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In fact, Xiao Mo is very envious of the person in Zhang Xian's heart.

Zhang Xian may be relatively lonely and needs someone to tell his story. His past love, Xiaomo is well-behaved and doesn't talk much on weekdays. On the contrary, Zhang Xian likes him. Sometimes Zhang Xian will tell Xiaomo about him when he is free. once upon a time.

Zhang Xian has a very good personality, and he is considerate and gentle to anyone casually, so Xiaomo wanted to be envious of the person in his heart. At that time, he didn't know that the person in Zhang Xian's heart was Tom.

Zhang Xian had been in love with a man named Lin Zidan since he was young until he became an international police officer. He and Lin Zidan were not acquainted with each other. It was obviously the longest secret love and the one that should be unforgettable, but Zhang Xian said very little. At first, Xiao Mo thought it was hidden too deep, like sea water, too deep but the surface was calm, but Zhang Xian told him about it later, and he knew it was not like this.

There was a person who drove Lin Zidan to a small corner in a strong way, and he himself took root in Zhang Xian's heart.

Huan Tuo warm and domineering, is that person.

Zhang Xian bid farewell to Lin Zidan, whom he had been secretly in love with for a long time. It can't be said that his heart is like stagnant water, but he can't make waves easily. Maybe that person was sent by heaven to match him, but that person can break into his heart.

It is rooted in the heart, so it hurts to pull it out.

After the affair between him and that person was exposed, 1 people in Zhang Xian's family naturally disagreed, not to mention that nine out of ten of his family were soldiers. He wanted to beat Zhang Xian half to death, saying that even if he was beaten to death, he could not have such an embarrassing son. If Zhang Xian's mother hadn't been in his arms, Zhang Xian reckoned that he would not be able to escape.

Perhaps every homosexual who comes out of the closet has to go through this kind of thing. At the beginning, Zhang Xian's attitude was also very tough, and he simply didn't go home.

He never took such a strong and decisive action towards Lin Zidan, whom he had been secretly in love with for more than ten years, otherwise it could be called a secret love.

At that time, he thought, maybe that person was destined to be with him for a lifetime, and he always felt it.

That person is a foreigner, and there seems to be resistance at home, but that person has no pressure, and follows Zhang Xian to live their small life in Country Z.

But Zhang Xian didn't expect that his father was a technical leader in the army. The top technical and old intellectuals back then couldn't accept Zhang Xian's affairs. He really had a cerebral hemorrhage and was admitted to the hospital. , his mother was afraid that Zhang Xian would feel guilty, but his aunt couldn't see it later and dragged Zhang Xian back.

Those who have not experienced it will never know the pain in Zhang Xian's heart at that time.

If both parents are alive and well, cerebral hemorrhage and hemiplegia are two different concepts.

In the front, you can still fight hard to the end, but in the back, you just let a big man kneel in front of his father's bed and cry loudly, kneeling all night.

On the third day, Zhang Xian, who had been kneeling all night, went to Tom with a pale face, saying that he was sorry for Tom, and that he wanted to break up. He couldn't see his parents and this family like this.

Tom knew everything about him. At that time, he punched Zhang Xian with red eyes, and Zhang Xian took it abruptly. Tom would not hang on, packed his luggage, and left.

The two of them were like this, it seemed very dramatic, but they really broke up.

Since then, no one has contacted anyone across the Pacific Ocean. In this world, there has never been anyone who can't live without someone, and whoever can't live without. Two big men, let alone procrastinating, love is love, they still They are in love, and they all admit that they love each other, but they won't be together, they simply forget each other, and they can still be friends, that's bullshit.

Zhang Xian's mother worked very hard, taking care of Zhang Xian's father, because Zhang Xian's father was still conscious, and when he saw Zhang Xian, he made a fuss, babbled and let Zhang Xian leave.

Zhang Xian also took care of all the work at home and didn't appear in front of his father. Thinking that he is separated from that person now, the old father should be happier and gradually get better.

It's just that the old father was gloriously stubborn all his life. He didn't know whether it was because of his heart or something else. After all, he left a year later, and he walked very peacefully. After a while after his mother entered the room, he heard a loud cry, and Zhang Xian's heart ached. After a while, it was too late when he ran over. The old father closed his eyes and his body was stiff.

Zhang Xian knelt at the door, crying, especially looking at his mother who had been alone since then, his heart was pierced like a knife.

He didn't know how many people came out of the closet in this world, but he couldn't forgive himself, the family was like this because of him.

After dealing with his father's affairs, he stayed with his mother all the time. His mother was strong and still doing well, but he still worried, but his mother saw that he was a big man, and he couldn't do it anymore, so he let him go out to work, and he didn't have to worry about it at home. , my mother went back to her hometown of S City to be neighbors with her relatives, and she was very happy. My aunt and uncle saw Zhang Xian like this, so they shouldn't be harsh. The matter is over, and the living must live a good life.

Zhang Xian returned to the United Nations and applied to be transferred elsewhere to continue to be his Interpol. It was just a coincidence that he met that person.

That person will never be empty by his side, he understands, Zhang Xian thought, he was really numb at the time, even seeing that person in good shape, with someone by his side, he was a little happy. He was sorry for that person, and he didn't regret his original decision. When he chose family affection between love and family affection, he was no longer qualified to go to that person, explain, complain, or talk about love again. He had already given up.

