The reborn first wife is a male

Kneeling in front of her mother's spirit, An Shaohua's heart was in such pain and distress!

I still remember when I was a child, I always liked to bury my head on my mother's lap, playing around and listening to my mother singing.My mother's nanny is from Cangzhou, and my mother always has a Cangzhou flavor when she sings nursery rhymes. "My mother, don't panic, look at your kid with tears..."

At that time, every morning, I could hear my father teaching my brother martial arts in the courtyard.The An family is also a general. Although it is not as prominent as the Gu family of An Guogong, they also control the guards of the capital.

Compared with the Gu family guarding the border, settling down is easier in the emperor's heart.

But it was his father who didn't teach him martial arts, he only said that Hua'er was too young to learn it when he grew up.

Before going to bed at night, An Shaohua always asked her mother if she was going to grow up tomorrow?My mother would always smile and nod An Shaohua's forehead, and say, "Go to sleep! Just think about it. Tomorrow, mother will make you your favorite sweet-scented osmanthus cake."

Later, he was sent to the palace as a companion.After a while, he would receive things from outside the palace. What he was most looking forward to was the sweet-scented osmanthus cake.That's the smell of mother, that's the smell of home.

In the cold night, there are two spirit sheds.There was a man, kneeling in front of one of the coffins, looking at the coffin on the other side, humming a song that no one could understand.

"My mother, don't panic, look at your kid's tears... hum... um..."

The next day, it was windy.Only then did everyone realize that the big locust tree at the entrance of the alley was still green a few days ago, but today the wind blows, and the ground is covered with yellow leaves.Blown by the wind, the eyes are full of desolation.

Walking into the alley next to the pagoda tree, the third house is Anjia.Everyone around knew that An's family had probably violated some taboo recently, and went to a large family and a small family one after another.In the small courtyard there is not even enough space to set up a bier, so the mage who recited the scriptures turned to the other side after reciting one.Sigh...you haven't seen, Mr. An, what a spirited person he used to be. It's only been a few days, and he's not very clever anymore.

An Shaohua, who was talked about by others, leaned in front of his mother's coffin, staring, gritting his teeth, burning with a fever, his eyes were burning red, his throat was sore, and his heart was cold.What day is this?do not remember.Ever since Jinghe left, except for those two faintings, An Shaohua couldn't shed tears and couldn't sleep at night.

He was very clear-headed, but also very confused.

"Father, drink some water." An Shaohua turned her head, and for a moment, she really felt that she saw Jing He's eleven or twelve-year-old appearance, but she couldn't see it clearly.He stared at Jing He, but saw Jing He throwing himself into the arms of a white shadow, "Mother! Mother! What's wrong with my father?"

It turned out to be Jin Xuan.Jin Xuan's "Mother" sounds like a heavy hammer, hitting An Shaohua's heart, making up her mind for An Shaohua.Man, exile for thousands of miles is not as painful as being away from your mother!Mother... mother!Hua'er kowtows to you!

It is hard for a child to be separated from his mother, but with such a vicious mother, he is afraid that he will harm others and himself in the future.Even if the population of the An family withered, they couldn't let their children and grandchildren grow crookedly.

An Shaohua fell headlong in front of her mother's spirit, heard others moving herself into the house in a hurry, heard them calling Doctor Qin, heard...

This trivial matter is not so much done for the dead, as it is done for the living and for themselves.

Although according to the customs, according to the rules, according to the old saying, it is always the last farewell to the loved ones.But in fact, all arrangements are for those who survived.

Some are for outsiders to see.Looking at the yin house and looking at the longevity material, you can know how the family is and how many generations it has been passed down.Looking at the guests and friends, whether they sent someone to give gifts or worshiped in person, you can know the prosperity and decline of this family.You can know the style and appearance of the family by watching how the host's family entertains visitors, watching how the nephews and nephews greet and greet people.Just by looking at the teams that cry and deliver spirits, one can know how much love this family has in the neighborhood.

For close relatives, just follow the customs one by one, set up the coffin, send the coffin, send off the coffin, and go through all the procedures, which took nearly two months.For many people, the most painful days have passed in the midst of busyness.

After burying his mother and Jing He, An Shaohua locked himself in the room without eating or drinking.It's not self-punishment, or the mind is completely empty.It was as if his soul was buried with Jinghe, and slept forever in the dark underground.

Gu Cheng came over, An Shaohua stared blankly at him, unable to respond.

He wanted to ask Gu Cheng if he hated him.But he dared not.

Whether Gu Cheng hated him or not, he hated himself.

Later, Gu Li left and left Wu County with Jing Qiu.Later, An Shaohua was very scared in retrospect. Gu Yuming knew where the money was kept at home, but he only brought a small amount of money.I don't know how much hardship I will suffer along the way.

