"Ah? Reward?" Chu Xiaoyuan only took it as a joke during the day, but he didn't know that the other party would take it seriously.But now that everyone is seriously running to the door, there is no reason for him to push it away.
He turned around and took a dry towel to wipe his hair, and sat back on the bed very casually: "Yes, what reward?"
After closing the door and walking in, Gu Tingliao's eyes slowly swept over his wet hair, pursed his lips slightly, walked in with his long legs, stood by his bed, his thin lips curled slightly, and his long and narrow black eyes stared at him. Looking at him, leaning close to him: "What reward do you want?"
A shadow enveloped the already somewhat thin Chu Xiaoyuan.Chu Xiaoyuan was brushing his hair, not paying much attention to the tiny distance.
"Really? Then I have to think about it." Chu Xiaoyuan was wiping her black hair with a snow-white towel on her fair wrist, rubbing/rubbing the ends of her hair casually with her hands.
Gu Tingliao was not in a hurry, he seemed to stand upright slowly and stood beside him, his backlit eyes were dim, drifting on the young man's slender neck, beautiful collarbone and red lips that he slid casually with his fingertips.
Just after taking a shower, Chu Xiaoyuan's lips were wet and red, and he didn't pay attention to the other party's eyes at this time, because he opened and closed excitedly for this reward: "Then...hehe..." He seemed to have thought of a good reward, and he hasn't yet given it a chance. Saying it, I was so happy to laugh out loud.
"What?" Gu Tingliao didn't care, and looked at him lazily with his eyelids raised.
Chu Xiaoyuan was stunned by his gaze. After a while, he recovered his senses, coughed lightly and said, "Then within 24 hours, no matter what I say, you have to listen to me. How about it? It's not too much, right?" ?”
The man laughed lowly, "Do you want to play the master game?"
Chu Xiaoyuan was a little ashamed to be poked in the center of his mind, and poked his neck to meet his gaze: "You are the captain every day, so you should let me order you around, right?"
After finishing speaking, Chu Xiaoyuan pretended not to care, and looked away.
"Yes." Gu Tingliao agreed suddenly.He raised his head in surprise, saw the corner of the other party's mouth slightly curled up, and said in a serious manner: "Then master, what is the first order you want to issue to me?"
When he said this, his expression was calm, without any sense of disobedience.
But Chu Xiaoyuan was almost overwhelmed by Lei.
Gu Tingliao is so easy to talk tonight?
Not to be missed.
"Ahem, then what? Dry my hair." Chu Xiaoyuan sat on the side of the bed like a master, and handed him a dry towel.
he this
The words seemed to fit Gu Tingliao's mind, the other party took his dry towel and walked into the bathroom, took out the hair dryer from it, plugged it into the outlet at a steady pace, and approached him with the hair dryer.
Gu Tingliao turned on the middle heat setting, and the humming sound of the hair dryer rang in his ears instantly.Since it's a reward, enjoy it.While doing mental training for himself, Chu Xiaoyuan closed his eyes and waited leisurely to be served.
The hot air blowing on his hair was very comfortable.The corners of his mouth curled up.
Little fox, little fox, you sometimes serve me.
However, in the next moment, a warm and strong hand touched the tip of his hair, gently inserting/into his wet hair and rubbing/rubbing his fluffy hair.Chu Xiaoyuan froze instantly.Perhaps because of his closed eyes, all the sensory cells in his body seemed to be alive, especially the touch on the scalp.
He could even feel how his knuckle fingers parted his hair, how to gently loosen his clumps, letting the hot air blow.
The warm touch came from the scalp from time to time, Chu Xiaoyuan closed his eyes and dared not move, for fear that any slight movement would reveal his nervousness.
Gu Tingliao held a hair dryer in one hand to blow air for him, and with the other hand, he shuttled meticulously between the ends of his soft and delicate hair, blowing every wet corner little by little.Looking at the extremely docile young man under the palm of his hand, Gu Tingliao felt an unspeakable sense of satisfaction in his heart. It's great to be able to dry his hair like this and get closer to him.
He thought that he could no longer deceive himself, even though he hated Chu Xiaoyuan so much and left without saying goodbye, but now, he doesn't want to think about anything, he just wants to keep this person by his side.
As long as he is there.
As time went by, Chu Xiaoyuan slowly relaxed. He heard the humming in his ears, and he felt that the blowing should be almost done. He reached out his hand to feel the dryness of his hair. When he touched it, he suddenly felt a hand .
Chu Xiaoyuan immediately wanted to retract it as if he was electrocuted, but Gu Tingliao subconsciously grabbed his fingertips.
It was only a second, and Gu Tingliao let go instantly.
The atmosphere in the air is extremely delicate at this moment.
Chu Xiaoyuan clasped his fingers nervously, thinking of something to say.
"It's finished." Gu Tingliao's calm and calm voice came from above his head, he raised his head, and the other party had already collected the line, packed it up, and carried him to the bathroom to put it away.
Gu Tingliao walked into the bathroom, looked at his reddish ears in the mirror, and adjusted his expression several times in front of the mirror, comparing each time
calm down.Then he opened the door and went out.
