city ​​garden without flowers

Xia Yang bought a big bucket of popcorn, and there were two cups of Coke in the package. Because it was a weekday afternoon, the waiting area of ​​the movie theater was very empty.

In the lobby, the trailers of the most recently released movies are scrolling. In the trailer of "Mobius", there is a scene of the hero and heroine kissing in the snow, which is beautifully shot.

Before Lu Chuanhuan finished watching the trailer, the staff reminded him that it was time to check the ticket.

There were not many people in the theater, and two people sat down in the back row.

Lu Chuanhuan hasn't watched a movie for a long time, the last time he watched a cartoon with Tongtong.Seeing Xia Yang's happy face, he thought for a while that he must not fall asleep in an unpleasant way.

But this movie was shot very well, and people like Lu Chuanhuan who don't like watching movies were completely attracted.

At the final climax, all the girls in the movie theater cried.

"How?" After the movie ended, Xia Yang couldn't wait to ask Lu Chuanhuan.

"It looks good." Lu Chuanhuan commented objectively, "Your idol is very good at acting."

"That's not right!" Xia Yang looked proud.

"But even though he has good acting skills and a good person, I still like his face more." Xia Yang said.

Lu Chuanhuan choked on him: "Cooperating with you, you are a face control."

"Yes, I like beautiful men the most." Xia Yang admitted generously, "You are handsome, and I like it too."

"My idol is also from Chongqing." Xia Yang said with a smile, "Do you think it is possible that I will run into him in Chongqing one day?"

"Then if you meet him, what do you want to tell him?" Lu Chuanhuan asked following his words.

"I probably want to ask him how to get along with loneliness." Xia Yang smiled, as if he felt that his expression was too heavy at the moment, so he started to lose focus again, "Forget it, why don't you ask him if he likes men."

Lu Chuanhuan's hand reached out and took his hand.

He was very frank, perhaps the people who followed them out of the theater would see clearly.

"What shall we eat tonight?" Lu Chuanhuan asked him.

Xia Yang looked at him and struggled with his hand.

"The second thing to do on a date is to eat." Lu Chuanhuan said solemnly.

The last two people sat in an old restaurant, hoof flower soup is the signature dish, they ordered hoof flower soup, steamed pork ribs, braised fat intestines, plus two bowls of rice and a cold dish.

Xia Yang doesn't eat spicy food today because of his health, so he didn't want to dip it in water. He took a bowl and took a sip of the milky white hoof flower soup. .

The pig's trotters were stewed so soft that the teeth would melt when touched.

There are many old shops like this in Chongqing. The tables have been weather-beaten and look like they have been covered by time.

The environment is a bit noisy and crowded.

"I should treat you to a formal dinner on the first date." Lu Chuanhuan rolled a piece of pig's trotter in the dipped water, and it was instantly wrapped in spicy.

"Don't!" Xia Yang raised his head from the bowl, "Isn't it enough that I suffer from Western food?"

"Have you ever eaten buttered scallions?" Xia Yang asked, "I went to France before, and a friend invited me to eat in their cafeteria. I couldn't understand the handwritten menu in the cafeteria, so I just ordered this."

"It sounds so dark." Lu Chuanhuan frowned.

"Don't mention it, it's sweet, salty and punchy, and the taste is sticky, so disgusting." Xia Yang said with lingering fear.

Lu Chuanhuan suddenly felt that the smell of the pig's trotters on the chopsticks was even higher.

"So in the future, please don't invite me to eat Western food, French food or Italian food." Xia Yang said directly, "It's because foreign food is too bad that I learned how to cook."

"Then I'll take you to eat all over Chongqing." Lu Chuanhuan laughed.

"But it's lonely to eat alone." Xia Yang held his chin, "Do you know why I like Liang Yizhou?"

Lu Chuanhuan looked at him intently.

"When I first arrived in New York, I didn't know many people. One time I ate alone, and I saw his video on Youtube. It was very short and actually a bit boring." Xia Yang said, "But it happens that I am also very boring. I Watching him eat, I think his acting is really good, people who have no home should eat like this."

"Because we resonate very much, I think we are very similar because of loneliness, so I fell in love with him." Xia Yang smiled, "He is popular now, and I am very happy. I saw the vlog he posted on Weibo before. When playing in Hong Kong, he had friends with him, and he smiled happily. I thought, he probably met a very good person. It might sound a bit silly, he doesn’t know me at all, but I treat him as a friend.”

"It's hard work alone abroad." Lu Chuanhuan picked up vegetables for Xia Yang.

"Just get used to it." Xia Yang said lightly, "Sometimes I feel that I can't go on, but in fact, I just pass by next to each other. Isn't that how life is?"

"Your words are too vicissitudes." Lu Chuanhuan paused with his chopsticks, and he frowned slightly.

"So when I return to Chongqing, I'm very happy to live with you." Xia Yang laughed.

Lu Chuanhuan's expression became much gentler: "Why?"

If you listen carefully, you can find that his question is somewhat eager and expectant.

"Because you ate with me, praised me for cooking delicious food, asked me to grow flowers, and often praised them for their beauty." Xia Yang said seriously.

Lu Chuanhuan put another piece of steamed pork ribs in Xia Yang's bowl, and said with a smile in his voice, "It's all these little things."

Xia Yang lowered his head and gnawed on the ribs, spat out a bare bone, and said, "I care about these little things. Before, I thought it would be great to live with Brother Lu, and I wanted to keep doing this forever."

