Once Fallen

Mi Nan never knew that Pei Chengran would go abroad after graduation. At that time, he was too naive and innocent, the throbbing of puberty had just sprouted, and he was immersed in secret love all day long. many.

He grew up with a golden spoon in his mouth, and his family would bring ready-made ones to him for everything, and he never had to take the initiative to fight for anything, which faintly formed his temperament of passive waiting.

Mi Nan never thought of confessing his love when he was secretly in love, drawing a few sketches of Pei Chengran every day and posting them on the forum was already his biggest initiative.

He still fresh in his memory of Pei Chengran's cold face, and he was even more worried that he would annoy others if he kept getting close to him.

This secret love lasted for a year. During the summer vacation of the second year of high school, he got the news that Pei Chengran was going to study abroad during the chat at the dinner table.

He froze immediately, and asked with a pale face, "When did it happen?"

"You mean the country?" Mi Yu said, "Just a week ago, Pei Yao and I sent him to the airport."

Mi Nan's mind went blank, and he asked dazedly, "Why... haven't you guys mentioned it before?"

Mi Xi gave him a strange look, "It's not a big deal. Is it necessary to mention it to you?"

Mi Nan lowered his eyes to eat, and mechanically chewed the sweet and sour carp. There seemed to be something wrong with his sense of taste.

Pei Chengran's departure caught him off guard, and this joyful admiration ended without even a chance to speak.

Mi Nan was lying on the bed, feeling a strange pain in his heart, flipping through the sketches he had posted on the forum.

A little ironic, a little sad.

He liked her, but he didn't even know that he was going to study abroad after graduation, or even when he left.

If it wasn't for the casual mention by the eldest brother, he would still be in the dark, guarding his self-righteous liking like a fool.

There are too many things that can happen in four years, enough for Pei Chengran to find a like-minded girlfriend...or boyfriend.

The love in college was more stable than that in high school. When she thought of their happy love, Mi Nan couldn't breathe.

He seems to be doing something wrong.

Pei Chengran didn't know this liking from beginning to end, so what's the point?

Mi Nan was in a daze for a while, put Pei Chengran's WeChat at the top, and checked his few circles of friends countless times every day, but in the end he didn't even have the courage to send a message.

So what?

He and Pei Chengran have never met each other in these years, maybe they don't even know who this WeChat account is, and it's just a shame.

First love is often difficult to let go, Mi Nan tried to get out, but when he came back to his senses and realized that he had unconsciously drawn Pei Chengran's appearance repeatedly in his notebook, he knew he had fallen victim to it.

At least until he meets the next person who fascinates him, he will not be able to forget this boy who has known him for many years and once fascinated him.

After entering university, his painter has been quite good, and he started to receive some commercial drafts on the Internet, and drew different paintings every day, but the only constant habit was to draw Pei Chengran.

Mi Nan thought that with the passage of time, Pei Chengran's appearance would gradually fade in his mind, but it didn't.

Every time I pick up the pen, the boy's handsome face will automatically appear in front of my eyes. Without thinking at all, the boy's face appears on the paper.

Although Mi Nan has an iPad, he prefers the texture of paper, and draws one by one. During his four years in college, Pei Chengran's drawings took up two full boxes.

The content of each book is the same person, line draft, draft, gouache, watercolor, finished and semi-finished products...

Even though they were thousands of miles apart, Pei Chengran still filled Mi Nan's life.

There were quite a few people who pursued Mi Nan in college, but the young master of the Mi family had a high vision. No matter how handsome and excellent an alpha was, he still lacked something in his eyes.He couldn't tell exactly what was wrong, maybe after having a reference, no one could compare with the person in his heart.

After Mi Nan knew that he was going to marry Pei Chengran, he cleaned up the house all night. He was surprised when he sorted out two large boxes of manuscripts in the room. Years, love with no hope in sight.

Lovesickness and the sun became his nourishment, this rose grew slowly in a place that Pei Chengran couldn't see, and he couldn't wake up in the secret love that couldn't see the sun.

After dinner and returning home, Mi Nan went into the studio to rummage through boxes and cabinets, trying to find the two boxes of drawings.

He searched for a while but couldn't find it, so he raised his voice and shouted, "Brother Chengran! Where did you put it?"

Since he moved here, he hasn't thought about arranging these paintings, they were all arranged for him by Pei Chengran when he moved.

"Under the cabinet, the third one from the left." Pei Chengran was heating chicken soup in the kitchen, and frowned slightly when he heard this, "Don't move, I'll get it."

"No! I found it!"

The sound of rummaging through boxes and cabinets in the room disappeared, and the inside returned to calm.

When Pei Chengran went in with the chicken soup, Mi Nan sat cross-legged on the floor, flipping through a sketchbook in his hand. There were several sketchbooks lying on the ground, and two half-person-high boxes next to them were opened.

Mi Nan looked at it seriously, until the shadow of the man enveloped him and blocked the light before raising his head.

Pei Chengran looked down at Omega's smiling face, and handed the chicken soup in front of him, "Drink the soup."

"I don't want it," Mi Nan refused, "I just finished eating, and you feed me like a pig?"

Pei Chengran: "...It will be cold later."

"Reheat when it's cold," Mi Nan tugged at Pei Chengran's sleeves, and moved to the side, "Sit down, and I'll show you the sketches from my college days."

Pei Chengran put the bowl on the table, followed his strength and sat down, hugged him from behind, resting his chin on Mi Nan's shoulder, his breath was filled with the sweetness of omega.