"What else do you want?" Gu Tingliao asked him solemnly as soon as he came out.
How can Chu Xiaoyuan have so many demands at a time, whether he wants to send him away?
After thinking about it, he pretended to lift the quilt, turned his back to him and said, "Then what, I'm going to sleep, so you..."
"okay, I get it."
It is good to know.
Chu Xiaoyuan breathed a sigh of relief, then stared wide-eyed at Gu Tingliao walking to the other side of the bed, lifted the quilt and lay down straight in!
"No! What are you doing?!"
Gu Tingliao lay down calmly, his eyes were clear and natural: "Warm the bed."
"..."
What's wrong with you, kid?
He looked down at the increasingly handsome Gu Tingliao who was lying on his bed at this moment, and he forced a smile with difficulty: "Actually, there is no need to..." Such a sacrifice.
Well, at the moment of beauty, it is really hard for him to refuse.
Chu Xiaoyuan lay down stiffly.
He reached out and turned off the lights in the room, and the room instantly became dark, with only faint shadows.
The spacious bed is separated by a space for one person.
Chu Xiaoyuan slept on his side with his back on his back, and secretly analyzed the reason why this kid was so abnormal today... No, since he came back, he has never been abnormal since.
Gu Tingliao lay sideways behind him, his eyes wandering behind him in the dark night.
This isn't the first time they've shared the same bed.More than a year ago, when he first arrived at GOD, there was no other bed in this room, Chu Xiaoyuan didn't care at all at that time, and pressed him on this bed with a hoop.He was ordered to sleep and not to run around.
"They're all men, why are you nervous?" That's what Chu Xiaoyuan said at that time.
Thinking of this sentence, Gu Tingliao's eyes darkened, he still couldn't let it go, unwilling, maybe, maybe he wasn't straight...
Tonight, he also made up his mind to give it a try.
Chu Xiaoyuan turned his back to him, and he didn't know if it was a psychological effect. While thinking wildly in his mind, he felt that the people behind him were awake and staring at him.
"Chu Xiaoyuan." After a long silence, a sober and calm voice came from behind.
"Ok?"
Gu Tingliao quietly moved in his direction.
Hearing the rustling sound, Chu Xiaoyuan's nerves straightened immediately.
Gu Tingliao felt something was wrong tonight.
There must be a demon in the abnormal situation.
At this second, he hummed intelligently from his voice, pretending to have fallen into a deep sleep just now, and muttered, "...what's wrong?"
"I can't sleep." The boy's clear and pleasant voice
Came from behind his ear.
Chu Xiaoyuan was startled, when did he get so close?
"Why, why can't you fall asleep? Find the bed?"
"No," Gu Tingliao interrupted him, and moved closer behind him, then his voice became lower and lower, and he gradually approached until the hot air sprayed his ears, "I've been a little hesitant recently."
Hearing what the always mature Gu Tingliao said, Chu Xiaoyuan slowly put a question mark in his mind.
Then the hand of the young man behind him slowly reached out to him under the quilt, seemingly unintentionally resting on his shoulder.
"you……"
"Maybe I read the book you gave me," Gu Tingliao interrupted him.
Chu Xiaoyuan suppressed his surprise, maybe he acted unconsciously.
Seeing that he didn't resist, Gu Tingliao curled his mouth slightly in the dark, and put his hand over it more brazenly, but there was another cautious and owed tone on his mouth: "...Actually, when you left a year ago, I didn't I should treat you that way. I know you have difficulties that you don't want to say, but I couldn't help but get angry with you at that time. I'm sorry. "
Chu Xiaoyuan never thought that he was going to open up and talk to him tonight. He was startled, his heart softened, and he remembered the situation at that time: "Actually, I also..."
"Chu Xiaoyuan, actually, I suspect that I have a stress disorder." Gu Tingliao suddenly interrupted him.
Chu Xiaoyuan's words got stuck in his throat, and when he realized it, he hurriedly turned around and asked, "What's the situation? Why didn't the psychologist in the team say anything?"
In the dimly lit room, Gu Tingliao lowered his eyes and whispered, seemingly self-deprecating, "Maybe I've been behaving normally."
Chu Xiaoyuan was dumbfounded. With Gu Tingliao's IQ, it was really easy to deceive the psychologist by pretending easily.
He doesn't know much about stress disorders, but he also knows that mental illness cannot be stimulated... No wonder he couldn't accept it so much back then...
Chu Xiaoyuan's guilt towards him deepened in his heart, and he looked at him carefully and asked, "Then what symptoms... will you have?"
The corners of Gu Tingliao's mouth curled slightly, and he recited in a low voice the information from Baidu Encyclopedia: "I often dream, dream about things in the past, dream that you left GOD, or can't fall asleep, sleep very lightly, and have bad feelings for others." Cold, limited emotionally, for example, unable to feel love from others, unable to show any emotional affection ... etc."
Listening to his words, Chu Xiaoyuan's heart ached a little.He doesn't know all of this, if Gu Tingliao didn't take the initiative to say it, he wouldn't even notice it
.
No, he noticed it, he had long felt that Gu Tingliao's character was sometimes paranoid, which even made him a little scared.Even more than a year ago.But he took it for granted that this was normal.
