Temperament

Zhuo Tianyi stared blankly at him, never expecting such an answer, and panicked for a while, "Qing Lan, Qing Lan, you can't just let go and throw everything away, I gave my life to you Now, you can't leave me halfway like this, I really have good intentions and sincerity for you, I love you, you can't write everything off with one sentence!"

Shen Qinglan shook her head, "Zhuo Tianyi, I now believe in your kindness and sincerity, but I'm really tired. I was exhausted a long time ago, and I couldn't hold on any longer."

Zhuo Tianyi was tongue-tied, looked at him in disbelief for a long while, and then murmured: "A long time ago, you mean..." Some previous events suddenly flashed through his mind, "Could it be that when I was riding a horse that time, there was When swimming, you just..."

"Yes, at that time, I didn't want to persist anymore, I was too tired." Shen Qinglan turned around and took two steps on the stone path under the moon. There was a stream of hot liquid in his chest, and his mouth was full of fishy smell. He swallowed hard. Next, after exhaling slowly, he looked back at the overlapping shadow of himself and the osmanthus tree on the ground, as if talking to himself: "In fact, this is the case in life, whether it is long or short, it will pass. , early and late, what is the difference?"

Zhuo Tianyi's hands on Shen Qinglan's shoulders fell into the air, and his whole body seemed to have been immobilized. He stared blankly at Shen Qinglan's back in the moonlight, feeling that he was really powerless this time. Desperation like never before, "Are you so unwilling to be with me? I gave you my life, and you didn't feel the slightest touch? Unexpectedly, Shi Qiming really hit the mark, I gave you my life , you will be too dirty. Shen Qinglan, what is your heart made of, why is it so hard? Can you stop being so stubborn?!"

Shen Qinglan didn't look back, and sighed endlessly, "Zhuo Tianyi, in fact, you are just as tough and stubborn, and you always like to impose on others. I don't want your life at all, I don't want it."

He shook his head, "You have given too much and too much, and I can't refuse it. I really can't bear it. I'm already very tired, and I can't go on... Let me go, okay?"

Zhuo Tianyi felt bitter in his heart, the dull pain in his chest came and went, and the hot and humid feeling passed down his body, "So you have to give up your own life to give me back the life I gave you, yes no?"

He looked at Shen Qinglan, and took a step towards him with difficulty, "You are so ruthless to me! If you don't want it, you are tired, and you can't go on, just leave me behind like a useless thing. Don't think about it, how painful and sad I will be? You can't be so desperate, Qing Lan!"

Shen Qinglan lifted the wine jar and took a sip mouth to mouth, then took two steps towards the stone path under the osmanthus tree, and sighed: "People always have to be responsible for what they do, just like, I hated you for coercing me back then." Same, but no matter what, I cannot deny that it is indeed I who want to come back, and it is indeed I who accepted your request to threaten me with Meng Huaiyuan's life and gave myself to you..."

After the wine just went down, there was a fiery tumbling in his stomach, he finally couldn't help it, a fishy heat came up and gushed out of the corner of his mouth, "...So, I don't hate you, everything is my own will. Now, I let it go, you can let it go too."

These few words were like stuffing a handful of ox hairy needles mixed with Coptis chinensis powder into Zhuo Tianyi's heart, and the bitterness and pain raged for a while.Shen Qinglan's willingness is naturally not the willingness to commit herself to herself, but the willingness to pay endlessly for Meng Huaiyuan.

Now that he has let go of his love for Meng Huaiyuan, then, along with it, his hatred for himself will also disappear with the wind.For himself, not to mention love, even hatred is derived from his love for Meng Huaiyuan.

Only at this moment did I understand that the real ruthlessness is not viciousness, not false speech, but the emptiness of turning a blind eye, listening but not hearing, nothing exists.

It's a pity that at the beginning, I foolishly used that method of coercion and coercion to get him, and then I was complacent about Shen Qinglan's chaos in front of his strong strides. Now he has shouldered everything and gave up everything. There is no point of focus for the offense, and all efforts are in vain.

