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Qin Suiming didn't speak for a long time, he stared at Ji Lejin with pure black eyes, raised the hand he was holding with Ji Lejin, and asked, "Did he scare you?"

"Where did I touch you? Finger or palm?"

Ji Lejin felt scalp numb just thinking about it: "He grabbed my wrist."

Qin Suiming circled his wrist with his backhand, and gently rubbed his fingertips on his wrist bone, as if covering and erasing some imprint.

"Do you feel sick when he touches you?"

"...To be honest, a little bit."

"What about me?" Qin Suiming continued to stare at him without blinking, "Will you feel sick when I touch you like this?"

Ji Lejin shook her head subconsciously.

No, not at all, probably because of getting used to it.Only when Douding was older, he liked to kiss and hug Qin Suiming, and he still had physical contact when he grew up.

All these Ji Lejin felt normal, even now that Qin Suiming was interlocking his fingers, he thought it was comforting him.

But Qin Suiming seemed to be using too much force, and Ji Lejin felt a little pain in his fingers.He carefully glanced at Qin Suiming's face, and murmured in a low voice: "You must have seen something by letting me stay away from him, so can't you tell me directly, tell me that I must be far away from him. "

Qin Suiming knew that Ji Lejin was lying to him, but he still asked blankly: "Then why didn't you listen to me telling you to stay away from him? Not only that, but you also lied to me that I had no contact with him."

"Didn't you tell me not to scold or beat me?" Ji Lejin was wronged, her voice became much lower, "I was scared, why are you still angry with me?"

Although most of them are found by himself.

Qin Suiming pulled his wrist and walked out, Ji Lejin staggered a few steps, and was dragged by him to sit on the sofa.

He tentatively stretched out his foot to touch Qin Suiming's leather shoes, and asked, "Okay... I shouldn't have lied to you."

When Qin Suiming didn't smile, people felt a sense of distance. He lowered his eyes slightly, and stared at Ji Lejin from top to bottom. The light in his eyes was dark and heavy, like cumulus clouds before a typhoon.

"Are you really angry?"

It was like this when he was a child, every time Qin Suiming was really angry, he just stared at people without saying a word, waiting for Ji Lejin to take the initiative to confess his crime.

When there was a stalemate, Qin Suiming first lowered his head and glanced at the sneakers leaning against his feet, and finally said: "I'm not angry, but don't lie to me in the future."

Qin Suiming's voice was a few degrees lower than usual, and he sat down beside Ji Lejin again.He picked out the most beautiful macaron and brought it to Ji Lejin's lips.

This time Ji Lejin did not refuse, he obediently opened his mouth to eat.

Qin Suiming's voice was so calm that he didn't seem angry at all: "Then you can't lie to me anymore."

Ji Lejin responded softly: "Mmm..."

He doesn't have a conscience, but he has a sharp mind, and knows who treats him well, so he will play a small temper willfully in front of them.Qin Suiming really does everything for his own good, he has worried about Ji Lejin much more than he did for himself.

Qin Suiming is the only one who has no blood relationship with him, but who he can trust unconditionally.

Ji Lejin was really lovable when she was well behaved, with the tails of her eyes drooping and looking at people helplessly, her well-trimmed bangs drooping in front of her forehead, her light-colored lips parted and closed slightly, looking very harmless.

His face is really deceitful to a certain extent, Ji Lejin raised his hand and assured in a muffled voice: "I really won't lie to you in the future."

Ji Lejin stayed in Qin Suiming's office all afternoon.

Because of the unexplained guilt, he shook off all the big things between himself and Lou Ye, from the beginning of how they met at school, to how they got acquainted, and finally explained everything about the confession this morning .

Qin Suiming interrupted in the middle of his speech: "Delete Lou Ye's WeChat."

"Ah... oh."

When Ji Lejin clicked on the friend page, he hesitated: "But he has also been my errand for a long time..."

"It's okay." Qin Suiming looked at the three words "Jinbao" that popped up on the screen. He silently touched his tongue with his tongue, and finally said in a normal tone, "I will make it up to him."

Under Qin Suiming's watchful eye, Lou Ye completely disappeared from Ji Lejin's friend list and was locked in a small black room.

Today is Friday, Qin Suiming took Ji Lejin to dinner and sent him back to Ji's house.Tang Wei asked him to stay for a while for a cup of tea, but he shook his head and said something was up.

As soon as Qin Suiming got into the car, he habitually glanced at the empty co-pilot. He drove the car a little further and stopped on the side of the road.There was one cigarette left in the cigarette case, and Qin Suiming held the cigarette between his fingers and put it between his lips.

He lowered the window and rested his elbows on the eaves.

It was getting darker day by day, and there were few cars passing by on this avenue, so it was too quiet.

The scarlet smoke was slowly burning in the darkness, and Qin Suiming's smoke ring spread out hazy in white, fainting in front of his face, making it difficult to distinguish his expression.

Qin Suiming continued to drive after smoking the cigarette. The direction he drove was not an apartment, but a training base.

This is the place where he practiced Sanda when he was a child. Qin Suiming had to learn everything when he was a child. One day had to be divided into two days. He was able to write as well as martial arts.

Everyone at the training base knew him. Qin Suiming changed into the clothes he had stored here and found a few sparring partners.

After half an hour, no one is willing to be his sparring partner.Qin Suiming also left the stage, with a towel hanging around his neck, holding a bottle of water and drinking with his head up.

He wiped the sweat off his jawline with a towel, and looked up at the small bench opposite.In the past, when he was practicing Sanda, he would often bring Ji Lejin over, and then he would sit on a chair and wait for him.