At that time, An Shaohua didn't think about anything, just sat there like this, not knowing whether it was dark or bright, cold or hot, thirsty or hungry.

When An Shaohua woke up again, it was already late at night.An Shaohua stared blankly, letting the tears flow.

Put on clothes and get up, light the oil lamp.

An Shaohua wrote down the pleadings and the divorce letter with a blank face.

The pleadings are of course suing Ruan Shiyue'e for poisoning her son-in-law.

As for the letter of divorce, it is reasonable to say that Yue'e is not the main wife, so if she dismisses it, she will dismiss it.But she is a good citizen and has three sons and a daughter, so she is not allowed to deal with it arbitrarily according to the law.Most people in Yong'an capital are out of sight and out of mind for the aunts and concubines who have done wrong things in the backyard, and just send them away from a distance.It is true that a major event has been committed, but it is just a sale.

Those gentlemen who are full of benevolence and morality and ladies who eat fast and chant Buddha at every turn will not personally kill the woman who has served them, even if they sell her to the most despicable person.Not to mention the official.

But An Shaohua felt that this was a human life lawsuit, and there must be no saying that it would be settled if it was sold out.It must be done according to what the law says.One more letter of divorce is not for Yue'e's face.But if he didn't divorce her first, he might implicate the children.

Children are still young, as long as adults teach them carefully, their minds will not be bad.Furthermore, the An family is now scattered and withered, and in Jinghe's generation, there is only...

Jing He, An Shaohua thought of Jing He's cold body, as if he was still in his arms.

When he was young, Jing He was a little fat man, soft and glutinous, always a bit awkward in speaking.To drink water, it is said to be blown.No amount of teaching can change it.

An's family is small, so there is no family education.The Gu family didn't use martial arts to inherit the family.When Jinghe was four years old, An Shaohua personally enlightened him.At that time, Jian Tianerdi was fighting wits and courage with Gu Yu.Gu Cheng insisted that children can learn the truth when they are young, but they should not learn to write.In particular, An Shaohua made a small sandbag for Jing He and asked him to hang it on his wrist to practice hand strength. Gu Cheng was so angry at that time, he tore off the sandbag and threw it over the wall with his hand, pointing at An Shaohua and shouting, no abuse is allowed his son.

The conscience of heaven and earth.Not to mention those great Confucian scholars, just talk about the Jinshi in recent years, the students of the Imperial College, which one has not come here since childhood?If you didn't endure hardships when you were young, how can you show your ambitions in the future?

Stumbling, tugging, and stumbling, fortunately, Jing He himself was sensible and eager to learn, and after a few years, he could write a single stroke of his hand.

When Jing He was seven years old, An Shaohua asked his uncle to send Jing He to Xie's family to study.Gu Cheng is such a spoiled child that he has to pick him up every day.An Shaohua said several times that since she went to other people's house to study, she would eat and live with children of the same age.Other children can take care of themselves at the age of seven or eight, and so can Jing He.In the end, it was the mother who spoke, and Gu Cheng stopped thinking about picking it up every day.

Thinking about it now, An Shaohua realized that all he cared about Jing He was his academic future, and he never cared about eating and drinking.Gu Li spent so much time on these trivial matters these years in order to educate the children so well.

It's no wonder—it's no wonder that after Jing He was buried, Gu Ling took Jing Qiu away.

He never blamed Gu Li for leaving, such a muddy home was no longer a home for Gu Li.

An Shaohua leaned against the window, gradually exhausted, and slumped to the ground.

The lamp oil ran out, the lamp flickered a few times, and then went out.

The night was pitch black, and nothing could be seen.

In a daze, An Shaohua seemed to have fallen asleep, or maybe he was just confused for a while.

When he woke up again, his eyes hurt and he couldn't speak.I don't know where I am, I don't know the sun, the moon, the cold and the heat.The fever was so high that I was in a trance, thinking that my time was approaching.

Only later did he know that Xuanniang's relatives saw him in a ruined temple where refugees gathered, and he had been missing for five days at that time.After he returned home and healed his illness, he learned from Niang Xuan that Yue'e left with several children and all the family's money.As for the divorce letter he wrote, Xuanniang didn't see it at all.

What happened and who did it was all too obvious.If it is said that he was a little hesitant towards Yue'e in the past, now he only hates himself for being too late.

Fortunately, Niang Xuan's natal shop was under Ning Yu's name, and there was still some silver in the shop, so An Shaohua was healed.

It's just that the person who did it was too ruthless, and there was no cure for his eyes and throat.

An Shaohua has gone through ups and downs for half of his life, and suddenly became blind and dumb for a day. There is depression in his heart, but he will not be depressed from then on.He still has Xuanniang and Ningyu, if he falls down, how will he live with orphans and widows?

Just like that, three years of hard work have passed, and there is no place to express the bitterness in it.

