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Li Du stayed in the store every day recently, and didn't come back until night. Jiang Yuzhou never took the initiative to look for him again, and he never knocked on Jiang Yuzhou's door again.

He resented Jiang Yuzhou in his heart, but he was hopeless because he was moved by a lamp that had not been extinguished in the alley when he was walking at night. Ever since he knew that he was afraid of the dark, Jiang Yuzhou installed a large wattage lamp at the gate of the courtyard.

Even in their current state, Jiang Yuzhou would still turn on the lights before he got off work.And he secretly noticed that every time he entered the yard, the light would go off.

He didn't want to be affectionate because he thought Jiang Yuzhou had feelings for him because of a lamp, but he couldn't explain Jiang Yuzhou's behavior that night.

That night he borrowed wine to confess that there was clearly something in Jiang Yuzhou's eyes, and those who didn't know thought he was the one who couldn't love him.

However, if Jiang Yuzhou liked him, why didn't he say it.

Recently, the two courtyards are very clean. No one came to his courtyard, and Zhou Ping seemed to have not been to Jiang Yuzhou's side for a long time.

The infatuated person lives here like years, but the days are still going on. Li Du received a call from home early in the morning asking him to go back to celebrate the Gregorian New Year.

He stayed in Jincheng for nearly a week before returning to Yunzhou, but when he reached the alley, he stopped, and the man he hadn't seen for a few days was standing at his door smoking.

Jiang Yuzhou didn't know how long he stayed here, cigarette butts spread all over the floor, his cheeks and nose were a little red because of the low temperature.

"elder brother?"

Li Du walked over quickly, only to realize that Jiang Yuzhou was in poor condition.Jiang Yuzhou's eyes were red and bloodshot, his beard looked like he hadn't shaved for a few days, and his lips were peeled and chapped due to excessive lack of water.

Seeing him coming back, Jiang Yuzhou turned his face slightly, raised his hand to extinguish the cigarette on the stone wall, and then dragged him into his arms without saying a word.

Li Du's brain was a little dazed, he forgot to breathe, and after the numbness of the scalp passed, he realized that Jiang Yuzhou was holding him in his arms, and there was a tendency to hold him tighter and tighter .

The excitement and joy in his heart died before it rose, because he found that Jiang Yuzhou's breath gradually became unstable, and he made a sound similar to a puppy whimpering.

Then the moist skin on the side of his neck also confirmed this to him, Jiang Yuzhou cried.

Li Du tentatively raised his hand to wrap around Jiang Yuzhou's waist, and patted his back with the other hand, trying to comfort him a little.

After a while, Jiang Yuzhou seemed to realize his gaffe, and slowly let go of Li Du.

Li Du took Jiang Yuzhou home, he didn't know what happened, so he could only fidget and accompany Jiang Yuzhou, waiting for him to speak.

Jiang Yuzhou put his arms on his legs, lowered his head and said nothing, in a very resistant posture.He took out a pack of cigarettes from his pocket, and started looking for a lighter again. After the cigarette was lit, he asked Li Du if he minded as if he had just recovered.

Li Du said he didn't mind, Jiang Yuzhou didn't continue talking, just smoked one after another, his eyes were red.

His whole body was slumped, and Li Du's uneasiness became more and more intense. He tentatively raised a hand to cover Jiang Yuzhou's back, and it was cold to the touch.

After smoking a pack of cigarettes, Jiang Yuzhou reached into his jacket to look again. He searched his pockets for a long time but couldn't find it. Then he asked Li Du in a hoarse voice, "Is there any more?"

Li Du doesn't smoke, but he also knows that Jiang Yuzhou's smoking method is no different from suicide. He gently squeezed Jiang Yuzhou's fingertips, "Brother, smoke less, you smoked a box."

Jiang Yuzhou seemed to have just realized that Li Du was holding his hand. He stared at the hands of the two without focus, and then gently held Li Du's hand back.

"Do you know how I got this scar?" Jiang Yuzhou spread his palm to show Li Du the scar on his right hand.

Li Du shook his head and said he didn't know.

Jiang Yuzhou didn't explain to Li Du the cause of his hand injury, but said after a moment of silence, "Everyone in the team has been injured."

After Jiang Yuzhou said this sentence, he became silent again. After a long time, he asked Li Du if he had any wine.

Li Du got up and went to the cabinet to get a bottle of high-alcohol wine. He thought that alcohol might make Jiang Yuzhou feel better.

Jiang Yuzhou opened the wine and was about to pour it into the glass, but for some reason, he missed the bottle of wine, and the glass shards mixed with the alcohol-smelling liquid exploded under their feet.

