lonely patient

"What's wrong?" Wen Luming asked warmly.

I shook my head and said, "Tired."

"Go to sleep." He patted me on the back, "I still have a few documents to read."

"I didn't take a shower yet." I relied on Wen Luming not to move, and the thought of going on a blind date tomorrow night gave me a severe headache.

There was only one floor lamp turned on in the living room, the warm yellow light was foggy, illuminating the fine fluff on Wen Luming's face.His shoulders are very broad, and his collarbone is protruding. I rubbed my nose and got a helpless "don't move".

So I fell silent.

After a long time, I murmured to myself: "Why am I not an alpha, or an omega?"

Wen Luming hugged me and said, "Alpha is nothing good."

Leaning on him, I completely emptied myself, and my whole body became lazy, "Obviously betas are the majority in the crowd, but I'm surrounded by alphas and omega."

"You know," I looked up at Wen Luming, from this angle I could only see his jaw and the bridge of his nose, "When I was a teenager, I did a lot of stupid things to make myself look special."

Wen Luming lowered his head slightly, his eyes met mine, "For example?"

His voice was low, and time seemed to slow down.I was stared at by his warm eyes, smiled foolishly, and said, "I don't tell you, it's too embarrassing."

"But——if you knew me at that time, you would definitely like me." I couldn't help but cock my tail in front of Wen Luming, "You know, puberty, everyone likes the stupidest one in the crowd. For example, in Lan Mao standing at the door of the Academic Affairs Office."

"Why are you standing still, because of the blue hair?" Wen Luming asked following my words, stroking my hair while asking.

"No, because of a fight." The distant past came to my mind through time and space, "With an alpha senior, I treat him as a brother, and he actually wants to pick me up."

After many years, I no longer have the original surprise and anger, but find it a little funny. "So the last time you bit me, I would have beaten you more than ten years ago."

"Did many alphas like you back then?" Wen Luming asked.

"Hmm..." I thought for a while, and replied, "It's not much compared to omega, but it's still a lot. Oh, do you think I'm bragging when I say that?"

A slight smile appeared on Wen Luming's face, "No."

Because I pestered him to talk, Wen Luming couldn't go back to read his literature in the end, but chose to get up an hour early the next day.

Lying on the bed, I was still not sleepy, and continued to tell him many things that happened a long time ago, and those embarrassing things that I had agreed not to tell him, and finally told them all.

After the talk, I started to feel sleepy, yawned one after another, and my speech gradually became incoherent.Wen Luming turned off the bedside lamp, helped me pull up the quilt, and said, "Okay, it's time to go to bed, let's talk about it tomorrow."

"Don't go, I'm afraid of the dark..." I was so sleepy that I couldn't open my eyes, and my mouth opened and closed unconsciously, "There was another time when I went to a haunted house with a school girl. Before I went in, I said don't be afraid and I will protect you. Then... "

"Later, you yelled so loudly that the staff members fell down the stairs and broke their bones." Wen Luming sighed, "You have already talked about this part."

"Have you talked about...?" I was a little upset, "Okay..."

But there are some things deep in my memory that I definitely won’t say. For example, I stopped going to amusement parks casually with my juniors and girls. I also learned to be mature and calm for a certain person, and then I went to a haunted house. Even if I was scared to death, I could still Resist not to run away.

It seems that I have not said that I am afraid of words for a long time.

The fear never goes away, it is only kept in a cage of face and responsibility by adults.When I was eight years old, I wondered why no one treated me as an adult, and when I was 28, I wondered why no one treated me like a child. I was also afraid of the dark...

"Yan Qiao," a familiar voice interrupted my wild thoughts, "You seem to have a fever."

When I was half asleep and half awake, I couldn't quite tell what he said. I just felt that someone hugged me, let me lean against him, and then stuffed a capsule into my mouth and said, "Come on, open your mouth."

I opened my mouth obediently, took a sip of water from the cup handed to my lips, and swallowed the capsule.

I probably caught a cold in the garage, and I realized that my head was a little heavy. Fortunately, the medicine took effect quickly, and I didn't feel uncomfortable for a long time before I fell into a deep sleep.When I woke up the next day, if I didn't have any strength in my body, I would have suspected that the fever and medicine I had taken the night before was a dream.

Wen Luming has gone to school, and Belle and I are the only ones left at home.It seems to be more clingy to me than Wen Luming, and never misses any chance to rub against me.I squatted on the ground to put cat food, and it grabbed my leg and tried to stand up and look.

"Looking at it again, there is only a spoonful of freeze-dried. Teacher Wen said that you are too fat." I turned to talk to it, "Little girl can't be too fat, you know?"

Belle let out a long meow, not sure if it was a protest or a grievance.

I picked it up and weighed it, "Tsk, it's really solid."

Belle meowed louder and slapped me across the face with her paw.

"I'm not happy to say something about you." Wen Luming was not here, so I could only bicker with the cat, "You must put your nails away, otherwise I won't be able to explain it when I go out."

This time Belle stopped meowing, but waved in front of my face with her paws threatening.I sat down with it on my lap, cupped its face and asked, "Honey, do you want a stepmother?"

