lonely patient

Human capacity is limited, so is memory, and so is the body.Whatever comes in, something has to be squeezed out.

My doubts and anxieties were crushed into bubbles in the collisions again and again, and my consciousness was occupied by Wen Luming, and I could no longer be distracted and think about other things.

He carried me to the bathroom and told me to open my eyes and look at myself in the mirror.

"Can you see Yan Qiao clearly now?" Fiery breath brushed the back of my neck, "Do I sympathize with you or love you?"

The corners of the eyes of the person in the mirror are red, the eyes are distracted, the lips are slightly fluttered, the broken hair on the forehead is wet with sweat, and he whimpers and gasps intermittently with the movement of the person behind him, with a look of confusion to the point of losing consciousness look.

Couldn't even utter a complete sentence.

When the canine teeth sank into the back of my neck, I lost my voice in pain. I opened my mouth like a dry fish and breathed hard. Tears poured out, silently wet my cheeks, and fell on the cold sink.

I held onto the mirror and grasped it tightly, thinking of the flowers Wen Luming planted on the balcony in a trance, forgetting to close the window on a rainy day, the petals were shaking and falling on the branches in the wind and rain.

If it wasn't for Wen Luming's arms around my waist, I might not even be able to stand firmly.

What happened next I don't remember.For the first time, I was so tired that I fainted, and I collapsed in his arms. I could still feel the blazing heat dormant in my body when I closed my eyes.

He doesn't seem to want to stop...

I don't know if it's because I'm in poor health or Wen Luming is too fierce. When I opened my eyes the next day, the sun was setting outside the window, and I fell asleep for almost a whole day.

Her back was sore and her legs were numb, all the bones in her body seemed to be broken, and it was difficult to even turn over.

After resigning, Wen Luming became much more relaxed, and now he is still lying on the bed with me.Seeing me waking up, he kissed my forehead and asked, "Are you still uncomfortable?"

"What do you say..." I asked back weakly with a hoarse throat.

I suspect that he has been restrained in the past, so that I have the illusion that my physical strength is not much different from his.

Wen Luming's kiss landed on the tip of my nose and then on my lips, exchanging a long and sticky kiss with me, he bit my lips lightly, saying that it was only my fault for luring him to make mistakes.

I don't remember what I did to seduce him.

"I called the driver and asked him to pick us up later, or if you are not feeling well, we will leave tomorrow." Wen Luming said.

I shook my head and hummed noncommittally.

Those absurd memories of last night flooded into my mind, thinking that the reason for the delay of the trip was that I couldn’t get out of bed, I felt hot for a while, wishing that I hadn’t said that shameless sentence.

Of course the alpha dared, but in the end it was just me, an ordinary beta, who couldn't bear it.

"Your face is so red, do you have a fever?" Wen Luming pressed the back of his hand to my forehead.

I closed my eyes and pretended not to hear. He seemed to know something, and smiled inaudibly.This chuckle fell in my ears, and I took it as a tease, I opened my eyes and asked unhappily, "What are you laughing at?"

He smiled deeper, "It's you who want it, and you are the one who is angry."

When I saw him laughing, I lost my temper, snorted and said, "I'm not angry."

"Yan Qiao, everything you think is written on your face."

"Teacher Wen..." I looked up at him, hesitated and asked, "Does what you said yesterday still count? You still like me, is it true or is it lying to me?"

Wen Luming sighed slightly, "Ask this kind of question, am I not being clear enough?"

After speaking, he kissed me again in this position, and said, "I like you, I love you, and it has never changed."

When I finally heard him say these words, a stone fell from my heart and I said, "Then I can rest assured."

The autumn sunset always brings a little sadness. There are sycamore leaves falling outside the window. Wen Luming looked down at me and said: "You have such a serious illness, and you were injured because of saving me. I don't know what to do to make it easier. Believe me, whether I love you or be with you, it has nothing to do with sympathy."

"Haven't you sympathized with me?" I asked.

"No sympathy." Wen Luming shook his head, "Maybe there are other things, when you like someone, you can't help comparing him to other cute things, such as cats, dogs, children, so even if you are 29 years old I still feel that you need to be taken care of and coaxed, if you have to say it, this kind of feeling may be called distressed or pitiful."