"But I can't let it go! I admit that I was bad before and shouldn't force you like that. But then I really fell in love with you, really! Qing Lan, look at me, my sincerity lies in you In front of you, take a look, maybe you can find the idea to continue, I beg you, take a look at me, okay?" Zhuo Tianyi's breathing became rapid, his eyes were slowly turning black, and his body shook a few times before hold on.

Shen Qinglan was still staring at the front in a daze, and said nothing for a long time before she sighed, "Zhuo Tianyi, don't be so persistent..."

"Qing Lan!" Zhuo Tianyi interrupted him, he didn't have much strength to listen to Shen Qinglan's rejection, he had to say everything in his heart, took a deep breath, "Don't you think it's a pity? How can you say you are tired? There are so many things you haven’t experienced, so many tastes you haven’t tried, how can you be willing to leave? go?!"

He was out of breath, countless snowflakes danced in front of his eyes, and Shen Qinglan's figure became blurred, "Why... don't you look at the one in your hand, among other things, you have me in your hand, my life, and my love Your love and sincerity... No matter how cheap these are, Jiu Ling and Bi Yuan can't get them after trying their best... But I am willing to give it to you, and I want to give it to you. Meng Huaiyuan didn't give it to you, and I can't give it to you Your...for these, no matter how much you care about them, you should take a look, try...try it?!" Zhuo Tianyi was dizzy for a while, the clothes on his chest were already soaked, he held the stone table with his hands, So as not to fall down.

Shen Qinglan noticed something in his speed of speaking like a race against time, swayed his body and turned around, Zhuo Tianyi's face was frighteningly white under the moonlight, and a mass of darkness flowed down his chest.

A mouthful of viscous liquid overflowed from the corner of Shen Qinglan's mouth, and she sighed: "Zhuo...Tianyi, why is your love and sincerity always so heavy and pressing? You are always like this. Make people afraid, make people want to escape?"

"I don't... know," Zhuo Tianyi let out a breath, and tried to open his eyes wide to look at Shen Qinglan, "I really don't know... I just know that I love you, and I want to give you everything I can, Pamper you and indulge you...I want to keep you by my side, so that you can fall in love with me too, and you can't leave me..."

Shen Qinglan shook her head lightly, "But I don't love you, and I don't want to love you... It's not that I can't stay by your side and keep going... But you are too aggressive, you want too much, you scare me... ...I just want to live this life in peace, I don't want to love anymore... You are always forcing me, and you are plundering me until now, Zhuo Tianyi, you will leave me with nothing..."

"Did I push you too hard? I'm sorry, that wasn't...my intention, no...it was my original intention at first, and it was all because of...the influence of Jiang Moyan and Meng Huaiyuan...that made me only want you heart, let you quickly fall in love with me..."

Zhuo Tianyi became a little incoherent, his body began to feel cold, and the golden stars danced in front of his eyes, "But... But later, I really fell in love with you, and I also want you to love me... There is nothing wrong with this, but you have been Reject me...I have no choice but to...I promise you that I will never force you in this way again, I just ask you not to give up, stay and give it a try, okay?"

The dark color on his chest had already soaked into the hem of his robe, and his figure swayed from side to side, as if he was about to fall down at any moment.Shen Qinglan looked at him deeply, the fiery pain in her heart seemed to be twisted together at this moment, piled up on her chest and rolled upwards, and the thick hot liquid from the corner of her mouth flowed faster and more violently.

Life is like a river that flows endlessly. Shen Qinglan always thought that the final destination of his river was the same as the Qianlong River, which was the sea, where Meng Huaiyuan was.He has been marching towards this destination, but the river of fate twists and turns, and everywhere is full of ups and downs that force the river to turn and change direction. Meng Liren and Zhou Yunlei are all there.

Zhuo Tianyi was even more like a cliff falling from the sky, ruthlessly intercepting and falling in the middle of the river, causing him to slam into it so hard that his head was bruised and his eyes stared like gold stars, and he could no longer find a way out to the sea.

Now, he has let go of the goal of running to the sea, he just wants to stop, and under the scorching sun, turn into light smoke and curl away.But Zhuo Tianyi still blocked him, he had to let him stay and turn into a lake around him.

He walked over slowly, sighed softly, "Zhuo Tianyi, why are you so..."

