One Hundred Days on an Uninhabited Island

"What do you mean."

In the clay pot supported by three wooden sticks, the flame gradually loses its vitality as the firewood burns out, and the faint light no longer brings light to the solidified balcony.

"It means..." The weakening of the fire light made the shadow more unscrupulous on the smiling face, "Miss Jiang, I slept with someone, or..."

"Wen Siqi." The suppressed voice interrupted Wen Siqi's continuation.

Jiang Xinran gritted her teeth, not to let the anger in her heart rush out.

Wen Siqi rejected her again, this time the rejection not only misinterpreted her attitude towards feelings, but also contemptuous of herself, which made Jiang Xinran feel amused and angrily laughed.

There was even a moment when she wanted to cross the table and give Wen Siqi a slap to wake her up, but she endured it anyway.

"Mother……"

Wen Suiyun struggled and twisted his body, trying to turn around, but was held down by Wen Siqi.

"Mom is fine. Mom is just telling you, Sister Xinxin, not to choose the wrong path because of impulsive liking."

The comforting voice was still gentle, like a hand caressing her cheek, making her feel at ease and comfortable.

But this time, Wen Suiyun couldn't feel at ease.

She was not stupid, she could hear the stalemate at this moment, her mother's escape and Jiang Xinran's anger.

At this time, if she keeps silent, her mother will return to the way it was before, and her aunt Xinxin will not become the second mother.

Thinking of this, she was sitting on pins and needles.

But after all, she was young, and she was not Wen Siqi's opponent at all. She was so crushed that she couldn't move. She was so anxious that she looked straight at Jiang Xinran, hoping that Jiang Xinran could save her and fight with her.

The reality gave her a basin of cold water.

Jiang Xinran was absent-minded, she didn't know what she was looking at, she was fascinated by it.

Wen Suiyun became disheartened and calmed down.

Wen Siqi also breathed a sigh of relief, and grabbed her left wrist with her right hand again.

After calming down the mood disturbed by Wen Suiyun, Wen Siqi raised her head again, frowning.

Jiang Xinran was looking at her hands, and her downward gaze was clearly looking at her hands.

What's wrong with your hand?

Wen Siqi was puzzled, and looked down at her hand, but there was nothing unusual.

Looking up again, in the dim light, Wen Siqi saw Jiang Xinran smiling at her, her smile was full of energy, as if she had solved a problem.

My heart skipped a beat.

The right hand moves slightly.

Withdrawing her gaze, Jiang Xinran stood up, picked up a few twigs that Wen Siqi had put on the ground, broke them off one by one and put them into the clay pot.

Wen Siqi watched her actions, and her doubts became more and more intense.

Similarly, a strange feeling surged up along with doubts.

In the pottery basin, once again exposed to the flame of the fire source, its bright light will be ignited again in a short while.

Turning around and sitting back at the table, looking at the face illuminated by the fire again.

Soft and calm.

Compared with the bright smile that made people feel uncomfortable, he was a different person.

The completely different expressions alternated rapidly in a short period of time, and the speed of change was comparable to that of an old actor in the entertainment industry. If Wen Siqi went to act, she would definitely achieve a lot.

Whether it's her acting skills or her subtle observation of people's hearts, they are enough to make her feel like a fish in water in any circle.

Ye Yajie also said that getting along with someone like Wen Siqi will feel very comfortable for a short time, because she can easily understand you and give you the acting skills you want to see.

But once it's been a long time, it will make people feel tired and gradually alienated, because you can't see through her disguise and guess what she is thinking.

It is true that Wen Siqi is a person who is easy to guess a person's mind, and even more difficult to be guessed.

However, Wen Siqi will not keep guessing people's hearts, will not continue to act, no matter what profession or identity, Wen Siqi will not touch people who have endless dealings with people's hearts.

It wasn't just that she was tired and disgusted by the voyeurism of people's hearts.

"What are you laughing at?"

Jiang Xinran's smile made Wen Siqi very uncomfortable, not because of the discomfort of being seen through, but because of the urgency in her heart, just like the impatient waiting for the next paragraph of a suspense novel, impatient to see if the answer is what she guessed.

It's such an uncomfortable moment.

The waiting time is tormenting, but fortunately Jiang Xinran is not a vicious person who loves to keep silent and sees people anxiously.

