Binh Duong Order

For some reason, the scene of sending letters to the next city was almost the same as the one in Jinzhou. Because of this, when Li Boyan remembered what he saw when he came back last time, he couldn’t help feeling flustered, even though he kept comforting him. For himself, he said that this time was different from the last time, Ye Shulin was not arrested this time, and there were Mo Qiangqiu and Yu Xiaozhen by his side, so nothing would happen, but Li Boyan still couldn’t help thinking wildly for a while, while comforting himself, I couldn't stop thinking, what if?What if?

So Li Boyan drove very hard this time, and the time required to go back and forth was shortened by half. Li Boyan traveled tirelessly all night, tossing himself to death, just to go back quickly.

The cold wind was biting, and Li Boyan's ears were so cold that he lost his intuition. In the cold winter weather, the sweat from his sweat soaked the innermost two layers of clothes, and his hair was dried by the cold wind. It was directly covered with a thin layer of red, presumably frostbitten.

When the sky was turning white, Li Boyan finally arrived at Yuanming City. Before the sun came out, the sky was foggy with a layer of light gray light, wrapped in layers of deep black clouds. Li Boyan had never observed it before. Crossing the sky, I don't know if it looks like this before the sun comes out.

The big and small streets of Yuanming City are still in the same state of distress as last night, quiet, like an isolated city that has been looted. Li Boyan did not go back to the inn but went directly to Anjia. If Ye Shulin went back to the inn, he would be It's safe, I don't have to worry, if Ye Shulin doesn't go back to the inn, he will be in danger, and if I delay for a moment, he will be in danger for an extra moment.

When Li Boyan arrived at An's house, the fire in An's house had been extinguished, leaving only intermittent thick smoke rising from the ruined walls, the crazy people had dispersed, and only a dilapidated An's mansion and courtyard remained. A few undeterred souls continue to search for the missing treasure.

When these people saw Li Boyan, they first hid the things in their hands in embarrassment, and then immediately covered their faces and ran away in embarrassment. How strange do you see, now they know how to be ashamed, but when they hide in the night and in the crowd , They can do so with peace of mind.

Li Boyan doesn't care about these things, he's looking for Ye Shulin, he just wants to know how Ye Shulin is doing now, the heat is still rising from the burnt-out ruins just now, making Li Boyan's face numb and itchy, so he scratched it casually Two red marks were left behind, and finally, Li Boyan saw Ye Shulin kneeling in the ruins with his back to him.

Mo Qiangqiu and Yu Xiaozhen stood beside him with dirty clothes, with an indescribable expression of helplessness. When Yu Xiaozhen saw Li Boyan coming, he said to Li Boyan, "You can persuade him well." Then he pulled Mo Forced to leave.

Mo Qiangqiang looked back at the two of them, and asked Yu Xiaozhen, "Young Master Ye and Young Master Li?"

Yu Xiaozhen knew what he wanted to ask, and raised her head: "That's right." Like a child: "No?"

Mo Qiangqiu knew that she had misunderstood, and lowered his head with a smile: "The two love each other, why not?"

Yu Xiaozhen tilted her head in satisfaction: "Let's go, please have breakfast." Mo Qiangqiang followed obediently without saying anything.

Ye Shulin knelt there with his back facing Li Boyan, his clothes were ragged, his shoulders were bent, his head drooped in front of his chest, as if something invisible had bent his back, his hands were drooping beside him, his right hand was still tightly clenched. With a broken sword.

If it weren't for Yu Xiaozhen's words, Li Boyan would have thought he was dead. Seeing him like this, Li Boyan felt extremely uncomfortable. He walked up to him, knelt down on one knee, held his shoulder and called softly. One sentence: "Ye Shulin?"

Hearing his voice, Ye Shulin raised his head slowly. When Li Boyan saw his appearance clearly, his heart felt like a knife. On the right side of his face, from the end of his eyebrows to the corner of his mouth, half of his face was stained red by wet blood. Have you ever seen a blood-stained white lotus?Grim and poignant.

"It's okay." Li Boyan wanted to help Ye Shulin up: "It's over, come on, let's go." But he was held down by Ye Shulin. Ye Shulin didn't have much strength, but it was like Like a jack, Li Boyan stopped his movements instantly and froze in place.

He heard Ye Shulin ask him: "Am I useless?"

Li Boyan knelt down in front of Ye Shulin again, held his shoulders, put on a smiling face and said, "How come? You are so powerful, how could you not?"

"But why?" Ye Shulin passed Li Boyan with blank eyes and looked at the ruins behind him: "I can't save them?"

