please walk slowly gl

"Yin'er, I won't. I'll obey you obediently from now on, okay? I'll go find him, and I'll make it clear to him, okay?" Gu Wan hugged her into her arms in panic. What did she do? It became like this.

Liu Yin'er pushed her away, stood up as if she had made some important decision, then turned her head and looked out of the window with a lonely expression and a cold tone, "Ah Wan, you go, being with you always makes me terrified, I have already I’m scared, you go, leave this home, leave Jiuqu County, go back to your capital, I don’t want to see you again, let me go”

Gu Wan looked at the person in front of her in disbelief, no, this is not true, it is not like this, she has been in ancient times for [-] years, and for the first time she felt like crying without tears, "Yin'er, don't do this, I'm wrong It's over, I won't drink anymore." She hugged the person in front of her again forcefully, throwing away her reserve, just to find that sense of security urgently.

"Ah Wan, don't be like a child. I still like your calm and breezy appearance. We shouldn't be together. Let's go home and return to the capital. I'm tired, so just listen to me one last time." Well, let yourself go, also, also... let me go" Liu Yin'er stroked Gu Wan's back, bit her lower lip tightly, every word she said was exhausted with great effort, but Even though the weight of these words made it difficult for her to breathe, she still said them cruelly.

What did I look like before? At that time, I looked down on everything, but because I never had anyone I cared about. Now, because of you, I gradually changed my appearance, but you said let me go home Well, but is a place home without you?

"That's why you came back just like that." Li Yuan looked at the man in front of him who looked devastated, and couldn't believe that the person in front of him was the high-spirited Gu Wan back then.

"Otherwise, what else can I do, maybe this is fine, the two of you are far away, and when you don't have any feelings, there won't be any harm." Gu Wan couldn't help the tears in his eyes as he spoke. , she turned her head and let out a long sigh. How much she wanted to take Yin'er away together, but she was too selfish. Yin'er still had relatives here, not to mention that if she said something, she might get rejected.

Hu Ziyan looked at Gu Wan contemptuously, and said that this is fine, but who can show the pain on her face, "I also think this is fine, otherwise my sister Yin'er is worried about you every day, it's too hard for her."

"Yan'er!" Li Yuan hurriedly interrupted his wife's words, and apologetically cast a caring look at Gu Wan. Her wife's words were too tactful, although she did not say anything wrong.

"Then what is Brother Gu's plan? Going back to Beijing or..." Li Yuan used his eyes to appease Liu Yin'er's aggrieved wife, and asked carefully.

"What else can I do, I'm afraid I will bother you for the time being." Gu Wan sighed again, she never thought that one day, she would be reduced to this kind of situation, life is really unpredictable.

Seeing her talking, Li Yuan always sighed, and couldn't help but also sighed, "Hey, don't be too pessimistic, how can it be so serious, I won't let you go home, go back tomorrow and admit your mistake, as for that Zhao Yunzhong , let's figure it out together"

Gu Wan didn't say a word, and rubbed her forehead with a headache. If Zhao Yunzhong's problem could be solved easily, her wife would not let her leave. The most important thing is that Liu Yin'er's expression and tone at that time blew her courage away. There is not even scum left, how dare you go back again, I am afraid that the lady is determined this time, and she will never leave, hey...

The next day, Gu Wan went to the academy first, and seeing Zhao Yunzhong who was trying everything to talk to her, she was so tired that she couldn't cope, so she said hastily, "Brother Zhao, it's impossible for us, I only have my wife in my heart." Dodging, it really is self-inflicted, if I knew today, why bother.

So she accumulated the courage for a whole day and rehearsed her lines countless times. When night came, Gu Wan finally came to the door of her house in Liujia Village. She knocked lightly on the door, but there was no response. Pushing the door, she found that it was locked. She looked at the cold moonlight, and finally left.

In the middle of the night, Gu Wan lay on the bed tossing and turning, unable to sleep, her eyes were sore from time to time, thinking of the conversation at that time, she suddenly felt infinite panic, what if... what if this parting is a lifetime, a little bit of worry and fear The accumulation made her breathless.

She kept her eyes open and waited for the sky to lighten. After washing up hastily, she hired a carriage and headed towards Liujia Village, planning for the worst in her heart, as if she had some courage.

I have walked this road countless times, and I don't know how many times it was because of my own stupidity that my little lady was left alone. The more she thought about it, the more guilt she felt. Gu Wan stared out of the car window in a daze. How many mistakes do you have to make in your life before you can learn to be a good lover.

When she got to the gate of the courtyard, as soon as she got out of the carriage, she saw someone who was about to go out. Gu Wan's throat tightened, and she couldn't help choking for a moment, and the psychological construction along the way collapsed in an instant, "Yin'er, I... "

"Go back to the room with me." Liu Yin'er looked at Gu Wan who was losing her composure, and hurriedly beckoned her to go back to the room.

"Yin'er, follow me back to Beijing, we can..." Gu Wan's words were interrupted in the middle, so she could only listen.

