Temperament

Zhou Yunlei's study room is very simple and simple, and there are only those things that are commonly used on the desk, nothing special.There was a row of books on the bookcase against the wall behind her. Shen Qinglan stood up, picked up a book, and flipped through it casually.

Footsteps came from behind him, he turned around, it was Zhou Yunlei.

Probably because of drinking, Zhou Yunlei's face was a little red, and he walked to the desk, saw the closed account books on the desk, and asked, "Check it out so soon?"

"Your accounts are very clear, and it doesn't look like much effort." Shen Qinglan put down the book, "By the way, why don't you stay with Master Gu?"

"Uncle Master is almost finished eating, let me see if you have any questions to ask." Zhou Yunlei thought for a while, and then said: "Next time, you don't have to come here on purpose, you set a date, and I will send you the account book Go to the study, lest you run back and forth."

Very thoughtful proposal, showing concern.Shen Qinglan shook her head, "This is not very good, it breaks the rules." Turning to look at him, "However, thank you."

"Don't say that, it's just a little effort." Zhou Yunlei said sincerely, thought for a while, and then said: "Actually, there are no rules to break, but it's just to look at the ledger. It doesn't matter if you come to the store and send it to your study. .”

Shen Qinglan smiled slightly and lowered her eyes, "I appreciate your kindness, but this is really not good. Now it's different from before. If you walk too close, you may cause trouble."

He originally wanted to say that as the account manager of the Zhuo family, it is not good to get too close to Zhou Yunlei or any shopkeeper who is in charge of a certain store, but after he finished speaking, he suddenly realized that this sentence is in the current There seems to be some other possibility of understanding between them.

A touch of embarrassment fell between the two.The room fell silent.

After a while, Zhou Yunlei sighed, "I'm sorry, I didn't think carefully." After a pause, he said again: "Are you okay now?"

Shen Qinglan was silent and didn't know how to answer.It was just an unintentional talk at first, but when I think of the indirect relationship with Zhou Yunlei now due to Zhuo Tianyi, this uncomfortable atmosphere naturally arises. Obviously, in the past three years, Zhou Yunlei was Zhuo Xinwai Zhuo The most friendly and caring person at home.

Seeing that he didn't answer, Zhou Yunlei considered his words, "I heard from my uncle that Shi Qiming was very uncooperative in the South Street semicolon before?"

"It's nothing, it's just a few disputes." Shen Qinglan didn't want to talk about Shi Qiming's matter, the results of a thorough investigation have come out, and Shi Qiming has offended him to the end, and he can tear his skin apart when he announces it at the meeting.However, that was a matter between their Zhuo family and had little to do with him.

Shen Qinglan replied like this, and Zhou Yunlei couldn't say much, "Senior brother Shi has a special status in Zhuo's family, even the master always tolerates him. It's best to wait for the senior brother to come back and let him deal with his affairs. Don't stand out." After thinking about it, he said again: "If you have any difficulties, just speak up, I..."

Zhou Yunlei couldn't continue, and only now did he realize how hypocritical and useless these polite words that sounded like caring were. Everyone could see Shen Qinglan's difficulties, but no one could help.

But the words had already been spoken and could not be taken back, Zhou Yunlei could only sigh, and stopped speaking, looking at Shen Qinglan with a lot of content in his eyes.

Shen Qinglan kept her face low and silent, looking at the desk case, she didn't know what she was thinking, after a long while, she raised her eyes and said "Thank you", then looked out the window, "It's getting late, I should go back." He stood up, Step towards the door.

This "thank you" and that look made Zhou Yunlei unbearable. The eyes were obviously suffering, but he insisted on doing nothing. Those sufferings were not something that a person of this age could easily cover up.

Pushed by an unknown force, Zhou Yunlei took two steps to the side, trying to stop Shen Qinglan from leaving, "Shen...Qinglan, wait a minute!" He said anxiously, stretching his arms , aware of the inappropriateness of this move, he quickly retracted it, looking a little cramped, which did not fit his daily stable and restrained image.

