One Hundred Days on an Uninhabited Island

"There was a child, and she was born into this world with some people's disappointment."

In the second month of birth, the child was abandoned by his mother at his grandmother's house.Grandma doesn't like her because she's not a boy.Except for feeding every day, I tied her to a chair in the corner to do her own work.

After a year like this, the child has grown stronger and moved more. He is very restless on the chair, always crying and trying to get down, but grandma won't let her, and she is tied even tighter.

Finally one day, an old man couldn't stand it anymore and asked for the child to take him with him.

The old man is too old to hold the child and walk around, so he reads to her every day, or teaches the child to read word by word by pointing to the book.

The child seemed to be very interested in these things, and he always listened quietly, sometimes babbling and chant along vaguely, which made the old man stroking his beard and laughing, and the child also smiled happily.

The first person the child yelled was not the parents who had never met before, nor the grandparents who didn't look at her more often, but generation after generation: "Grandfather."

Taigong taught her to read and write, taught her to be a human being, took her out for sightseeing, and kept things for her that she couldn't eat at her grandmother's house, although she couldn't taste them at all.

The child likes the grandpa very much. He likes the gentleness and love of the grandpa to her. He likes to go up the mountain with the grandpa to collect herbs, go boating together to go fishing and go into the water. He likes to listen to the stories told by the grandpa. fall in love.

That is the happiest time for children.

In a blink of an eye, the child was seven years old. During her seven-year-old summer vacation, a strange couple and a little boy came to her grandmother's house.

The grandfather said, "They are your parents."

The child asked the grandfather: "What are parents?"

The grandfather was silent for a long time before he told her what parents are.

It is the person who gave birth to her and raised her, the person connected by her blood, the closest person.

Taigong took the child to her parents and kept her with them.

The father is a serious person, from expression to tone, there is nothing that makes the child feel kind.

The mother was a complete stranger. She glanced at the child and then stopped looking at her. She hugged the boy and chatted with the grandmother.

The grandpa left, leaving the child standing on the edge of the adults in a daze.

The next day, the child refuted the grandfather, saying that the grandfather was a liar, and they were not close to her at all, just like their grandmother.

The grandfather was silent again.

Also that day, the father left, leaving behind the mother and the little boy.

During the days when they stayed at their grandmother's house, the child did not visit them, and even resisted. The grandfather did not force him, and taught her to read and write as always, and took her to the town and the mountain by boat.

Until one day, the mother suddenly ran to Taigong's house and took off the pen in the child's hand, and took her to grandma's house, let her take care of her younger brother, and chatted with a group of old sisters by herself.

The child is very strange to her younger brother, she doesn't want to hug her younger brother like her mother, but she can't just ignore her, so under the address of younger brother and older sister, she will take whatever he wants, until she takes the ice, and the cousin hides in the Popsicles in the refrigerator at grandma's house.

The younger brother ate very happily, and she felt that she had taken care of her, but her mother didn't think so.

That afternoon, my younger brother had a stomachache, which lasted until the night when he had a fever and was sent to be put on an IV, and he didn’t come back until midnight.

As soon as she came back, she pulled the child who had been left overnight at the grandmother's house out of bed and threw it on the ground. While scolding her for killing her son and cursing her for being a murderer, she beat her with a stick and kicked her. Vent the panic in her heart.

She didn't say a word, didn't dare to say a word.

Cursing attracted other people, the uncle pulled them away, and the grandfather took her away, and the farce ended.

The story fell silent at this point, Wen Suiyun turned his head and asked, "Mom, does the child hate her mother?"

"Hate, I won't hate later."

"why?"

"Because my mother...is also a poor woman persecuted by feudal ideology." Wen Siqi smiled lightly, and then continued to tell the story.

After leaving grandma's house, the child cried and asked the grandpa if they hated her.

The grandfather hesitated for a long time and said: "...I will like it, no one would dislike a well-behaved child."

In the following days, the mother did not come to look for the child again. Every time she saw her, she strode away with her head down like a mouse without looking back.

It wasn't until the end of the summer vacation that my father came to grandma's house again, and my mother stood in front of her again, with her back turned to her, and packed up her clothes.

The grandfather said that it was time for her to go to Nancheng, the big city where her father lived.

The child doesn't want to go, doesn't want to leave Taigong.

Taigong laughed and described to her the beauty of the big city and the grotesque world that he had described to her before.

The grandfather said that only when fish go with the water can they see the magnificence and beauty of the sea.

But ah, how can a fish living in fresh water blend into a sea that is salt water, unless, she dies.

The child yearned for it innocently, and she believed it.

The child followed his parents to Nancheng with yearning for the world described by the grandpa.

