1984 days when she disappeared

Xueba Cen raised his head from the desk, the adaptation period for picking up books has passed, and now he can calm down and read every day, such a good day.

Calculated that she was seven or eight years behind those who came from the history department, if she hadn't stopped thinking and encouraged her, maybe she would just hang around like this for the rest of her life and say goodbye to history completely.

There is a saying that "those who can do more work" are indeed true.Good people can do nothing too badly, and this gives them the added annoyance of being indecisive between what should be done and what they want to do.

Honestly speaking, Cen Jin was never willing to be a businessman all her life. She had a very greedy dream, that is, to earn money and immigrate to the United States, and then go to Harvard-Yenching College to become a scholar of Chinese history with an international vision. This is actually true. Professor Diao's expectations for her.

After hesitating for many days, Cen Jin finally sent an email to Professor Diao, saying that she wanted to take his postgraduate entrance examination and was preparing for it with all her strength.

Professor Diao quickly wrote back: "Cen Jin, I remember you, and I'm glad you finally gave up business and started literature after many years. Time waits for no one, I only have one word, come on!"

This sentence is enough to motivate Cen Jin to fight at night, and she can't even take care of the time before and after the day. After finishing the necessary official duties every day, she uses the company as a study room, and she doesn't move for a few hours at a time.

Siting likes this kind of Cen Jin, this is the boy she first met and fascinated her.Although she has a small fortune now, it can't make up the gap between them. Chu Yue's words have been echoing in her mind. Apart from her appearance, what is she worthy of Cen Jin?

These words may have hurt her when she was young, but after going through so much wind and rain, these words only made her work harder.She quietly applied for a master's degree in media in Hong Kong Chinese, and she is also studying hard in private.The reason why she didn't tell Cen Jin was because she wanted to give herself some leeway. She was not in a hurry for success, as long as she kept walking towards her goal without thinking of stopping, she believed that she would definitely reach the other shore.

Everything was going as expected, and the most important moment in their lives—the wedding was approaching, Cen Jin couldn't help feeling a little nervous.

At night, Cen Jin hugged her and said, "Honey, think about what we still lack in our wedding, I always feel uneasy."

Siting said, "Actually, I always feel that there is an important link that you have missed."

Cen Jin looked at her puzzled, and Siting said, "Don't you want to inform your parents?"

Cen Jin thought for a while, but said nothing.

She still can't let go of the estrangement with her parents.In her mind, this is a series of accounts: if Xue Yafen hadn't forced Sistop to transfer to another school, Sistop would have been able to get three points more in the test, and one three points more in the test would have allowed her to enter Beilin, and if she had entered Beilin, she would have been able to be with her. The ordeal behind.

"That's not for sure," Siting said, "What if some leader in Beijing takes a fancy to me, you have something to do? It's only my face that attracts rotten peach blossoms."

"Hey, who are you calling a rotten peach blossom?" Cen Jin quit, "I am the first flower in your life, am I rotten?"

Si stopped laughing, hugged her and kissed her endlessly, "What's the saying, meeting you in my lifetime will take all my luck."

"That's not true! I'm Wang's wife's life, your good days are to come!" Cen Jin became more and more excited as he spoke, and sat up from the bed.

Siting hurriedly hugged her, "I know, but good days are not perfect without the blessing of family members."

Cen Jin fell silent again, normally she should tell her parents about this matter, whether they agree or not is another matter, but she was always afraid that Xue Yafen would say something unpleasant and make Siting feel wronged.

Siting persuaded, "Don't just think about me, but also think about the children. Zhengnan will not talk about it. If there is a second treasure in the future, ask other people's children to have grandma and grandma. Cen Jin's mother jumped out of a rock. Is it? How can we let outsiders treat us equally if our family is not in harmony? "

Cen Jin thought for a while, then laughed, "Hey wife, Er Bao, do you want a boy or a girl?"

Siting rolled his eyes, "Can you grasp the central idea, can you do reading comprehension?"

Cen Jin pouted, "Okay, let me think about it."