"Because I finally want to understand why you said you were unworthy and you couldn't get out of the past."

She glanced at Wen Siqi's hand, and Wen Siqi who noticed her gaze also looked at her hand again.

The right hand forms a fist and hides behind the palm of the left hand.

Jiang Xinran looked at it for a while, then fixed her eyes on Wen Siqi's face.

"After hearing your story relayed by Suiyun, combine Yajie and the others' guesses.

At first I thought that what you said was unworthy and that you couldn’t get out because of the death of the grandfather, and you also died with your heart. The last words of the grandfather made you unable to accomplish everything, so I kept looking for goals for myself and let myself live like a walking dead. "

"However, a voice in my heart told me: not just, you don't just think that you have no future because you are dead, and it's not because you're a walking dead and you don't deserve to touch the future."

"Just now, I finally wanted to understand the real reason why you have been avoiding the future and not daring to pursue the future."

"You have a cleanliness, a serious mental cleanliness."

Wen Siqi has a cleanliness addiction, which is a more serious mental cleanliness addiction than her.

And unlike her mental illness caused by external stimuli, Wen Siqi's cleanliness is more like innate. Of course, this is just an exaggeration, but it is undeniable that this cleanliness has existed for a long time.

It is precisely because of this obsession with cleanliness that she does not touch the love she yearns for, the beauty and future she pursues.

The moment the words fell, Wen Siqi's voice rang out, "How can you see that?"

She is smiling, and the mixed emotions in the smile make people wonder, is her heart too rich?

Wen Suiyun raised her head and looked at her mother. She was always sensitive to emotions, especially for her mother's emotional changes. She clearly felt that the heart behind her was turning towards joy.

Turning around, she also looked at Jiang Xinran excitedly, expecting her answer.

Jiang Xinran lived up to expectations, "Because of your words and deeds."

"Just now when you wanted to comfort Suiyun, you subconsciously raised your right hand, but you replaced it and replaced it with your left hand.

Also, before, every time you touched Suiyun, you always avoided your right hand, but before you accidentally killed that person, you never avoided touching Suiyun with your right hand. "

"No, this is not the beginning." Wen Siqi denied with a smile.

Jiang Xinran also smiled and said, "But that was when Suiyun was still very young, and later you untied this knot, no, to be precise, it should be suppressed, until you killed someone, and your blood-splattered hands made you feel angry again. Remember the mistakes you almost made."

"I heard from my sister that you said to Tang Tang: Suiyun is your hope, your light, the beauty that carries all your fantasies, and you don't allow her to be stained by this bloody hand."

Wen Siqi lowered her eyelids.

Looking up at his unresponsive mother, Wen Suiyun pushed his mother's left hand away, and then pushed his clenched right hand away one by one, inserted his own hand horizontally, and held her mother's right hand.

After it was over, she raised her head again, grinning silly and happy at Wen Siqi.

Her pupils tightened suddenly, subconsciously Wen Siqi wanted to pull her hand away, but the little hand tightly clenched in her palm did not allow her to escape.

Tightly pursing her lips, she remained silent, as if she was suppressing something, her left hand was sometimes clenched and sometimes opened.

Jiang Xinran saw the action, so she struck while the iron was hot, "Similarly, it's also because of your cleanliness that you keep avoiding your feelings for me."

"In your heart, you desire to have pure love like your grandpa and grandma, long to meet the beauty described by your grandpa, and take them as the motivation to live in Nancheng, not your grandpa's last words."

"But the later blindness made you loathe yourself, and the blindness you loathed tainted the love you yearned for. The reason why you wanted to kill Suiyun several times was because her existence made you think that she was constantly reminding you that you had been killed. The tainted facts, you are not qualified to look forward to the future and pursue beauty, you cannot accept it.”

After a pause, she took a sip of the water from Wen Siqi who had calmed down, and Jiang Xinran continued.

"Later you managed to get revenge on him, but you risked everything for revenge, especially your reputation, which made you hate yourself even more and think that you are not worthy of touching beauty.

You try to seek relief, but the responsibilities of your mother, your love for Suiyun, and the sunshine she brings to you make you unable to be decisive, so you are confused.

Until you encountered this disaster, and in the constant relationship, your yearning for love made you approach me uncontrollably, and even made you forget your dislike for yourself, letting your suppressed nature reveal, and you want to find love again. back to myself. "

"until……"

Jiang Xinran stopped talking.

