Jin Jiaxuan 2: Poem of Silence

"It's okay," Jin Xu felt that his brother seemed to care about this matter, so he took the initiative, "I'm sure not as handsome as my brother."

When I was in college, the squad leader made a video call with his brother in the dormitory. His brother's appearance amazed all the police students in the dormitory, including Shang Yang and Jin Xu.Brother's factory settings are handsome, unlike the simple and straightforward Jin Xu, who succeeded in counterattacking by making efforts the day after tomorrow.

The elder brother may see that the person concerned is so modest and has no intention of comparing his beauty with him, so he didn't say anything else.After a while, he said that he wanted to give Shang Yang something, so he got up and went inside to get it. The squad leader seized the opportunity and said quietly: "Actually, I think Jin Xu is more handsome, and my brother is a bit... a bit bitch. If I choose, I want to grow up like Jin Wook."

Jin Xu: "..."

Brother and Shang Yang belong to the same type of handsome guy, with fair skin and handsome facial features, they can all be classified as pretty boys.

Shang Yang didn't feel that he was shot, and even made fun of the squad leader: "Don't be cowardly, tell me in front of your brother, and see if he doesn't kill you."

"Shhh, keep your voice down." The squad leader revealed his brother's faults behind his back, and said, "You seem to be very calm, don't you? Jin Xu made him handsome when he came to study last year, and then said it several times. See you again It can't be compared. Before you came this afternoon, he even called a teacher Tony to come to his house to do his hair. He also wanted to do it for me, but I refused...it's a bit expensive, and my hair doesn't deserve it."

Jin Xu: "..."

Shang Yang drank Moutai until his eyes were dazzled, and he said with a smile: "I can't afford to lose so much? Brother can't."

The squad leader reminded: "Slow down, keep down."

Jin Xu said: "Squad leader, look at my new sweater."

Shang Yang: "?"

"It's beautiful," the squad leader boasted, "The coat you are wearing today is also very beautiful. I noticed it as soon as I walked in. Isn't it cheap?"

Jin Xu said: "I don't know, Shang Yang just bought it for me yesterday. Fortunately, he was busy writing the report this afternoon, otherwise he might have to find Teacher Tony to do my hair for me."

Shang Yang: "..."

"Really?" The squad leader laughed and pointed at Shang Yang, "You can't afford to lose? You can't either!"

At this time, my brother came out with a very delicate gift bag, and Shang Yang, who couldn't afford to lose, wanted to sue on the spot: "Brother, your brother said you..."

Before the word "mother" could be uttered, the squad leader interrupted and covered his mouth: "What good things did you take? Show me quickly, what good things do you want to give Shang Yang?"

My brother gave the gift bag to Shang Yang, and Shang Yang opened it. It was a bottle of perfume and a keyboard, both brand new and unopened.

"Why is this so embarrassing?" Shang Yang became polite and forgot to sue.

"Don't be shy, help me, take it quickly." After seeing what it was, the squad leader said, "He spends money indiscriminately, hoarding things all day long, and he forgot when he hoarded too much. This time, I will clean up the house. When it came out, he had three or four bottles of the exact same perfume."

Jin Xu laughed beside him.Shang Yang: "..."

Shang Yang asked: "Why do you even need a keyboard?"

But the keyboard is my elder brother who heard from the class monitor that Shang Yang has tenosynovitis, so he specially bought him a pair of ergonomic keyboards—this one’s factory settings are seven points handsome, three points shopaholic.

Shang Yang was very moved and said on the spot: "My brother is the most handsome!"

Then there was a major change in the positions of everyone present, and Shang Yang and his brother became the same group.

When talking about decorating the house, Shang Yang praised his brother's aesthetics, and the two also talked about the color of the soft furnishings.

Jin Xu and the squad leader couldn't get in the conversation, so the two chatted about other things.

"We want to raise a kitten," said the squad leader. "My brother thinks they are quite expensive, but he is afraid of buying a backyard cat. If you want me to say, it's better to go to the street and pick up a stray cat and raise it."

Jin Xu didn't understand, so he asked, "What is a backyard cat?"