Listening to people's persuasion to eat enough, Cen Xiaojin's advantage is obedience, parentheses, and listening to his wife.

According to Siting's instructions, they took a vacation to go back to Qishi to meet Cen Haitao and Xue Yafen.

It's already autumn, when we get off the train, the northern autumn is blowing in our faces, Cen Jin hasn't been home for five years, and so is Siting, the familiar autumn grass in the air mixed with the smell of soot brings them back to the past, the first love Memories were overwhelmed, and the two of them held hands tightly. Fortunately, after so many years, that person is still there.

Cen Jin wanted to go to the hotel to get a room, but Si Ting said that he had to go home first.No matter what Xue Yafen said, they had to do their utmost to be courteous, and they stayed in a hotel when they were all at their doorstep.

Well, Cen Wife Doting Kuangmo listens to his wife in everything.The two took a taxi back to her childhood home. Xue Yafen had already guarded the door when she received the news. Cen Jin was taken aback when she entered the door. Her mother was obviously old. Although her hair was still black, there were wrinkles around her eyes and a bloated figure. , reminding her that this is an old man in his sixties.

Xue Yafen had a child late, and she was already in her twenties when she gave birth to Cen Jin, but she was a capable person, so she was always young in Cen Jin's heart.

Xue Yafen enthusiastically welcomed the two children in, it was the kind of socialized enthusiasm that Cen Jin could tell, but she couldn't figure out who her mother was really enthusiastic about.

"Your father's work is a little bit busy, I'll be here in a while, I called." Xue Yafen said.

Over the years, she and Cen Haitao had their own lives, and they both changed partners several times, but they never remarried.This time when he heard about Cen Jin's return, Cen Haitao had already expressed that he would arrange a good meal for her. His father was more sincere than his mother, and Cen Jin looked forward to his father's presence. The conversation should be easier.

Cen Haitao arrived not long after. He looked quite energetic, but he also had gray hair on his sideburns. It is said that he managed to be promoted to the vice principal last year, and he will retire in a few years.

The family went to Minjianglou for dinner.That's right, it was the Minjiang Restaurant that Xiao Du used to treat guests back then, and it was still the most upscale restaurant in Qishi after all these years, but when Cen Jin thought of Xiao Du, he felt depressed for a while.

Things are different, and there are not many things that can be left behind in growth, and most of them are cruelly lost.

When Cen Jin's parents heard the news of their two children's marriage, they didn't say much about it. It was like a digression. After a few hums, they began to ask them how their business was doing and whether their life in other places was good.

Siting answered seriously, and Cen Jin secretly held his breath.Her parents are like this. They are both formed in the officialdom. If they don’t say anything clearly, they will trip you up in secret. The meal is almost over. Do they agree with the marriage, attend the wedding, or not? There are no accurate words.

The night was well arranged, Cen Jin and Si stayed in her previous room, Xue Yafen lived in another, Cen Haitao went back to his own home, and he had another apartment in the university family building.Cen Jin only remembered that when she was in college, at least her parents still maintained the same family. She had to adapt to the current situation, and her heart was in a mess.

After taking a shower and climbing onto the bed, Siting poked her, "Go and be with your mother."

Cen Jin shook her head again and again, she never slept with her mother when she was a child, but at this age, she can embarrass herself to death.

Siting sighed and lay down beside her.

"This is the first time I sleep in your room." Siting said.

Cen Jin smiled, she didn't feel much about this room, but thought about that small room for her to think about.

"It turns out that this is the incubation place for my Xueba, I have to quickly inhale the spiritual energy." Si Ting said and took a few deep breaths.

"Why do you inhale spiritual energy, make a primary school bully?" Cen Jin asked with a smile.

"I can use it myself," Siting said.

Cen Jin thought she said it casually and didn't ask in detail.After a day of running around, the two quickly fell asleep.

When Cen Jin woke up the next day, Siting was already up, making wontons with Xue Yafen in the kitchen.

Cen Jin was a little surprised. In her impression, neither of these two people had a relationship with wontons, but maybe it was Xue Yafen's new skill.

