marriage on paper

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Lu Junyan took a step forward and pressed the idiot who was about to lose his strength into his arms with one hand.

The person in his arms struggled for a moment, and soon became motionless.

He can't support himself anymore, no matter who it is, let him rely on it for a while.

He Xinan had a splitting headache, and every time he was in a bad mood or felt uncomfortable, all kinds of problems would come out to make trouble.

The same is true today.

He felt his head ached, his heart ached, and even the arms and legs that had been cut off and replaced with mechanical replacements ached.

The pain was too intense, like cooking oil in a raging fire, and like cracking ice and flying frost. The pain from the inside out almost completely submerged his whole body.

Tears blurred his vision, he couldn't see anything clearly, and he didn't want to.

"Didn't you say that I'm a bitch?" He Xinan's voice was almost crying.

Growing up, they called him a bastard, a bastard. They said that he had disgusting and vile blood in his bones. After a long time, even he himself agreed with this statement.

"I am alive, am I not the source of everyone's pain?"

Everyone wanted him to die, various accidents emerged one after another, and various diseases followed one after another.

"Aren't I the most deserving of a good death?"

He Xinan's self-deprecating and self-deprecating words overflowed from his mouth, like a sharp knife with a barbed handle, flying his own flesh and blood.

It was only at this time that Lu Junyan realized that they were all cheated.

The person in front of him was wrapped in a majestic and inhuman false image, that humble child who was trembling in the dust and walking on thin ice.

The hard shell piled up with the illustrious military medals could have resisted all injuries, making him look calm and indestructible despite his scars.

But now, his insides were disintegrated and hollowed out, and he was gradually left with only an empty shell of bluff, as if a gust of wind could completely blow him away.

"No!" Lu Junyan tightened his arms, "No, idiot, you have always been the best, it's because they don't know how to cherish it, it's... we were wrong."

He Xinan's tears gradually burst, like a long-prepared flood, out of control.

The intermittent sobbing slowly turned into howling like no one else, like a child without any scruples, venting out all the grievances and depression that have been silent in the bottom of my heart for so many years.

Lu Junyan hugged him quietly, he didn't know what to do other than hug him.

He Xinan cried for half an hour, and gradually stopped crying. He leaned quietly on Lu Junyan's body, as if he had been drained of strength.

Lu Junyan touched his eyes that were red from crying, and picked him up on his knees.

His legs are not suitable for standing still for a long time, when Lu Junyan picked him up, he happened to see He Xinan's slightly frowning brows.

He Xinan didn't resist, but just nestled quietly in Lu Junyan's arms.

The result of the explosive venting of emotions is a depressive mental exhaustion. Now his mind is blank and he is drowsy.

Lu Junyan put him on the bed, and he subconsciously grabbed Lu Junyan's collar and refused to let go.

Now he is like a child who is extremely insecure, and this person around him just rightly gives him a strong sense of security.

"I won't go, I'll be with you, always with you."

Lu Junyan lowered his head and placed a gentle kiss on his forehead.

Then he knelt on one knee beside the bed, like a dutiful large dog.

There was an unresolved passion in his brows and eyes, and his expression was full of distress.

He Xinan stared blankly at this man with deep brows and sharp features, scenes from the past came to his mind.

This person's sharpness, meanness, ruthlessness, and use have broken him time and time again. He once vowed on the dazzling operating table that he would stay away from him.

However, going round and round, when his world was falling apart, this person guarded him with a strong and gentle attitude.

In his whole life, all his wishes and wishes were empty, didn't he, he was miserable half of his life, and finally got God's pity?

He dare not imagine...

"Lu Junyan," He Xinan called him, looking at Lu Junyan's eyes looking over, his tone was sour and pitiful: "I...have nothing? You..."

There is nothing that requires you to try your best to please and deceive. Are you showing your true feelings or pretending to be ingratiating, tell me, don't let me be happy for nothing?

Lu Junyan was stunned for a moment, watching He Xinan's eyes gradually droop, hiding a trace of anticipation that he didn't want to be noticed, his heart felt like being pricked by a needle.

He lifted He Xinan's chin with his fingertips, making him raise his head high, like a phoenix returning to a branch.

His admiral, he likes the humble appearance of someone who shouldn't be really begging for mercy. He just needs to stand on the top of the plane tree and wait for himself to love him through the wind and rain.

Lu Junyan's brows and eyes were tinged with burning heat, and the most beautiful fireworks in the world seemed to bloom in his pupils, and his tone was extremely honored and proud.

"Admiral, have I told you that you are a gift I can't ask for?"

After the words fell, Lu Junyan slowly closed his eyes, and kissed the lips that made him think about it day and night from bottom to top.

This kiss, without lust, is like a pious believer, praying for the holy light and baptism given by the gods.

In the past, He Xinan always thought of himself as that dark and pitiful believer, praying day and night, praying for God to show mercy and love.

But now, with the reversal of the poles, Lu Junyan told him that he had become that humble but devout believer, but he himself had become a high-ranking god.

[The author has something to say: In the next chapter, the identity of the poor young marshal will be revealed. The list mode of the bumpy journey from childhood to adulthood is on, and Lu Junyan is about to start the wife-protecting madman mode. 】