fall in love by chance

It was still early, and Liang Ruixi didn't plan to go to sleep right away. He was leaning on the bed and playing with his mobile phone while waiting for Zhou Yan to come back. While waiting, he began to think wildly again, and asked himself a soul question in his mind: Why did Zhou Yan come back from six months? Like him years ago?What does he like about himself?

Think he is handsome?Zhou Yan doesn't seem to be such a superficial person, six years, not six months...

And in retrospect, he felt that he was bored when he was a freshman, and Zhou Yan seemed to dislike him at that time, why did he fall in love with him...

Wouldn't it be because of Yan Lushan's overflowing sympathy for him after learning of his life experience that night, it would be distorted into love?

If this is the case, he has to persuade Zhou Yan, there is no need, he really doesn't feel how miserable he is, there are many poorer people in this world than him, and he grew up healthy and happy without a father or a mother .

Besides, he had three or four girlfriends during those years in college. If it were him, the person he likes is so "turning around", he would have given up a long time ago...

So why exactly?

Just now, Jasmine Fragrance Zhou Yan was so arrogant that he didn't want to answer, Liang Ruixi didn't expect that the other party would tell him these questions directly if he asked them.But the more Zhou Yan kept silent, the more he wanted to know.

Today's temperature is indeed a bit high, Liang Ruixi stretched out both of his legs from the quilt to dry, and when he heard the sound of the bathroom door opening, he quickly retracted in fright and put the quilt back on.

……

Grass, what is he hiding from?

Obviously Zhou Yan likes him, and if he is nervous, Zhou Yan is more nervous than him. What is there for him to coax?

Liang Ruixi, who was a little ashamed and angry by her subconscious reaction, mustered up the courage to stretch out her feet again, and the reluctance to be teased by Zhou Yan in the bathroom just now jumped into her heart...

When Zhou Yan returned to the room, Liang Ruixi pretended to be looking at his mobile phone with nothing on his mind.

"I threw your clothes into the washing machine and washed them together," Zhou Yan said while opening the closet to sort out the clothes, and asked him, "What do you want to wear tomorrow?"

Liang Ruixi glanced at him and said, "It's the same as yours."

Zhou Yan picked out a light-colored shirt, took it out in advance and hung it outside, and said, "Would you like to take some time to go back with you, and you can pack a few more clothes you usually wear. After all, you will be staying for a month."

"Huh?" Liang Ruixi was stunned, "Isn't it just for three days on May Day?"

"Your foot will heal within a month, right?" Zhou Yan looked at his lame leg that was exposed outside the quilt, "Or are you going to be able to do it by yourself?"

"Oh..." Just now Zhou Yan told Grandma Li on the stairs to "stay for a few days", Liang Ruixi thought that Zhou Yan only planned to take him in for Labor Day, but it turned out that the other party had already planned to take care of him for a month!

Liang Ruixi was moved again: "Okay, go back and clean up tomorrow."

Zhou Yan went to bed after getting dressed, and also leaned on the bed to check the unreturned messages on the phone, and planned to go to sleep after returning.It was exactly 11:30, the same as the sleeping time observed by Liang Ruixi a few times ago, this guy's work and rest were more regular than the clock.

"Are you asleep?" Zhou Yan put down his phone and asked him.

"Well," Liang Ruixi seemed to have guessed what Zhou Yan was going to do next, and raised his hand in advance to block the moment when the other party leaned over, and said, "I'll lock it up later."

Zhou Yan was startled again, and unconsciously withdrew his hand.

The room darkened, and Zhou Yan became silent after lying down, but Liang Ruixi knew that he was not asleep.

How could it be possible to sleep...

Lying next to him was someone he'd loved for years, and they'd only pierced that window paper a few hours ago.

Listening to each other's breathing in the dark, Liang Ruixi also felt a little ready to move.

The energy originally allocated to the body seemed to be transferred to the brain because of his immobilized limp leg, and a bunch of brain cells were spinning and jumping inside as if he had been knocked off the Brain Maid, encouraging him to do something.

After waiting for a few minutes, Liang Ruixi felt that Zhou Yan was unprepared, so he coaxed like a confidant brother: "Why, Zhou Yan, why do you like me?"

"..."

After not hearing a response for a long time, Liang Ruixi boldly turned to the side and called out again: "Zhou Yan?"

"Like is just like, there is no reason." Zhou Yan finally answered.

