Are you in love, my white moonlight

those years of loving you

1.

It was a sunny afternoon when Yongjipu realized that he had different thoughts about his neighbor's brother.

Yuan Deng came to his house to do homework, and when he was tired, he muttered that he wanted to take a break.After this rest, he fell asleep on the table.

Yongjipu gently pulled the homework book out from under his arm amusedly, but he was pressed down by Yuan Deng just after he tried it for the first time.He thought he had woken up Yuan Deng by accident, and looked over with bated breath, only to find that Yuan Deng's eyelashes trembled, but he didn't wake up.

Yuan Deng pressed soft fingers on the back of his hand.

Obviously his strength was very weak, but Yongjipu found that he couldn't move, as if he was sealed by those soft fingers.

And the voice in his heart told him clearly that he didn't want to move either.

The sunlight diffused through the clear windows and gently sprinkled on the tabletop, coating the outline of the Yuan Lantern with a layer of warm golden velvet.

They have known each other for several years, and unconsciously, Yuan Deng's appearance has changed, shedding the childishness of the past, the contours of the face have been gradually shaved by time, and the facial features have grown.

Yongjipu looked down at Yuandeng's sleeping state, and stretched out his other hand to touch Yuandeng's cheek.

Yuan Deng closed his eyes, as if impatient to be disturbed, he rubbed his cheek against Yongjipu's finger.

At that moment, Yongjipu's heartbeat seemed to stop for a moment, and he quickly withdrew his troublesome fingers.

He stared blankly at his fingers, and a thought popped into his mind: Xiaodeng's face, like his fingers, was also soft, and it also had a magical power that made people's hearts soften into a puddle of water.

So fingers, so cheeks, and... lips?

Yongjipu was terrified by his own thought.

this thought...

Why did he have this idea?

Yongjipu sat in the room full of sunlight for a long time, asking himself, is this what an older brother should have for his younger brother?

Obviously not.

Yuan Deng was still asleep, as if he didn't know anything.

Yongjipu lowered his eyes and saw his sleeping face.As his thoughts wandered, he remembered that some time ago, someone handed him a love letter and was bumped into by Yuan Deng. He was very angry.

Little lamp why are you angry?

At this moment, he even had the urge to wake up the lantern, and wanted to ask him, why did you react so strongly?

Is there a possibility, is...

Yongjipu came back to his senses suddenly, his nails sank into his palm, he closed his eyes in collapse, and said to himself.

Why do you have such thoughts about your younger brother—are you crazy, Yongjipu.

2.

Yongjipu made up his mind and warned himself to return to his elder brother's position.

But every time he wanted to stay away, Yuan Deng would post it and asked him softly: "Brother, what's the matter with you recently? Are you unhappy? You can tell me."

Then, everything looks the same as before.

Until one day, Yuan Deng fell asleep doing homework in his room again.He stared at Yuandeng for a long time, finally couldn't hold back and bent down, and kissed Yuandeng's forehead.

At that moment, the door of his room was pushed open.

Standing outside the door were his parents and his second uncle.

After sending Xiaodeng away, his parents asked him what he was doing with livid faces.His second uncle was standing next to him, but in fact he added fuel to the equation.

In the empty room, with a bright red slap on his face, Yongjipu responded to his parents' anger with silence.

"What are you going to do?" he heard his parents finally ask him wearily.

How to do it?

What can we do?

He can't control his emotions...

Let's go, let's go, let's go, what else can we do.

Yongjipu moved his fingers, and he said in a low voice: "Aren't you going to go abroad anyway? I'll leave early, okay?"

His parents were silent for a long time and agreed.

The night before he went abroad, his parents called him into their bedroom.Under the light, the faces of his parents were exhausted, and they told him a lot of things that they had hidden from him before.

For example, the second uncle is not actually his grandmother's biological son.It was from the grandfather's outer room, and he was raised outside until he was ten years younger before taking it back.

For another example, grandpa pampered Yao'er. Before he passed away, most of the shares in grandpa's hands had been controlled by the second uncle.Now the second uncle relies on those shares to call the shots in the group.

For another example, the second uncle is eyeing the shares assigned to him in the grandfather's will.

Father sighed: "We are not willing to ask you to leave now. But you have done such a thing, and now the situation at home is like this...you might as well go out and avoid it first."

Yongjipu nodded, expressing his understanding.

On the plane the next day, outside the security checkpoint, Yuan Deng grabbed his clothes with tears in his eyes and asked him, brother, when will you come back.

"My brother came back after he got his degree." Yongjipu smiled and touched Yuandeng's head.

He turned around and passed the security check, and set foot on the road to a foreign country, and he went there for many years.

3.

The days of studying in a foreign country are very boring.

The only bright spot is that he met a classmate named Xian Musheng.

At that time, Xian Musheng sat quietly in a corner, very low-key, tasting wine alone.His exquisite appearance attracted many people, but Xian Musheng just smiled with his chin raised, maintaining basic social etiquette, but sent an obvious signal of rejection.

The first thing I noticed about him was that he had a face that looked like Yuan Deng, with blunt and moist eyes. Frankly speaking, he had seen a few people who looked like Xiao Deng, but he had never seen anyone else. The expression and demeanor are similar to Xiaodeng's.

Occasionally, he also raised champagne and talked to the other party.