Having wontons for breakfast, Xue Yafen said, "Your father will pick you up later and take you to the villa."

Cen Jin went in without knowing it, Xue Yafen smiled, "He bought a piece of land behind the university, he just messed around with it, and called it a villa."

Cen Jin looked at Siting, and Siting hurriedly said, "I'll go to see Teacher Ding in junior high school later, and I won't go with you."

What's the situation... not long after, Cen Haitao arrived, the car was waiting downstairs, Cen Jin quietly said to Si Ting, "Don't take anything seriously, call me anytime."

Si stopped laughing, she was always worried that Xue Yafen would bully her, and she didn't feel relieved after being separated for a while.

Cen Haitao's villa is really exciting, with melons, fruits, pears and peaches hanging all over the branches, and a small fish pond.

"You planted this all?" Cen Jin asked casually.

Cen Haitao said, "No, there are also students who come to help. Remember when Dad took you to see the ore mountain? Look!"

Cen Jin looked in the direction of his finger, it was Nanshan Mountain, behind the mountain was a rich mine, she often went to play when she was a child.

Cen Jin didn't say a word, the childhood memories were too far away to close the distance at this moment.

Cen Haitao smoked a cigarette, but he didn't speak for a long time.

After a while, he said, "Xiao Jin, you and Lu Si stopped getting married..." He paused again as if thinking about something.

Cen Jin pricked up his ears vigilantly, waiting for his statement.

Cen Haitao turned to look at her, "Is it as knotted as you?"

Cen Jin smiled meaninglessly, "If we get married, we will have it."

"Just don't make it news. People these days have ulterior motives," Cen Haitao said.

Cen Jin thought for a while, then asked, "Are you afraid of affecting you?"

Cen Haitao was taken aback, "Oh, that's not it. The main thing is...in what capacity do I participate?"

"As my father." After finishing speaking, Cen Jin realized that Cen Haitao planned to attend the wedding!

Cen Haitao scratched his hair, this action made him look like an old man, and squatting by the fish pond after scratching, he looked even more like an old man.

"It's okay for me to be your father," Cen Haitao said, "Your mother is your mother, but the two of us... You said that we are not in harmony. If it disturbs your wedding, it will be strange. It's awkward. It's still a big city, and you both are the president..."

What do these words mean, Cen Jin pondered for a long time and still didn't understand, her current reading comprehension ability has indeed regressed.

"Then can't you two...be more harmonious?" Cen Jin asked tentatively.

Cen Haitao jumped up all of a sudden, and Cen Jin was startled.

"That's right, that's what I'm talking about!" Cen Haitao said, "You tell your mother not to talk to me, you are already so old, and you are the only child who is going to start a family soon, we are always out of shape , it’s not good for you either!”

Cen Jin reacted for a long time, and understood a little bit, "You mean, you want to remarry her?"

Cen Haitao smiled naively, without denying it.

Cen Jin had a big head and thought it was funny, "No, let's talk about me first, let's say that Siting and I are married, do you agree or not?"

"Then you ask your mother, she has always had the final say in our family."

Hey, Cen Jin was speechless, "Co-author, you asked me to come here today, just to ask me to do something for you?"

"Ah." Cen Haitao agreed and lit another cigarette.

Really, she was convinced.Before leaving, Cen Haitao caught her two fish and told Siting to taste them, "The fish in our north are very fat."

Rensiting is also from the north, okay? It's only ten miles away from our house... Cen Jin wanted to say it but held back, thinking it was a distraction from her husband's family.

Siting had already returned home, sitting on the sofa picking beans, while Xue Yafen was cooking pork ribs in the kitchen.

Cen Jin sent the fish to the kitchen, "My dad caught it for you."

Xue Yafen glanced at it, and didn't know whether it was a "hum" or an "um".

Alas, this task is also difficult. Just as Cen Jin was about to leave, Xue Yafen stopped her, "Hey Xiaojin, mom is asking you."

