen Luming's fluttering lips. I shook my head and said, "You are not this kind of person, Teacher Wen."

"How do you know it's not?" Wen Luming still didn't give up, and asked, "Do you have to do something?"

What to do... I lowered my eyes, put my hands on Wen Luming's chest, and slowly unbuttoned his pajamas, one by one, and finally stopped under his abdominal muscles. "It can be done without any relationship, and there is no need to prove who is who."

I already clearly felt the changes in Wen Luming's body, but he held my hand and said, "Not now."

"Are you afraid that I won't admit it when I'm drunk?" I chuckled.

After a while, Wen Luming let me go, and said in a low voice: "I just want to tell you, whatever you need, company, hug, kiss, or go further, is fine."

"It doesn't matter if you forget, I will tell you again when you wake up tomorrow."

"why……"

Those people in the past, whether they wanted fame or profit, always had plans, but what did Wen Lu Ming want for me?

I looked at him puzzled, but I couldn't see the answer in his eyes.

After a long time, I heard a slight sigh, Wen Luming lifted my chin, and gave me a kiss that was so gentle that it had nothing to do with lust.

"...Because what I want is the same as yours."

I had many, many dreams that night, ten years was like a grotesque movie, I dreamed of those people who came and went, everyone was young and fresh, blooming wantonly under the sun, only I was dying day by day , become vague passers-by in their lives.

They all warmly welcomed me, and in the end, without exception, they watched me leave alone. As I walked, I also became alone. Life is a grand loneliness. I am the wind on the roof, the cloud in the wind, the Rain in the cloud.

The rain fell and wet my skin. I opened my eyes and felt the dampness on my face in the dark.

Why am I crying... Aren't these all what I want?

I turned over and curled myself up, pressing my back against a hot chest.

Wen Luming's expression is always cold, but his body is very hot. Like all young and healthy alphas, his muscles are strong and his limbs are strong. When he hugs me, I can't break free.

I lowered my head, and vaguely saw a forearm across my chest in the darkness, tightly imprisoning me in the arms of the person behind me.

The heartbeats of Wen Luming and I seemed to overlap, and his pulse was transmitted to me through the flesh and skin, attacking my dike in the silent night.I turned over to him and saw a peaceful sleeping face.

Even in his sleep, Lu Ming frowned slightly. I touched his brow and asked silently, "Are you dreaming too?"

He didn't answer me.

The electronic clock at the bedside showed 04:30 in the morning, but I was no longer sleepy.This weekend, Wen Luming doesn't have to go to school, he will get up at 06:30 to go for a morning run, and buy breakfast for me on the way back.

He has a regular life, a stable job, a complete family and proper social interaction, why would he need me?We are not of one world at all.

I opened my eyes to see the sky getting brighter. When the alarm clock rang, Wen Luming pressed the phone off the phone almost at the same time and looked at me, as if he was afraid of waking me up.I was exhausted and said morning weakly.

Wen Luming didn't expect me to be awake, and he was surprised, "You look so ugly, are you uncomfortable?"

"Tired, headache." I pulled the quilt up and prepared to continue lying down.

"Calling tired without doing anything." Wen Luming said casually.

I understood what he meant, and said with a cold snort, "Teacher Wen, you've failed in your studies."

Wen Luming didn't answer my words, but asked after a pause, "Yan Qiao, do you remember what I said last night?"

Of course I remember, I remember every word, but I don't want to answer.

Wen Luming seemed to be able to see the answer in my eyes, and then said: "In any case, you are free, whether you start a relationship or maintain the status quo, as long as you are happy."

This time I couldn't understand even more. I don't know if it was because what he said was too complicated, or because I didn't get enough sleep.

"Why?" I lay in the quilt and frowned at him, "Is there any difference between these two?"

"Yes." Wen Luming said lightly, "A relationship means a beginning and an end, but if you maintain the status quo, I don't know when you will leave."

"Yan Qiao," he sighed, "you don't need to make any changes, I won't restrain you."

I tried to understand Wen Luming's words. He is an alpha and has normal physical needs, so he needs a stable relationship with mutual understanding just like me.He didn't say he likes the word, and I don't think he likes me either.

Thinking of this, I felt a lot more relaxed, and even ignored the question of how alpha and beta should proceed to the next step.Wen Luming always pampers me, and I think it is the same in this matter.

"If you think this is better, I have no objection." I turned my back to Wen Luming and said, "As long as it's not about love, I don't care."

After talking about what I thought of, I turned back and said, "But I can only guarantee that I won't have sex with others during this period of time, and I can't guarantee anything else."

After a moment of silence, Wen Luming said, "I know."

Drowsiness struck again, I buried myself in the quilt and closed my eyes, hearing Lu Ming rustlingly changing clothes.Before going out, he asked me what I would like to eat for breakfast, I shook my head and said no, I will talk when I wake up.

Wen Luming came over, leaned over and touched my forehead, and touched my ears to make sure the temperature was normal before leaving with confidence.I smelled his breath in the quilt and fell back into a heavy sleep.