At this time, Wen Luming was still rigorous, patiently explaining the difference between the two words to me as if standing on a podium.I felt embarrassed that he compared me to cats, dogs and children, and said deliberately: "If you are willing to raise me, it's not that I can't be a kitten or puppy."

Wen Luming smiled and continued: "When I was with you at the beginning, I heard a colleague and his lover call on the phone at school. They have been married for more than ten years, and the colleague still called his lover Baby. At that time I think, when can I call Baby Yan Qiao."

Talking about the past, Wen Luming's eyes became gentle, and my heart was inexplicably rippling, like a Belle brushing my heart with its furry tail, itching.

"I didn't say you can't bark." I whispered.

"I dare not." Wen Luming said these three words frankly. "Don't dare to cross the line, don't dare to show possessiveness, don't dare to be jealous. Later, when I couldn't control myself, I thought, Yan Qiao should be annoying, right?"

I can't stand in the present position to answer for my past self. If he had overstepped the bounds before I realized that I liked Wen Luming, I might indeed consider leaving. Instead, he offered to break up with me later. You have to face your true heart ahead of time.

I hugged Wen Luming tightly and said, "Teacher Wen."

"Ok?"

"I love you."

After a long time, Wen Luming responded softly: "I love you too."

I still decided to leave tonight, I'm already so tired, why don't I sleep on the plane first, and continue to sleep after landing.

Wen Luming got up to pack my luggage, and I continued to lie on my stomach. I glanced at my phone and saw the message Qin Nan sent in the afternoon: "Brother Yan, are you leaving?"

I asked Qin Bei to hide the illness from him, and now he seems to know about it.

"Not yet." I replied.

A few seconds later, Qin Nan called. "Brother," he said in a nasal voice, as if he had cried, "why did you leave without telling me?"

"I..." I was at a loss for words for a moment, and he continued, "Don't tell me when you go back to China, don't tell me when you're injured, don't tell me when you're sick, you and my brother keep it from me, so I'm so unimportant to you?"

"It's not like that, Xiao Nan." I sighed, "I'm just afraid you're worried."

"Forget it, I know." Qin Nan sniffled, "Brother Yan, I have something to tell you."

"what's up?"

Qin Nan hesitated for a long time, as if he was thinking about how to speak.

"That day in the hospital, I heard it all... that was the day Teacher Wen and Xia Yi were arguing in the corridor. I accidentally heard my brother call and found out that you were hospitalized. When I ran to the hospital, I happened to see them talking outside your ward , and then Xia Yi left, I quietly went to the door, and heard you say you don't mind... I didn't expect you to like Teacher Wen so much, and you could even bear this kind of thing. At that time, I was very angry and sad... I'm sorry to say Brother, I didn't eavesdrop on purpose."

I can understand him being angry, shaking his head and saying, "It's okay."

"Then I went home directly." Qin Nan's voice became more and more lost, "After I calmed down, I felt that something was wrong. Teacher Wen's character, it is impossible to let an omega stay by his side when he knows that he is susceptible. ...I didn't mean to speak for him, brother, don't get me wrong."

I smiled helplessly, "It's okay, just tell me."

"I went to find Xia Yi, but he refused to tell me, so I went to the school to check the surveillance. On the day the media first announced your marriage, Mr. Wen was in the office all the time, but Xia Yi wasn't..." Qin Nan Take a deep breath and say, "I've thought about whether to tell you for a long time. After all, I don't want you to be together at all... But you are leaving, and I don't want you to be sad because of this. I will send you the surveillance video Now, brother, I won't see you off, I'm afraid I'll be reluctant to let you go."

Like a dejected little animal, he said in a low voice, "Bon voyage brother, goodbye."

After hanging up the phone, I saw a video file sent in the dialog box.

The file was not big, only ten minutes long, and it was taken in the corridor outside Wen Luming's office.It was supposed to be a rest day that day, and there was no one in the corridor. I clicked on the video and waited for 2 minutes. Xia Yi appeared at the stairs. He seemed to be hesitating for something. He stood outside the office for a long time. The door seemed to be locked. I pressed the handle and pushed it but it didn't go away.

So he knocked on the door twice, but there was still no response. Finally, he took out the key from his pocket and inserted it into the keyhole after a moment of hesitation.

There is no surveillance in the office, that's all I can see.