"There must be a reason, right?" Liang Ruixi rested his hand on the side of his face and stared at Zhou Yan in the dark, extremely excited.

Zhou Yan thought for a long time: "The reason may be because you are stupid."

His tone was very serious, it didn't look like he was joking at all, and Liang Ruixi was taken aback.

What do you mean, he's stupid?

Even if Zhou Yan gave such a superficial answer as "Because you are handsome", Liang Ruixi would not be so depressed.

"Where am I stupid?" He asked back.

"I've liked you for so long and you only found out now, aren't you stupid?"

"No, you man, how would I know if you didn't tell me? And you've been dating Xiao Zhi since your sophomore year, how did you let me find out?"

"Isn't it because you avoided me before that that I dated Xiao Zhi? You think I want to?" Although he was questioning, Zhou Yan's tone was very calm, as if he was stating an established fact.

"I..." Liang Ruixi felt very embarrassed when he was suddenly exposed for his unconscious evasion behavior. He instinctively wanted to explain, "I didn't..."

Zhou Yan interrupted him: "Liang Ruixi, you don't need to explain anything to me, and you don't need to blame yourself. You like girls by nature, and it's normal to find that a person of the same sex treats you with an ambiguous attitude. It's normal to want to escape. I like you, originally I never had any hope. For so many years, I thought it would be good for us to be friends, I didn’t even think that you would be enlightened, and I was a little caught off guard by your enlightenment.”

It was like planting a bean. From the very beginning, Zhou Yan knew that the bean would not bloom, and had already accepted the reality. As a result, it grew a flower bud inexplicably.Compared with joy, Zhou Yan was more shocked, and even wondered if someone had quietly changed his species.

If it weren't for Liang Ruixi's "I'm not ready yet" tonight, Zhou Yan still wouldn't believe that his beans had sprouted, and he used a magnifying glass to repeatedly observe and deliberate whether it was true.

But did the flower not bloom? He didn't dare to say anything, didn't dare to do anything, for fear of scaring it off with just a few extra drops of water.

Liang Ruixi was also silent, he actually wanted to say just now, I don't hate you.

Indeed, if he knew the truth at that time, it might be difficult for him to accept it, but he would still regard Zhou Yan as a friend.

He also thought that if Zhou Yan had been more proactive and persistent, maybe he would have been willing to try with him.

But it's just a try, he is not sure whether he can respond to Zhou Yan's feelings now, so how can he be sure that he can respond in the past?After all, it was on a university campus, and it was a dense group where you could meet acquaintances in a public restroom. If at that time he cared more about the eyes of the world and the criticism of his classmates, it would not be impossible to alienate Zhou Yan completely. .

Time will change a lot of things, an unconscious evasion and a conscious concealment contributed to today's situation.

They have known each other for seven years now, and he has only learned that Zhou Yan has liked him for six years, but this emotion has been thoroughly blended with classmates and brothers, and has become inseparable and heavy, making it impossible for him to love him. Then think about giving up.

……Hey.

Fortunately, the day before yesterday, he fantasized about finding enough evidence for Zhou Yan to have nowhere to hide. It turned out that he had misunderstood the roles of the two people from the very beginning, and the person being judged was actually only himself.

Liang Ruixi breathed a sigh of relief and wanted to say something, but Zhou Yan said again: "You don't have to have any special psychological burden. Even if you are not ready all the time, we can just be ordinary friends. I don't want you Take pity on me or accept me for some other reason."

"I do not have……"

"Whether you have it or not, I will put my attitude here first," Zhou Yan said in a calm tone, speaking rationally and decisively, paused, and finally said, "Next time, don't ask me why I like you. Stupid question, there may have been some clear reasons at first, but after all these years, it has become an instinct that I can't quit, and I can't explain it."

"..."

Zhou Yan said everything, and Liang Ruixi could only stare at the air.

Although the last sentence moved his heart, what is Zhou Yan's attitude?He had never seen a person who had a crush on him speak so confidently about his crush.

Is it possible to say that it has become an instinct, but not make demands, and still have no desires?

If he didn't find out and didn't respond, did Zhou Yan plan to live like this for the rest of his life?

Liang Ruixi was completely at a loss.

But after thinking about it, he felt wrong again.