"I drew this when I first entered college," Mi Nan looked at the figure playing basketball on the screen, and the time left in the lower right corner brought his memory back to that moment, "I should have just entered college at that time, see When someone plays basketball on the playground, I think of you playing basketball."

He flipped through a few more pages, all of which were Pei Chengran dribbling in his school uniform. It could be seen that he was practicing body perspective, focusing on drawing limbs and raising cats, and even mentioned clothes and so on.

Pei Chengran hummed, put his hand on Mi Nan's stomach, and stroked it.

"How many books have you read?" Mi Nan leaned comfortably in Alpha's arms, "You probably haven't finished reading it, have you?"

During the meal just now, Pei Chengran said frankly that he watched Mi Nan while he fell asleep on the sofa the day he helped Mi Nan move.

Originally, he didn't want to spy on Mi Nan's privacy, but it was probably his own arrangement. The moving company's hands slipped when he carried the box in, and the contents inside scattered all over the floor.

At that time, Mi Nan had already fallen asleep. In order not to disturb him, Pei Chengran closed the studio door and tidied up with the people from the moving company. The sketchbook lay on the floor and opened a few pages. Pei Chengran saw himself in various periods in the sketchbook.

From the sports meeting to the whole school speech, from the coolness of summer to the bitterness of winter.The boy's handsome face changed from jerky to mature, and his figure became taller and taller.

Mi Nan opened another book, and the first page was filled with all kinds of scribbled drafts, "I haven't seen you in college, I only imagined it."

In the painting, Pei Chengran is wearing a suit and pulling a tie with one hand. The excitement and possession in his eyes are well portrayed by Mi Nan, as if seeing the prey he has been coveting for a long time.

Pei Chengran has a unique charm in Mi Nan's pen, which lacks a bit of sophistication and stability, and adds the painter's strong personal emotions. There is a bit of ruffian frivolity in his brows and eyes, young and youthful and wanton publicity, mixed with painting hands longing for him.

"I don't seem to know how to do this kind of action." Pei Chengran stared at the wickedly smiling person in the notebook, and said calmly.

Mi Nan also knew that this painting didn't fit the character design, but the smile on that face didn't violate harmony, "I know, I just haven't seen you smile like this, so I imagined it, and it turned out to be quite handsome." of."

Pei Chengran didn't answer, and continued to turn backwards. A naked, tough, and muscular drawing suddenly appeared, with smooth undulating lines, outlining the man's perfect figure. The belt was untied, and the deep-cut mermaid line went down. Extending, the jungle is looming, and a part of the male/huge size is revealed...

"——!" Mi Nan shrank his pupils sharply, trying to close the drawing book, but was pushed down by the person behind him.

"What's this?" Pei Chengran seemed to be interested suddenly, with an indistinct smile in his tone.

Mi Nan's face was flushed red, and he put his hands on the notebook, explaining in a pretentious way: "No...it's nothing! I scribbled!"

Pei Chengran held Mi Nan's hands that affected his sight, and asked with great interest, "Is this also your fantasy?"

"..." Mi Nan couldn't answer, obviously she already had children, but she was still too ashamed to look at the previous drawings.

"Then do you think it matches what you imagined?" Pei Chengran whispered in Mi Nan's ear, teasing and teasing, insisting on letting him tell the reason.

Mi Nan lowered his head, his face and neck were completely red, and Pei Chengran, who spoke yellow accents, made him overwhelmed, and he covered his face and wanted to tear the painting into pieces.

"Nan Nan," Pei Chengran said in a low voice, with a little temptation, he took his hand and touched it into his clothes, his abdominal muscles hardened, "Do you think you can draw correctly?"

"..."

The bumpy feel in his palm made Mi Nan's fingertips tremble, and he was too ashamed to say a word, so he buried his head in Pei Chengran's neck and pretended to be dead.

Pei Chengran lowered his head and bit Mi Nan's earlobe, and left a tooth mark on the tip of his teeth, "You can't pretend to be dumb."

Mi Nan bit her lip, her voice was like a gnat's opening.

The evilness in Alpha's bones was fully displayed at this moment, "I can't hear you clearly."

"..." Mi Nan couldn't bear it anymore, and raised his head angrily, but when he met the man's burning gaze, he felt guilty again.

He closed his eyes, bit Pei Chengran's shoulder in embarrassment, hesitated for a while, and then leaned into Pei Chengran's ear, with an unconscious temptation, "I...not at all, brother Chengran's figure Better, and... bigger."

Pei Chengran's eyes darkened, his Adam's apple rolled, and the pheromone mixed with the sweet woody smell of roses invaded the omega's skin, and his voice was hoarse, "Then do you like it?"

"I like it..." Mi Nan's voice swirled in his throat, "I really like everything about Brother Chengran."

Pei Chengran pinched Mi Nan's chin and kissed it. It was the first time that he devoured his lips and tongue so fiercely. The rough action caused Mi Nan pain, but a shudder ran up his back.

Mi Nan was lying on the floor, surrounded by paintings from the past four years. His eyes were blurred, and he stared absently at the warm yellow light source on the ceiling. His hands impatiently scratched ambiguous red marks on Alpha's back.

The pheromones are thick and sweet volatilizing, Mi Nan's sweat is full of sweet floral fragrance, her flexible and firm legs are wrapped around Pei Chengran's waist, and her slender and delicate neck is lifted up, the red marks on it accentuate the man's eyes. in the lust.

Weeping murmurs came from the studio through the crack of the door, and the bowl of chicken soup turned from hot to cold, and was completely forgotten by the two of them in the end.