——Nonsense, which kid wants a stepmother?

"...I don't want to either," I sighed, "I'm going to see an aunt tonight, and I'll try not to let her become your stepmother. But you have to keep it a secret for me, and you must not tell Teacher Wen."

Belle snorted and reluctantly agreed.

I arrived on time in the evening, and the dinner was easier than expected. From the beginning to the end, my parents and the parents of the omega lady named Cheng Yu were talking about other things, as if the blind date was just an insignificant excuse for their meeting.It wasn't until the dinner was almost over that my mother said: "I heard that there is an art exhibition on the top floor of the hotel, Yan Qiao, do you and Ms. Cheng want to go up and have a look?"

Cheng Yu's mother on the other side also smiled and said, "Seeing that you are tired of hearing while sitting here, why don't you go out for a stroll together. There is a bar upstairs, it's rare to have a weekend break, so it's good to go and relax."

Having said all that, I had no choice but to follow their wishes and invite Cheng Yu to see the art exhibition.Ms. Cheng accepted my invitation graciously, and took my arm very naturally when she left.

I smell the barrier agent on her as I get closer, it's a fresh and soft floral scent.

"If you guess correctly, Mr. Yan is not willing to deal with an occasion like today." There were only the two of us in the observation elevator, Cheng Yu said first, "You and I are involuntary, so it's better to say some things in the open. "

I looked down at the exquisite and beautiful omega beside me, and said with a light smile, "Miss Cheng's necklace is very beautiful today."

"Thank you." Cheng Yu touched the gemstone on the necklace unconsciously, with a trace of tenderness in his eyes, and said, "It's a gift from my boyfriend."

——Beautiful is beautiful, in today's situation, she is not worthy of Cheng Yu's worth.

I suddenly thought, I have given many lovers who came and went around me in the past, not to mention watches and jewellery, even houses and cars, but I have known Wen Luming for so long, and I have never given him anything decent. Instead, it kept causing him trouble.

"If you guess correctly, Mr. Yan is not single, right?" Cheng Yu asked.

I subconsciously wanted to answer that of course I was single, but because I thought of Wen Luming, the words turned into an unclear "um" on my lips.

I don't even know what I'm worrying about, I've heard that Lu Ming has said that I'm free.

Cheng Yu took my answer as acquiescence, and her expression relaxed a lot. "That's easy," she showed a real smile for the first time in the whole night, "You can continue to talk about your love with confidence, and when necessary, we will play on the spot."

I couldn't be as relaxed as she was, so I frowned and asked, "Does your drama include getting married?"

"Of course." Cheng Yu blurted out, as if my question was not worth mentioning.

Sure enough, I was the only one who still had naive illusions about marriage.

The night scene outside the glass window is brilliant. Standing at a height of [-] meters, the river of light flowing under my feet is like a scene from another world, but that is the world I live in, which is noisy and cold.I raised my hand and glanced at the time. At this moment, Wen Luming should have just come out of the laboratory and was about to go home. Perhaps one of those flickering light spots belonged to him.

Thinking of the entire river of light here seems to have a temperature, I even think that if I take a leap now, I will be accepted gently.

"It's here." Cheng Yu's voice brought me back to reality.

Out of the sight of several parents, the two of us no longer have to act with each other, and we will separate when we enter the gallery.I heard Qin Bei mention today's painting exhibition, it is a young painter who has become very popular in recent years.I looked over one by one, and stopped in front of an inconspicuous picture in the corner.

There is only one plump and vivid yellow rose in the painting, standing among the dead branches and leaves in the swamp under the dark sky.

After watching for a long time, a warm voice came from behind: "I give you the memory of a yellow rose that I saw one evening many years before you were born."*

I turned around when I heard the voice, and saw a young boy in his 20s standing behind me, looking at the painting in front of me.He read it unhurriedly, looked at me with a slight smile and said, "A poem I like very much."

I don't remember seeing him, asking, "Are you..."

The boy smiled brightly, "I'm glad you like this painting."

It turned out to be the painter himself, younger than I thought.

Although music and art are compulsory courses for us ignorant rich second-generation children, I don't think I have high attainments, and I don't understand the deep meaning in the painting. pace.

"May I ask you, can I sell this painting?" I asked.It just so happens that the walls of the bedroom are a little empty, so Wen Luming should like it if he buys it and hangs it up.

"You are the first person to say that you want to buy this painting." A look of joy flashed in the painter's eyes, "This is my favorite work, but no one has paid attention to it for a long time."

"Why?" I was puzzled.

The painter looked sad and said: "Because people always prefer new and unique things, and ignore an old rose."

The ancient rose...a person's face suddenly flashed in my mind. He stood in the evening sky, as if waiting for someone's arrival for a long time.

Finally I got the painting as I wished.On the way back, I used my mobile phone to search for the poem read by the artist, and saw the following at the end of the poem:

—I give you my solitude, my darkness, my longing.

—I tried to impress you,

— with impermanence, danger, and failure. *

The author says:

*Borges "What can I use to keep you"