Shen Qinglan stopped, "You..."

Zhou Yunlei watched Shen Qinglan closely, his chest heaving, and finally asked the question that had been on his mind all this time, "Why did you come back? Did you see Meng Huaiyuan that night at Luoying Villa?!"

Shen Qinglan looked up at him suddenly, her tone turned cold, "I don't want to say this question many times, it doesn't matter if you see Meng Huaiyuan or not!"

Zhou Yunlei shook his head, with obvious pain and uneasiness in his eyes, "But I always feel that it has something to do with me! That night, my brother asked me to let you go, and I carried you for a distance away from Luoying Villa on my own initiative. , I released your acupoints and let you go... After I went back, I found out that Senior Brother also released Jiang Moyan..."

Shen Qinglan's face turned pale, her eyes widened, and after a long while, she said hastily: "Stop talking, these things are not for you to ask!"

Zhou Yunlei looked up at him again, and took a step closer to him, "Shen Qinglan, tell me, is it because of this that you didn't see Meng Huaiyuan? Did Meng Huaiyuan bring Jiang Huaiyuan with him when you arrived at Luoying Villa? Mo Yan left?"

"Stop talking!" Shen Qinglan shook her head vigorously, staring at Zhou Yunlei, "This matter has nothing to do with you, and it's beyond your control. Please don't bring it up again!"

"If you really saw Meng Huaiyuan, I don't believe it, he will let you come back!" Zhou Yunlei shook his head, and continued as if he hadn't heard Shen Qinglan's words, "During the three years you have been in the Zhuo family, I don't care. I believe he will continue to let you live if he knows it!"

"Zhou Yunlei!" Shen Qinglan interrupted him with sharp eyes, "What exactly are you trying to say? Do you know what you are talking about? Have you forgotten the identity of your Zhuo family?!"

"Yes! It's true that I'm from the Zhuo family, but I've also seen your suffering!" Zhou Yunlei said loudly, and took another step towards Shen Qinglan, "Shen Qinglan, I've been guilty all this time, if I didn't let you go more that night then For a certain distance, maybe you are the one who followed Meng Huaiyuan back, not Jiang Moyan. You don't have to come back here again, no..."

"Enough! Don't talk any more!" Shen Qinglan yelled sharply, her face was pale, and her eyes were filled with mist, "Zhou Yunlei, do you know that what you said is not good for you or me ,do you know?!"

"I know!" Zhou Yunlei said painfully, his voice turned soft, "I also know, you have been thinking about Meng Huaiyuan, and you have always wanted to go back to Meng's house, I can see that!" He took another step towards Shen Qinglan, looked Looking at his eyes that gradually changed from stern to helpless, and the tears that overflowed from his eyes, a feeling of guilt and heartache suddenly rose in his heart, "Shen Qinglan, tell me, is it because I made up my own mind? What you did, made you lose the chance to go back to Meng's house, didn't you?"

Shen Qinglan's eyes began to loosen, tears rolled down his face, he leaned back against the door frame, gasping for breath as if he had suddenly lost all his strength, unable to say anything.

In Zhou Yunlei's eyes, this kind of lost soul was full of heartache and unbearable.This thin man has carried all the indifference and contempt on his body with rare strength and stubbornness in the past three years. He never gave in easily, and he has never shed a tear.

He saw with his own eyes the way he told him that he wanted to go to Luoying Mountain Villa with a happy and expectant look that he had never shown before, and he clearly remembered his eager and happy expression asking him if Meng Huaiyuan was here, and he also saw him in the dining room. Under the gaze of more than 100 pairs of eyes, the humiliation of sitting on the man's lap and being forced to swallow the food he was fed was extremely humiliating. I also witnessed him being dragged halfway and couldn't help vomiting until he was picked up by the man and walked away. The residence cannot resist.He saw with his own eyes that he changed from being strong and calm to the present one, embarrassed, helpless, and at a loss.