Zhou Yan is such a proud person. In the years when he was in the university, he was the class monitor, the chairman of the student union, and presided over various campus activities... Zhou Yan never seemed to do or say the wrong thing, no matter where he went. With a straight back, he walks with wind, his teachers trust him, and his classmates admire him. With whom did he bow his head, give in, and show a little fragility in those four years?

Liang Ruixi rummaged, no.

But just tonight, Zhou Yan personally admitted his liking for him, and the words "I'll wait for you" still lingered in his ears, and Zhou Yan's tone sounded affectionate to him at the time, even with a little sadness, as if Inadvertently exposed the weakness that had been hidden for many years, and handed himself over to him.

But now, Zhou Yan is still pretending to be calm, trying not to put any pressure on him.

Liang Ruixi suddenly wanted to laugh, and Zhou Yan said he was stupid, but he thought Zhou Yan was even more stupid than him.

Since you said you have to wait, how could you not expect it?

Impulsively, he suddenly propped himself up and approached Zhou Yan.

The moment he stood up, Zhou Yan opened his eyes, frowning slightly, looking at him vigilantly with deep eyes in the dark, and asked in a low voice, "What are you doing?"

"No, I am," Liang Ruixi stretched out his hand lovingly, and patted his chest lightly, "Well, go to sleep."

"..."

Liang Ruixi lay back after filming, grasping the quilt contentedly, thinking, Zhou Yan should like this kind of contact, right?

Well, take it slowly, he has to digest and digest, maybe after a while, he can do more...

Because of the pain in her feet, it was difficult to change her sleeping position at night. When Liang Ruixi woke up the next day, she was stiff.He leaned on the wall and jumped out slowly. Zhou Yan had cooked porridge early on. After he finished washing up, the two of them had a simple breakfast before going to Liang Ruixi's house to get something.

Zhou Yan still carried him to the parking lot. It was no worse than night in the daytime. Many uncles and aunts looked at them along the way.

This scene made Liang Ruixi seem to have traveled back to the university in a second, but at that time the people who watched them were all classmates in the school. Liang Ruixi didn't mind other people's attention to her since she was a child, and she deliberately hugged Zhou Yan's neck at that time.

The boys all booed when they saw it: "The school grass is treated well, and there are people who are lame." "The relationship is very good, so tight!" Look at them!" "Look at them both!"

At this time, Zhou Yan would stop him with a serious tone: "Liang Ruixi, let go."

Liang Ruixi cheated: "If you let go, your center of gravity will not be stable. I'm tall, so I'm afraid I'll fall."

Zhou Yan stopped and said fiercely: "If you hug me like this again, I won't carry you on my back."

Liang Ruixi didn't believe in evil. Once, after hearing Zhou Yan threatening him like this, he even put his legs on the opponent's body, hoping to see if Zhou Yan would really leave him behind.

Zhou Yan raised his voice and said twice, seeing that he didn't listen, he pinched his injured ankle severely, and he fell off Zhou Yan with a scream of pain.When he landed, he couldn't stand on one foot, and he sat down on the ground.

Zhou Yan was probably really angry, so he didn't even look at him, and walked forward without looking back.

Liang Ruixi was so frightened that he quickly got up, dragging his injured leg and shouting and chasing after him: "Zhou Yan! Zhou Yan, I was wrong! Don't go!" He took two steps and let out a wail, which made more people stop look at them.

Zhou Yan finally stopped, turned his head to stare at him, Liang Ruixi jumped up and howled and moved to the opponent, grabbed his arm, as if afraid that Zhou Yan would leave him again, and apologized eagerly: "I was wrong. I was wrong, I won't hug you anymore..."

Pretending to be obedient and miserly is his strong point. He has relied on this trick since he was a child to make a fortune outside, and finally won the forgiveness of his teachers. It is also effective against Zhou Yan.

Looking at his expression at that time, Zhou Yan was both annoyed and helpless, and declared again: "Liang Ruixi, the demands I made clear to you are not joking, you better remember, don't always challenge my bottom line."

Liang Ruixi was scared to death by his appearance, and kept saying: "I know, I know, I remember, I remember..."

But he remembered that Zhou Yan seemed to say to him last night: "You can hug my neck now."

It was in an empty stairwell, and now it is on the street. Liang Ruixi was a little uncertain, so he quietly leaned into Zhou Yan's ear to confirm: "Can I put my arms around your neck?"

The back of Zhou Yan's neck stiffened, and after a few seconds, he said in a deep voice, "Yes."