The words are almost the same here, Wen Siqi already knew what she was going to say later, it was nothing more than she killed him, the fact that a life ended in her own hands made her unacceptable, so that it caused her mental rejection again, and even committed a crime before. Her mistakes were magnified infinitely in this rejection, which made her even more unbearable to be tainted by herself.

Wen Siqi smiled lightly. She didn't want to laugh, but the corner of her mouth smiled uncontrollably.

Soon, it was still calm reason that made her understand the reason for laughing.

Jiang Xinran spoke out her knot, a knot she had never been able to discover.

Cleanliness.

Ridiculous reason, but the truth is because of it.

Because of cleanliness, I am blind to false love; because of cleanliness, I cannot forgive deception; because of cleanliness, I do not allow my imperfect self.

Because of cleanliness...

In the final analysis, it is all because of the cleanliness of feelings.

No contamination will be tolerated.

Including, myself!

Wen Siqi was laughing, laughing so excitedly that her shoulders trembled violently. If it wasn't midnight, Jiang Xinran believed that she would laugh wantonly.

Still the same rational people do not know words.

Wen Siqi was also crying, and the tears in her eyes dripped from her cheeks to Wen Suiyun's head before they even reached her chin, and she could vaguely hear a trembling voice mixed in with her laughter.

Feeling the cold wetness on his head, Wen Suiyun raised his head again.

Before she could speak nervously, she saw Jiang Xinran shaking her head at her.

Wen Suiyun understood the meaning and wanted her to disturb her mother's venting, but her mother's situation made her feel uneasy, so she could only hold her mother's hand tightly and tell her that she was here.

Jiang Xinran didn't bother Wen Siqi to vent, she just went around and sat beside her, watching her cry and laugh.

At this time, no matter how much comfort is said, it is better to let the other party vent alone.

Wen Siqi suppressed herself for too long.

The crying and laughing didn't take long, only a few laps of the second hand, Wen Siqi calmed down, raised her hand to wipe away her tears, then raised her head to calm the excitement in her nose.

For a long time, Jiang Xinran heard the gentle softness in her ears.

"You're right, but not quite right."

The warm words seem to be whispering in the ears, and the breath is like orchids, which intoxicates the ears.

The ear pinna moved slightly, Jiang Xinran turned her head, and looked at Wen Siqi's side face hidden in the shadows, the smile on her lips was not bright, but it was natural, as if the false mask she saw before was just an illusion.

However, that was not an illusion, and Wen Siqi was far from smiling as wantonly and naturally as in a photo.

Reining in her thoughts, Jiang Xinran raised her head and asked, "What's wrong?"

Wen Siqi turned around and smiled, "It's not just because of my obsession with cleanliness that I stopped looking outside, but also because of low self-esteem."

"Inferiority?" Jiang Xinran frowned, as if thinking of something, she said, "Your mother."

The smile became brighter and brighter, "Yes."

Looking back at the dark jungle, Wen Siqi recalled, "When she threw me to the ground, trampled on and beat me hard, my self-esteem and my spine were trampled on the ground and I couldn't pick it up.

In the days of living with her in the future, watching her speak one way and act another way, the inferiority complex in my heart will inevitably affect the cleanliness, which makes me desire perfection even more. "

"A perfect me."

Hearing these words, Jiang Xinran's heart skipped a beat, and she had a better understanding of Wen Siqi's obsession with cleanliness. Her obsession with cleanliness had penetrated into her bones, and she had driven herself into an extreme obsessive-compulsive disorder.

An extreme clean freak who forces herself to be perfect, she doesn't allow anything to tarnish her belief, even if the person who tarnished this belief is herself.

Jiang Xinran felt that Wen Siqi's revenge on that person was more like revenge on herself, a blind revenge on herself.

"What else? It's not just this one effect, right?"

Wen Siqi looked at her, smirked, and said, "That's what you guessed, you're desperate."

"I was born without knowledge of the five flavors. My grandpa once told me that there are five flavors in love. I am eager to taste the taste he described and see the beauty he described.

After the grandpa left, I tied this to the other end of the string and let them carry me like a marionette until I was lucky enough to taste the five flavors hidden in love. "

"However, the reality tells me that what I have tasted and seen are all just my imagination, and I am the only one who loves the imagination from the beginning to the end."