After drinking, his head couldn't think too much about whether it should be possible or not. Zhou Yunlei slowly raised his hand and stretched it towards the face with two tear stains.Those tears were too dazzling, he didn't want to see them.

It's just that his fingers just touched the wet cheek, Shen Qinglan seemed to wake up suddenly, opened his hand forcefully, stared at him, "Why do you have to ask this? If I say yes, what can you do?! He asked bitterly, "Can you let Zhuo Tianyi let me go? Can you let me go back to Meng's house?! Can you make up for everything I lost?!"

Zhou Yunlei was heartbroken, and stretched out his hands to hold his arms, "Shen Qinglan, I'm sorry, I really didn't expect that my own actions would harm you like this, I..."

"You can't, then don't say it again! Don't mention it again!" Shen Qinglan broke free from his hand, turned around and ran out of the study and down the stairs.

"Shen Qinglan..." Zhou Yunlei chased after him and ran out the door when he heard a voice behind him, "Stop chasing, you won't be able to catch up to him."

Looking back, it was Gu Qingyang.

Gu Qingyang walked up to him and patted him on the shoulder, "Don't think too much, you should know Tian Yi's temper, his things, others can't take a second look at them."

"Uncle Master..."

Shen Qinglan rushed out of the gate, got into the carriage parked by the side of the road, and ordered the waiting servant Zhuo Quan to return home as soon as possible.Zhuo Quan saw that his expression was different and his tone was hasty, so he didn't dare to hesitate, got on the car seat and rode away.

Behind the car, Zhuo Shi'an yelled "Wait for me", and rushed out from the counter in a hurry and lied. He ran out of breath and didn't get into the car. The farther shadow squatted down, "How can I just leave..."

Back at Zhuo Mansion, Shen Qinglan hurried in after getting off the car, her pace became faster and faster, and then gradually changed from walking to running, and finally ran with all her strength, as if something was chasing after her.

He ran into the courtyard where he lived in the East Wing without stopping. He ran into the inner room and locked the door before stopping.

He leaned against the door, panting, and slid slowly down.

Zhuo Xin knocked on the door softly, "My lord, my lord, are you okay..."

Shen Qinglan didn't listen, just sat there blankly, as if petrified.

Zhuo Xin knocked for a while, but couldn't hear the response from inside, remembering that Shen Qinglan was always silent during this time, so he didn't bother, and left lightly.

I don't know how long it took before Shen Qinglan woke up like a dream, raised her hand, slowly wiped her face, and then looked at her fingers.There was nothing on it, only fingers trembling slightly.

Under his gaze, the trembling became more and more obvious, as if he was being pressed by something heavier and heavier, which made him finally unable to hold on.Gradually, Zhou Yunlei's words echoed in his ears, "...If I hadn't asked you to go that long way that night, maybe you were the one who followed Meng Huaiyuan back, not Jiang Moyan..."

The voice repeated over and over again, whirling and getting louder, Shen Qinglan couldn't bear it and covered her ears.There was a blunt knife tearing back and forth in my heart, and the words that followed like a shadow in my ear.

What I always thought about before was what would happen if Jiang Moyan went out to meet Meng Huaiyuan and told him that he wanted to go back at the gate of Luoying Villa that day, no matter whether Jiang Moyan was there or not. What kind of situation would Jiang Moyan see Meng Huaiyuan in the first place?

Maybe it's not that I didn't think about it or didn't think about it, but I didn't dare to think about it, but I was always avoiding to think about it.

At this moment, Zhou Yunlei said it, as if tearing open the unhealed wound in his heart that he had been turning a blind eye to—that possibility.

Just thinking about it like this, the imagining of that possibility is out of control, and I can't stop.

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One of the most painful things in the world is to be stuck in some possibility of the past.In the afterthought, that kind of possibility will be infinitely beautiful, because it can no longer be realized, and that kind of beauty will be even more difficult to give up.Shen Mi has a long road to growth.