lonely patient

It was already late when I got home. After staying outside all day, I was too tired to hold on. The weather was not too cold, and I was wearing a thicker coat than usual, but I still broke out in a thin layer of sweat.

The doctor said that after the chemotherapy started, my immunity would decline. In addition, I stayed up late and drank heavily before, so my health was not very good. In the future, I should exercise more, pay attention to rest, and be careful of catching a cold.

I joked with Wen Luming that this time I really became Lin Daiyu, and I will never laugh at the exaggeration in the book anymore.

Wen Luming said displeasedly that Lin Daiyu had a bleak ending, so don't compare with her.

He is even more superstitious than me now, and his face changes when he hears me say this.I smiled heartlessly and said, "Don't worry, the disaster will last for thousands of years, I won't die."

He frowned even when he heard the word "death", he patted the back of my head gently and said, "Don't talk nonsense."

On my way home, I passed the street corner flower shop, I asked Wen Luming to stop, and I went down to buy a bouquet of flowers by myself.The boss still recognized me, and asked with a smile why I haven't been here for a long time.I prevaricated by saying that I had changed jobs and stayed abroad for a while.

"You are late, there are no eustomas today," said the boss.

"No platycodon." I shook my head, "I want roses."

I can’t remember the last time when I foolishly hugged a red rose to see my beloved. People endowed this kind of flower with too solemn meaning, so that Wen Luming and I realized that now I dare to really send it to you. He holds a bouquet of roses.

He had seen me and the flowers I was holding from the car window a long time ago, and followed me all the way from the flower shop to the car. I opened the car door and sat in. With an embarrassed smile on my face, I held the flowers in front of his eyes. , said: "Give it to you."

Wen Luming took it, and also showed a faint smile, and asked, "What day is today?"

"No day." I said, "I just want to send you flowers."

I still felt cramped, and after I finished speaking, I dared not look directly into Wen Luming's eyes. From the corner of my eye, I saw him looking down at the flowers for a long time, and said softly, "Thank you, I like it very much."

I suddenly thought that I would plant some roses in the yard where I live in the future, not many, just enough for me to give him one every day.

The two of us went home holding hands. When we got out of the elevator, Wen Luming and I told him to remember to put away Belle's toys when we got back, so as not to forget them tomorrow, and he said they had already put them away.

As soon as he finished speaking, his gaze paused, and the expression on his face disappeared. I followed his gaze and saw a figure squatting at the door of the house.

Xia Yi...?

Hearing the sound, Xia Yi raised his head, saw the two of us, his eyes darkened, then he stood up, ignored me, looked straight at Wen Luming and asked, "Are you leaving?"

Wen Luming didn't answer, but glanced at me first.

With mixed feelings in my heart, I tiredly took the flowers in his hand and said, "I'll go in first, you guys talk."

Wen Luming grabbed my hand and stopped me from moving.

I heard Xia Yi smiled softly.

"I just want to see you for the last time and say goodbye to you. There is no other meaning." He said, "Not everyone puts love first in life, and I still have not finished my studies. Don't worry, I will continue to be good." Good for reading."

Wen Luming still didn't speak, and it took a long time before he opened his mouth lightly: "These things happened, to a certain extent, I have neglected my education. Although I will no longer be your teacher in the future, I still hope that you can learn to be honest. It has nothing to do with character, I hope you can do it yourself."

"It was my fault to lie, I apologize to you." Xia Yi said with his head down, "But I don't regret it... I like you from the first time I saw you, and it hasn't changed until now, even if I do it all over again , I'll still do it."

I don't know what Wen Luming thinks, but I just feel sick to my stomach when I hear these words.I don't know why he wants to keep me here, for me to witness Xia Yi's sincere confession?

I broke away from his hand, took a deep breath and said, "I'll go in first."

"Yan Qiao," Wen Luming told me, I didn't answer, went in and slammed the door.

I don't want to know what the two of them said. I only know that when Wen Luming came back ten minutes later, his face was extremely ugly.