Li Boyan followed his eyes and looked back, thinking for a while, oh, he remembered, he had been here when he was in An's house, this was An's warehouse, it was originally nine stories high, towering into the clouds, carved The treasure house of dragons, paintings and phoenixes, now there is only a piece of collapsed rotten wood, and there is no trace of the exquisite splendor of the past.

Li Boyan thought, he probably knew what happened?

People's greed is fierce, so how can they let go of what is in front of them, who doesn't want to monopolize good things?Seeing that one gets more than oneself, and that one gets better than oneself, how can he be reconciled?Since you can't monopolize it, then no one wants it!

But there are also those who are not afraid of death, so what if it catches fire?Aren't you reluctant to part with those good things, and desperately want to grab them?Seeing others go, how can others stand by and watch?What if he comes up with something good?What if he finds something precious?Hate what others have and fear what they don't have, and regardless of life or death, they flock in.

But water and fire are ruthless, and they will not be polite because of human greed. The densely packed charred corpses under those logs are the best proof, not to mention the greedy desires of various shapes scattered around and dying in the fire.

"You don't need to save them." Li Boyan told Ye Shulin, "Their deaths have nothing to do with you. They are greedy, and they don't regret their deaths. It's not your problem, it's their fault."

"What about the Jinzhou cave?" Ye Shulin never forgot: "Does that have nothing to do with me?" He died in peace, and where is Xie Zhien? Xie Zhien was also killed by me, right?" Ye Shulin smelled the smell of blood again, and saw the innocent people who died in front of him with overwhelming sense of powerlessness and overwhelming suffocation. People, he went back to that blood-soaked cave, those struggling faces, helpless screams, and the cowardly and incompetent self who could only pretend to be dead, he hated, he spurned such a self!

"It's all because of me! It's all because of me!" Ye Shulin roared.

It turned out that he had never walked out of that cave, he trapped himself there to death.

Ye Shulin tremblingly raised his hand, which had broken half of the sword, his veins bulged, his joints turned white, and his hand was completely frozen purple. He raised the sword and laid it across his chest: "I'm so useless!" Ah? I can't save anyone, I can't save anyone! It's me! I killed them! I killed them!"

Li Boyan looked at his sword tremblingly, fearing that Ye Shulin would get too excited and accidentally hurt himself, so he grabbed the blade and pulled him away, saying, "I know! I know!" Li Boyan couldn't refute Ye Shulin because he He knew very clearly that some people died because of Ye Shulin. He couldn't deny Ye Shulin's wrongdoing just because he wanted to comfort Ye Shulin. to himself.

"I know you are guilty, but you also made it up and avenged him. His spirit in heaven should rest in peace, but some things have nothing to do with you, and it is not your fault at all. Do you understand? Even if these people don't die now, Who will die in the future, so they are dead now, it’s just that they died earlier, it’s not your fault at all, do you understand?” Li Boyan’s lips are not right, and he doesn’t care if what he says is right or not. Persuasion, twittering, Li Boyan doesn't care whether what he said makes sense, he persuades first, what if it is useful?right?

After listening to Li Boyan's words, Ye Shulin suddenly smiled bitterly and lonelyly: "You don't know." Ye Shulin let go of the half-handled sword in his hand, knelt down and got numb, and stood up unsteadily. , Li Boyan threw the sword blade stained with his blood, and wanted to help him, but was pushed away by Ye Shulin. Li Boyan's kneeling leg was numb, and he sat down on the ground. Ye Shulin stood up and looked at him and smiled. Looking at him, he said, "Of course you don't know. You are a master of martial arts. Teasing human life is like teasing ants. How could you know?"

"What about me? Master, I have an excellent foundation. What kind of martial arts genius? The Ye family of the Four Seas Escort Bureau has never produced martial arts masters. They all rely on outsiders. They have always been the laughing stock of the Jianghu, and have always been the pain in my father's heart. When he found out about this, he almost went crazy with joy, you know? I was also happy, I felt that all the glory of my Ye family was tied to me, and it turned out."

"Just because I made a mistake once, just that one time, with such a small movement, what was the result? As a result, I hurt my bones and couldn't practice martial arts for the rest of my life. Do you know how sad I am? It's not the injury that makes me sad. , is the disappointment in my father’s eyes! It’s all because of me! If I hadn’t made a mistake that time, my father wouldn’t be disappointed, if I hadn’t made a mistake that time, I would have saved countless people!”

"However, if there is no if, I am a good-for-nothing. I can't do anything well. When I travel far away, I seem to be short-sighted. I thought I had a big heart, and I could see through all the intrigues and deceptions in the world. Ha ha, see through what? A disgusting thing that I have never thought of."