After hearing this, my brother explained what a backyard cat is.

At this time, Shang Yang remembered Jin Xu's disobedience in the afternoon, and used the topic to play up: "Why don't you understand anything?"

Jin Xu: "..."

"Don't pay attention to them." The squad leader stood on Jin Xu's side, and said, "We are just dirt, not like they are all foreign-style people."

Just as Jin Xu was about to say something, the class leader said, "If you don't take the refresher courses, you won't be able to go. You should still write homework. I put a lot of effort into the questions. As long as you do it carefully, you will pass the exam in the future. Let me talk about it first." Well, I won’t give you water for scoring.”

Jin Xu: "..."

After ten o'clock, Shang Yang and Jin Xu left the squad leader's house. The squad leader kindly called a special car for them and sent them to the gate of the community to get on the bus.

"It's good to know you," Shang Yang held the monitor's hand, and said sincerely, "In the future, when I have time, I will take my brother to my house to play, let Jin Xu cook a full banquet for you, and let my dog ​​perform fire drilling for you." lock up."

Jin Xu said, "Elizabeth and I are going to run overnight."

Class monitor: "Ha ha ha ha."

Jin Xu forcibly separated the hands between Shang Yang and the squad leader, and said, "Go home, it's so cold, let the squad leader go home quickly."

Shang Yang was pushed into the car by him, and he bid farewell to the squad leader. The squad leader worried: "Did he drink too much? You have to take good care of him when you go back...don't bully him."

"No." Jin Xuyu said earnestly, "Squad leader, you should worry about yourself first."

Squad leader: "...?"

"What did you say to the squad leader?" Shang Yang said to Jin Xu as if the car had restarted after driving a certain distance, "The squad leader is really nice, and my brother is also a nice person."

Jin Xu said: "A keyboard bought you?"

Shang Yang said seriously: "There is still perfume."

Jin Xu saw that he didn't seem to be able to load any wisdom, and didn't want to be laughed at by the driver, so he stopped talking to him.All the way back home without a word, Shang Yang called the dog when he entered the door: "Bai? Come to meet Dad!"

Jin Xu: "..."

Shang Yang remembered that the dog was not at home so he had to give up, took the gift bag from Jin Xu, walked to the sofa, dismantled the perfume and keyboard, pressed the keyboard and put it aside, took out the perfume and sprayed it twice , and liked to say: "That's right, my brother's aesthetics is online, and the fragrance taste is also very good."

Jin Xu said: "Almost, I've praised him all night."

"It's worthy of praise!" Shang Yang pointed the perfume at Jin Xu and wanted to spray it on him, but Jin Xu immediately avoided it, a little unhappy.

Shang Yang said: "What's wrong? You're not jealous of others, are you?"

Jin Xu said: "No. Do you want to drink water? I'll burn it."

"Don't drink..." Shang Yang said again, "Let's drink some."

Jin Xu took the electric kettle to boil water, and Shang Yang followed like a small tail. When Jin Xu stood in front of the side cabinet where the kettle was placed, he leaned out from behind Jin Xu's left shoulder to look at Jin Xu, retracted, and looked at Jin Xu again. Look over your right shoulder.

Jin Xu still had a sullen face at first, but within half a minute, he failed and said with a smile, "What are you doing?"

As soon as Shang Yang saw him smiling, he hugged him from behind and said, "Look at how handsome you are."

Jin Xu said, "I'm not as handsome as my brother."

"I didn't say that," Shang Yang said, "I also said that you are not jealous, but you are jealous."

Jin Xu said: "We ordinary believers, seeing human high-quality men, shouldn't we be jealous?"

Shang Yang laughed and said, "What have you learned online? Why are you so eccentric?"

Jin Xu stopped talking.Not to mention jealousy, a little sourness is true.

"Hey," Shang Yang said with the volume and tone of a whisper, "I came out with the squad leader."

Jin Xu: "..."

After Shang Yang finished speaking, he felt embarrassed, so he leaned his face on his shoulder and said, "I understand why you love to come out to others so much... It doesn't feel bad, and it's kind of cool."