Ji Lejin was very rowdy when she was a child, she wanted water for a drink and cake for a while, but it was hard for people to refuse these requests while shaking her short legs.

Qin Suiming stood still and stared in that direction for a moment.Until the door of the training base opened, Chen Botao walked in tremblingly wearing a thin long sleeve.

"Why did you come here suddenly?" Chen Botao jumped into the training ground, "I just met someone who said you played hard today, what the fuck—"

Before he could finish his leisurely words, Qin Suiming grabbed him directly, and Chen Botao fell onto the cushion with his body thrown down. He struggled to get up, and cursed: "Are you going to die?"

Qin Suiming was covered with hot sweat, but his eyebrows and eyes were very cold, like a delicate statue carved out of ice, he said abruptly, "Why are there so many people around Jin Bao?"

"Why?" Chen Botao rubbed his shoulders and said, "There are many people who like him, but it's just a child's temper, and everyone is willing to let him go."

"You like him too?"

Chen Botao felt that Qin Suiming was a little sick today, first he called him over with a phone call, then gave him a kick when they met, and now he asked such inexplicable questions.

"I like it, isn't he the kid we grew up with?"

"I like him." Qin Suiming glanced at him lightly, and said the next words in a calm tone, "My liking for him is different from your liking for him. I want to hug him and kiss him."

The anger in his heart has been blocked for too long, and this secret has been kept in the dark for too long. Qin Suiming needs to find someone to vent, and Chen Botao is the unlucky guy.He didn't care about Chen Botao's shocked expression, nor did he listen to his "wait a minute".

"I hate others being close to Jinbao, I also hate others taking care of him instead of me, and I can't accept that he likes others."

The irritability made Qin Suiming's brows and eyes stained with hostility. He restrained a lot today, and only then suppressed the urge to hold Ji Lejin in his arms.

He even wanted to rush over and chop off Louye's hand, but fortunately, Ji Lejin's reaction comforted him just right - he felt disgusted by Louye's touch, but he would find a sense of security from close contact with him.

He didn't think carefully about Louye's matter. He knew Louye liked Ji Lejin, so he should be more decisive in preventing the contact between Louye and Ji Lejin.

He also knew that Ji Lejin was lazy, so he should send someone to deliver lunch, so that he wouldn't give Lou Ye a chance to show his affection.

"Fuck... No! You fucking..." Chen Botao was completely at a loss, he uttered so many swear words in a row, and finally closed his eyes in despair, "Can you not tell me this kind of secret? , I don't really want to hear it!"

"Is it weird that I like the child I watched growing up?" Qin Suiming said, "Don't worry, I don't have any pedophilia. I really took care of him as a younger brother at first."

"I don't even know when I fell in love with him, maybe one day, when Jin Bao rushed over to hug me with a smile."

"I suddenly discovered that he has grown so big." Qin Suiming gestured under the bridge of his nose, "He is already as tall as I am."

Chen Botao's mouth also opened up, as if he could swallow a light bulb: "You, you, you..."

"Don't interrupt me, let me continue." Qin Suiming stretched out his hand again and asked, "Do you have any cigarettes?"

Chen Botao took out a cigarette from his trouser pocket and handed it to him, complaining, "You still need a cigarette when you tell a fucking story, don't you?"

After he finished speaking, he found that his hands were shaking a little, and Chen Botao lit a cigarette for himself tremblingly: "...It seems that sometimes I need a cigarette to keep calm."

In fact, smoking is not allowed here, but they still walked outside together. Qin Suiming was only wearing a sleeveless vest, but he didn't shiver at all in the cold wind.

He focused his eyes on the stars in the night sky, and continued to talk: "Jin Bao has been following me since he was first taken to my house. It may be because he is in a strange environment, and I am the person he knows best."

"At the beginning, he was a little skeptical. After he realized that I would not be angry with him, he quickly learned to push his nose to his face."

"When I was making up lessons at home, he would sleep on the sofa next to him. He and I both had to go to school, but he left early, and would follow the driver to pick me up every time."

"He followed my ass like this for three years. He was picked up after Ji's family got better. When he left, he cried my pants full of snot."

Qin Suiming thought of this and smiled: "He was not cute crying at all, but I still wiped his nose for him."

"But nothing has changed between us. After he moved back, I still often pick him up to play with. You know my temper is not very good, but Jin Bao likes to act like a baby. Unless he is really panicking, otherwise I will be with him There is really no temper in front of you."

"Sorry, I can't tell others about these thoughts, so I talk a little too much today."

Chen Botao glanced complicatedly, and asked, "Then why don't you confess your love to Jinbao?"

"Because I want to give him the best." Qin Suiming said after a pause, "He has used everything the best since he was a child, and it is impossible for me to confess my love to him simply by saying 'I like you'. Take him to Iceland after dealing with the matter at hand."

Swear and make a wish when the aurora comes, telling him that he will always be good to him.

He turned his head back, and suddenly put his eyes on Chen Botao: "Can you do me a favor?"

Probably because the atmosphere Qin Suiming played up just now was too depressing and gloomy, and he described his secret love history extremely bitterly, so Chen Botao's eyes became hot, and he subconsciously had the idea of ​​stabbing his brother, and nodded without hesitation.

Qin Suiming's words were as smooth as if he had already prepared them: "Go and help me hint to Jinbao, tell him that I like boys."

"..."

Chen Botao calmed down, and asked tremblingly, "If I chase Jinbao for you, Ji Yongze will want to kill me, right?"