Zhuo Tianyi closed his eyes vigorously, then opened them fiercely, his gradually blurred vision was temporarily cleared by this movement, under the bright moonlight, Shen Qinglan's complexion was pale, his lips were chapped, he stretched out his hand tremblingly, and stroked his thin cheek , the corners of the chapped mouth, came to the red dripping on the chin and chest, "Why do you treat yourself like this? Do you know how much I will feel sorry for you like this? No matter how rough the way I treat you It's too much, but in my heart, I never want to see you like this..."

His eyes were red and his voice was hoarse. He kept wiping it off with his hands, but the viscous liquid couldn't be wiped off anyway. In the end, the red stained with his hand mixed with the red left from covering his chest before, indistinguishable from each other.

"Qing Lan, Qing Lan..." Zhuo Tianyi leaned over, leaned close to Shen Qinglan's face, and kissed the blood that kept flowing, a hot tear fell on his lips, melting into the blood, the salty The feeling diffuses into the lips and tongue.

Shen Qinglan stood firmly in front of him, eyes closed, and the faint helplessness in her heart slowly spread throughout her body.

Zhuo Tianyi wrapped his arms around his shoulders, and kissed his lips lightly with blood-stained lips.Despite the darkness in front of him, he still tried his best to open his eyes wide and looked at the person in front of him, "Qing Lan, I am the head of the Zhuo family after all, not a worthless wretch... Seeing as I'm almost tossing my life for you... For the sake of love, give me a chance, and give yourself a chance, let me prove to you that I love you, it is no longer plundering, it is no longer asking, I will not let you have nothing, I will make you happy, Make you happy; let me prove to you that there is not only one way to go in life, let the past let him pass, you are not a proton, I am not the suzerain, there is no Meng Huaiyuan, and there is no Jiang Moyan, only you and me, we love each other , together, live a lifetime, okay?"

Shen Qinglan's sour heart seemed to be slowly tightened by a thin thread, love each other, be together, live a lifetime, these were the words that he most expected and longed to say from Meng Huaiyuan's mouth a long time ago, now Speaking from the mouth of another person whom he regards as an enemy and has been alienated for so long, life is like a play, too impermanent.If he still agrees, he doesn't know if he regards Meng Huaiyuan as his only self, and after waiting for so long, he will be able to extract the confidence and courage to accept it and start over from the ashes that finally fell to nothing.

Thinking about that kind of situation, I will feel extremely difficult, "Zhuo Tianyi, I'm tired, I don't want to encounter mountain torrents, I don't want to wait any longer, I don't want to be disappointed anymore, I am afraid of many things, many things..."

"My love for you is not a mountain torrent, nor will I make you wait and let you down, I am right next to you, I want to be with you...we walk together, ride horses together, swim together...will not let you down Being alone and lonely will not make you afraid... I will face and solve those things, and I will solve them. You just need to look at me and think about me..."

"Are you sure that you love me, not because you want to love me and think you're really in love with me? Between you and me, I'm afraid..."

"Qing Lan!" Zhuo Tianyi interrupted again, he was almost out of strength to say a few more words, put down his hands around his shoulders, and held his tightly, "I know...you still don't believe me , I will make a promise with you... Give me one year, one year, let you, and let me figure out everything... If, by then, you still can't fall in love with me, or I find that I am not If I really love you, then I will let you go! I keep my word! Even... even if you want to go back to the Meng family at that time, I promise you... I will call all the martial arts sects and let them be witnesses. Write it down in black and white, and give you back your freedom...I'll send you back to Meng's house in person, okay? Okay?"

Zhuo Tianyi murmured, and finally couldn't hold it anymore, his eyes darkened, and he fell to the ground, holding Shen Qinglan down with his tightly clenched hands, letting him throw himself on top of him.

Zhuo Tianyi panted quickly, and before he passed out completely, he said in a low voice: "Even if you still want to be with Meng Huaiyuan at that time, I promise you... I killed Jiang Moyan, and let you follow Meng Huaiyuan." He...together...promise me, don't reject me again, I really...can't hold it anymore..."

His voice became softer and weaker, and finally he fell into a coma.

"Zhuo Tianyi, Zhuo Tianyi..." Shen Qinglan called out softly, stretched out her other hand to caress Zhuo Tianyi's paper-white cheek, but unfortunately there was no warmth on it, it was no longer what it used to be. Lively and energetic.