In fact, Jin Xu didn't particularly like to come out to others, usually he was spotted by others, and he was surrounded by criminal police, so it was hard to hide it if he wanted to.But at this moment, he was too lazy to argue with Shang Yang, and pinched Shang Yang's hand on his waist, feeling happy.

"Tell them about this business trip..." Shang Yang mentioned that Jin Xu was named into the supervision team by the master of criminal investigation, and said, "You have always been very good, but this time it feels different from what you said before. The squad leader is also very happy about how great you are and what achievements you have made. No matter how great you are, you are the light of our 09-level security team. Tonight, at that dinner table, I am the most proud of you. I am the only one with this qualification. "

He said with emotion: "It's great to be able to tell others openly that there is love between us."

The water boiled and the pot stopped, and no one cared about it.

"Do you know what it means to be remembered by a master of this level?" Shang Yang said, "Maybe it won't take long, at most three to five years, and you will really come to be my leader."

Jin Xu said, "It's not that exaggerated."

"Yes." Shang Yang immediately cited a few examples of characters and said, "You are really amazing, unlike me, you are just a piece of trash."

"Why do you always say that about yourself? How many people are at your level at this age?" Jin Xu said.

"Then I'm not as good as you. I'm far behind you in some aspects." Shang Yang said, "Comrade Xiaojin, you can achieve everything you dreamed of. You work harder and are better than most people. I am This is one of the vast majority of people, so..."

He paused, and then continued: "Stop treating me as a dream."

Jin Xu held his hand and turned to look at him with surprise in his eyes.

"I'm not drunk, at least I'm sober now." Shang Yang said with a smile in his eyes, "I wanted to tell you this when I was on a business trip. I was too busy and forgot."

Jin Xu said: "I don't understand...I don't really understand."

Shang Yang said: "I didn't understand it before. I thought you were obsessed with wanting to take a big vacation. You just wanted to rest. Come and live with me for a while while you rest. You said you would live and work with me, but you only thought about it in your dreams. I don’t even understand yet. It’s this business trip. I’m talking about your company. You said you don’t want to talk about it, and you don’t want to be reminded to go back sooner or later. I’m stupid. It took me a long time to figure it out. Do you often feel that you don’t Opportunity came up to be with me? Whether it's living or working together, you don't have such hope anymore."

Jin Xu: "..."

"Yes," he said, "the day I was transferred to the archives room, I felt that it was useless. Even if my superiors later told me to go back, Gu Fei would talk to me, and I knew very well that I had little hope, so I stayed in the provincial department and worked hard. , is my career ceiling. You are always far away from me, maybe you were once close, it is an illusion, like a carrot caught in front of a donkey, but in the end you are still far away..."

"No." Shang Yang said, "You only care about your own feelings. If you see a little bit how much I love you, you won't think so."

Jin Xu saw that his eyes were misty, and there was a kind of innocence in his expression, knowing that he was still quite drunk, he said perfunctorily: "Maybe. Do you still drink water? If you don't drink, you will be cold."

Shang Yang said: "What's wrong?"

"I'm not happy to talk about this," Jin Xu said, "You just want me to admit that I have low self-esteem, I just have low self-esteem, so what if I admit it?"

Shang Yang said angrily: "Will you listen to people? If you don't listen, forget it, I won't tell you, and I won't tell you in the future."

Jin Xu confessed again: "Say, go on, I didn't see that you love me, of course you love me, when you didn't love me before, it was different from now."

"Why is it different?" Shang Yang said, "I haven't changed."

Jin Xu said: "When we first got together, you just saw that I was handsome and would make you happy, and you also sympathized with me when I was a child without father and mother... Don't think I don't know, you just look at my face and love being coaxed , and return to Our Lady."

Shang Yang: "..."

Jin Xu said: "It was only later that I became more sincere to me. It was your father who was sick. You dumped me and separated from me for two months. In the end, you still thought I was good and hated me. What's so good about me? I'm handsome. I can coax people, I'll treat you as one..."