In the past three years, the world has changed.

Gu Li is now the great general of the emperor, and Jing Qiu... is now called Gu Liuxing.It was Duke Gu who inherited the Duke of Wei's mansion.

OK, better than staying by yourself.This is Gu Cheng's fate, and it is also the fate of the Gu family.

He didn't want to see Gu Zhen again in his lifetime.

If not, Jingqiu will remember that he still has a father in Wu County in the future.

I just hope that Gu Li can die in peace and meet his beloved again.The vision is to show off the grand plan in autumn, and the descendants will prosper.

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In the past three years, his health has been good and bad.Old wounds are hard to heal, and the foundation is broken.Not long ago, there was a military turmoil. In order to prevent Ning Yu from being taken away by the conscripts, they sold their house and lived in a shop.An Shaohua let Ning Yu and his wife sleep on the bed, and insisted on sleeping on the floor, but he caught a cold, so he thought it was not a big deal, just drink more water and cover it.After all, the family really couldn't afford the money.Who would have thought that when people are old and so careless, they would start to have a fever, and their mind would fluctuate from moment to moment.

Just like just now, he thought it was Gu Cheng who saved him, and he also hallucinated, thinking that he heard Gu Cheng's voice.Hehe... What a fool's dream.

"I will keep a few people to take care of your life." Gu Cheng's voice could not hear joy or sorrow.

Gu Cheng!It's really Gu Cheng!

I don't know what's going on with Gu Cheng now, what kind of mark has been left on him in three years?I don't know if Gu Li brought Jing Qiu here?Ah... yes, I can't be called Jing Qiu now, but Mr. Gu.

An Shaohua's heart swelled and ached.If he could see clearly, would he be able to see pity or pleasure on Gu Cheng's face?No matter what Gu Cheng's expression is now, he really wants to take another look.

"Wu County is not peaceful now. I will send someone to pick you up to Yong'an in a few days. As for Yue'e's mother and son, don't ask. If he wakes up..." Gu Ling wanted to leave someone to take care of An Shaohua's family, but in fact Not all because of An Shaohua.An Shaohua couldn't see it, so Gu Cheng beckoned, and an old nun came with a baby under one year old in her arms.

"This is Jin Xuan's son, and I'll let you raise me. I've left a bloodline for the An family."

What does Gu Cheng mean by this?

An Shaohua was in a hurry, he whimpered and scratched in the air.

Yue'e deserved to die, but setting up a private prison is a felony!The Gu family is certainly prominent at the moment, but ten years later, twenty years later, since ancient times, all the bows and bows have been hidden, and when the world is settled, there is no guarantee that the new king will not turn over the old scores.This is the great crime of sending it to your door!I don't know if Gu Li's plan was thorough when he took revenge, and the people involved didn't know much. Will someone turn back?

Seeing An Shaohua's anxious look, Gu Cheng sneered, "I don't need to tell you what Yue'e mother and son have done. You know it well. Although it wasn't your idea, it was all because of it." You rose up, and it was only because of your connivance that you got worse!"

An Shaohua wanted to say too much in his heart, but he couldn't speak and could only write, so he wanted to grab Gu Cheng's hand and "tell" him the current situation.But when Gu Cheng saw An Shaohua's appearance, his heart ached unbearably, so he turned his face away.

I still remember how beautiful Mr. Zhuohua was in those days. In the peach forest, he danced the sword and An Shaohua played the piano.When Gu Cheng stopped to wipe his sweat, his eyes met with two smiling faces.That glance was simply eclipsed.In front of An Shaohua's blind, dumb, sick and crazy appearance, all the resentment in Gu Cheng's heart turned into a cavity of sorrow. "Farewell, you...you can do it for yourself."

After all, regardless of An Shaohua yelling here, and An Shaohua actually rolled out of bed, Gu Cheng turned around and left.

An Shaohua only heard a knock on the door, followed by a cold wind blowing in.

Gu Cheng left.

Gu Cheng left again.

This time, it's about my lifetime, and I won't see you again.

An Shaohua felt that her body was gradually relaxing, and the tight pain in her chest and the burning pain in her throat when she breathed gradually went away from her.An Shaohua suddenly felt panicked.Over the years, so many things have survived.

There was no panic when dismissed from office; no panic when exiled; no panic when Jing He died; no panic when his mother passed away; no panic when he woke up blind and was abandoned in the wilderness; The constant coughing and persistent high fever did not make him feel panic.

Now, this moment of ease and comfort actually made him panic.

Soon, An Shaohua understood.Panic, because he is going to die.

In the past, Gu Li seemed to have said that "except for life and death in the world, it is a trivial matter." At that time, An Shaohua seemed to be quite indifferent to this argument, but now he understands, he understands, understands, and understands.Also let go.

Finally, finally!finally……

Can finally die.