Unexpectedly, Xian Musheng didn't treat him as perfunctory as he did others.They got acquainted quickly, and Xian Musheng's attitude towards him became ambiguous, occasionally saying something that made him not know how to respond.

Yongjipu has received many such signals.

Although he approached Xian Musheng at first because he thought about others, but he always kept the two people very clear - how could he not be clear.With his eyes closed, he knew what Yuan Deng looked like.

No one can compare with Yuan Deng.

Xian Musheng and him are only superficially similar.

So he decided to have a showdown with Xian Musheng, saying that he didn't like it.

It happened to be the Lantern Festival that day, they ate glutinous rice balls and took a walk in the square.Looking up, the lights are dotted, like the Milky Way in the sky hanging down.

Yongjipu recalled an incident a long time ago, Yuan Deng told him the origin of his name - said it was the lights of the Lantern Festival, the sky was full of stars, beautiful isn't it?

Yuan Deng's expression at that time was very lively and very proud. Even after so long, he still remembered his shining eyes, which were indeed like stars and lights in the dark night.

How did he answer back then?

He said to Yuan Deng very seriously at the time: My name is nothing interesting, and Jipu means the distant waterfront.

After Yuan Deng heard this, he clapped his hands and said with a smile, who said, the two of us are floating on the water together!

Together, why talk about being together?

Yongjipu gave a wry smile, and got rid of his memories. He let out a breath of cold air, and directly confronted Xian Musheng.

After Xian Musheng listened, contrary to his usual behavior, he swears: "Damn it, you've never been fooled before. Young master, I've been pretending for so long and I'm almost exhausted."

At that moment, many complicated emotions flashed in his eyes. After a long time, he gritted his teeth, as if he had made a great determination: "You are a good person. I don't want to hide it from you. Let me have a showdown with you too."

It turns out that Xian Musheng is the second uncle's pawn, but he is not willing to be a puppet to be manipulated by others. He wants to bring down this hateful man who has brought him so much pain.

So, they collaborated, pretending to be a loving couple.

He posted a lot of photos of Xian Musheng in his circle of friends. When he was posting, Xian Musheng was sitting next to him, laughing all over the place: "My God, your writing is so disgusting, it disgusts me, help me !"

"It's just a task to fool others." Yongjipu sent it expressionlessly.

Xian Musheng gloated and said, "Then you have to delete them all later, or else your little lamp baby will see it one day, and you will really have no chance at all."

"Talk too much." Yong Jipu glanced at Xian Musheng.

But Xian Musheng was not afraid, he restrained his smile and wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes: "Don't worry, if there is a day, I will help you explain to your partner, brother."

The days go by.

Xian Musheng gave his second uncle a false report about his recent situation, while he seized the time to take credits, participate in competitions, and accumulate strength.

It is not that there have been times of collapse, and various academic pressures have been imposed on the body.Faxiao Zhuo Mingjun also told him that Xiaodeng has become very popular and received a basketful of love letters.

When he was not around, his little lamp had already been seen by so many people... Maybe Xiaodeng will fall in love with a certain gentleman, hold hands for a walk in the campus, kiss under the moon, and even have a deeper contact.

And he is just a brother who is far away in a foreign country.

That night, he drank until he vomited, holding the toilet until he vomited faintly.

Xian Musheng squatted beside him and patted his back.

"Tired?"

"Tired." Yongjipu bowed up, poured a handful of water on his face, stared at himself in the mirror, his eyes were hard, "I want to go back."

4.

Hurrying quickly, Yongjipu finally finished his studies ahead of schedule, and he returned to China with his degree certificate.

On the plane, he envisioned many scenes of meeting Yuan Deng.

But he never expected that he would roll into a ball with Xiaodeng when he was drugged.

When he woke up the next day, he saw Yuan Deng quietly huddled beside him. He closed his eyes, like that afternoon a few years ago.It's just that there are still some tears in the corners of his eyes, and the collarbone is covered with dense marks.

Yongjipu's fingers curled up, and lightly touched Xiaodeng's cheek as they did a few years ago, the fingers lingered from the side of his face to his lips.

He just sat and watched Yuan Deng fall asleep for a long time, as if he wanted to make up for the lost time in the past few years.

The hour hand pointed to seven o'clock, and Yongjipu got off the bed lightly.

He took a shower, and in the mirror, he saw a round tooth mark on his shoulder.

He stretched out his hand to touch it, and it hurt a little, but he stared at the tooth mark and couldn't help laughing.

But the smile quickly faded away.

Coming out of the bathroom, he made many phone calls to order breakfast. He remembered that Xiao Deng likes to eat a hearty breakfast.

When the door rang, he thought it was a food delivery person, but when he opened the door, his parents were standing outside.

The development of the following things magically fit his thoughts.

The choice Xiaodeng made was one that he never dared to dream about. After the ecstasy, he felt uneasy even if he couldn't get up or down.

Xiao Deng, he only came of age this year...

Yongjipu wasn't sure if he had really thought it through.

So, he couldn't help confirming with Yuan Deng again and again, have you really thought it through?do you really want to marry me

If so, then he will never let go.

For so many years, he is like a lone traveler who has walked far and far in a dark tunnel, carrying the shackles of morality.

Finally, at the moment when Yuan Deng nodded and said "Of course I am very willing", he was able to catch a glimpse of the long-awaited sky light.