Fortunately, that person has also recovered his calm. Seeing Zhang Xian, he can still ask him how he is doing with a faint smile, like an old friend.

Time will always wear away some pain, Zhang Xian thought.

Tired from outside, Zhang Xian applied to be transferred back to country Z.

He didn't expect that the chance of seeing that person would increase, and he only found out by accident that the person had transferred his business to country Z. Zhang Xian didn't think too much about it, so he wouldn't feel embarrassed or surprised. It feels like, this time, my heart is finally dead.

Aunt, uncle, mother saw that he was almost forty, and he was still alone, and even said that it would be fine if he brought a man back. After all, mother was soft-hearted, and she didn't want to see Zhang Xian alone, desolate and depressed on the road of life Walking alone, after going through so much, it seems that everyone has taken it easy, life is always up to them, they are all going to grow old, but Zhang Xian still needs someone who can be with him for the rest of his life, what is the difference between a man and a woman?

Zhang Xian smiled, his eyes were a little red, he looked out the window, he thought, after all, he has no strength to love, he has been secretly in love with someone for more than ten years, and has been in love with someone for several years, whether his family objects or not Yes, he didn't even have that heart anymore. At that time, he had to admit that that person had left and took his heart away. Now the place where the heart is filled is just protein.

When he recalled the past, he was a little surprised. It turned out that we used to be able to love each other so much.

As if it happened to someone else.

He had already forgotten the feeling of being so in love back then.

He thought, maybe he is really old, and he can ring the bell and chant the Buddha's name immediately after shaving his head.

Zhang Xian still shed tears when he said this, took the tissue handed over by Xiaomo, and smiled, feeling that he was really old, who said that when a person recalls the past, he is old, He is like a student who is looking back on those wanton and flamboyant youth, and in the green years, he is paying homage to his love.

In the past, they were so in love that they thought they could spend a lifetime together, but now it happened. A lifetime is actually very long, but the promise was so weak.

Time divides those memories into fragments, and they fall into mud. No one knows what happened, they don’t know that they were so in love, they don’t know, they may be people who can be with each other for a lifetime, and they have imagined that they can be together when they are in Haoshou. Holding hands, walking on the road in the park with the sunset.

Now they can look at each other and smile when they meet, what's more, they can sit together for a lunch, talk about the current situation, and make jokes.

Then, go in a different direction and have a family of my own.

Zhang Xian put the flowers in front of his father's tomb, squatted there looking at the tomb, he seemed to be in a daze, Zhang Xian became more and more fond of being in a daze, this didn't seem to be a good phenomenon for the police, but he liked it, because when he was in a daze, A day can go by.

Xiao Mo watched from the side, and said, "Is that man Tom? I think you look at him differently." Zhang Xian treats everyone well, but treats everyone the same. It can make him feel different. Only Tom.

Zhang Xian came back to his senses, sat in front of the tomb, took out a cigarette and started to smoke. Hearing this, he smiled and said, "Did you see it? It seems to be different." His expression was calm, and he didn't seem to have any special reaction.

Xiaomo also sat side by side with him, and said, "I don't think there is anyone around him now, and he doesn't look at you in the right way, which means that you two still have feelings. Why don't you try it? If you like it, why don't you be together?" .

Zhang Xian rubbed Xiaomo's hair, "You said it all, it's just a feeling, we have returned to the original point, he will meet a better person, and I feel different from him now, it will be a more Those who love him may have tried their best to love those who are with him, don't you think this is better?"

Zhang Xian took a puff of smoke and said slowly, "I have already given up and chose family affection. I cut a hole in his heart and went to him again, but it would only increase his troubles. If there is no trust, what love is there? Pain doesn’t disappear because of time, it just doesn’t hurt and turns into a scar. Besides, if I choose to give up on him next time when something happens, won’t it be the second serious injury to him? Who knows? What will happen in the future? I don’t trust myself anymore.” Didn’t he also believe that he can overcome all difficulties?

"I made a choice, but I am not qualified. Just like back then, I don't want to drag him down."

After Zhang Xian finished speaking, he stood up, patted the ashes on his buttocks, and pulled Xiao Mo up, "Okay, let's go."

It’s just that Zhang Xian didn’t expect to let Xiaomo talk. Since Xiaomo appeared, Tom also appeared frequently in his field of vision, and he would always pull him to eat together without saying anything else, just chatting about the current situation. What, finally Zhang Xian couldn't help asking, Tom didn't beat around the bush, and directly stated that he wanted to be with Zhang Xian.

Zhang Xian smiled and said, "Aren't you afraid that I will give up on you again?"

Unexpectedly, he was hugged by Tom, "I'll be fine if I don't give up on you." He was too young at the time, and when he met Zhang Xian again at that time, he was actually shaken. Xian still has feelings for him, so he can only be cautious, just like pursuing Zhang Xian back then.

In this world, there is always a need for someone to hold another person tightly and not let go, to give that person the courage to overcome difficulties and obstacles.

In a lifetime, one person always needs to work hard and lead the other person not to give up in order to complete the journey.

The author has something to say: Actually, I still like this story, I don't know why.

Well, this book, without any accidents, is the end of the whole text.

Thank you so much for coming.