When he came in and saw me sitting on the sofa waiting for him, he calmed down a little and said, "I'm sorry, I didn't know he would come."

I looked up at the wall clock, "13 minutes, what needs to be said for so long?"

After a moment of silence, Wen Luming said: "He explained the family affairs to me and apologized to you. He said he hoped your brother would stop embarrassing him and his family."

"My brother made things difficult for him?" I felt absurd, and couldn't hold back a chuckle, "If my brother wants to make things difficult for him, would he still have the ability to stand here? You believe what he said, right? Wen Luming, in In your mind, don’t we, the arrogant and domineering rich second generations, do whatever we want?”

"...Yan Qiao, that's not what I meant." Wen Luming hesitated to speak, sighed slightly and said, "I'm just worried that this will affect your mood and your health. Calm down."

I stood up from the sofa, looked at him and said, "Then let me tell you now, I never thought about what to do with him, and I advised my brother to let him go, because I can't bear your hard work these years. In your eyes, he is a student, he is weak, he is helpless and needs someone to protect him, as for me, I am rich and powerful and my parents are still alive, so I must be a villain?"

It’s been a long time since I said such a long word, I was dizzy with anger, my heart was beating wildly, and my breathing became unstable, so I had to take a deep breath, slowed down and continued:

"Whether you two are in love or get married, it's all before. I broke up with you. I have no right to be jealous or angry. But the person who is with you now is me. Can you be partial to me?" A little bit? Or do you never think about liking me again, you just stay with me because you sympathize with my illness and worry about my body?"

Thinking of all the things these days, Wen Luming took care of me patiently and accompanied me tenderly, but he never said he liked or loved me. He stayed with me as if he had tortured each other enough and couldn’t escape. Helpless to compromise, just as he was responsible to Xia Yi before, it is also to me now.

I looked at Wen Luming, my eyes swelled sorely, "It's too late to regret it...I don't want you to just let it go."

I wanted to go back to the bedroom to rest, and I was afraid that I would lose control of my emotions if I continued, but just as I took a step, Wen Luming grabbed my arm, "Do you want to give up again?"

He looked at me and asked slowly, "Yan Qiao, who is regretting?"

I met Shang Wen Luming's eyes, and was stunned for a long time, and asked in disbelief, "Do you think I'm regretting it?"

Wen Luming let go of me and didn't answer.

I took a step back, lowered my head and blinked, realizing that I didn't seem to understand what he said.

"What do you want me to do? I don't mind if he sneaks in, I don't mind if he sends invitations to lie to me, and I don't mind you kissing..." I looked at Wen Luming and asked softly, "Or just wait outside obediently and listen to me?" He confesses to you, and then I watch you perform a master-student relationship? Does it mean that as long as you say that you have a clear conscience, I must be considerate of all this, and I must generously wish him a bright future?"

Wen Luming looked down at me, and after a long time, he said in a low voice, "You really still care about that kiss."

Hearing him mention it himself, I finally couldn't control myself.

"Yes! I just care!" I yelled at him like crazy, "Why can you start a new life so easily? Why can't I just get out? Do you know that I heard this What were you thinking when you said you broke up? I should tie you up the day you broke up! Get married, no one should fucking think about it! These days I can’t say anything, do you think I’m a bully, do you think I love you? You can do whatever you want, but you dare to let him come to show me face, you think I have no temper, don’t you! Let me tell you, Wen Luming, it drove me crazy, you and your students don’t even think about it I don’t care about your responsibilities or hard work, it’s none of my business! I have a lot of ways to make you never see anyone else except me in this life!”

I have never lost such a big temper to anyone. Apart from the dizziness from shortness of breath, I also have the pleasure of venting.

I even thought that it was right for Yan Song to call me weak, go fuck yourself low, I should have tied Wen Luming up and locked me up at home, what if I don’t like me, so what if I don’t forgive me, I let He can only see me when he opens and closes his eyes all his life, and he will be with me until his death.

