Two small without dismantling

Pat's perspective

What could be more joyful than being one step closer to the one we love?

It's just... as if in a fairyland, look at my appearance, life is happy.

I fell asleep staring at Pran sleeping, he has been dead asleep for the whole day, and until now there is no sign of waking up.I put my finger under Pran's nose again and again to convince myself that he was really asleep and not in bliss.Never since we met has we had the opportunity to get so close to him. Pran's work and rest schedule is really strange. He forgets to sleep when he works, and when he sleeps, it seems that he will never sleep again.

The sound of "cuckoo" came from my stomach, reminding me once again that I haven't eaten anything from yesterday evening to this morning.The feeling of fatigue is probably due to my lack of rest, because I have to watch Pran every night, but hunger is not worth mentioning in front of this reason.I hugged Pran loosely with my arms. In fact, when we actually slept, the two of us took up one side of the bed. Since Pran said that he had never touched anyone before and would be shy, I was ordered. It is strictly forbidden to cross the [-]th line separated by pillows at night, which is enough to prove how scared Pran was before this.

You can clearly feel that Pran is too shy to look at me, but to be honest, I am also shy, but I still like it...

I gently kissed the shoulder of the sleeping man, who had come to sleep in a baggy basketball uniform, his shoulders were bare, white and kissable.But my stomach was rumbling for the third time, and I had to get up and find something to sacrifice my internal organs, so as not to wake up the people around me with too much noise. Pran has worked hard for many days, I want him to rest more, and I promised to be his 24-hour boyfriend today, and I will not tear down the house or lift the roof off.I packed up the tableware I used, washed it clean, took a bath and washed my hair, and tidy it up neatly.Afterwards, I was planning to wait for Pran to wake up from sleep, what should I buy for him?

"Brother, mom has been talking about it for a long time."

At noon this day, when I turned home, I heard my sister slowly reminding me that she was sitting and packing out the clothes in the closet and putting them in her bag.I know why, too, I haven't been home all month and can't quite remember the last time I was home. Pran doesn't go home, and I don't go home either. If we go home together, but we can meet or talk, and we can see Pran's bedroom from my room, it will become less annoying to go home.As long as I can stand and hear the endless loop of scolding from both parents.

I have never understood that Pran and I chose the same job and grew up together at the same age. Every year, it is either me or the company that Pran ranks on the top of the list. How can the two families hate each other so much?But I dare not contradict my parents. My mother once told me that the grievances between the two families existed before I was born in Phu, and the fruit planted by the predecessors is the result of me, Pran, and Phu even if they did nothing. When things are bad, everyone is unhappy and unhappy, so we must keep a certain distance.

"Phu is going home today, brother, you should go back with me, mom already knows that you have passed several exams."

"The scores are only a little bit, and my project is not perfect yet."

"Go and talk to mom yourself."

"Phu, please help your brother, Pran just handed in his homework, I think he needs to rest first."

"What does it have to do with you?"

"How could I leave him, he's sleeping like a corpse now, if something happens..."

"Brother, it's not the first year that Brother Pran has come out to live by himself, and he will do this every semester, why are you so worried now."

How can this be compared... Pran and I were just friends before. Besides, I didn't know that Pran's work would be so tiring. This year, I have a deeper understanding. How can I let him alone?

"Phu."

"Don't act like a baby with me. I have been hiding it for several weeks. You can stay at home for a few days and then come back. I only have two exams left. Don't ask your mother to come here to drag you Go back, if you meet Brother Pran, there will be a big trouble."

What kind of reason is there that Pat is willing to throw up his hands and accept it?

There is nothing else but to protect Pran under the authority of the mother.

"Just go home."

This afternoon, I ordered garlic fried pork for Pran from the restaurant downstairs in the community, and had it delivered to the room. After Pran woke up, he washed his face and brushed his teeth. He smelled the smell of the food and didn't bother to take a shower, and hurried out.He is still very haggard, haggard is not as radiant as before, and Pran's little fans are going crazy again.I scooped out the food and put it on the plate, and prepared the spoon and fork for the boss, so that Pran could just sit down and enjoy the food.

"Which store did you buy it from?"

"Aunt Kaeo's house."

"Oh, today's food is delicious, and there's a lot of pork."

"When I ordered, I said that I need to add more pork. The pickled egg is under the rice. When I poured it out, the egg was buried at the bottom."

My share was gone before Pran woke up, and he nodded, throwing his head back in thanks when I got him a glass of water.

"Pat, did you do something wrong? Suddenly so good?"

"What? I'm a good person from the bottom of my heart." Actually, I heard that garlic is a boy's gas station, and so are eggs, so I arranged it for my beloved Pran. If he remembered that day, I could let him I have felt the pain of love a few times, and now I dare not ask him to do it again. Seeing him so tired, I feel a little guilty.

"When will you be back?"

"Tomorrow afternoon, Phu and his friends went shopping for shoes. After they finish shopping, they will go slowly and come back tomorrow afternoon. Can you bear the pain of lovesickness?"

"You can go as long as you want."

"Really?"

"correct."