At the beginning, the child was really amazed by the prosperity of Nancheng, but later she gradually discovered that Nancheng is actually a huge prison full of prosperous lies.

The child lives a repetitive, monotonous and boring life in the prison every day, like a puppet on a string.

The grandfather lied to her again.

The child wants to leave Nancheng and go back to the small town, but her parents don't allow it. Her father put on a tiger face and asked her to study hard and stop thinking about things that have nothing to do with studying. Her mother tactfully instilled in her that a woman can only stand up and be independent if she studies well.

It's ridiculous that they care far less about their children's grades than their kindergarten-going younger brothers.If the grades are good, there is only one sentence to continue to work hard;

Gradually, the child lost his longing for this family, and wanted to go back to the backward town they called, and to return to the grandfather.

Finally one day, she got her wish.

A call came from the small town, and their family went back to the small town where she was born, and returned to the grandfather who raised her.

The grandfather was lying on the bed, dying.

They said he was leaving.

At first she didn't understand what they meant, but soon she understood.

The grandfather smiled and said to her, "Let's live happily and happily" and left.

It was the custom in the town at that time that the deceased old man had to stay at home for seven days, and the child remained silent for seven days, until she saw the grandfather's skull being crushed, and she burst into tears.

The story stopped here again, feeling the change in mother's mood, Wen Suiyun leaned back.

Wen Siqi gritted her teeth, took a breath, folded her arms and continued the story.

On the second day after the grandpa was buried, the child was calm as if nothing had happened. She should smile and eat. They said she was a white-eyed wolf.

The child returned to Nancheng again. In her life in Nancheng, she learned how to watch her words and how to ask her parents to treat her peacefully. She would only release herself in front of her aunt who was still in college and rarely came home.

She is no longer the innocent kid in the small town.

Similarly, she is still that naive child who naively believes that there will be someone who will take her out of this prison, that she will have the same love as her grandpa and grandma, and that she will leave this prison in Nancheng, yearning for and blinded by it , thus falling into the crude trap woven for her.

She meets a boy... no, a man.He is gentle, he understands, he portrays for her the beauty she has always yearned for, and let her see that the persistent yearning is real, she falls, and foolishly walks into the trap woven for her by men.

But when she entered the trap, there was a person trying to pull her out, a person who was very similar to her...but had a different fate.

She rejected her kindness, and naively forbade her to tell the real side of a man.

In that false relationship, she tasted all the ups and downs that the grandfather once said.

When she was suffering, her friend tried to pull her out of the trap again, and her reason told her that it was time to wake up.The man's repeated excuses also made her sober.

However, the beauty that the man once described to her, the suppressed yearning and longing made her reluctant to let go.She was flustered, frightened, and stupid.

She surrendered herself and fucked the man's child.

Feeling the beating life in her belly, she foolishly thought that men would feel the same joy and happiness as she did.

Reality hit her hard, threw her to the ground like a child, and told her cruelly how stupid it was to pin her hopes on others.

The dream was shattered, the desire to persist and the yearning to pursue were all shattered. She left in a daze, and stood indifferent in front of death in a daze.

At this time, the ruthless reality gave her hope of living again. Her friend rescued her, and her aunt took her to the hospital in a panic, crying and trembling all the way, and the life in her stomach was also trembling.

That night, after thinking for a long time, she chose to live for her friend, and thus tied one end of the string of her life to revenge, to retaliate against that person for trampling on her belief, persistence and yearning.

In the days full of hatred, she gradually transferred her hatred to the child in her womb, loathed her, hated her, and wanted to get rid of her completely several times, and several times almost died when the child was born in the world. before strangling her.

Later, due to an accident, the child was born prematurely.

To this child, she was as ruthless as her mother, leaving the child to the elders.

Because the child was born too early, the child was very weak, and she fell ill every three to five times. She didn't go to see it, and she thought she was sitting on the hospital bed in pain and groaning without illness.

Until one day after being discharged from the hospital, my aunt came over with the child in her arms. Seeing the child's smile, she kept the child by her side.

It was also this time that she committed an unforgivable sin. When the aunt and her lover were away, and when the child was sleeping, she turned into a demon and choked the child's neck, looking at the child. painful struggle.

There was a slight tremor in his arms, "Is the child... dead?"

Wen Siqi lowered her eyelids, pursed her lips and continued, "No, she's alive."

After speaking, the story continued.

Fortunately, reason stopped her, and she slapped herself.

The child cried a lot, and there was no one at home, so she had to be coaxed by the executioner.

She hesitated for a long time, and when the child was about to cry, she picked her up and coaxed her clumsily.

The child was coaxed, and smiled foolishly at the person who almost killed him, and stretched out his fleshy, small hand to her, and held her fingers in the palm of his hand.

