At first I just wanted to make money

Back home, Momozawa Hoshiko and the book began to confront each other.

She is a child, not a fool.It's fine once, every time I write an article, it will be misunderstood, and she won't believe it if there is nothing wrong with it.

"Did you deliberately disturb the minds of people in this world in order to keep me? Otherwise, why would they think that these two articles have so much connotation and think that I wrote them well?"

Book: "No, actually I just blurred your mind."

Xingzi?

"Before, I actually lied to you a little bit, and wanted to use people's transformation of the world as an anchor. In addition to the two rigid requirements I mentioned, there is another necessary condition."

"What is it?"

"That person's soul must have left the original world, but it has not completely dissipated."

The soul has left the original world?Doesn't that mean...

"I'm already dead in the original world?" Xingzi asked in disbelief.

"Yes, and you committed suicide."

Xingzi couldn't believe it at all: "Why did I commit suicide? And why don't I remember this part?"

"Because I extracted this memory of yours, and sealed all your negative emotions by the way. Otherwise, you will commit suicide as soon as you come here. Wouldn't I bring you here for nothing?"

Xingzi still couldn't understand: "Then why did I commit suicide?"

She thinks she still loves the world and loves life very much.So I can't think of the reason why I committed suicide in the original world.

"In general, it's because you're disappointed with yourself and the world. I can't say specifically. Your emotions and thoughts are just sealed up. Once you are stimulated, you will remember them."

Xingzi frowned: "What about my article?"

"Your article honestly reflects your true psychology. It's just because I sealed all the bad emotions, so you can't find out at all."

Xingzi understood. To put it simply, her article was indeed full of black mud, as the readers said.And she didn't write such words because of a coincidence.

But because she was blinded by a leaf, she couldn't see Mount Tai.

Xingzi was silent for a while: "Then if I return my memory now, will I still commit suicide?"

"Think about your two articles, what do you think?" Shu sneered without hesitation.

Xingzi: ...

She made up her mind: "Then you should keep them sealed, I don't want to die yet."

The book wants to do this too, but it can't. "No, those emotions are part of you after all, just like the three souls and seven souls that the Chinese often say, they can be temporarily sealed, but if they are sealed for a long time, you will go crazy."

"Then am I bound to die?" Xingzi asked.

"Of course not. I can seal it for at least a few years. As long as you can find the meaning of living during this time, you won't be afraid of those returned emotions."

"The meaning of living..." Xingzi's eyes were empty, and it was true when she said it. What was she living so mediocrely for?

But no matter what, the current self still doesn't want to die.

Hoshiko Momozawa cheered up: "Okay! It's decided! The goal of the next stage is to find the meaning of living!"

In order to leave this anchor point, the book also actively gave her ideas: "You can write an article every once in a while to test your status, and words will not deceive you."

After thinking for a while, Xingzi became confused again: "But how can I find the meaning of living? I don't want to die now, so there is no way to find it!"

Shu comforted: "It doesn't have to be to find the meaning, you can also leave yourself as many fetters as possible. With the fetters, you won't leave so easily."

fetters...

It's too troublesome to be tied or something.Once a person has fetters, he has to think about more things.Looking back on Xingzi's life, he has never created any bonds with anyone.

My parents passed away early and I had no friends at school.After graduating from high school, I stayed in my house and wrote novels. I seldom left the house, let alone made many friends.

Can she still create bonds like this?

Seeing Xingzi's hesitation, Shu persuaded: "Didn't you find out? You have been deliberately isolating other people. Whether it is the so-called plot characters or ordinary people, you don't want to get in touch with them. This is not a kind of desire to live. performance!"

Xingzi seemed to be awakened: "You are right, I have to take the initiative to create bonds!"

But... She really doesn't know how to make friends!

Shu saw her doubts, and said relaxedly: "As long as you stop resisting, believe me, you will have many good friends soon."

You know, in this world, there are many people who are interested in Xingzi!

The first step to making friends - go out!

Under the persuasion of the book, Xingzi left home early in the morning, planning to hang out for a day today.

Where to go first?

Go to Armed Detective Agency!

Xingzi suddenly has a goal. If he wants to make friends, it's safer to start with the good guys.

But she is just an ordinary person, although Xingzi believes that Ranpo and the others will never look down on her.

But making friends is another matter. Can an ordinary and ordinary person like her really make friends with such a dazzling diamond?