"You have to say 'really' before I can continue singing."

"It's a song from my mother's generation."

"Let the moon see me kissing her, before telling the moon god that you are mine, please give me a chance?"

"Shut up, we still have to eat."

What kind of person is this? Every time he is shy, he becomes fierce, I smiled.Seeing Pran frowning, I looked at Pran's exquisite eyebrows and eyes, and covered Pran's fingers with his fingers. He raised his head and held the fork and spoon, obviously he only used one hand to eat with the spoon just now.

"Pran, you don't play with me anymore."

"Don't make trouble, I'm tired."

"Are you sour? Get more rest."

"Yeah." He lowered his head after answering, so I stood up and massaged him from behind, Pran continued to eat, and didn't complain anymore this time, as if I didn't test him again and again on the edge of his anger same.

"Your tendons are hard."

"I didn't know you could still massage."

"I gave my grandma a massage when she was still alive."

"Your family is also weird," Pran said. I raised my eyebrows at him, but I was still massaging my hands. "Some people are called grandma, but they are also called mom and dad. It doesn't feel right."

"Don't think I'm a pure mixed blood. I'm only a quarter mixed. In fact, my father's Chinese blood is a bit thicker, but when I met my mother later, my Chinese genes were covered up. My mother didn't want us. Call them by Chinese names, say they live in Thailand and are Thais, and I hope we all follow Thai customs."

"Your mother is really good enough."

"Yes," I replied, and continued to slowly press Pran's tendon with my thumb. Pran was full, but he still sat still and didn't want to move. "Pran take a bath? I want to relax my body."

"Alright. You can take the key behind the refrigerator away later, I still want to go to sleep."

I nodded to show that I understood. I bent down and hugged Pran, who was still sitting, from behind. I hugged him with a stool in my arms, and put my chin on his shoulder. Pran looked relaxed, and leaned his head against me. on the shoulders.

"Does Pran want to take a shower together?"

"Is it funny?"

"I'll clean it up for you later."

"You are really shameless."

"Won't do anything, just once, I swear."

Pran smiled, I grabbed his arm and shook it, got into Pran's arms and lifted him up, letting Pran lean on my shoulder.As a result, Pran slapped me on the back. The strike was very heavy, but it was still within the tolerance range.

"While saying nothing to do, at the same time saying just once, once what?"

I giggled, bent down and carried Pran into the bathroom, and then I put him down and stuck my arms and legs against the wall, locking Pran in a small circle, and it was impossible for him to escape.Our eyes met, there was a smile that couldn't be hidden at the corner of our mouth, was it shyness, or I spoke:

"I want to kiss."

There is no rejection, it is strange that my Pran is so willing...

"Is it a big party, Pat."

At dinner, the neighbors from the neighborhood gather... I don't think I need to count how many times this month, my dad, mom, me and Phu, and a table full of meals.There is a plate full of rice, I don't think I can finish it, and I can clearly feel how happy my return makes my parents. My parents have been worried for so long, and I finally come back.

"Phu still comes back often, but Mom doesn't see Pat coming home."

"I'm just busy, it's my senior year."

"That's right, look, you've lost weight, your eyes are as good as those of a panda, son, you must have worked hard."

"God, Mom, it's normal for boys to behave like this." One boy sat and guarded the other and couldn't sleep or rest. Don't they have to have panda eyes? Of course, this sentence was whispered in his heart.But even Phu thinks I look weird.

"Phu, remember to remind your brother, according to mom, it's better not to stay up late."

"It's too late to read."

"Really?" Phu asked in a suspicious tone, looking at me with dubious eyes.I complained that I was studying hard and couldn't disturb Pran. If my parents found out, it would definitely tear us brother and sister apart.

"This is because you don't know how to find someone to take care of you. Every time you find someone to take care of you, you are not satisfactory. Otherwise, who will you introduce me to your father after graduation? Where will you have time to find a wife after you work? Pat."

"I don't need to find anyone to take care of me. Phu will take care of me."

"Phu is a girl, she is going to marry, and she will be separated from us. You still have to find a wife to help you and take care of you. Speaking of which, my mother and I went to the temple to do meritorious deeds yesterday. I met Aunt Duang, Pat you still Remember Aunt Duang?"

I scooped the chicken blood from the chicken leg soup onto the plate, and the chick nodded as if it was pecking rice, following the words of its mother, "Do you still remember Sister Punch? The little girl who used to come to play with your sister on weekends."

"Remember, I used to be in the same cram school in high school."

"Now they are all slim and graceful, much prettier than Phu. She has been studying in Chiang Mai all the time. She is gentle, amiable, soft and charming. My mother is happy for your Aunt Duang when she sees her."

"Yeah." Phu kicked me under the table, looked up and saw my mother's satisfied face, I raised my eyebrows in a daze, "And then?"

"Mom didn't know that my son would come back today. If I had known, I would have called Aunt Duang and Sister Punch to come to my house for dinner, so I can walk around in the future."

"What are you walking around, Mom, I don't know Punch very well."

"Walk around and you'll get used to it."