A few minutes later, a figure reappeared in the video, grabbing Xia Yi's clothes with one hand and pushing him out forcefully, part of the body exposed in the video could be vaguely identified as Wen Luming, who stood at the door and said something What, and slammed the door shut.

Xia Yi was pushed and staggered a few steps, leaned against the wall in a daze, and sat down slowly.

The video stopped abruptly, and I saw Qin Nan's message below: "Teacher Wen said that there is only one key to the office. I was in his laboratory every day before, and I have never seen him give the key to anyone. Look at the video. It doesn't look like he voluntarily gave the key to Xia Yi."

"At that time, he was in the susceptible period. He may not have noticed or later forgot whether he locked the door or not. This is normal for an alpha in the susceptible period."

"But Xia Yi, if he stole the key or something, it's a serious violation of discipline. You can decide how to deal with Brother Yan."

To be honest, I didn't have any fluctuations in my heart when I saw the video.The problem between me and Wen Luming was not Xia Yi, and that kiss was just a lead. After talking about it, I didn't care that much anymore.

Finally, I thought for a while and said, "Send it to your principal's mailbox for me, and let the school solve it."

After finishing speaking, he added: "Thank you, Xiao Nan."

"It's okay." Qin Nan quickly replied, "Also, I have applied to the school over there, and I will see you in two months."

I froze for a moment, not realizing what it meant.Qin Nan was really clingy to me when he was a child, but he still doesn't follow me to be a little tail...

"Yan Qiao," Wen Luming knocked on the door frame, "The driver said he will be there in half an hour."

I came back to my senses, "Huh? Oh..."

"What are you thinking?" He came over and ruffled my hair.

I'm not going to tell Wen Luming about the monitoring.Although I didn't take pictures of the inside of the office, I can probably guess what happened.He didn't explain to me, maybe it's because Xia Yi's words actually happened, whether it was voluntary or not.

He is willing to give [-] kisses for one sentence, so why should I stop him?

"It's nothing." I shook my head and stretched, "I'm so tired."

"It means you don't want to leave tomorrow." Wen Luming said helplessly, "You will torment yourself."

I hooked his neck to borrow strength, pecked his lips, and asked: "Do you feel distressed?" Yu Yuxixi.

"What's the use of my being distressed?" Wen Luming looked down at me, with a hint of sourness in his tone, "You don't take it seriously when my heart is broken."

I couldn't hold back a chuckle, "I don't know if your heart is broken, but my waist is about to be broken. I don't know which sanctimonious professor yesterday pushed him on the sink and turned him over and over again. No matter how much he begged for mercy Ignore it. Now that I feel distressed, why didn't you feel distressed when I yelled slower yesterday?"

After all, Wen Luming was thinner than me, his ears started to turn red, and he deliberately warned me with a sullen face, "Yan Qiao."

"Wrong heart." Now I don't say anything else, just open my mouth to apologize.

Now it was Wen Luming's turn to frown, as if he couldn't believe what he heard, he was stunned for a few seconds and asked, "What's your name?"

I smiled frankly and repeated again: "My dear."

A look of complexity appeared in Wen Luming's eyes, he lowered his head and pondered for a moment, and asked, "Did you call others that way before?"

"No, I'm tired of crooked." I said.

That's fine, baby, people call cats and dogs that way, but I'm afraid that people will say that I'm glib and out of tune when the word "heart" is spread.

Wen Lu was obviously relieved, pinched the tip of my nose and said, "No barking."

"Understood." I obediently agreed, and leaned into his ear to add another sentence: "I will call on the bed later."

I probably have been really hungry for too long, and I know the taste after eating. I started thinking about the next time before the aftertaste of last night passed.

Zhang Laodao said that the fate of the world is not over, maybe there is such a meaning, the lust will not change, the front is hard to break, no matter how many times you will be aroused by the same person, want to hug, kiss, want to possess everything about him, and you will also be caught. He possesses.

When the prairie fire is burning, people naturally don't want to step on the cold river alone.

Sitting on the plane and looking at the light spots of the city that are getting farther and farther under my feet, I asked Wen Luming, will you take me to see the snow this winter?

"I'll take you there every year if you want," he said.

I quietly found his hand, inserted my five fingers into his and clasped it tightly. When I touched the ring, I suddenly felt an unspeakable peace of mind.

"Teacher Wen," I moved closer to his ear and lowered my voice, "Actually, I have a secret that I didn't tell you."