He was slightly suffocated, and looked up at him, with the faint moonlight coming from the window, he could only see the thin outline of his side face.
Tonight, it was his signal to himself for help.He couldn't ignore it.
"Little fox, then...how do you treat this situation? Let's find a better doctor?" After he finished speaking, he felt a little uneasy. Mental illness is different from others. Many patients will resist being said to be ill. Resist going to therapy.
Hearing his nervousness, Gu Tingliao felt inexplicably happy, and lowered his eyes to pretend to be sad: "It's useless to seek a doctor. In this case, only... only you can help me."
"Me? How can I help you?" Chu Xiaoyuan was surprised. Could it be because he was stimulated by his leaving back then?But not necessarily, maybe earlier, before he picked up Gu Tingliao, who was living in an Internet cafe... and he wanted to protect him and give him warmth so swearingly, but later...
Thinking of this, he felt more and more guilty.
"How can I help you?" Chu Xiaoyuan asked carefully.
Gu Tingliao, who had been preparing for a long time, heard the words, and suddenly stretched out his hand to pull him into his arms.Chu Xiaoyuan was pulled forward and bumped into his arms.
He was in a daze when Gu Tingliao's low and shallow voice came from next to his ear: "I want to see if I can fall asleep while holding you."
Chu Xiaoyuan, who was originally tense, couldn't help feeling soft-hearted when he heard this, and stammered: "Then, then you try?"
Satisfied with the permission, Gu Tingliao became even more unscrupulous and hugged him in his arms.
Chu Xiaoyuan, whose whole body was stretched into a shrimp, hesitated and questioned: "You... this action seems a bit..."
"Very comfortable."
Three words, Chu Xiaoyuan surrendered.
Let him hold him motionless, as if his soul had come out of his body, only the eyeballs were turning left and right in their sockets.
Stress disorder ah.
Doesn't this affect the game?
Also, what did he just say?Can't feel love, can't express feelings, cold to people...
Just as he was thinking, the person in front of him suddenly moved again, and pressed him against the other's chest, hitting his face against his chest.
"!!!" What is this again?
Gu Tingliao is still in that distressed tone: "When exposed to symbols of traumatic events or similar inner and external impressions, I also sweat and my heart beats faster."
"listen
. "
Chu Xiaoyuan leaned close to his chest obediently.
"...It really dances so fast." Then he should try not to mention the matter of his departure in the future, Chu Xiaoyuan thought to himself.
Just as he was thinking, Gu Tingliao suddenly pushed him away slightly, looked into his eyes, and said in a low tone: "Chu Xiaoyuan, will I never have the ability to like people?"
"Huh? No, no! How is it possible? There are so many little girls outside chasing you and calling 'husband'!" Chu Xiaoyuan immediately comforted the poor boy.He really didn't expect that he was only 19 years old, and his heart was so pessimistic.
Maybe it was because of the late night, he who was usually so alienated from others was willing to reveal his heart to him like this.
Gu Tingliao lowered his eyes, looked at him seriously and said, "But I don't have feelings for them."
"Emotions have to be dealt with slowly." Chu Xiaoyuan felt guilty for no reason and dared not look him in the eyes.
"No," Gu Tingliao denied him, "I will never be able to."
"Unless..." He stopped abruptly as he spoke.
Chu Xiaoyuan had some vague guesses, and couldn't help asking: "Unless what?"
"Unless we try?"
"...???!!!"
This sentence was like a shocking thunder in Chu Xiaoyuan's ears, he was almost dumbfounded: "No, what did you say?"
Gu Tingliao has long been able to adapt to the darkness, and now that he is close at hand, he can capture all the expressions on his face, and his heart sinks slightly.Even so, he still broke the boat: "I'm sure, I don't like women. Chu Xiaoyuan, are you rejecting me?"
He didn't dare to ask clearly at once, he could only test a little bit.
Even though she knew that there was same-sex love in this world, Chu Xiaoyuan never really thought about it.Or consider dating.
In his world, apart from games, there are clans.
At most, one more little fox who is concerned.
Chu Xiaoyuan was once again dumbfounded by his question.
He does not reject Gu Tingliao.After Gu Tingliao finished asking at this time, he kept looking at him deeply waiting for the answer.
He shook his head blankly: "I don't reject it."
As soon as he answered, Gu Tingliao suddenly hugged him tightly: "What about this?"
Chu Xiaoyuan was suddenly hugged tightly by him, and his body was pressed against each other, and he was suddenly a little nervous, but even so, he still admitted: "...I don't reject it."
Unexpectedly, as soon as the words fell, Gu Tingliao suddenly turned over, pressed him under him, looked down at him heavily, restrained his critical emotions and asked, "How about this?"
Even feeling his mood swings,
But Chu Xiaoyuan thought about it carefully, and still didn't feel any rejection, but felt more and more nervous, and slowly shook his head: "...No."
In the darkness, faint flames flickered in Gu Tingliao's eyes, Chu Xiaoyuan secretly swallowed his saliva and pursed his lips.
Gu Tingliao lowered his head, approached his face, and stopped when he was about to touch him.
"Chu Xiaoyuan, have you thought it through?"
