Delay first love

There is a faint fragrance lingering in the nose.

At the first smell, it looks like gardenia, but when you smell it carefully, you can smell the fruity aroma of peach. The two flavors do not interfere with each other. Fruit, eager to taste.

Every time Zhong Ye approached, Lu Jincheng could smell it.

It might be pheromones, Lu Jincheng thought.

His emotions returned to calm, he lowered his head again, and met Zhong Ye's panicked gaze, as well as the tears in his eyes, it was obvious that Zhong Ye hadn't recovered yet.

Zhong Ye's whole body was tense. He was very afraid that Lu Jincheng would go crazy again. In the middle of the night, if Lu Jincheng went crazy in his room and broke things, how would he face Lu Jincheng's family tomorrow.

No one would blame Lu Jincheng, they would only say that Zhong Ye was restless after being under the fence.

Thinking about it, the eyes began to pantothenic acid.

How could he be so unlucky.

He has been Yao Yan's marionette for so many years, and he has been a doormat for so many years, just to maintain his parents' marriage, but in the end the family still broke up. In the end, only Yao Yan and Zhong Jiaming were free, and he was still firmly controlled.

You can't be an art student, you can't read comics, you can't make friends online, you have to follow your mother's wishes even if you break a bone, and stay carefully in the home of a rich man you've only met once, just for the convenience of a bathtub and smart toilet.

What's the point of being alive?

Lu Jincheng suddenly felt wet on his lower abdomen.

Zhong Ye cried.

Zhong Ye hugged his waist, buried his face on it, weeping silently, his shoulders were still trembling, looking so pitiful.

Lu Jincheng regretted too much, he had no time to care about the perfect impression he wanted to leave in Zhong Ye's heart, which was shattered again, Zhong Ye was still crying, and seeing Zhong Ye's face, he was even more flustered, so nervous that he squatted down suddenly , Zhong Ye's arm had no place to rest, so Lu Jincheng asked him to put his hands on his shoulders, and then stammered, "I'm sorry, did I scare you?"

Zhong Ye was completely immersed in his own world, looked at Lu Jincheng tearfully, and nodded angrily.

"Don't smash things." He begged Lu Jincheng again.

"Okay, okay, I won't smash it, I'm sorry, I'm sorry," Lu Jincheng wiped the tears on Zhong Ye's face with a tissue, but Zhong Ye avoided it, he just frowned, and Lu Jincheng felt that he had made a heinous mistake.

He tried his best to slow down his voice, and coaxed: "Did I scare you? I'm sorry, I won't hurt you, I just... just can't help but want to smash things, but I will definitely not hurt you. "

Zhong Ye wiped away his tears and said angrily, "Then you might as well hit me!"

Lu Jincheng was at a loss for words.

"How did I know you have so many minefields? We've only known each other for a few days, and I don't know you well. I praise you every word, why are you still angry?" Zhong Ye whimpered and complained, completely stopped Can't come down: "You can't control your emotions, you smashed this place to pieces, this is your home, of course you don't care, but what should I do?"

His volume was low, but his tone was intense.

It is obvious that Lu Jincheng is the person who scares him the most in this house, but in the dark night at three o'clock in the middle of the night, Lu Jincheng has become the only one he can confide in, because he knows that Lu Jincheng hates him, which is the best. The relationship was the simplest and most direct, and suddenly all the emotions surged up, and Zhong Ye lashed out at Lu Jincheng as if death was at home.

After he finished speaking, Lu Jincheng did not respond for a long time.

Zhong Ye knew that he was finished.

He knew that there were only two outcomes after the fire. Lu Jincheng drove him out in a rage, or punched him to death on the spot.

No matter which result, Zhong Ye will accept it.

He closed his eyes tightly, waiting for Lu Jincheng's trial.

But after half a minute, there was no movement in the room, and even the invisible alpha pressure disappeared. Zhong Ye opened his eyes tentatively, and saw Lu Jincheng with a regretful face.

"you--"

"I'm sorry." Lu Jincheng said again.

Zhong Ye's tears fell from the tip of his chin, and hit the back of Lu Jincheng's hand with a thud.

"You wait."

Lu Jincheng suddenly got up and went out, Zhong Ye was still in a daze, within half a minute, Lu Jincheng came back quickly, took a glass of water, and then stretched out his hand to Zhong Ye.

He held two small white pills in his palm.

"I'll take the medicine now, don't worry."

Before Zhong Ye could react, Lu Jincheng put the pill into his mouth, and Zhong Ye's heart hung in his throat again. He grabbed Lu Jincheng's hand and asked him in panic: "What kind of medicine is this? What are you doing?" Taking medicine indiscriminately?"

"I have been taking anti-biodepressive drugs for more than three years."

Zhong Ye was relieved, heaved a long sigh of relief, patted his chest and sighed: "You really—"

"Are you still afraid now?" Lu Jincheng only cared about this.

Zhong Ye picked up the quilt to cover himself, and lay down facing the wall, "Well, don't be afraid anymore."