I glanced at my lord father, he shrugged and didn't mean to help me.It is very common for Chinese families to find a daughter-in-law for their son, but don’t all your elders marry their parents and become Thais?What kind of revival of old rituals is being done on me now? ?

"After all, don't you just want to have an arranged marriage?"

"What are you talking about, Pat, you don't even have a girlfriend yet, do you? Mom just wants you and Punch to look around first, so I can't call you sister, you're a month older."

"My lord mother, what age is it now, isn't it?"

"Why didn't it happen?" My father smiled thoughtfully, his eyes full of happiness, "Sister Punch is super cute, Pat, just wait and see, when you see the real person, you have to come to your mother I'll hire you, and besides, Punch seemed very interested when we talked about you. As for getting married, Mom is not in a hurry, it's okay to get to know each other slowly."

I glanced at Phu, this good sister was still giggling, trying every means to lure me home, just to let my mother arrest me and go on a blind date with her best friend who played with her since childhood.

"Mom, I think it's better to let nature take its course, right? I haven't turned 25 yet. If I don't have a girlfriend by then, it won't be too late to talk about it."

"I think so too. Let's just be friends now, and it's okay to talk about marriage after two or three years."

The chicken leg and chicken blood soup made by my mother was very delicious, and I scooped it all up on the plate, but at this moment, I just looked at the brown chicken nuggets on the rice and just wanted to scream.

Mother, you might as well dig out my heart and cook it.

"But it's fine if you want me to say it."

After dinner, I came to the room behind the house. My sister was sitting on the bed shaking the crystal ball, shaking up the sequins in the crystal ball, and watching it slowly fall down under the action of gravity.When she said this, I almost couldn't sit still. I turned to look at her, with a lot of thoughts in my mind, but I didn't show anything on my face.

"At least the girls your mother finds for you are much better than the ones you found yourself before."

"Phu, you're kidding me."

"Are you kidding, I mean it."

"But no, I have someone I like."

"Seriously, who? Don't tell me it's Nat??"

"It seems that you really hate her."

"Yes, I don't like her, so don't discuss her anymore, lest you say I'm jealous later." Phu didn't want to talk about this topic again, but her curiosity hadn't been dispelled yet. I hesitated to tell Phu clearly, if I wanted to confess The object is Phu, that is not so difficult to say, "Who, do I know?"

"know."

"Is it a friend? It's strange. I haven't seen any girl you are dating."

"Well, it's a friend." I scratched my head, as if my hair was about to be ripped off, "but it's not quite accurate to say it's a friend, and I can't tell."

"Then why didn't you tell mom when we were eating at the table just now? Brother, you have a really bad temper."

"can not say."

"Brother, if you can't say it, then get ready to marry sister Punch. Mom is not that kind of cruel person. Punch is the only way. Mom is worried about you, because since I was cheated by that woman in high school, I have always I haven't had a girlfriend for a long time."

"Your brother's partner is a boy," I said out in one breath, and I didn't know how to speak. Phu stood still, looking at me with an expression of disbelief.

"Bro, are you gay?"

"If boys like boys, then your brother and I are like that."

"Why? It's about to collapse."

"Then go tell mom that your brother and I like boys."

Questions came one after another, and the one I asked the most was who was the boy I liked. I sighed deeply, looked at each other, moved the stool close to Phu, held her knees, and looked into her eyes. Exhausting my life's courage, I said word by word:

"Phu, you have to help your brother and me, the person I associate with is Pran."

"God, I haven't even been so accurate in the exam questions."

"Huh?" Phu really... "How do you know?"

"Your sticky energy, and you two big boys acting coquettishly and coaxing each other are beyond the limit that a friend should be angry, but I just thought about it casually, and I never thought about it. Really." The sighs of the two sounded at the same time, our eyes widened, and we all knew what we were going to face next, "What should we do this time?"

"I don't know, if I knew what to do, would it still collapse like this?"

"Is Brother Pran jealous and angry? Can you explain to him slowly? If he becomes jealous and doesn't want to discuss it with you, how do you explain it so that he understands you?" Thinking of Nat back then, Pran knew the stubborn thought He also used bad words for avoiding me, but what made my heart hurt the most was when Pran turned his head and flirted with Wear.Okay, we want to be with our friends when we're depressed, but can't we be with friends other than Wear?

"All roads are dead ends, Phu."

"When were you together? I want to know."

"I've liked each other for a long time," I confessed at the beginning, but I really can't say when we were together, "but our relationship only warmed up recently."

"My good brother, hey, am I watching a live-action Romeo and Juliet?"

"Don't be like this, sister, your brother doesn't want to end up losing his life, besides, if I die, I don't think your Brother Pran will chase me to Naihe Bridge, it will be even more pitiful than Romeo. "

"I'm still in the mood to joke," whoever said I was joking, I couldn't be more serious.Sitting in the same posture, the brother and sister buried their heads in their thoughts, "Brother, what should I do?"

I sighed, shaking my head back and forth, if I knew, why would I come to you to discuss it with you!

If we are together, we will die, and if we break up, I will die too.

Why is Pat's life so difficult...