The person below nodded in a daze.
The clear and clean cherry blossom eyes looked extraordinarily hazy in the dim light.
Maybe it was the effect of the night, Gu Tingliao felt that the emotions he had suppressed and restrained for so long were almost out of control.
He leaned over in front of him, his hands straightened, restraining himself not to touch him, but he coveted the person in front of him.
He is like a cunning fox disguising his burning teeth, but he can't hide the greed in his heart.
A boy under the age of 20, once tempted, suppresses and endures, but is constantly beaten by the most primitive desire/desire.
Even the blood is agitated with longing.
With a hoarse voice, he finally informed him: "Chu Xiaoyuan, then I will start."
"Wh-um--" Almost without warning, Chu Xiaoyuan's lips were suddenly grabbed by him, first violently and chaotically, then trembling, a little bit of probing.
Chu Xiaoyuan was pressed down by him, his lips became numb, and his mind became dazed again, but what he was thinking right now was: Is this also one of the symptoms?
After less than ten seconds, Gu Tingliao stopped slowly, looked at the slightly broken part of his lips, and reached out to touch it.
Chu Xiaoyuan wasn't nervous any more, and lay upright, smacking his mouth to meditate secretly.
Feeling okay?His face slowly heated up.
On the contrary, it was Gu Tingliao who changed his aggressiveness just now, propped up his body and lifted it back, it took a long time to react, and asked aloud: "So, what about this?"
"...cough cough!" Chu Xiaoyuan immediately pushed him away with a hot face, and turned to the right to hide.
What's going on here?Take him as a guinea pig?
But Gu Tingliao's research spirit is commendable, and he was unwilling to let him go at all. He stretched out his hand to straighten him, and forced him to face himself: "Speak."
"Can you accept it?"
Chu Xiaoyuan was so stared at that his scalp was numb, his face was blushing and his heart was beating, there was nothing wrong with it, so he immediately pulled the quilt to cover his face. After a long time, his voice as small as a mosquito came out from under the quilt: "...I don't repel you."
Ah ah ah ah ah!Why are you forced to say this!What a shame!
Gu Tingliao Xu only realized now that the other party might be shy and didn't force him to pull the quilt back to look at him, but he still kept the person under him through the quilt,
Near his ear, he chuckled softly and asked quietly:
"Then can you like me?"
It was as if Chu Xiaoyuan's heart was blown by these words.
What does this... what does this mean?
Gu Tingliao was outside the bed, unable to observe his expression, and wondered if he was in a hurry.
But he was really impatient.
He had no choice but to explain: "Stress disorder, I can't feel the love of others, but I want to be a normal person."
He tentatively asked carefully: "Can you try to give me this feeling? Even if it is false."
In the middle of the night, the boy prostrated himself in front of the person he was dreaming of, and asked cautiously:
"Please, heal me."
Chu Xiaoyuan felt as if he had been shot in the heart again.He slowly pulled back the quilt and looked into the bright black eyes in front of him.
If he has never loved anyone, it doesn't matter if he is a man or a woman, then...it seems okay to like little foxes?
He nodded slightly, but still couldn't help asking: "Why me?"
Gu Tingliao saw that he was relaxing, and smiled with his lips curled up: "Because you are the original sin."
Chu Xiaoyuan's face froze.
Listen to him continue to say: "Because at the beginning, you pulled me out and threw me back."
"And only you, in the dark world, the only one who saw me."
amount……
So, it really was because he provoked him in the first place.Chu Xiaoyuan automatically translated in her heart.
After tossing all night, it finally returned to calm.Chu Xiaoyuan lay beside him, carefully reviewing what happened tonight, and felt more and more that he seemed to be trapped.
In the beginning, I got the reward, and I can have 24 hours of command over him, but how come I...
Chu Xiaoyuan secretly resented, he is really too kind!
He turned sideways, secretly took out his mobile phone, and searched for "stress disorder".
Insomnia, difficulty falling asleep, paranoia, possessiveness, rapid heartbeat, sweating, rejection of phenomena related to the traumatic event…
The little fox hits all!
"..."
"What are you thinking?" Gu Tingliao was still awake, and reached out from behind him to hug him. '
Shocked, Chu Xiaoyuan was slid back by him, and bang, bumped into his arms.
"???!!!" His eyes widened in bewilderment like a helpless bunny.
When did he become so proficient?
"What's wrong?" Gu Tingliao's slightly sexy voice came from behind his earlobe, which made his earlobe itchy.
Chu Xiaoyuan felt that he had been fooled, and protested with difficulty:
"You hold me like this..."
"Holding you is comfortable, so that I can fall asleep." Gu Tingliao interrupted him, his lazy tone was full of satisfaction, "Only if you are sure that you are still there, I will not wake up from the nightmare."
"I haven't slept well for a long time, can you give me a hug?"
Chu Xiaoyuan was dumb, and Gu Tingliao's soft voice was acting like a baby behind him!
He actually acted like a baby!
Cheating!
How can he do this?
"Then... I will give you a hug if I can't do it." Just as Chu Xiaoyuan agreed, the other party's hand immediately made an inch of it, and the fingertips moved forward from his chest ribs little by little.