"Li Boyan, I really hate you sometimes, why? Why can you say everything so easily? Why? Why can you calmly face no matter how disgusting things are? Why? You came out of Yuyingsi , can still go its own way and be free and unrestrained?" Ye Shulin may not have intended it, but tears fell when he said it: "I......" Ye Shulin choked up for a while : "What about me? I can't do anything well? Can't do anything well? Xuewu broke his spine and was unpopular in the Escort. He wanted to prove that he killed someone! He was self-righteous again and again! But let others do it for him. I am responsible for the fault! I still meet you now?"

Ye Shulin took a deep breath: "Let me tell you, I have never, never felt that I am powerful, but I can only be powerful, why? Because all the people in the whole Four Seas Escort are telling me, they say, I am Four Seas The young head of the Escort will take over the entire Four Seas Escort in the future, I must be good, I must become good, so, I won’t, I will learn, I can’t do it, I will try, but no one is satisfied, No one is full! No one will praise me because I did something right, no one!"

"I originally thought that I was different. I was Ye Shulin. I thought that I would finally have a chance to show my talents when I came out this time. I could finally prove myself. In the end, when I came out and met you, I knew How ridiculous I am, I understand so clearly how useless I am."

"I'm panicking!" Ye Shulin spread his hands: "It shouldn't be like this? So I have to prove myself, I prove myself again and again, I prove myself again and again, and finally prove myself, it is indeed a joke " Ye Shulin looked at Li Boyan, confused for a moment, looked up and saw the corpses around him, he was full of stubbornness but he had to admit: "It is indeed a joke."

After speaking, Ye Shulin knelt down weakly, and hid his face between his palms. In the depths of winter, the night full of dead bodies, witnessing all this with his own eyes, became the last straw that crushed the young man.

The boy's self-esteem built up with inferiority, the confidence built up with panic, and the calmness he built up with urgency, were finally shattered by something called powerlessness.

Li Boyan stood up slowly after hearing what he said, and patted the dust on his body, but he became more and more afraid that it would become dirty, so he frowned and just ignored it, walked to Ye Shulin, and looked at him silently, He raised his foot and kicked down mercilessly.

Ye Shulin sat down on his ass and slid out for more than a foot, and stopped with his hands back. The place where a footprint was printed on his right shoulder was still hurting. Ye Shulin looked up at Li Boyan with red eyes, and was immediately stunned Lost.

Li Boyan held back his strength, otherwise Ye Shulin would have been crippled with such a kick. Li Boyan's chin was pocketed, and he didn't interrupt his sadness at all. Embarrassed, he was arrogant and justified: "Who told you to push me?"

Ye Shulin was so sad that he forgot, but he didn't realize what Li Boyan meant.

Li Boyan was not polite, walked over directly, and gave Ye Shulin another kick on the shoulder. This kick was light, and Ye Shulin just tilted his shoulder: "You are really useless, you can't fight, and you still like it." You make trouble, your mouth is poisonous and cheap, and you still can’t get back on your feet. You really have to change this, and you will be punished if you die in the future. Your brain is not good enough, and you like to mess around. In Yuan Man’s words, what is it? Yes, oh, yes, the pheasant fluffed and climbed the plane tree—I really thought I was a phoenix.”

"..." You kicked me just to let me hear how you scolded me?

"But." Li Boyan squatted down and looked into his eyes and said, "You are also very good. You are so willing to help others. You know that you have made a mistake, so you don't say anything, but you know in your heart that you will correct it. You are kind to you. Also remember that when I am in prison, I want to save others. My heart is fragile and sensitive. I can’t do it if others say a few words, but I don’t think about revenge. Thinking about doing something by yourself, you say you are not smart, but in fact you are very smart, it’s just that you are unlucky, and when you travel far away, you meet all good people.”

"You..." Ye Shulin was a little moved by Li Boyan's words.

"You said that I can talk about everything so easily? In fact, it is not easy. What I have to do is not easy. If I am not careful, I will die. But there is no way, no matter how difficult it is, it is difficult to do it? Do it, since you are happy, maybe it will be the last day of your life, why are you still unhappy?"

"You said that no matter how disgusting I am, you can calmly face it? Actually, it's not true. I've seen too much in Yuyingsi in the ghost building, and I'm used to it. I know that one day I will end up like that, so I won't be disgusted anymore. .”

"Why do you say that when I came out of Yuyingsi, I could do my own thing and be free and easy? No, everything I did was the old monster protecting me and taking care of the aftermath for me. Similarly, if one day the old monster needs me to come out, Even if I pay for it with my life, I will not hesitate."

"You see, each of us has our own suffering, but we can say very little to others, just to see if we are willing to say it? In fact, what is the use of speaking? Can our own suffering be lessened? Can you entertain me?"

"All living beings, we are not different, each has its own way of living."

