Your heart's desire

Luo Yan's words came one after another, which made Lin Ying's mind a little dazed.

However, he obviously had a posture of controlling the overall situation, and he didn't care about Lin Ying's reaction at all.After speaking, he pulled a jug of wine on the table towards him, and pushed the other jug ​​towards Lin Ying.

Lin Ying felt uncomfortable and didn't have the heart to argue with him.

In the past, he had concerns about dealing with people, fearing that if some master caused Jin Shicai's trouble because of him, he would really be a white-eyed wolf who would repay his kindness.Therefore, for fear of being drunk and causing trouble, he always refrains from drinking at all.

Also because of this matter, all the officials in the court thought that he was not easy to get close to, so they went far away and did not deal with him much, which was a way to kill two birds with one stone.

But speaking of it, although he doesn't drink alcohol on weekdays, he is often influenced by the phrase "using alcohol to relieve his sorrows". Right now, he feels uncomfortable, and the smell of alcohol draws out his thoughts.

In addition, Luo Yan fanned the flames: "Take a sip, you will be with me, drink it, and you will feel better!"

Repressed for a long time, and now he no longer has any worries, he raised his arms and put them on the edge of the jar.He raised his head and gulped it down violently, but he coughed and spewed out most of it.

"Slow down, no one will compete with you!" Luo Yan reached out to pat him on the back, and then wiped the wine spilled from his chin with his sleeve.A look of pampering.

The other half went into the throat, and I only felt a burning sensation, and the whole body began to feel warm, but in an instant, it turned into teardrops and overflowed from the eye sockets.

The halo of the candlelight was a bit blurred, Lin Ying suddenly woke up from the calm, pushed Luo Yan's arm away with all his strength, and choked up and shouted.

"Why, tell me why, why you people are born to be able to decide the life and death of others at will, but I have worked so hard, so hard, but I still can't do anything!"

He seemed to be very greedy for the feeling just now. After a while of roaring, he didn't seem to have thought about asking for any answer. He tried again desperately, and spewed out again as expected.

He went back and forth many times, filled his mouth and nose with wine, and finally when he was a little drunk, he finally couldn't bear it, and smashed the wine jar to the ground with a bang, and his whole body seemed to collapse completely. When I first woke up, I was even more out of control.

He was sobbing, his heart trembling non-stop, following the heaving and falling of the fox fur he was wrapped in, the choked up sound was like a sharp long knife, directly hitting Luo Yan's heart.

Luo Yan seemed a little at a loss for a while, usually only others can coax him, such a cold and vicious master like him is really not good for persuading others.

However, he had no choice but to scratch his head and scratch his head, remembering what other people said on weekdays.

After thinking about it for a while, he finally acted like a cat drawing a tiger, raised his hand and caressed Lin Ying's head, and said softly: "Well, don't cry, don't cry, we are not good people, you don't need to get angry with us!"

His technique was a little rusty, and Lin Ying already felt uncomfortable after he moved a few times. He turned his head slightly to one side and wanted to shake off his hand, but after hearing what he said, he suddenly fell silent, and turned his face away in a daze. glance at him.

The tear-stained face looked heartbroken, and in his early twenties, there should have been innocent and lively longing in his eyes, but instead, there was an unspeakable loneliness and despair.

"Ok?"

Luo Yan had doubts in his heart, not knowing what his reaction meant, so he stared blankly at him for a while.Then suddenly remembered something, put his hand into his bosom, and slowly took out a bag of things.

Putting it in the palm of his hand, Luo Yan showed a very gentle and warm smile that he had never seen before, with bright eyes, white teeth, and radiant eyebrows.With a short distance away, Lin Ying couldn't help but take a few more glances at that stunning appearance.

While smiling, he pulled the corner and slowly pulled it apart.Lin Ying took a closer look, and on the slightly yellowed rice paper, there were several pieces of cakes that were as crystal clear and white as snow. They were the most common cakes in ordinary people's houses, but they immediately caught his eyes. lit up.

"This is……"

His mood has obviously eased a lot, and it seems that he has achieved the result Luo Yan expected.He wiped away the tears on his cheeks with a flick of his sleeve, wanting to take a closer look.

Luo Yan nodded, answering his guess: "Well, it's osmanthus chestnut cake."

After finishing speaking, he stretched out his hand to pinch a piece, and slowly brought it to the edge of Lin Ying.

Lin Ying opened his mouth and took a small bite, then licked it on the tip of his tongue, the sweet and loose feeling, and the scent of sweet-scented osmanthus filled the tip of his tongue, making it intoxicatingly greasy.

"Yes...it's the sweet-scented osmanthus that blooms in the Jiangnan region. The taste is the same as that made by Mr. back then, just like what Mr. made!"

As soon as the smell came up, Lin Ying's dry eye sockets suddenly felt like a dike.In the middle of speaking in a flat tone, he was so choked up that he couldn't hear clearly.

He snatched the pastry from Luo Yan's hand, and stuffed it into his mouth like crazy, his cheeks bulged in a short while.