I don't know what happened to him, but suddenly he sighed comfortably in his ear.
"Xiaoyuan..."
He turned around and took a dry towel to wipe his hair, and sat back on the bed very casually: "Yes, what reward?"
After closing the door and walking in, Gu Tingliao's eyes slowly swept over his wet hair, pursed his lips slightly, walked in with his long legs, stood by his bed, his thin lips curled slightly, and his long and narrow black eyes stared at him. Looking at him, leaning close to him: "What reward do you want?"
A shadow enveloped the already somewhat thin Chu Xiaoyuan.Chu Xiaoyuan was brushing his hair, not paying much attention to the tiny distance.
"Really? Then I have to think about it." Chu Xiaoyuan was wiping her black hair with a snow-white towel on her fair wrist, rubbing/rubbing the ends of her hair casually with her hands.
Gu Tingliao was not in a hurry, he seemed to stand upright slowly and stood beside him, his backlit eyes were dim, drifting on the young man's slender neck, beautiful collarbone and red lips that he slid casually with his fingertips.
Just after taking a shower, Chu Xiaoyuan's lips were wet and red, and he didn't pay attention to the other party's eyes at this time, because he opened and closed excitedly for this reward: "Then...hehe..." He seemed to have thought of a good reward, and he hasn't yet given it a chance. Saying it, I was so happy to laugh out loud.
"What?" Gu Tingliao didn't care, and looked at him lazily with his eyelids raised.
Chu Xiaoyuan was stunned by his gaze. After a while, he recovered his senses, coughed lightly and said, "Then within 24 hours, no matter what I say, you have to listen to me. How about it? It's not too much, right?" ?”
The man laughed lowly, "Do you want to play the master game?"
Chu Xiaoyuan was a little ashamed to be poked in the center of his mind, and poked his neck to meet his gaze: "You are the captain every day, so you should let me order you around, right?"
After finishing speaking, Chu Xiaoyuan pretended not to care, and looked away.
"Yes." Gu Tingliao agreed suddenly.He raised his head in surprise, saw the corner of the other party's mouth slightly curled up, and said in a serious manner: "Then master, what is the first order you want to issue to me?"
When he said this, his expression was calm, without any sense of disobedience.
But Chu Xiaoyuan was almost overwhelmed by Lei.
Gu Tingliao is so easy to talk tonight?
Not to be missed.
"Ahem, then what? Dry my hair." Chu Xiaoyuan sat on the side of the bed like a master, and handed him a dry towel.
he this
The words seemed to fit Gu Tingliao's mind, the other party took his dry towel and walked into the bathroom, took out the hair dryer from it, plugged it into the outlet at a steady pace, and approached him with the hair dryer.
Gu Tingliao turned on the middle heat setting, and the humming sound of the hair dryer rang in his ears instantly.Since it's a reward, enjoy it.While doing mental training for himself, Chu Xiaoyuan closed his eyes and waited leisurely to be served.
The hot air blowing on his hair was very comfortable.The corners of his mouth curled up.
Little fox, little fox, you sometimes serve me.
However, in the next moment, a warm and strong hand touched the tip of his hair, gently inserting/into his wet hair and rubbing/rubbing his fluffy hair.Chu Xiaoyuan froze instantly.Perhaps because of his closed eyes, all the sensory cells in his body seemed to be alive, especially the touch on the scalp.
He could even feel how his knuckle fingers parted his hair, how to gently loosen his clumps, letting the hot air blow.
The warm touch came from the scalp from time to time, Chu Xiaoyuan closed his eyes and dared not move, for fear that any slight movement would reveal his nervousness.
Gu Tingliao held a hair dryer in one hand to blow air for him, and with the other hand, he shuttled meticulously between the ends of his soft and delicate hair, blowing every wet corner little by little.Looking at the extremely docile young man under the palm of his hand, Gu Tingliao felt an unspeakable sense of satisfaction in his heart. It's great to be able to dry his hair like this and get closer to him.
He thought that he could no longer deceive himself, even though he hated Chu Xiaoyuan so much and left without saying goodbye, but now, he doesn't want to think about anything, he just wants to keep this person by his side.
As long as he is there.
As time went by, Chu Xiaoyuan slowly relaxed. He heard the humming in his ears, and he felt that the blowing should be almost done. He reached out his hand to feel the dryness of his hair. When he touched it, he suddenly felt a hand .
Chu Xiaoyuan immediately wanted to retract it as if he was electrocuted, but Gu Tingliao subconsciously grabbed his fingertips.
It was only a second, and Gu Tingliao let go instantly.
The atmosphere in the air is extremely delicate at this moment.
Chu Xiaoyuan clasped his fingers nervously, thinking of something to say.
"It's finished." Gu Tingliao's calm and calm voice came from above his head, he raised his head, and the other party had already collected the line, packed it up, and carried him to the bathroom to put it away.
Gu Tingliao walked into the bathroom, looked at his reddish ears in the mirror, and adjusted his expression several times in front of the mirror, comparing each time
calm down.Then he opened the door and went out.
"What else do you want?" Gu Tingliao asked him solemnly as soon as he came out.
How can Chu Xiaoyuan have so many demands at a time, whether he wants to send him away?