She was stunned, looking at the child's innocent smile, she was stunned, laughed and cried.

The child fell asleep, and she looked at the fingerprints on the child's neck that had not yet receded, remembered the pain of being trampled on when she was young, and remembered what she had done just now.The sin in her heart made her blame herself, made her loathe herself even more, and couldn't forgive herself.

She got sick and got sicker.

In the second year after the child was born, her friend came to visit her. The friend found out that she was ill, and stayed by her side for a long time.

The children's laughter, the care of friends, and the love of aunts, those days were another happy time for her.

No need to be confused, no need to hesitate, no loneliness, life always has a tomorrow.

She tried to find herself in this brief period of happiness, and she failed.

The hatred has turned into a thorn in her heart, and if she doesn't pull out the thorn, she can't go back to the past.

Likewise, she knew that her aunts did not belong to her, her friends did not belong to her, and her children would grow up and leave her.

She hates herself who can't be herself, but she can't leave.

In the years when friends came and went, she found that when only friends were around, she was a bit of a shadow of what she used to be.

She knew that she fell in love with her friends, and she also knew that it was impossible for them.

They are so alike, both lonely, equally confused about the world, and equally eager to be loved.

It's just too similar, so they can't be, and their destinies are completely different from beginning to end.

A friend has a family who understands and loves her from beginning to end, and a person who cares about and loves her wholeheartedly.

A friend's lover is a frank person, she trusts her friend very much, and believes that she will not empathize with others.

As long as there is a gentleman, there must be a villain. She became a villain, hiding her desire, and repeatedly diverted her attention to other places, piercing the hatred in her heart.

The child is growing up, just like she loved to cling to her grandpa when she was young, the child is very clingy to her, and always likes to follow her behind and call her mother.

She likes, she resists, she desires, she fears, she can't forget the crime she committed to the child, and every time the child approaches, her conscience is condemned and tormented.

She wants to be a ruthless person, completely decisive in her feelings for the child, and treat the child as a pure revenge tool.

She failed again, and while she couldn't forget the crime she committed to the child, she couldn't forget the hope the child brought her, and she couldn't forget the angelic smile.

She is her little angel.

She couldn't be vicious, and she couldn't connect that face to another person. She just wanted to pull out the thorn quickly so that it wouldn't hurt the child again.

Fate brought her a man who also wanted revenge, and she coincided with him.

They made a plan of revenge. For this plan, in order to remove the thorn in her heart, she also dragged innocent people into the muddy water.

She took the child back to the prison, saw the friend she was thinking of, saw another friend who always looked at her unhappy, that is, the friend's lover, also saw him who kept her up at night, saw a beautiful girl.

The girl is a kind, gentle, and simple person, but also a person who is blind for love. In the girl, she sees herself blind in adolescence.

She regretted it and wanted to leave the city quickly.

But she couldn't let go of her hatred for him.

After several hesitation, she still chose to implicate the innocent.

Fortunately, the girl is a person with a strong heart. Standing on the stage facing countless audiences, the girl retreated with ease, leaving the sinister clown standing on the stage in confusion and continuing to dance.

The thorn was pulled out, and her illness did not get better, because she found that she never hated him at all.

there has never been.

The so-called hatred is just a lie, a lie and a reason to deceive oneself to live.

Just like after the grandfather passed away, she regarded the love between the grandfather and the grandmother as a yearning, and used it as a reason to live.

She was confused again, not knowing what is the point of living.

She wanted to commit suicide several times, but the child always appeared in front of her crying at this time.

Later, she found another reason to live for herself.

Survive the walking dead.

"What about the back?"

That's the end of the story, Wen Siqi didn't continue for a long time.

"My mother doesn't know how the story will develop later."

"Oh..." Wen Suiyun lowered his head, and it took him a long time to raise his head and turn around to look at Wen Siqi, "Mom, does she still hate children?"

Wen Siqi shook her head, "No, very early, very early, she didn't hate it."

If you hate her, you should also hate herself.

Wen Siqi laughed mockingly.

Wen Suiyun grinned, she was so happy that she didn't notice her mother's self-mockery.

"Okay, the story is over, it's time for Yunyun to go to bed."

The story is very long, and as soon as I talked about it, the moon was shifted, and Wen Suiyun's eyelids kept twitching.

"But Mom hasn't said why she can't come out."

The story is long, but not long enough to make her forget the reason for the beginning of the story.

The story doesn't say why it doesn't come out, neither does the ending.

Wen Siqi smiled, and stood up holding her daughter, "The reason is already in the story, whether you can find it or not depends on Yunyun herself."

"You can't ask for help, and you can't tell the story to others."

Wen Suiyun nodded, leaning on his mother's shoulder, frowning.

Where is it hiding?