He was crying and crying, and started laughing again, first he laughed softly, and when he swallowed all the things in his mouth, he suddenly turned his head up and laughed loudly.

When there was a famine in Jiangbei, a large number of refugees fled to the border of Jiangnan.So for a while, the life of the northern and southern borders was not very easy.

In addition, the town where Mr. Jin lived was not very rich, so he didn't get any good food on weekdays.

The sweet-scented osmanthus and chestnut pastry made by Mr. Jin himself is barely considered delicious, and they will go up the mountain to pick some wild honey. It will take half a month to eat a piece .

Those days were Lin Ying's most difficult situation, but it was the only sweetness that made it through, so I will always remember it.

Afterwards, the days got better and he had better food, but he still only liked this one, quite stubborn.

This sweet-scented osmanthus and chestnut cake has never been eaten since the day he left Jiangnan to take the exam in the capital.

The capital has a large territory, and capable people come forth in large numbers, but the sweet-scented osmanthus flowers in the capital are not as fragrant as those in the south of the Yangtze River.

So no matter how hard you try, you can't get the taste of Jiangnan. After all, it's hard for a smart woman to cook without rice, and you can't force it.

But now he can finally taste it again, but it is at the saddest time in his heart, so there are thousands of waves in his heart for a while, it is difficult to cover up, and he suddenly becomes quiet.

"Qingshan, although I was late in hiring him because I was afraid I would overthink it, so I couldn't say it clearly, but I know that in his heart, all of this is because of me, and it was my will to do my own way that harmed Mr. It's all my fault, and I can't blame anyone else."

He suddenly called Luo Yan's small characters, perhaps because of the company at this moment, he got closer to him in his heart.I feel that I have grasped a life-saving straw before dying of illness.

The tone is low, although there is still some crying, but the words are very real.

Luo Yan had heard the word Qingshan for so many years, but this was the first time he was excited about it.

He was still immersed in Lin Ying's emotions for a second, but then suddenly froze, not caring about the meaning of his words, and an unspeakable joy flashed in his eyes for a moment.

"Weizhi..."

He was about to express his joy, but Lin Ying didn't give him a chance at all, and hurriedly answered:

"Actually, he was right to hire him late. I just don't want to admit it. I only blame others, but I just want to find an excuse for myself to feel at ease.

I can't believe it, but I worked so hard to sit in a high position at the beginning, just to protect him well.But he didn't think that the years would trick people, but in the end he buried his life with his own hands. "

Luo Yan had just tasted the sweetness, and he didn't dare to take Lin Ying's words rashly to make him angry, so he pretended to listen carefully, but secretly laughed in his heart.

After Lin Ying finished speaking, the wine that had just entered his belly was completely drunk, his cheeks were flushed, and his eyes were slightly dull.

Luo Yan moved closer to him, taking advantage of Luo Yan's defenselessness, he snatched the wine jar in front of him.

Luo Yan reacted and quickly reached out to grab it, but he held the wine jar tightly in his arms, then raised his head and shed tears, with a pitiful look:

"I'm just afraid that I suddenly seem to lose the goal I've been pursuing all these years. I'm afraid that I will become a useless cripple."

"I'm afraid that I will become a useless person..."

While drinking, he kept repeating.

The charcoal fire on the stove had dimmed slightly, and the candles in the room had long stalks, which were covered in lamp oil and there was no girl to cut them, so it was no longer bright.

Luo Yan didn't know why, the joy in his heart suddenly evaporated because of Lin Ying's appearance in front of him.

He suddenly felt that Lin Ying didn't seem to be as strong and powerful as he imagined these years, but in fact his life was not good at all.

The person who can tolerate and forgive everything, who seems to be living a life of ease, is actually full of scars in his heart.

He stopped persuading him, and he didn't say anything anymore, allowing him to talk crazy, and finally even behaved a little crazy.But he just pushed the door slowly and walked out, and then stood guard outside the door, feeling uncomfortable like never before.

The well-known domineering young man in the capital, the son of Mrs. Luo who is full of influence in the court, the devil who is so vigorous and resolute that he doesn't even bat an eyelid when killing someone, is now at a loss because of another person's sorrow, and his grief is unbearable.

Speaking of which, even Luo Yan himself found it ridiculous.

He squatted quietly on the edge of the eaves, the cold night wind cut his face like a knife.

He just stood there in a daze, listening to the commotion in the room turn from chaos to silence, and finally landed with a crisp sound. It could be heard that Lin Ying was exhausted and collapsed on the ground.

After hearing the sound, he opened the door again and walked in. Without a word, he helped Lin Ying get up from the ground, and staggered towards the bed step by step.

His plan when he was about to come back was that even if he was tied up tonight, he would have to force Lin Ying to stay in his room overnight.Firstly, it was out of selfishness, and secondly, I was afraid that he would do something stupid, so I could take care of him.

I thought it would take some effort, but I didn't expect it to go so smoothly.Then he took off his shirt and pushed it to the other side of the bed.