After thinking about it, he pretended to lift the quilt, turned his back to him and said, "Then what, I'm going to sleep, so you..."
"okay, I get it."
It is good to know.
Chu Xiaoyuan breathed a sigh of relief, then stared wide-eyed at Gu Tingliao walking to the other side of the bed, lifted the quilt and lay down straight in!
"No! What are you doing?!"
Gu Tingliao lay down calmly, his eyes were clear and natural: "Warm the bed."
"..."
What's wrong with you, kid?
He looked down at the increasingly handsome Gu Tingliao who was lying on his bed at this moment, and he forced a smile with difficulty: "Actually, there is no need to..." Such a sacrifice.
Well, at the moment of beauty, it is really hard for him to refuse.
Chu Xiaoyuan lay down stiffly.
He reached out and turned off the lights in the room, and the room instantly became dark, with only faint shadows.
The spacious bed is separated by a space for one person.
Chu Xiaoyuan slept on his side with his back on his back, and secretly analyzed the reason why this kid was so abnormal today... No, since he came back, he has never been abnormal since.
Gu Tingliao lay sideways behind him, his eyes wandering behind him in the dark night.
This isn't the first time they've shared the same bed.More than a year ago, when he first arrived at GOD, there was no other bed in this room, Chu Xiaoyuan didn't care at all at that time, and pressed him on this bed with a hoop.He was ordered to sleep and not to run around.
"They're all men, why are you nervous?" That's what Chu Xiaoyuan said at that time.
Thinking of this sentence, Gu Tingliao's eyes darkened, he still couldn't let it go, unwilling, maybe, maybe he wasn't straight...
Tonight, he also made up his mind to give it a try.
Chu Xiaoyuan turned his back to him, and he didn't know if it was a psychological effect. While thinking wildly in his mind, he felt that the people behind him were awake and staring at him.
"Chu Xiaoyuan." After a long silence, a sober and calm voice came from behind.
"Ok?"
Gu Tingliao quietly moved in his direction.
Hearing the rustling sound, Chu Xiaoyuan's nerves straightened immediately.
Gu Tingliao felt something was wrong tonight.
There must be a demon in the abnormal situation.
At this second, he hummed intelligently from his voice, pretending to have fallen into a deep sleep just now, and muttered, "...what's wrong?"
"I can't sleep." The boy's clear and pleasant voice
Came from behind his ear.
Chu Xiaoyuan was startled, when did he get so close?
"Why, why can't you fall asleep? Find the bed?"
"No," Gu Tingliao interrupted him, and moved closer behind him, then his voice became lower and lower, and he gradually approached until the hot air sprayed his ears, "I've been a little hesitant recently."
Hearing what the always mature Gu Tingliao said, Chu Xiaoyuan slowly put a question mark in his mind.
Then the hand of the young man behind him slowly reached out to him under the quilt, seemingly unintentionally resting on his shoulder.
"you……"
"Maybe I read the book you gave me," Gu Tingliao interrupted him.
Chu Xiaoyuan suppressed his surprise, maybe he acted unconsciously.
Seeing that he didn't resist, Gu Tingliao curled his mouth slightly in the dark, and put his hand over it more brazenly, but there was another cautious and owed tone on his mouth: "...Actually, when you left a year ago, I didn't I should treat you that way. I know you have difficulties that you don't want to say, but I couldn't help but get angry with you at that time. I'm sorry. "
Chu Xiaoyuan never thought that he was going to open up and talk to him tonight. He was startled, his heart softened, and he remembered the situation at that time: "Actually, I also..."
"Chu Xiaoyuan, actually, I suspect that I have a stress disorder." Gu Tingliao suddenly interrupted him.
Chu Xiaoyuan's words got stuck in his throat, and when he realized it, he hurriedly turned around and asked, "What's the situation? Why didn't the psychologist in the team say anything?"
In the dimly lit room, Gu Tingliao lowered his eyes and whispered, seemingly self-deprecating, "Maybe I've been behaving normally."
Chu Xiaoyuan was dumbfounded. With Gu Tingliao's IQ, it was really easy to deceive the psychologist by pretending easily.
He doesn't know much about stress disorders, but he also knows that mental illness cannot be stimulated... No wonder he couldn't accept it so much back then...
Chu Xiaoyuan's guilt towards him deepened in his heart, and he looked at him carefully and asked, "Then what symptoms... will you have?"
The corners of Gu Tingliao's mouth curled slightly, and he recited in a low voice the information from Baidu Encyclopedia: "I often dream, dream about things in the past, dream that you left GOD, or can't fall asleep, sleep very lightly, and have bad feelings for others." Cold, limited emotionally, for example, unable to feel love from others, unable to show any emotional affection ... etc."
Listening to his words, Chu Xiaoyuan's heart ached a little.He doesn't know all of this, if Gu Tingliao didn't take the initiative to say it, he wouldn't even notice it
.
No, he noticed it, he had long felt that Gu Tingliao's character was sometimes paranoid, which even made him a little scared.Even more than a year ago.But he took it for granted that this was normal.
He was slightly suffocated, and looked up at him, with the faint moonlight coming from the window, he could only see the thin outline of his side face.