Lu Jincheng stood beside Zhong Ye's bed for a long time, until Zhong Ye started to feel drowsy and his eyelids could no longer hold up, so he turned off the light and left. When he got up the next day, Yao Yan brought breakfast to Zhong Ye's room, and when he opened the door, But Zhong Ye heard Lu Yue's voice from the dining room: "Jin Cheng hasn't woken up yet?"

Aunt Wang replied: "I didn't see him come down."

Then came the sound of Lu Yue's footsteps going upstairs, and Zhong Ye also felt suspicious. After a few minutes, Lu Yue hurried down and asked Aunt Wang: "Sister Wang, is there anything unusual these days? Are you still emotionally stable?"

"Nothing unusual, I didn't see him lose his temper."

"Then why did he suddenly start taking medicine again?"

"What medicine?"

"Just..." Lu Yue stopped suddenly, and then changed his words: "Gao first took the medicine to relieve his mental stress intermittently, and then stopped when he felt that the side effects were serious. He stopped taking the medicine for half a year. How could he Suddenly started eating again? Could it be that the mental pressure is too great?"

"What are the side effects?"

"He gets very sleepy when he eats. Forget it, let him sleep. I'll go and say hello to his class teacher. Sister Wang, leave him a breakfast. If he wakes up, just say that I have invited him for a day." Take a break, rest at home."

"Okay, ma'am, don't you want to eat?"

"I have another meeting."

Lu Yue put on his coat and went out, Zhong Ye held the bowl, thinking of what Lu Jincheng said last night.

——I'll take the medicine now, don't worry.

What was Lu Jincheng's mood at that moment?Zhong Ye didn't know, he just felt that his heart was chaotic and complicated, several emotions were kneaded together, and he couldn't find the root cause.

"Mom, I want to go home."

"hold on."

"I don't want to wait anymore, Mom, please send me back, I don't want to stay here for a moment."

Seeing Zhong Ye's resolute tone, Yao Yan didn't want to confront her son anymore, and she didn't want Zhong Ye and Lu Jincheng to have another conflict, so she had to compromise: "Okay, I'll call your dad tomorrow and ask him to pick you up."

Zhong Ye managed to survive until the next day. Before leaving, Xiaoxi hugged the painting she had drawn and ran to Zhong Ye. She crawled to the bedside, hugged Zhong Ye's neck, and asked Zhong Ye aggrievedly: " Brother, are you leaving?"

Zhong Ye hugged the little guy and comforted him, "Brother will come to see you in the future."

"Brother, this is a gift from me."

Xiaoxi stuffed her own painting into Zhong Ye's book, then went back and hugged Zhong Ye's neck again. The grievance became worse and intensified: "Brother Zhong Ye, what should I do if you leave? I don't want to stay with my brother."

Zhong Ye couldn't help but laugh.

Yao Yan came in to pack her things, but Xiao Xi was still complaining, complaining passionately. Halfway through hearing the sound of footsteps, the little guy stopped suddenly, and then desperately shrank behind Zhong Ye.

It's Lu Jincheng.

Lu Jincheng was carrying a kraft paper bag in his hand. He didn't enter the room, but just put the kraft paper bag by the door, and said, "Here are some notes I made when I was a sophomore in high school. I put them in order. You can read them when you get home. Messed up."

Yao Yan went up to thank Lu Jincheng first, but Lu Jincheng's eyes stayed on Zhong Ye.

Zhong Ye lowered his head.

He didn't know if it was suitable for a formal farewell based on the relationship between the two of them.

Moreover, he was not very interested in Lu Jincheng's gift, not as good as Xiaoxi's painting.

Zhong Jiaming brought a friend from the mahjong parlor and drove over to pick up Zhong Ye in a van. After all, it was still March, and Zhong Ye was wearing thick clothes, which made it inconvenient to move. In addition, he was wearing a splint on his leg. Not knowing what to do, Zhong Jiaming and his friends stopped several times on the way, huddled in the corridor to rest, Zhong Ye almost rolled down the stairs, busy until the afternoon, Zhong Ye returned to his bed as he wished.

He woke up after a nap and wanted to go to the bathroom. When he was jumping on the wheelchair, he caught a glimpse of Lu Jincheng's kraft paper bag from the corner of his eye.

Anyway, idle is idle, Zhong Ye reached out to get it.

He paused as soon as he opened the bag, there were no notes at all, but a bag full of comic books.

It is the same series of works by the author of the set of comics that Zhong Ye asked a friend to order.

Lu Jincheng may not understand comics, but he has a lot of money, and he put his tablet and charger in it, and attached a note: I have charged money on several comic sites, if there is no you If you want to see it, you can send me a message. I'm really sorry for scaring you that day.

Zhong Ye stayed for a long time.

After reacting, he sent a friend request to Lu Jincheng, and the verification message read: Don't take medicine indiscriminately in the future, go to bed early at night.

The author has something to say:

I'm so busy today that I don't touch the ground, I will definitely make up for it tomorrow, I will post four!