"Okay, Ah Wan, it's useless to talk too much. I'm really tired. It's because our fate is too shallow. You and I are just called husband and wife. It's probably fate. Anyway, you should take care of it," Liu Yin'er was annoyed Covering his face with his hands, Fu raised his head and looked at Gu Wan seriously, as if resolutely speaking cruel words.

"Yin'er, don't be like this, I wanted to wait until after you..." Gu Wan was interrupted again in the middle of her sentence.

"That's enough, stop talking, I don't want to hear it, you go, don't provoke me again, also, don't again, don't let me see you again" Liu Yin'er pushed Gu Wan to go out, turned around and said Lock the door, please, stop talking, I'm afraid, go live your life, find a man who loves you, it's better than trembling with me.

"Yin'er, I...Okay, I'll go, you...you have to be happy..." Gu Wan stroked her chest vigorously, and there seemed to be an invisible hand inside, tightly grasping her heart, and contracting her heart forcefully. Suffocating, painful.

Liu Yin'er leaned against the door. There was only a wooden door between them, but it seemed like thousands of people were separated. At this moment, she wanted to chase out the door, but she was afraid.

I am afraid that after your identity is exposed, we will suffer heavier things, and those things will crush us. It will be a disaster that we cannot bear. It has always been said that long-term pain is worse than short-term pain. If you never came, just pretend that I never loved.

In Jiuqu County, in front of Gu's residence, Li Yuan and Hu Ziyan snuggled up together, watching Gu Wan's carriage go away, "Ms.

Hu Ziyan glanced at Li Yuan sadly, they must do well in the future, they must not be like Gu Wan and the others.

Li Yuan thoughtfully gave her wife a hug, "Don't worry, Yan'er, Brother Gu, she will return to Beijing safely. Uncle is in poor health, and she should go back to serve her father as a child. We will help her take care of her in the future." Son and sister-in-law.

Hu Ziyan closed her eyes reassuringly, "Silly Mrs., I am not worried about them but us, but I should be worrying too much, her stupid Mrs. will not be greedy for drinking, and she will be dismissive of other men. I am lucky.

On the carriage back to Beijing, Gu Wan watched as Li Yuan prepared good wine for herself. Would it be more worrying to use the wine to relieve her sorrows? But why can't she take a sip at this moment, and even her hands and feet have nowhere to rest. After such an experience, I only hope that time will dilute everything.

Isn't there a saying that goes like this: Time is the best medicine!Gu Wan thought deceitfully.

However, after countless days and nights, she realized that there is a kind of long-lasting pain in this world that nothing can take away, and that kind of pain is called: Unable to love.

(Preface to the capital)

General Li Deguang of Zhenyuan was an unknown young general in his early years. When he was young, he was competitive and brave. By chance, he once rescued a businesswoman. Although he was skilled in martial arts, he was not as tactful as others, so he was only a small soldier in the army. The young Marquis Yu seemed to be suddenly discovered by the commander of the capital, and he rose steadily all the way.

Later, when he made great achievements and was ranked among the generals, he happened to sit at the same table with the former commander of the capital. No matter how unkind and worldly he was, he knew that he should thank him for his support at the beginning, but he didn't want to know the reason for his promotion. the truth.

It turned out that the promotion was not because of his own hard work and luck, but because the Lu family in the capital spent a lot of money to help him manage things up and down. He vaguely remembered that he had rescued a beautiful lady back then. At that time, they hurriedly reported each other's names. What is the eldest lady of Lu's firm.

Later, when he went on a pilgrimage and rewarded the general's mansion, after thinking about it, he decided that it would be better to visit the house to pay his respects. In fact, he also had some thoughts about marrying a wife when he was about the age, but he didn't expect Lu Qin, the daughter of the Lu family, to be married. The daughter of a businessman, she is proficient in everything from piano, chess, calligraphy and painting, and because of her beauty, she also has the reputation of being one of the four talented women in the capital, so when Lang has a concubine who wants to, they got married like this.

Although Li Deguang didn't study much, he was a man who sat on the general's seat, and he was quite capable. Most of the time, he still knew righteousness, so he welcomed Lu Qin as his first wife. Originally, the two got along harmoniously after marriage. It was only a year after marriage that Lu Qin still had nothing to do. Li Deguang had plans to take concubines after coming and going. In fact, it is relatively rare for a man in his position to marry two concubines. Most of the others have three wives and four concubines. So when he welcomed Zhou Wan, who was as famous as Lu Qin and one of the four talented women, into the mansion, Lu Qin didn't care about anything.

It's just that within a few months after Aunt Zhou entered the mansion, the two of them were both pregnant by coincidence. As for Li Deguang, for the so-called inheritance of the family, he talked about having two big fat boys every day, so the two Women also became tense.

When it was time to give birth, Aunt Zhou's child was born one day earlier. It happened to be a boy, named Li Duanyan, and his appearance followed his father's. However, his first wife Lu Qin gave birth a day later. The name is Li Duanru, that is, our Gu Wanlai, but his appearance and temper follow his mother's.

As the two children gradually grow up, their personalities are also completely opposite. One is more literary and the other is martial. As for Gu Wan, after traveling to ancient times for a few days, she probably knew from her mother's words and demeanor that her gender was lied to, so Later, after Lu Qin passed away due to illness, she, who had no intention of officialdom, began to plan to leave the capital all day long, and her father also paid less attention to Gu Wan because he was very happy with his eldest son, Li Duanyan.