Cen Jin watched his mother mysteriously float over, and whispered in her ear, "Is your wedding held in Shencheng, or in this city? In my opinion, it's better to hold it at home. There are many relatives and friends, but only a few acquaintances in Shencheng." Ah, let’s talk about how your aunt and aunt will get there, who will pay the travel expenses? Just treat it as your travel expenses, even food and drink..."

"No, wait a minute," Cen Jin interrupted her, "You mean you agree to our marriage?"

Xue Yafen looked at her in disbelief for a while, "Ah!"

Ah, I agreed, Cen Jin heaved a sigh of relief, agreeing so easily made her nervous for several days!

"Let me tell you, Xiaojin, there is no one who lost money for a wedding. How much money our family has gone out these years, and we will not get it back..." Xue Yafen counted favors again, and Cen Jin laughed angrily. Unchanged.

"Okay, I understand," Cen Jin said, "Let me ask you, if you do it locally, aren't you afraid of comments from relatives and friends?"

"Discussion? Funny!" Xue Yafen said arrogantly, "After the wedding, I collected the money and went directly to Shencheng. Who are they talking about? If you have the ability to follow me, who has the ability?"

Cen Jin was dumbfounded, "Why are you going to Shencheng?"

"Look at the baby! Siting said, we will have a second child in the future, and her mother and I will have one!"

Cen Jin swallowed, and Xue Yafen posted it back mysteriously, "Hey, do you think we are from my husband's family or my mother's family? Who will decide between our two families in the future?"

Cen Jin waved his hand, "We don't distinguish between this and that."

Xue Yafen looked her up and down, "Hehe, I think you're talking nonsense, but Siting has an idea."

No, this is the wrong script, I can't even answer a word!

But cannibalism is short, she still has to do something for his father's fish, so she leaned over and said, "My father wants to remarry you."

"Hmph!" Xue Yafen put the lid on the pot, "I remarried him? There are good old men in the south, let him dream!"

As soon as she said that she was still excited, "When you guys are married, I will take care of myself and go to Hong Kong to find you a stepfather who is a god of gambling!"

Cen Jin covered his face and ran out of the kitchen, something was wrong, this house has a demonic aura!

Xue Yafen was about to stew two fish, Siting shouted to the kitchen, "Mom, don't be busy, there is too much meat to finish!"

"Your dad fished it for you," Xue Yafen said, "Eat as much as you can, just eat it fresh!"

"Then let Dad come over to eat together at night!" Siting said.

Xue Yafen "hummed" again, saying "he might have gone to drink again", but put the phone on the coffee table.

Cen Jin looked at Siting in bewilderment, "You...what was your name just now?"

"Call mom, what's the matter?" Siting said, picked up Xue Yafen's cell phone, called Cen Haitao, and said sweetly, "Dad, it's me, Siting. You come back for dinner at night, mom made fish and ribs !"

Not knowing what Cen Haitao promised, Si stopped laughing, "It's okay, we'll wait for you."

She didn't have a father since she was a child, but the "Dad" just now was louder than Cen Jin. Cen Jin stammered and asked, "You and my mother... when..."

"Go and wash the vegetables." Si Ting handed her the picked vegetables, "I'll make a video for Zhengnan, he should be sleeping in a while."

Cen Jin was confused and sent to the kitchen again. Xue Yafen was right, Siting had more ideas than her.

Sure enough, Cen Haitao came in the evening, and brought a bunch of fresh fruits. Siting naturally called Dad to the left and Mom to the right. The atmosphere at the dinner table was much more relaxed than yesterday, and Cen Jin was uncomfortable alone.

"Dad, Mom, why don't you go through the formalities too?" Siting said with a smile, "When the time comes, go to Hong Kong, Macau, Singapore, Malaysia, and Thailand for a honeymoon!"

Xue Yafen curled her lips, and Cen Haitao chuckled, "We are all interested in honeymoon now, but our conditions were not good at that time, and we didn't even have a ringing thing to get married. I took your mother back by motorcycle, and I was choked by the northeast wind!"

"Ahem", Xue Yafen cleared her throat, Cen Haitao looked at her, and did not continue.