After venting, the only thing left in the air is my intermittent panting.Wen Luming was not as angry or disappointed as I expected, but looked at me calmly and asked, "Are you feeling better?"

I suspected that I was out of my mind, stared at him blankly and asked, "What?"

"I've endured it for so long, is it better to say it?" He took a step forward, the shadow shrouded me under him, his eyes were like a warm dark river under the moonlight.

Before I had time to figure out what this sentence meant, the next second, Wen Luming pinched my chin and kissed my lips.

I widened my eyes, trying to push him away reflexively, but he seemed to see my intentions, and pressed my arms first, trapping me tightly in his arms.

Feeling his tongue trying to knock my teeth open, I was angry and impatient, and I opened my mouth to bite down on impulse. The sweetness of blood filled my mouth instantly, Wen Luming frowned, and my lips had to be loosened.

"Who the hell told you to kiss me!" I struggled desperately, and even raised my foot to kick him, "You kissed Xia Yi before, don't touch me again in the future!..."

Thinking of Xia Yi, thinking of their kiss, my stomach couldn't stop churning, and I almost wanted to retch.

Wen Luming took a kick from me, and then pushed me down on the sofa with more force, grabbed my two wrists and imprisoned them above my head, bent my knees to trap my two legs.In the past, I might be able to fight him to the death, but now I am weak and tired, and I am not his opponent at all.

"You fucking let me go..." I struggled to meet his deep gaze, and after a moment of distraction, he pinched my jaw and kissed me in.

This time the kiss was even more vicious, as if punishing me for being rude.My face was sore from being pinched, my tongue and lips were numb from being sucked, every inch of the inner wall of my mouth was left with traces of Wen Luming's invasion, the desire to vomit began to slowly decline after reaching its peak, and finally I was kissed Suma instead.

Wen Luming covered me under him, looking at me all the time, not letting go of every subtle expression on my face.My anger gradually turned into grievance, and the corners of my eyes forced tears to hang on my eyelashes.

Finally he let go of me and asked in a low voice, "Don't let me kiss? Or don't let me touch?"

I didn't have the energy to argue with him anymore, I tried my best to hold back the urge to cry, and said, "You bastard..."

Before he finished speaking, his lips were sealed by him again.

I have never received such a long kiss.

I was kissed until I was hypoxic, and I was allowed to breathe for a short time when I was on the verge of suffocation, and then continued, each kiss was lingering and painful.

As if deliberately wanting me to remember, Wen Luming didn't allow me to close my eyes, didn't allow me to resist, and told me with actions over and over again that he was the one kissing me now.

In the end, I still cried, and the physiological tears slowly rolled down my cheeks, from fierce struggle to passive acceptance, and finally into half-push and half-satisfy catering.

Overcoming the obstacle in my heart, I even tasted the bitter love from his kiss.

"I know you have a temper, and I know you are not easy to bully. So why bear it?" Wen Luming covered my face with warm palms, and gently wiped away the moisture from the corners of my eyes, "I said you don't have to do it for me." become like this."

"I don't know how else I can get you back..." I looked at him with sour sadness in my heart, "You don't seem to like me as much as before."

"Yan Qiao." Wen Luming's tone is rarely so severe, "You always say that I don't believe you, but have you listened to me seriously? Let me ask you, do you love me, or are you just trying to make up for yourself? Regret, save me, get my forgiveness, and then continue to live your life that doesn't matter?"

This time I understood, shook my head and said softly, "I love you."

Wen Luming looked at me for a long time, but in the end he couldn't say anything serious.

"Why don't you love me and refuse to confess to me?" His voice was like a sigh, "Jealous is jealous, angry is angry, and no one will allow you to be angry. Are you forcing yourself to endure this all the time to make me worry and blame myself?" ?”

"No." I interrupted hastily.

Just to keep him from worrying, I tried to digest it myself.

"I know not." His kiss fell on my forehead, like a gentle comfort, "I just want to tell you that since we choose to start over, we have to solve problems together. What I want is not that you back down in everything, I What I want is an equal lover."