Tonight, it was his signal to himself for help.He couldn't ignore it.
"Little fox, then...how do you treat this situation? Let's find a better doctor?" After he finished speaking, he felt a little uneasy. Mental illness is different from others. Many patients will resist being said to be ill. Resist going to therapy.
Hearing his nervousness, Gu Tingliao felt inexplicably happy, and lowered his eyes to pretend to be sad: "It's useless to seek a doctor. In this case, only... only you can help me."
"Me? How can I help you?" Chu Xiaoyuan was surprised. Could it be because he was stimulated by his leaving back then?But not necessarily, maybe earlier, before he picked up Gu Tingliao, who was living in an Internet cafe... and he wanted to protect him and give him warmth so swearingly, but later...
Thinking of this, he felt more and more guilty.
"How can I help you?" Chu Xiaoyuan asked carefully.
Gu Tingliao, who had been preparing for a long time, heard the words, and suddenly stretched out his hand to pull him into his arms.Chu Xiaoyuan was pulled forward and bumped into his arms.
He was in a daze when Gu Tingliao's low and shallow voice came from next to his ear: "I want to see if I can fall asleep while holding you."
Chu Xiaoyuan, who was originally tense, couldn't help feeling soft-hearted when he heard this, and stammered: "Then, then you try?"
Satisfied with the permission, Gu Tingliao became even more unscrupulous and hugged him in his arms.
Chu Xiaoyuan, whose whole body was stretched into a shrimp, hesitated and questioned: "You... this action seems a bit..."
"Very comfortable."
Three words, Chu Xiaoyuan surrendered.
Let him hold him motionless, as if his soul had come out of his body, only the eyeballs were turning left and right in their sockets.
Stress disorder ah.
Doesn't this affect the game?
Also, what did he just say?Can't feel love, can't express feelings, cold to people...
Just as he was thinking, the person in front of him suddenly moved again, and pressed him against the other's chest, hitting his face against his chest.
"!!!" What is this again?
Gu Tingliao is still in that distressed tone: "When exposed to symbols of traumatic events or similar inner and external impressions, I also sweat and my heart beats faster."
"listen
. "
Chu Xiaoyuan leaned close to his chest obediently.
"...It really dances so fast." Then he should try not to mention the matter of his departure in the future, Chu Xiaoyuan thought to himself.
Just as he was thinking, Gu Tingliao suddenly pushed him away slightly, looked into his eyes, and said in a low tone: "Chu Xiaoyuan, will I never have the ability to like people?"
"Huh? No, no! How is it possible? There are so many little girls outside chasing you and calling 'husband'!" Chu Xiaoyuan immediately comforted the poor boy.He really didn't expect that he was only 19 years old, and his heart was so pessimistic.
Maybe it was because of the late night, he who was usually so alienated from others was willing to reveal his heart to him like this.
Gu Tingliao lowered his eyes, looked at him seriously and said, "But I don't have feelings for them."
"Emotions have to be dealt with slowly." Chu Xiaoyuan felt guilty for no reason and dared not look him in the eyes.
"No," Gu Tingliao denied him, "I will never be able to."
"Unless..." He stopped abruptly as he spoke.
Chu Xiaoyuan had some vague guesses, and couldn't help asking: "Unless what?"
"Unless we try?"
"...???!!!"
This sentence was like a shocking thunder in Chu Xiaoyuan's ears, he was almost dumbfounded: "No, what did you say?"
Gu Tingliao has long been able to adapt to the darkness, and now that he is close at hand, he can capture all the expressions on his face, and his heart sinks slightly.Even so, he still broke the boat: "I'm sure, I don't like women. Chu Xiaoyuan, are you rejecting me?"
He didn't dare to ask clearly at once, he could only test a little bit.
Even though she knew that there was same-sex love in this world, Chu Xiaoyuan never really thought about it.Or consider dating.
In his world, apart from games, there are clans.
At most, one more little fox who is concerned.
Chu Xiaoyuan was once again dumbfounded by his question.
He does not reject Gu Tingliao.After Gu Tingliao finished asking at this time, he kept looking at him deeply waiting for the answer.
He shook his head blankly: "I don't reject it."
As soon as he answered, Gu Tingliao suddenly hugged him tightly: "What about this?"
Chu Xiaoyuan was suddenly hugged tightly by him, and his body was pressed against each other, and he was suddenly a little nervous, but even so, he still admitted: "...I don't reject it."
Unexpectedly, as soon as the words fell, Gu Tingliao suddenly turned over, pressed him under him, looked down at him heavily, restrained his critical emotions and asked, "How about this?"
Even feeling his mood swings,
But Chu Xiaoyuan thought about it carefully, and still didn't feel any rejection, but felt more and more nervous, and slowly shook his head: "...No."
In the darkness, faint flames flickered in Gu Tingliao's eyes, Chu Xiaoyuan secretly swallowed his saliva and pursed his lips.
Gu Tingliao lowered his head, approached his face, and stopped when he was about to touch him.
"Chu Xiaoyuan, have you thought it through?"
The person below nodded in a daze.
The clear and clean cherry blossom eyes looked extraordinarily hazy in the dim light.