"Where are you two planning to spend your honeymoon?" Xue Yafen asked.

Cen Jin shook his head while dealing with the fishbone in his mouth.She was going to come back to fight the group of bears, but she was so harmonious suddenly that she couldn't open her mouth.

Cen Haitao pointed at her and smiled, "I can't spit out spines since I was a child, and I love to eat fish. One year, the fish bones got stuck during Chinese New Year. I choked on steamed buns and soaked in vinegar, but it didn't work. I sent them to the hospital with tweezers to take them out!"

Xue Yafen rolled his eyes at him, and recited some sketch lines in front of his daughter-in-law.

Siting giggled, picked out a piece of fish and put it into Cen Jin's bowl, continuing what he said just now, "We don't have time for our honeymoon, she has to hurry up and prepare for the postgraduate entrance examination."

Cen Haitao looked at Cen Jin in surprise, "Do you want to study?"

Cen Jin nodded.

"What do you read?"

"history."

For some reason, Cen Haitao suddenly got a little excited, and the flesh on his face trembled twice, "Okay! I said you were a student, if it wasn't for your mother back then..."

Xue Yafen stared at him, Cen Haitao quickly smiled, "Good study! Studying is the right way!"

Cen Jin coped with a meal like an imbecile, knew how to eat, and basically didn't speak.

It can be considered that the young couple stayed together until the evening, she asked Siting, "What did you and my mother talk about? Why did she suddenly want to go away?"

"I didn't say it, she wanted to do it herself." Siting said, "Since you went home to recuperate in your junior year, she wanted to do it."

Cen Jin was stunned for a while, "Oh. No...then why are you crying? Hey, you can't do it, ouch, you're still in good spirits!"

Siting cried until the pear blossoms brought rain.Before she asked about Cen Jin's suicide, Cen Jin kept laughing, wearing a wrist watch all day long and refusing to show her the wound on his hand. She only found out when Xue Yafen told her about it today.

That was 100 days after she disappeared, Xiao Du and some friends asked Cen Jin to go out to play, drank wine and sang songs at KTV, everything was fine, Cen Jin didn't come back to the bathroom for a long time, Xiao Du went to look for it, and found a The side was locked from the inside, and blood trickled down the floor.The security guard broke the door, and it was indeed Cen Jin. She followed the eyebrow knife in Xiao Du's bag, and her left wrist was about to be cut, and she was almost disabled.

Xiao Du reported the news to Cen Jin's family. Xue Yafen rushed to Beijing overnight. Fortunately, her life was not in danger, but Cen Jin didn't eat or drink, and didn't want to go to school. The family was really worried, so they took her back to raise her.During those days at home, Cen Jin often went to Siting's original residence, waiting downstairs for half a day.Finally one day I woke up and said I was going to school, but I never went home after leaving.

Xue Yafen said that it was the first time she felt that she might lose her child, and she was afraid.Cen Jin has been single all these years, and has a headache and no one to take care of him, so what's the use of earning more money?She even hoped that Si Ting would come back, at least her daughter would have a companion, and as long as life went her way, she was divorced once, knew what it was like to be alone, and she turned away from many things.

"She sees it all, are you still crying?" Cen Jin poked Siting's back, and the little poor rabbit broke her heart from crying.

Xue Yafen knocked on the door and brought a quilt, "The temperature has cooled in the past two days, so I'll change you to a thicker quilt."

Before she finished speaking, she realized that Siting's eyes were red. Cen Jin was about to thank his mother Long En, but his mother gave her a hard look.

"It's as annoying as your father!" Xue Ju left bitterly.

What?Cen Xiaojin is crazy, her mother started taking care of her daughter-in-law without even taking care of her calf?

Siting laughed this time, took Cen Jin's hand, and took off that piece of Tiffany.There is a scar under the watch, which is not obvious, but I can still imagine the pain at that time.

Si Ting kissed her wrist, his mouth was soft, and tears were pattering.