"Get lost!" Shang Yang stopped being coquettish with others, and stopped talking about love with others, and said, "Talk to you well, what are you talking about all the time! Are you turning over old scores? Remember to hate me Did you mention breaking up? Then you mention breaking up, mention it immediately, go back to the provincial office as a soldier, I can't leave you anymore?"

Jin Xu: "..."

Shang Yang strode to the side of the sofa and sat down, he was so angry that his seven orifices were smoking, after all, he hadn't passed his energy yet, he was almost dizzy.

Jin Xu brought him a cup of hot water and said, "Are you angry?"

"Get lost." Shang Yang scolded the person, took the water and drank it, the water temperature was just right, it was clear that Jin Xu had mixed it for him, and instinctively broke out in politeness, he said, "Thank you."

Jin Xu: "..."

"You're right." Jin Xu sat down next to him, released the signal for peace, and confessed, "That's what I thought. I went to the archives room, and it's just one thought every day. It's all over. I thought about it before. , worked hard for more than a few years, and sooner or later there was a chance to be promoted, it was all gone, and it was useless. If you only thought about taking a big vacation, it would be a dream come true... For a few years in a different place, if you really like someone else, then Break up with me once, and I admit it, it's not a white dream after all."

Shang Yang was holding the glass of water, his hands were shaking with anger, and he was also a little sad.

"I'm on a business trip, so I don't think so." Jin Xu suddenly groaned and said, "I'm so famous in the Criminal Investigation Bureau, it's what you said, I have the opportunity to make you a superior, and the first thing to do when the time comes is the unspoken rules." You little deputy director."

Shang Yang was still a little drunk at first, and his mind was not spinning too fast. Now he can't tell which of this guy's words is true and which is teasing himself. For a moment, evil came from his guts, and he was about to splash the water in the glass with his hand With a look on his face, the other party quickly snatched the cup away.

"You wet the sofa," Jin Xu said, putting the water glass firmly on the coffee table, "I have to clean it up in the end."

Shang Yang pointed at the door and said, "You won't let me live in my house anymore, you leave."

Jin Xu said, "Where are you going?"

Shang Yang said: "Go wherever you like, I won't be with you."

"Don't scare me." Jin Xu said, "Then I'll live at the monitor's house? His house is so big."

"You are angry with me!" Shang Yang pulled Jin Xu's face with his hands, flattened and rounded that handsome face, and said, "Angry! Get angry quickly! You are mad at me!"

Jin Xu endured it for a while, his face couldn't take it anymore, he hid back with a smile, and said, "Tomorrow you will forget about it."

"I won't forget!" Shang Yang rushed after him, chattering endlessly, "It's useless to be handsome, it's useless, let me tell you, if I don't talk to you, I won't be with you, and I will break up with you immediately. "

Pinching his face and pulling his hair, he straddled Jin Xu with his legs apart, and suddenly looked at him with his face in his hands, and said, "You are so handsome, I will be fascinated by you for the rest of my life."

Jin Xu: "..."

Shang Yang thoughtlessly said: "You are more handsome than the monitor brother, who looks like a zero."

Jin Xu burst out laughing, and said, "He's a 1."

Shang Yang: "???"

His current mind can no longer understand what this means. He thinks about it again and again, and then thinks of the fruitless topic of love, and said: "Don't belittle yourself, I don't want you to admit that you are inferior... Please don't put me As a dream, treat me as your ordinary lover, okay?"

Jin Xu originally thought he was drunk, but suddenly he was stunned, stared at him for a while, and said, "I want to kiss you...or you can kiss me."

Shang Yang smiled at him and cheered up: "Okay, I'll come."

After that, the thing that made Shang Yang angry in the afternoon happened again, and one person was disobedient, and he did what he was asked to do and did what he was not asked to do several times.

The next day, Shang Yang woke up distorted, feeling as if he had been disassembled and reassembled several times, thinking it was a hangover, he didn't take it seriously.

When he came out to wash, he saw Jin Xu drying the freshly washed sofa covers there.

"Did I vomit on the sofa?" Shang Yang said in shame, "I'm sorry to cause you trouble again."

Jin Xu said: "No trouble... I just said you will forget it."