A tear fell down her face, and more bright red liquid gushed out of her mouth. Shen Qinglan bent down and fell beside Zhuo Tianyi.

The tired body relaxes, allowing the spirit to dissipate more quickly.Shen Qinglan looked up to the sky, around the silver moon, surrounded by a few sentimental gauze clouds, dotted with stars in the sky, peaceful and quiet.

Confused, he slowly closed his eyes, and before he passed out, two words rang in his ears, life is full of love and infatuation, this hatred has nothing to do with the wind and the moon.

Suzhou, Meng's family.

Meng Huaiyuan left the study and walked towards the atrium.Under the bright moonlight, everything in the courtyard stood silently, only the irritability in my heart rushed left and right, with no way out.

From time to time, the contract on the case in the study flashed before his eyes, and the signature on it was taught by him stroke by stroke. Just by looking at it, one can recognize it from the sea of ​​thousands of characters.

He can imagine the scene when those two hands wrote these three characters, the posture of holding the pen, the process of moving the pen, the movement of closing the pen, every step and every gesture, he can imagine it in detail.

But, why was it written in that place, and why were those three words written?I never thought of this, and what I didn't expect was that after watching it, I found that I was in such a situation where I couldn't let it go, and I couldn't bear it.

I don't know how to solve it, and I don't know how to face this situation that may still exist in the future.

Meng Huaiyuan hesitated in the court for a long time, unable to let go, he simply took the sword from the study, and practiced each move under the moon.

The moonlight was clear and soft, and the sword light flickered sharply.

After the last recruitment, the irritability in my heart has not gone away.He threw the sword on the ground and walked to the edge of the pond. In the ripples caused by the wind of the sword, the full moon shattered into pieces, unable to take shape for a long time.

Qing Lan, Qing Lan...

(End of the first part)

The author has something to say: There is love and infatuation in life, and this hatred has nothing to do with the wind and the moon.The difference between bitter wind and rain, violent storm, and gentle wind and drizzle lies in the way we look at them, and the starting point of this kind of vision is the real need in our heart.

Shen Mi, who has seen enough of the bleak wind and rain, will finally usher in the moment of gentle wind and light rain amidst Mr. Zhuo's storm. Whether this gentle wind and light rain can turn into spring rain and dew to nourish life remains to be determined and tested by time.

Because the text is too long, the plot of the following article has little to do with the proton, but has to do with the agreement, so it is divided into two parts. The following stories of Zhuo Zong and Shen Mi will continue to be told in "Love Covenant".

I have followed some news this week and thought a lot about it.Love is a very complicated thing, and what remains constant is the satisfaction of the psychological needs of both parties in love.However, although human needs have basic laws to follow, such as the division from low to high levels and the natural appearance of low levels satisfying high levels, they are still very complicated in general.

Some people like rumbling, some people expect a long flow of water, whether it is a rumbling rumble or a long flow of water, it is everyone's need for belonging and love.The complexity of human love lies in the fact that it seems difficult to have both rumble and long flow, and it is also difficult to say which one you prefer. Maybe you long for rumble at a certain period, and look forward to long flow when you are tired. Maybe I will yearn for Rumble again.

Everything comes from needs, and the scenery along the way also comes from the unremitting pursuit and feelings in the heart.

Whether it is momentary or eternal, it is the same in a sense.There are many kinds of love, a lifetime that flows slowly is love, and a rumbling three to five years is also love.

People can not only be attracted by the traits in their lover that they don’t have, but also be attracted by all the traits in their own that are outstanding in their lover. The former comes from everyone’s subconscious pursuit of a complete personality, and the latter comes from of self-acceptance and love.

In other words, everyone has two needs that complement each other and restrict each other in their hearts. They need to be accommodated by heterogeneous things and stimulated by homogeneous things.But no one is perfect, and the needs of tolerance and stimulation are often impossible to obtain in the same person.

The pain in love arises from this, and the unpredictability and splendor of love also arise from this.

This text is purely emotional and has nothing to do with the plot.Thank you for your support, that's all for "Emotional Quality", and see you in "Love Date".

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