When Gu Wan got married by accident, and left home with a letter on the occasion of the wedding, he, the father, was only angry for a moment, as if the child hadn't suffered.

Later, I learned that Gu Wan's life and death were unknown after falling off the cliff. Although she was depressed for a long time, she had paid little attention to her frail young son and hadn't put much affection into it. Apart from the guilt at the beginning, the pain gradually faded a lot. .

But the heart of heaven is unpredictable. Who knew that during this expedition, his eldest son, who had always placed high hopes on him, died in battle, and he fell ill because of this. He thought he would have no children, but was told by Lu Zhi that the man who fell off the cliff accidentally The second son was still alive, and while lamenting that there were successors in the general's mansion, Li Deguang was also worried about his frail body like a Confucian child, and he might not be able to take on a big job.

As for Aunt Zhou, who was immersed in the pain of losing her son, when she found out that Gu Wan was not dead, she immediately worried about the assassination she planned at that time, and Gu Wan might have seen through it.

It's a pity that people's calculations are not as good as heaven's calculations. For so many years, she has worked hard to plan for her son. She thought that the future troubles would be solved, but she didn't expect that the huge family business of the General's Mansion would finally make a wedding dress for that woman's child.

Her son is the eldest son, even if he is favored by the master, he will be inferior to others because he is not a direct descendant. Her son is so good, but he ended up like this in the end. Shi Ye used to be one of the four talented women in the capital. She didn't listen to that man's advice and gave her whole life to this man, but in the end, she got nothing.

The next day, under heavy mental stress, Aunt Zhou sent someone to prepare a sedan chair to go to the Qingshi Taoist Temple in the suburbs of Beijing, not to clear up doubts, nor to ask for prayers, but just to see old friends.

"Sister Li, how are you doing these days?" Seeing the person sweeping the fallen leaves in front of the Taoist temple from a distance, Zhou Wan opened her mouth to call out Sister Li to the teacher in gray cloth, just like before.

"Benefactor Zhou said carefully, the poor nun will follow her" The woman turned around, her appearance was the same as that of Shangguan Qing, only the teacher's face had changed a little bit, it turned out that the teacher of the Qingshi Taoist temple was born in those days Soon after having a daughter, she became the prime minister's wife of a nun.

"Sister Li, I'm here to congratulate you. Qing'er's child is still alive." Zhou Wan tried to smile, trying to put away her unhappiness.

Master Cong Xin turned back to the lobby with a blank expression, listened to the footsteps behind her, raised her head slightly, and closed her eyes in pain, "Why do you force yourself to smile in front of me? With his own good fortune, he can strictly control the child...you"

"Sister Li, why don't you see me outside? Obviously you and I used to be close friends in the boudoir, but since you became a monk for no reason and became such a teacher, why didn't you call me Zhou benefactor? Why bother, now I don't have a son, and the master is also sick, this general's mansion belongs to that son-in-law, and it really fulfills your wish." Zhou Wan felt angry in her heart, and for a while, she was a little bit angry with the teacher.

"Congxin is the name of a poor nun. Donor Zhou said carefully, the world of mortals is too far away from me, but the temperament of the donor really shouldn't compete with others. You don't need to fight for what belongs to you, and you can't fight for what doesn't belong to you. Donor It's a demonic obstacle." Master Cong Xin avoided Zhou Wan's eyes, she turned around quietly, looked at the incense burner, and said the words that she had repeated countless times, and closed her eyes again after the words fell, and put the pain and pain away. The obsession is deeply hidden.

"I want to fight, see what you can do to me." Zhou Wan left again angrily. This is a drama that often plays out between them. In a daze, more than 20 years have passed. She has always been indifferent in front of others. Yes, it's only when I come to this Qingshi Temple that I reveal myself with many negative emotions to my close friend who once indulged me the most.

Mrs. Xiangfu back then, now Mrs. Congxin, watched the graceful and luxurious woman get into the sedan chair and leave, then took another look at her gray cloth clothes, and stared dimly at the distant sky.

"What kind of life does Wan'er want to live in the future?"

"I want to marry a great hero, and then I will be well-clothed and well-fed, and I will take care of my husband and raise my children. How about you, Sister Li?"

"What about me, it's probably a simple meal, and the Qingdeng Ancient Buddha has passed away."

"Sister Li said something stupid again, you are so good, you must marry better"

The words of my childhood sweetheart back then are still in my ears, the life I want most is inseparable from your participation, but what you want has nothing to do with me, then I will always be with you for the rest of your life.

"The reeds are green, the white dew is frost, the so-called Yiren is on the side of the water. Follow it back, the road is obstructed and long, and follow it back, you will be in the middle of the water." The poem is faintly revealed from the mouth, as if telling the thoughts of many years, From it, from it.

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It’s late at night, thanks to the students who never gave up all the way, and thanks to the little angels who grew up together~

The original complaint part of this chapter has been replaced, students should stop cultivating immortals, go to bed early and get up early, there will be worms to eat~