the girl i had a crush on

I remember that the winter in Nancheng in 07 was colder than any previous year.

Nancheng is a small city close to the southern border, with a subtropical monsoon climate. It has never snowed since I was born, but it snowed that year. Although it was only a thin layer, it melted in the morning sun. Still amazes southern kids.

This year, all the cold-resistant clothing in the major shopping malls in Nancheng are out of stock, and the price of down jackets has increased several times.

The school rules of the Fourteenth Middle School require students to wear school badges and school uniforms when entering the school. Only this winter, because it was too cold, it was slightly relaxed. Down jackets and overcoats are allowed to be worn outside the school uniforms.This Coke ruined those little boys who were suffocated by school uniforms back then. As if they had received an amnesty, they all put their most fashionable down jackets or woolen coats on the outside of their school uniforms, long and short, loose and slim. , each style has its own characteristics, especially the girls, who wear red and willow green clothes, including hats, scarves, gloves, and boots on their feet are all carefully matched.

Chen Jinliang's dressing is also very good-looking. Although she is slightly darker than others, she does not shy away from her skin color at all. She can wear a white down jacket if she wants to wear it, and a pink woolen hat and gloves if she wants to. There is no color I also think she looks good in a white down jacket. She hadn't grown out at that time, she was thin and small, wrapped in a fluffy down jacket, only showing a small black face, like a The sesame glutinous rice balls with only the stuffing left out are just as cute, making you want to take a bite.

I am one of the few students in the school who insist on wearing school uniforms all winter. First, I don’t have the same beautiful winter clothes as my classmates. Second, I am not afraid of the cold. I only have a warm coat and a sweater hand-knitted by my mother. , and put on a school uniform jacket outside, it is already warm enough, but it will be too hot if you wear too much.

That winter, Chen Jinliang had her menstrual period for the first time.

Girls should all know the confusion and shame of experiencing this kind of thing for the first time. Once they sit down, they dare not move, for fear that the blood will leak out and their classmates will find it a joke.

Chen Jinliang was listless for the past two days. After class, he lay on the table motionless, clutching his stomach, and didn't speak. I went to tease her, but she frowned and stared at me: "It's annoying, don't bother me."

I asked, "What's the matter? Are you uncomfortable?"

She didn't speak, instead she lay down on the table in another position, facing me with the back of her head.

Even in class, I was listless, my eyes were staring blankly, and I didn't know which page to turn to, so I had to cover for her. When the teacher asked her to get up to answer the questions, I whispered to her next to her.

After class, I went to fetch water and found that her glass was cold, so I poured out her glass of cold water and replaced it with a warm one, "Look, your lips are cracked." I pushed the water glass to her eyes, "Here, Drinking a cup of hot water will make you feel better."

"I don't want to drink."

"why?"

"It's troublesome to go to the toilet after drinking too much."

I laughed, "What's the trouble?"

She gave me a resentful white look, and sighed: "Forget it, you don't understand."

I suddenly realized, leaned closer to her, and asked in a low voice that only the two of us could hear: "Did you come to that?"

The word menstruation = menstruation is an unspeakable word for a girl of twelve or thirteen years old, and I am too embarrassed to say it, so I just use "that" instead.

After hearing this, she broke down even more, "Don't mention it to me, okay? I'm getting bored to death, it's so unfair, why do I have to go through such troublesome things every month when I'm a girl? I...I don't want to be a girl I want to be a man..." She probably had a stomach full of grievances that she couldn't speak out, she broke through the gate in an instant, couldn't hold back her tears, and lay down on the table sobbing softly.

I was in a hurry and didn't know how to comfort her, so I had to say, "Then why don't I take you to the school infirmary?"

"Get out, what bad idea did you come up with!" She raised her red eyes and glared at me, "Is this something that the school infirmary can take care of?"

"Then..." I didn't move anymore, and broke down: "Then what's wrong with you, you have to make it clear, right?"

She muttered softly with her red eyes: "What's the use of telling you..."

"Anyway, I can rub it for you too, can't I?"

Just after I finished speaking, I saw that her face was a little red, and she opened her mouth and murmured a few times, which I couldn't hear clearly.

"What?" I leaned over.

She twisted my ear, gritted her teeth and said, "I said I have a stomachache, you idiot!"

I was tongue-tied and speechless.

I have no experience of dysmenorrhea, so this is the first time I know that some girls will have stomach pains when they come to "that".

"Then...then what should I do?" I was also a little embarrassed, rubbing my arms and shoulders was okay, but even if Chen Jinliang agreed, I wouldn't dare to help her in such a private place like my stomach.

My face was hot and I was afraid to speak.

The atmosphere is a bit weird.

After a while, when class was about to start, Chen Jinliang was in so much pain that he hummed intermittently under his throat, thin, if there was nothing, I heard it in my ears, I couldn't tell what it was like in my heart, I just remembered it in my head Li felt as if covered with paste, and couldn't do any of the math problems. There was nothing in front of him, only Chen Jinliang's humming came from his ears very clearly.

"Hey, give me your hand." Chen Jinliang said.

I held the pen stiffly, not knowing how to move it, until Chen Jinliang poked my arm and raised the volume and said again: "Qi Xuan, give me your hand!" Before I had time to ask her what she wanted my hand for, I felt that the palm of my hand was covered with a cold soft cloth through a thin layer of cloth.

Chen Jinliang sighed slowly and said, "Qi Xuan, you belong to the stove, why are your hands so warm in winter?"

I just realized that she took my hand to cover her stomach.

This cover, is a whole day.

I didn't hear what the teacher said in class that day, but I remember that our hands overlapped. Chen Jinliang's little hands were soft, like jelly, holding the back of my hands, making half of my body seem to disappear. Sensitive, but extremely sensitive.

"It's better to be at the same table as a girl." Chen Jinliang smiled for the first time that day, "If you were a man, I wouldn't dare to do that."

I blurted out: "You are not afraid..."

"What?" Chen Jinliang looked at me suspiciously.

My back felt cold, I swallowed all the rest of my heart, shook my head, "It's nothing." Then asked: "Is it better?"

In fact, I want to say, you are not afraid that my thoughts at this time are the same as those boys?

Forget it, don't freak her out.

The author has something to say:

感谢在2020-06-2423:53:58~2020-06-2622:41:28期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the mine: 1 uncle in pants;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!