Before Li Du could react, Jiang Yuzhou's eyes turned red.

He subconsciously stretched out his arms to wrap around Jiang Yuzhou's shoulders, and hugged him tightly.Jiang Yuzhou was much taller and stronger than him, but at this moment he was like a wounded beast, nestling in his arms and weeping uncontrollably.

Jiang Yuzhou's voice was muffled in his throat, and he repeated a sentence intermittently.

Li Du heard it clearly, but he didn't understand it.

Jiang Yuzhou said, "Old Zhou is gone."

It took a long time for Li Du to find his voice, "What did you say?"

"Zhou Ping died."

Li Du understood, the child who was much younger than him was gone, without leaving a word.He drank tea here a few days ago and told him that he wanted to ask for help.

Moisture filled his eyes, Li Du blinked, and the youthful but determined old Zhou appeared in front of him.

He thought that the reason why heroes are heroes is that they throw their heads and blood in dark and dark places in exchange for cleanliness under the sun.

Jiang Yuzhou calmed down after crying hysterically. He sat in the small living room of Li Du's house for a long time.

"Dare to set an example for the soldiers and never give in." Zhou Ping clenched his fists and swore to join the team as if it was just yesterday, and this young man fulfilled his oath at the cost of blood.

The undercover operation failed, and Zhou Ping was stabbed more than a dozen times, but he did not betray the organization until the last moment of his life, but his comrades could not reveal a word to the outside world.

People only know that Zhou Ping died for the country, but they don't know what he did.

After Zhou Ping was killed, Jiang Yuzhou quarreled with his superior, Lao Wu, and then lost the battle with helpless heartache.

He asked the stupid question, "Does it have to be him?"

Old Wu said, "He is a new face, only he is the most suitable."

Jiang Yuzhou had no choice but to repeat palely and feebly, "He's only 20 years old."

"You were only two years older than him when you joined the team. Would you shrink back because of your young age? You wouldn't, and neither would Zhou Ping."

Old Wu said: "Sacrifice is inevitable."

Jiang Yuzhou didn't know that sacrifice was inevitable, but he couldn't accept the sacrifice, even if he later became the captain of the Fifth Special Forces.

Jiang Yuzhou's mobile phone on the table buzzed, but no one cared about it.

Before Li Du recovered from Zhou Ping's sacrifice, he heard Jiang Yuzhou say to him in a hoarse voice, "It's not difficult to like you."

The sky was getting dark, the lights were not turned on in the room, Jiang Yuzhou's expression couldn't be seen clearly, and this sentence was also very abrupt, but Li Du knew that he was answering his question that night.

He didn't ask Jiang Yuzhou why, because even if Jiang Yuzhou didn't say anything, he got the answer. It's not that he doesn't like this person, but he always puts him first.

"Then you stay with me." Li Du said slowly, it was just an ordinary statement, but it made Jiang Yuzhou's eyes red again.

Jiang Yuzhou said: "Zhou Ping's parents have been asking why their son died as a soldier. Maybe one day, you will ask the same question, but no one can give you an answer."

"Then I won't ask, all I need to know is that my man passed away with honor, that's enough." Li Du didn't let go of Jiang Yuzhou's hand. He didn't look at Jiang Yuzhou, but said this seriously.

"If necessary, I will sacrifice for my country, what will you do then?"

"Then keep the ashes of your body, and let me be mediocre by nature, so I can't be a hero."

Jiang Yuzhou thought, after all, he was still too selfish, and he surrounded such a good Li Du with a few words.

A text message lay unobstructed on the phone interface, with only two words: "Approval".

After a short silence, Jiang Yuzhou stood up, "My child, I have to go now."

Li Du didn't say anything to stay, he stood up and helped Jiang Yuzhou straighten his collar.

"Is it dangerous?" he asked.

Jiang Yuzhou smiled slightly, and stretched out his hand to rub Li Du's hair, "It's a little dangerous, I might not be able to come back."

He squeezed Li Du's fingertips lightly, and said in a steady voice, "So come and leave a last word with the one you like."

Li Du nodded and didn't speak, but stopped Jiang Yuzhou before he was about to go out.

"elder brother."

Jiang Yuzhou turned around to look at him, just that one look made him hurt for many years.

One of them is inside the house and the other is outside, separated by the moonlight and lights, as if they are standing in two different time and space.

Li Du stood by the door without any expression on his face, neither sad nor disappointed, he just looked at him calmly, as if he was always here waiting for Jiang Yuzhou.

Live or die.