Li Boyan said these words easily and calmly, just like the last time he told Ye Shulin about his life experience, there was no complaint or resentment, more indifferent and comfortable, as if he could earn one more day if he lived in this world for one more day.

Li Boyan sat down in front of Ye Shulin: "The old monster said that there is no empathy between people. If a person is willing to tell you his suffering, he must trust you. Just try to understand."

"I don't think you are inexplicable, but I haven't experienced it. I don't understand your sadness. Can you give me some time? When you tell me next time, I will definitely understand your sadness. I don't I like to talk about my suffering, if I say it, there is a comparison, which can make you more comfortable, I am willing."

Li Boyan's last words were carefully and softly spoken, while observing Ye Shulin's expression while speaking, in the end he completely lowered his head and did not dare to look at Ye Shulin's expression, completely lost the arrogance and domineering when he kicked him just now , It's not that I'm embarrassed, but I'm afraid that what I said wrong will make Ye Shulin unhappy, and he is also afraid. Ye Shulin was already sad, but what should I do if I add fuel to the fire after I finish saying these words?Do you want to knock him out and carry him back to let Yuan Man deal with it?

Suddenly, Ye Shulin seemed to understand the source of his cautiousness, and he suddenly said: "Li Boyan."

"Huh?" Li Boyan, who was thinking wildly, looked up at him.

"Are you afraid that your master will not want you?"

"I'm afraid." Li Boyan nodded honestly. Although he thought it was impossible, he couldn't help but feel aggrieved when he thought of that scene: "But if the old monster really doesn't want me, I should be useless." The old monster won't want one Useless people, the old monster said that when he decided to stay, so he worked hard to make himself useful.

"Will you hate him?"

"No." Li Boyan shook his head: "Even if the old monster doesn't want me, as long as I can, I'm still willing to help the old monster with my life." If the old monster doesn't want him, he must be sorry for the old monster, and the old monster must be right.

I don't know why, after listening to what Li Boyan said, Ye Shulin suddenly felt better, maybe it was because of Li Boyan's open-mindedness, or maybe it was because he found out that Li Boyan was actually afraid of being abandoned just like him People, I am my father, and Li Boyan is my master, they are all afraid of being abandoned by their closest relatives.

It’s just that their methods of facing are different. Ye Shulin desperately wants to prove himself, prove that he is useful, and try his best not to be abandoned. Although Li Boyan is useful, he is ready to be abandoned at any time, even after being abandoned. I have thought about how to do it.

They are the same.

"Li Boyan." Ye Shulin was suddenly curious: "Why do you like me?"

This time, Li Boyan did not prevaricate Ye Shulin like he did before, but thought about it seriously, and finally said with some frustration: "I don't know, but I want to be by your side, even if one day I die, I will I want to be by your side too."

"What if your master refuses?"

"I still want to be by your side."

As soon as Li Boyan finished speaking, Ye Shulin hugged him, and said with a slightly trembling voice: "You said this, and you cannot go back on your word."

Ye Shulin admitted that he was a bit shameless, and he regarded Li Boyan as his life-saving straw. Li Boyan's existence could at least make him feel that even if he was a waste, there would be someone willing to be by his side.

Ye Shulin can even use Li Boyan to comfort himself, look, you are not a failure, you can still love him, can't you?He shamelessly regarded Li Boyan as his trophy, picked up his poor self-esteem and told himself that he was actually not that bad.

He may never be able to get out of the sea of ​​blood in the cave, but he is so tired, he is really tired, he thought, there will never be a person who is willing to listen to his pain, understand his fault, and be willing to live without reservation. Open yourself up, present yourself completely in front of him without any defenses, and there will never be a person who can give him pure and passionate feelings and promise him never to give up without needing to prove himself.

So, he caught Li Boyan.

Li Boyan hugged him and felt his trembling body, hugged him even harder and said: "Okay." He was so happy, does this mean that Ye Shulin finally accepted himself?So happy, he is so happy!Li Boyan hugged Ye Shulin even harder: "I will never leave you."

Li Boyan didn't think too much, he just thought that if he likes someone, and that person also likes him, the two of them can be together, which is great.

After exchanging heartfelt complaints, they changed to settle accounts after autumn.

Ye Shulin suddenly asked quietly: "Speaking of which, why did you kick me just now?"

Li Boyan froze, watching Ye Shulin slowly pull away from his embrace, scratched the back of his head, and said to cover up: "The old monster said that when people are excited, they can't listen to what they say, and they will beat them before they reason. It’s very useful, so—hehe.”

"...Have you ever been beaten?"

Li Boyan nodded.

"…………"

Ye Shulin suddenly felt that it was not easy for Li Boyan to live in peace without feeling resentful towards his master.