Thinking of this, Xingzi's pace became slower and slower.Finally, she stopped and said to herself: "Sure enough, let's change the direction and go to the slums."

Hoshiko has found a new way of thinking, she can pick up an orphan like Oda Sakunosuke.

There is no deeper bond than a child.

Wait... Before taking a few steps, she stopped again: "No, I am acting irresponsible like this. What if I still choose to commit suicide when the memory comes back? What about this child? Boss Can't you give it back to Sakunosuke Oda?"

What should I do?Xingzi was distressed.

However, the plan cannot keep up with the changes, and life will always give you a push when you hesitate.

"thump!"

Suddenly there was a loud sound of splashing water behind him, making Xingzi subconsciously turn his head away.

Then she saw the black-haired boy peacefully closing his eyes in the water.The boy was dressed in black, with a bandage on his face, his identity was clearly revealed——

Osamu Dazai.

Xingzi: ...

Although she really wanted to make friends, she couldn't start with Dazai Osamu!

She is here to make friends, not to embarrass herself, what the hell is it that she chooses hell difficulty at the beginning?

But to be honest, Xingzi was a little bit impulsive, that feeling of "fate has already done this for you, is it right for you to run away?"

When she hesitated, Osamu Dazai was still splashing in the water.

Then there was such a weird scene - the black-haired girl watched the dying boy in the river from the bank, her eyes were calm, as if she was completely unmoved.

Xingzi was indeed not moved at all, firstly because she knew that Osamu Dazai would definitely not die, and secondly because she really wanted to say that jumping into the river like this would not kill anyone!

She knew that this river was only two meters deep, and it was still a saltwater river.If you flutter, you can come up easily.It is easy to be floated up by salt water if it is not fluttering.

Do you even hold a rock?Xingzi couldn't help thinking.

Over there, Osamu Dazai struggled for a long time, and finally climbed to the shore, twisted the water stains on his clothes, couldn't help shivering, and complained dissatisfiedly: "Today's water is too cold, I'd better commit suicide tomorrow gone."

Xingzi couldn't help showing a look of emotion, this guy really really wants someone to save him, right?Not simply to save this time, but to save him from death permanently.

Oh, what is she thinking about?It's just my own subjective conjecture.Xingzi sighed, turned and left.

However, in the next second, she was stopped by someone.

"Seeing Miss, I suddenly have the desire to commit suicide again! Miss, do you want to die in love with me?"

It's Osamu Dazai.

Xingzi's expression was complicated. If she had a complete memory, she would probably really agree to this outrageous invitation, right?

It's a pity that she does have a greater desire to live now.

"No, please forgive me for refusing." Xingzi said seriously: "I still want to live more."

"What's the point of living?" Osamu Dazai asked equally seriously.

To his surprise, Xingzi didn't say a lot of truth, but shook his head with a blank but sincere expression: "I don't know either, so I'm still looking for it."

After hesitating for a while, Xingzi tried to take the second step of making friends - invitation.

"Do you want to find the meaning of living with me?"

Osamu Dazai was stunned. He looked at the girl with a sincere expression, and suddenly covered his belly and laughed: "Hahaha, it's interesting, it's so interesting! How can you find the meaning of living?"

How can you find the meaning of living in this dirty world?

Xingzi shook his head again: "I don't know, but someone told me that you can find the bond first, and then slowly find the meaning of living."

"Bond..." Osamu Dazai muttered the word silently, and he suddenly thought of his two friends.

Who would have thought that he, a mafia, would have such good friends?Still two!

Are they my bond?Osamu Dazai was thinking.

Xingzi didn't disturb the other party, because she was also thinking.

Why didn't Osamu Dazai answer my question just now?Did I really fail to make friends?

I'm too abrupt!How can anyone talk about this topic when we first met?How embarrassing!While he doesn't know what he's thinking, or else I'd better go first!

Thinking of this, Xingzi backed away silently and prepared to leave.

But at this time Osamu Dazai suddenly came back to his senses: "What? You agreed to find the meaning of living with me, so now you're going to leave me and leave?"

Xingzi froze, and then explained awkwardly: "No, I thought you were going to reject me."

"No, how could it be?" Osamu Dazai smiled, looking at Hoshiko with deep meaning in his eyes: "I'm still waiting for you to lead me to find the meaning of living!"