"His ridicule and trample on my beliefs, his parents' abuse, his classmates' ridicule, the sympathy of outsiders and the contempt hidden in his sympathy made me completely give up."

"A person with a dead heart, if a person is withered, he is already a rotten tree, how can he get the power to face the sun."

Wen Siqi scoffed and laughed.

"No, you have, and you have been thinking about Sunshine." Jiang Xinran categorically denied it.

Is Wen Siqi's heart dead?

No, she didn't, not only didn't she die, but she kept dragging her tired and wounded body to the place where the sun shines.

"How can you see it."

The voice trembled slightly, but the smile was full.

Jiang Xinran exhaled lightly and said, "If it's true what you said, you won't have the hope of living just because of Sui Yun's innocent smile, and you won't be moved by anyone anymore."

"A person who is truly dead will not change his heart towards death because of outsiders. Only those who have always yearned for sunshine and longing for hope will be born again and again towards sunshine and hope because of the unintentional warmth of outsiders."

"You are a strong and determined person, you will not give in to difficulties easily, you have been struggling with yourself."

The night wind was blowing, and the temperature of the island was not much different between day and night. During this period of time, they ate meat all the time. This wind did not make them feel cold. On the contrary, this gust of wind took away some of the heaviness accumulated on their bodies.

Wen Siqi chuckled lightly, "Thank you, Ms. Jiang, for your praise. If I hadn't realized the weakness in my heart, I would have believed what you said about me."

"The authorities are obsessed." Jiang Xinran said firmly: "You see yourself clearly, but also because you think you see yourself clearly, you are confused by yourself. For example, before this, did you know that you have a cleanliness?"

"No, you don't know, so you pushed the character you analyzed about me onto Mu Qiushui." After a pause, "During the few days you were detained, I met Mu Qiushui once, and I asked her curiously , Why are you sure that I will believe you instead of him, you know, my insistence on him before is enough to prove my blindness to him."

"She told me that you told her that I have an emotional cleanliness. From the information she gave you about me and the comments in the circle, I deduced the conclusion that I have an emotional cleanliness. I am sure that I will choose to give up."

She glanced at Wen Siqi, and continued: "You attribute this conclusion to Mu Qiushui's intelligence, I thought the same way before, I can infer why you are so powerful.

But just now, when I found out about your cleanliness, I realized that it wasn't because of how evil you are, but because you deduced the conclusion based on your own intelligence. "

Immediately, it was like enlightenment, and the memories suddenly became clear. Wen Siqi finally understood why she could conclude that Jiang Xinran had an emotional cleanliness addiction based on some outdated materials and evaluations. It turned out that it was her all along...

"It's just that I judge others by myself." Wen Siqi laughed dumbfoundedly.

If it wasn't for judging others by oneself, how could it be so easy to infer that Jiang Xinran has an emotional cleanliness?

But save others by yourself.

Chi Chi chuckled, Wen Siqi lowered her eyelids, and seemed to be talking to herself, "It would be great if I could meet you sooner..."

"No, it should be... How nice it would be to meet the you you are today."

There are two kinds of regrets in love, one is meeting the wrong person at the right time, and the other is meeting the right person at the wrong time.

And meeting the wrong person at the wrong time is not regret, but pain.

So what about meeting the right person at the right time?

"It's not too late now."

They were young, it was not too late; they could not say they knew each other well, but they understood how the other felt.

"Are you still obsessed with me? Continue to love a paranoid person, who may be with the person you suppress at any time."

A person who will push himself to a dead end will also push the people around him to the brink of collapse. It is very tiring to get along with such a person.

Hearing this, Jiang Xinran breathed a sigh of relief, which meant that Wen Siqi's knot in her heart was unraveled, and she had found a way out.

He smiled happily: "Of course, the Jiang family has a lot of stubborn donkeys, and I am no exception.

In my heart, as long as the person I believe in doesn't lie to me or betray me when she is with me, I will go on firmly. "

After hesitating for a while, he stretched out his hand around Wen Siqi's back, and put it lightly on her right shoulder.

There was a slight tremor in the palm of my hand, and it suddenly returned to calm.

"Can you spend some time with me?"

Looking at each other, Jiang Xinran smiled even more.

"I'll accompany you."