Maybe it was the effect of the night, Gu Tingliao felt that the emotions he had suppressed and restrained for so long were almost out of control.
He leaned over in front of him, his hands straightened, restraining himself not to touch him, but he coveted the person in front of him.
He is like a cunning fox disguising his burning teeth, but he can't hide the greed in his heart.
A boy under the age of 20, once tempted, suppresses and endures, but is constantly beaten by the most primitive desire/desire.
Even the blood is agitated with longing.
With a hoarse voice, he finally informed him: "Chu Xiaoyuan, then I will start."
"Wh-um--" Almost without warning, Chu Xiaoyuan's lips were suddenly grabbed by him, first violently and chaotically, then trembling, a little bit of probing.
Chu Xiaoyuan was pressed down by him, his lips became numb, and his mind became dazed again, but what he was thinking right now was: Is this also one of the symptoms?
After less than ten seconds, Gu Tingliao stopped slowly, looked at the slightly broken part of his lips, and reached out to touch it.
Chu Xiaoyuan wasn't nervous any more, and lay upright, smacking his mouth to meditate secretly.
Feeling okay?His face slowly heated up.
On the contrary, it was Gu Tingliao who changed his aggressiveness just now, propped up his body and lifted it back, it took a long time to react, and asked aloud: "So, what about this?"
"...cough cough!" Chu Xiaoyuan immediately pushed him away with a hot face, and turned to the right to hide.
What's going on here?Take him as a guinea pig?
But Gu Tingliao's research spirit is commendable, and he was unwilling to let him go at all. He stretched out his hand to straighten him, and forced him to face himself: "Speak."
"Can you accept it?"
Chu Xiaoyuan was so stared at that his scalp was numb, his face was blushing and his heart was beating, there was nothing wrong with it, so he immediately pulled the quilt to cover his face. After a long time, his voice as small as a mosquito came out from under the quilt: "...I don't repel you."
Ah ah ah ah ah!Why are you forced to say this!What a shame!
Gu Tingliao Xu only realized now that the other party might be shy and didn't force him to pull the quilt back to look at him, but he still kept the person under him through the quilt,
Near his ear, he chuckled softly and asked quietly:
"Then can you like me?"
It was as if Chu Xiaoyuan's heart was blown by these words.
What does this... what does this mean?
Gu Tingliao was outside the bed, unable to observe his expression, and wondered if he was in a hurry.
But he was really impatient.
He had no choice but to explain: "Stress disorder, I can't feel the love of others, but I want to be a normal person."
He tentatively asked carefully: "Can you try to give me this feeling? Even if it is false."
In the middle of the night, the boy prostrated himself in front of the person he was dreaming of, and asked cautiously:
"Please, heal me."
Chu Xiaoyuan felt as if he had been shot in the heart again.He slowly pulled back the quilt and looked into the bright black eyes in front of him.
If he has never loved anyone, it doesn't matter if he is a man or a woman, then...it seems okay to like little foxes?
He nodded slightly, but still couldn't help asking: "Why me?"
Gu Tingliao saw that he was relaxing, and smiled with his lips curled up: "Because you are the original sin."
Chu Xiaoyuan's face froze.
Listen to him continue to say: "Because at the beginning, you pulled me out and threw me back."
"And only you, in the dark world, the only one who saw me."
amount……
So, it really was because he provoked him in the first place.Chu Xiaoyuan automatically translated in her heart.
After tossing all night, it finally returned to calm.Chu Xiaoyuan lay beside him, carefully reviewing what happened tonight, and felt more and more that he seemed to be trapped.
In the beginning, I got the reward, and I can have 24 hours of command over him, but how come I...
Chu Xiaoyuan secretly resented, he is really too kind!
He turned sideways, secretly took out his mobile phone, and searched for "stress disorder".
Insomnia, difficulty falling asleep, paranoia, possessiveness, rapid heartbeat, sweating, rejection of phenomena related to the traumatic event…
The little fox hits all!
"..."
"What are you thinking?" Gu Tingliao was still awake, and reached out from behind him to hug him. '
Shocked, Chu Xiaoyuan was slid back by him, and bang, bumped into his arms.
"???!!!" His eyes widened in bewilderment like a helpless bunny.
When did he become so proficient?
"What's wrong?" Gu Tingliao's slightly sexy voice came from behind his earlobe, which made his earlobe itchy.
Chu Xiaoyuan felt that he had been fooled, and protested with difficulty:
"You hold me like this..."
"Holding you is comfortable, so that I can fall asleep." Gu Tingliao interrupted him, his lazy tone was full of satisfaction, "Only if you are sure that you are still there, I will not wake up from the nightmare."
"I haven't slept well for a long time, can you give me a hug?"
Chu Xiaoyuan was dumb, and Gu Tingliao's soft voice was acting like a baby behind him!
He actually acted like a baby!
Cheating!
How can he do this?
"Then... I will give you a hug if I can't do it." Just as Chu Xiaoyuan agreed, the other party's hand immediately made an inch of it, and the fingertips moved forward from his chest ribs little by little.
I don't know what happened to him, but suddenly he sighed comfortably in his ear.
"Xiaoyuan..."
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