Cen Jin also kissed her, she didn't like to mention it mainly because she was embarrassed, suicide for love was a bit useless, and compared with what Siting experienced, this was nothing for her.

"But it's a good deal to impress my mother." Cen Jin laughed.

Siting made a "shh" gesture and said in a low voice, "Don't keep fighting with Mom, she is quite pitiful now, and today I listen to her and want to remarry Dad."

Damn it, the two of them hit it off so much, wouldn't it be over if we just slept together!

But Cen Jin's attention suddenly shifted, "Honey, it's really nice to call you Mom and Dad, I'll listen to you if you call me Parents again!"

Siting looked at her indifferently, "My name is Mom and Dad, listen? Cen Xiaojin, are you getting tighter, and you dare to take advantage of me!"

A set of nine-yin white rabbit claws made Cen Jin howl again and again, but her mother seemed deaf this time. As for being so snobbish, what about the majesty and status of her husband's family?

Cen Jin never expected that her marriage would pass without a vote, and the theme of this trip home was to match her parents.

Siting's analysis is correct, Cen Haitao and Xue Yafen are both local people with reputation. Everyone knew about it when they divorced, and they both had a good time with others. It's not easy to say to the outside world.

"The two of them lack a reason to remarry, so you should focus on this reason!" Si Ting secretly pointed Jiang Shan.

Cen Jin thought about it for two days, but he didn't have any ideas. Seeing that he was about to return, and had a farewell meal, Lao Xue and Lao Cen were a little bit jealous, waiting for her to speak.

"Cough", Cen Jin frowned, and pulled away the president's posture, "My house is not big. If you go, you can spare a room at most. If you live in a hotel, it seems that I am not filial. But, It's also inappropriate for unmarried men and women to live in the same room. So, you two can figure it out."

Siting: Cen Er silly, are you persuading peace or quitting? Don't call this IQ my wife!

But Cen Haitao picked it up smoothly: "Don't worry, your mother and I will never do anything inappropriate! Don't you just need a certificate, go to the Civil Affairs Bureau tomorrow!"

Xue Yafen actually smiled shyly, and immediately changed the director's face, "It is my consistent creed not to cause trouble to the masses and not to burden my children."

Siting: This family style, I am convinced.

Before leaving, Cen Haitao packed two large boxes of souvenirs, fearing that the two daughters would not be able to carry them, so he ordered a courier to deliver them before the plane landed.Xue Yafen prepared "hardware" for Siting, the style was a bit rustic, and Cen Jin didn't see it.

"You stay one more day, Mom will take you to the provincial capital to buy a mink!" Xue Yafen said holding Siting's hand.

Cen Jin hurriedly called a stop, "Shencheng can't wear sables, and even wears rabbit fur!"

The two bid farewell to the small town with big bags and small bags. On the way to the train station, Si Ting suddenly stopped for a while, and there was an old friend who didn't look at him.

They turned to the cemetery near the station to see Xiao Du.

The young face stayed at 20 years old, smiling on the tombstone, like a doll.

Xiao Du is the knot in Cen Jin's heart, neither love nor hate, he dare not mention it, Sistop understands.

"I haven't used my mailbox for a long time. I cleaned up the bookmarks last year and found that I can still log in. There is a letter from Xiaodu five years ago. She said, Sister Siting, I'm sorry. If you see the letter, go to Find Cen Jin, she has been waiting for you. My time is running out, please don't blame me."

After Siting finished speaking, Cen Jin was taken aback.

"What do you mean time is running out?" Cen Jin asked.

Siting shook his head, "I don't know either. Is she sick? Or did she take drugs at that time? I later thought that her death might not be an accident, but a long-planned plan. That is to say, introducing Bao Li to you It doesn't matter much to her."

Cen Jin stood there in a daze, transfixed.

"Maybe she knew that time was running out and wanted to have you at the last moment, so she lied to me. It may be a little late now, but I still want to tell her, I don't blame her, thank her for being in your most dangerous place time existed."

Siting put down the bouquet in his hand, and wiped off the dust on Xiao Du's face.

"Xiao Du, thank you."