Lu Chuanhuan's gaze fell a little heavily, pressing down on Xia Yang's heart, and his voice was very gentle: "It's ok, keep going like this."

Xia Yang raised his head, his expression was very flat: "I don't want to promise."

Lu Chuanhuan helplessly tapped his wrist with the end of his chopsticks: "Then let's not talk about this."

"Brother Lu, you are really good to me." Xia Yang lowered his eyes and poked the fat intestines in the bowl with chopsticks, "I have been a very self-willed person since I was a child. I said, Xia Yang, you are too capricious, you always think about yourself."

"He said that I always pretend, and then use this to get what I want selfishly." Xia Yang didn't look up, as if he was afraid to meet Lu Chuanhuan's eyes, "He was right at all, when I was young, I wanted My mother can stay with me, so I often pretend to be sick. When I grow up, I hope everyone likes me, so I pretend to be good and ignorant, so that everyone can take care of me."

"I just tasted a lot of sweetness for a short time." Xia Yang's eyelashes trembled, "But my parents separated, the first person I liked got married, and none of the people I dated could go to the end. I always feel that This is fate mocking my cleverness."

Lu Chuanhuan couldn't help stretching out his hand, he pressed Xia Yang's frowning eyebrows: "Xia Yang, look at me."

"I treat you too. I pretended to be pitiful and innocent, and I said so many words just to make you love me." Xia Yang's voice trembled a little, "I use your kindness, and your gentleness, just for myself .”

They sat in the corner of the store, surrounded by noise like a protective shield.

Lu Chuanhuan put down his chopsticks, they had almost eaten, so he stood up: "I'll go to pay first."

Xia Yang didn't move, he regretted it, he shouldn't have said these words, obviously they were happily dating.

He never cut himself apart, even with Leonard, if it wasn't for the unexpected marriage proposal, he could continue to pretend.

Rather than saying that he is afraid of marriage and commitment, Xia Yang is actually more afraid that they will not love the real him.

But Lu Chuanhuan was special. The second time they met, he exposed him so bluntly.

Lu Chuanhuan returned to him with the same tone as usual: "Let's go."

It was already night, and the dim light of the street lamps covered the street, and the shadows of people were stretched very long.

"Are you going for a walk? You'll be on the road for a date." Before waiting for Xia Yang's answer, Lu Chuanhuan held Xia Yang's hand and stuck his fingers in it, as if he was afraid that he would escape.

"I want to talk to you next time." Lu Chuanhuan smiled.

Xia Yang looked at the shadow on the ground with a sour feeling on the tip of his nose.

"I don't know much about love either." Lu Chuanhuan said patiently, "Sometimes when you are busy in the kitchen or taking care of flowers on the balcony, I will stare at you unconsciously. It has been a long time since I recovered. .A lot of times, I always have an illusion, as if we have lived like this for a long time."

Lu Chuanhuan looked down at the hands they were holding together. On his left hand, there used to be a wedding ring. Later, his relationship with Lin Yi broke up. He took off the ring. The skin around it was very light, like a light-colored ring wrapped around it. snake.But now, under the light, the circle of traces can no longer be seen clearly.

"I like you, not because of how well-behaved and cute you are, but..." Lu Chuanhuan suddenly bumped Xia Yang's shoulder, very childish, as if embarrassed to say, "Forget it, you can't be so absolute , actually a little bit."

Xia Yang was amused by his frankness: "What, I thought you were going to say something that made me burst into tears."

Xia Yang resolutely fought back, and also bumped into Lu Chuanhuan.

So the shadows on the ground fought, but they kept holding each other tightly.

"To be honest, I didn't think about it that much." Lu Chuanhuan loosened his hand and wrapped his arms around Xia Yang, "I just want to be with you, eat together, ride a bike together, buy popsicles together, maybe even Go weed the rabbit."

Xia Yang couldn't help laughing: "The more you talk, the more outrageous it becomes. Who is going to pull weeds?"

"Pulling weeds for rabbits is my childhood shadow, because of you, I can overcome the shadow, how shameful?" Lu Chuanhuan argued, and he also raised his other arm, encircling Xia Yang completely.

"So stop thinking about it." Lu Chuanhuan said seriously.

Xia Yang pursed her lips: "I can't live without you."

He has said this before, but at this moment, his mood and identity are quite different from before.

Lu Chuanhuan broke Xia Yang's shoulder and finally caught his eye this time.

"Xia Yang, I don't want your promise, I just want to invite you to live with me, okay?"

Xia Yang held Lu Chuanhuan's arm. Today they were wearing hoodies with similar styles, and the texture of the fabric was obvious.

He closed his eyes, raised his face, and kissed Lu Chuanhuan's lips.

This is a night in Chongqing in October, half of the moon is covered, and the car runs over the road, causing a slight sense of tremor.

Xia Yang felt his eyes were sore, and everything seemed unreal, only the warmth of Lu Chuanhuan's lips could give him a sense of reality.

Lu Chuanhuan was the first person to tell him about life.

Xia Yang has been in many relationships, and even been proposed to. Those people asked him for love, dedication, and unswerving commitment, but no one wanted to live with him.

Lu Chuanhuan responded to him very gently, his lips were soft and warm.

Xia Yang buried his face in Lu Chuanhuan's arms and said sullenly, "I like you so much."