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Yining suddenly pushed me away, lowered her head and said "sorry", and then walked to the balcony alone, raised her head, and looked at the sky in a daze.Her back looks kind of heart-wrenchingly sad.

I don't know why Yining is unhappy, but I didn't ask her, I know she needs to sort out her mood now.

At night, Yining and I were still sleeping on the same bed, but she turned her back to me. I couldn't bear it any longer. I pulled her over and faced me: "Yining, what's wrong with you? Did you give birth to me?" angry?"

"No." She answered me simply and stubbornly, and turned her back to me again.

"Then turn around and face me!" I said unwillingly.

Unexpectedly, Yining said to me without looking back: "Stop making trouble, cousin, let me go to bed early, okay? I have class tomorrow!"

"You weren't like this before! Tell me, what's wrong with you?" I said with a cry of grievance, "If I do something that makes you unhappy, you can remind me! Why use silence to alienate me? "

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry..." Yining heard that I was about to cry, so she quickly turned around and apologized to me.I took the opportunity to get into her arms, sniffing the fragrance of her body greedily.

"Yining, do you hate seeing Lin Yufan?" I suddenly remembered something and asked her.

There was another silence.Just when I was about to give up, Yining suddenly replied: "Yes, I don't like her. I always feel that she wants to snatch you away from me..."

"Fool!" I pulled out a hand and scratched Yining's nose, "I will always be by your side until you don't need me!"

"But, cousin, you will leave me in the end. You are different from me. You will get married and have a family in the future, and you will have a lovely child, won't you?"

I do not speak.After an unknown amount of time, Yining's sigh came from his ear.

I finally said: "Yining, you know, I have already begun to doubt my orientation. Because I found that since I was a child, I have never had a crush on any boy, and the world of feelings has always been blank. Until I met you, It was only then that I realized in a daze that women can not only love men, but also women..."

"Stop talking!" Yining suddenly covered my mouth, "You are normal, don't doubt your orientation! You know how heavy you will face and bear if you become a LES , How terrible is it? I don't want to see you in pain!"

"Yining..." I was so surprised that I couldn't speak, and many pictures quickly flashed through my mind. I remembered Yining telling me about the person she loved, and she said that she would stay with her. Beside her, thinking of her saying that she didn't want that person to become LES, I suddenly became afraid, the person Yining loves, is it me?And I, do I just regard her as my cousin?I'm afraid my dependence on her has already surpassed the scope of family affection, right? !But, we are cousins ​​after all...

"Is it because of her?" There was frustration in Yining's voice.

"Who?" I was puzzled.

"Lin Yufan, the person who came to our house for dinner today."

"Yining, I'm sorry... we can't, forgive me..." I said silently in my heart, then gritted my teeth and said, "Yes." tears, but the tears still flowed down uncontrollably.

"Then, I can't interfere with you, because that's your own choice, isn't it?" Yining smiled bitterly, and laughed at himself, "I'm just a sojourner in your home, why should I interfere with you?" ?”

"Yining..." I wanted to say something, but she interrupted me: "Okay, cousin, I'm really going to bed, good night."

Modified~

"Yining..." I whispered her name, but there was no response.I put my face on her back and put my arms around her waist.Yining sighed and let me hold her.

When I woke up in the morning, I found that Yining had left, but there was a breakfast she made on the dining table.I ate the breakfast she made, feeling very uncomfortable.That's right, in the current situation, even Jin Yuli can hardly choke.

I walked downstairs listlessly, only to find that Lin Yufan was already waiting for me downstairs.I just remembered that I had already made an appointment with her, and she would commute to get off work with me every day.

When I got into the car, Lin Yufan noticed my abnormality and asked with concern: "What's wrong with you? Did you not rest well last night?"

I nodded: "It's a little uncomfortable."

"Then, would you like to ask for leave today and rest at home?" Lin Yufan reached out and touched my forehead, "Fortunately, I don't have a fever."

I bit my lip and asked Lin Yufan, "Do you like women?"

Lin Yufan was taken aback when he heard me ask this question, and almost hit a pedestrian. She braked quickly and stopped the car on the side of the road.

"Who did you hear that from?" she asked.

I replied, "I feel like it does."

After a long time, she nodded.

"Probably, me too." I smiled, and Lin Yufan looked at me in surprise.

"Do you like me?" I looked up at her.

She was silent for a while.

"This doesn't seem to be your style." I smiled again.

"You are very similar to the girl I love the most." Lin Yufan looked at me for a long time and said softly, "Although I know you are not her, I still can't help but want to get close to you, hoping to find her from you shadow. That's all."

"So, can you do me a favor?" I said to her.

After work, I called Yining and told her that Lin Yufan and I were going to have dinner together, so we were not going home.Yining just said "Got it" indifferently and then hung up the line.Reluctantly, I called again and said loudly: "After I finish eating, I will go shopping with Yufan, or go to the movies. Anyway, I will be back very late!"

Yining froze for a moment, then said: "Cousin, this is your business, don't tell me."

"You~" I was a little angry, but Lin Yufan pulled my sleeve beside me, and I suddenly remembered my original intention of calling, so I had no choice but to hang up.

"If you are really determined to do what you said, just be ruthless, you know?" Lin Yufan looked at me, but his gaze seemed to pass through my body and look at another place.

Maybe everyone's heart hides the scars of dark love.

I, Lin Yufan, first ate sushi in a Japanese restaurant. Looking at the salmon sandwiched in the small and exquisite sushi, I couldn't help but see the image of Yining and I eating braised fish in brown sauce.What will Yining eat tonight?By the way, I haven't bought any vegetables, and there is nothing to eat in the refrigerator. How can I solve her dinner?I couldn't help but glanced at my phone worriedly.

"I'm going to the bathroom." I said to Lin Yufan, picked up my handbag, ran to the bathroom, and called Yining.

"Have you had dinner?" I asked Yining.

"have eaten."

"There is nothing at home, what did you eat?"

"I bought a pack of instant noodles to eat."

"Oh……"

"If there's nothing else, I'll go read, okay? We have a test tomorrow." Yining's voice could not hear any emotion.

"Well, let's see..." Before I finished speaking, Yining hung up the phone.

I don't know whether to be sad or happy.This is the result I want, but seeing the result, I am so sad...