fall in love by chance

S04. Life experience

A sudden phone call interrupted Zhou Yan's reverie.

He looked at the caller ID on the screen, his face changed, and he hesitated for a few seconds before answering: "Mom."

"Ayan," came a calm and restrained voice from the other end of the phone, but the tone was like a boss giving orders to his subordinates, "We haven't called for a long time, I thought you wouldn't answer this time."

"I'm busy with work, you can send me a WeChat message."

The woman on the opposite side chuckled lightly: "Then a message was delayed for two days?"

"What's the matter with you?" Zhou Yan frowned.

"You are my son, can I call you if it's okay?"

Both sides were silent for a few seconds before the woman said: "Your father...has a meeting in Haicheng for the past two days. He heard that you are also there and wants to meet you."

"Father?" Zhou Yan frowned, suddenly alert, "Which one are you talking about?"

The other end hesitated for a moment before saying, "Your biological father."

Zhou Yan was shocked, gritted his teeth and said, "No see."

"Ayan..."

Zhou Yan interrupted her: "Mom, we have talked about this matter many times. I said that I only have one father in legal name. No matter what kind of blood connection another person has with me, what benefits can he give me?" , I will not accept it."

"Zhou Yan!" The woman called his full name sharply, "Whether you admit it or not, this is reality!"

"If this is reality, you should have let me know from the very beginning that this world is not black and white, instead of keeping me in the ideal world you created for so many years, and then kissing me in front of me Break it and let me bear such an ugly truth..."

"It's been seven years, Ah Yan, are you still angry with your mother?" The woman's voice finally showed a trace of pain, "I want you to grow up in a healthy and positive environment, so I keep hiding you, I think When you mature, I will reveal it to you slowly, so that you can accept it more easily, what did I do wrong? You will never learn to grow up, will you?"

"Stop talking, mom..." Zhou Yan panted with difficulty, as if pleading and threatening, "Don't make me feel that even my birth was a mistake."

After hanging up the phone, Zhou Yan still felt that it was difficult to breathe. He rested his head on the desk with his hands to calm himself down.

Every time he talks about this topic with his mother, he feels like returning to the evening of the end of the college entrance examination, the moment he heard the truth...

At first he just heard who his mother was on the phone with.

Zhou Yan met that person when he was a child. He was a familiar uncle, much older than his mother, and he had become a hot big shot when Zhou Yan was in high school.

And his majestic and upright mother, the mother who has never accepted any heavy gifts and rewards, the person he has looked up to and aspired to become since he was a child, seemed to have changed his face that night, and he was talking on the phone Li promised that he would do what he needed to do for the other party, and even said to the other party earnestly: "Ah Yan's future development will also need to be taken care of by you. You know...he is your child after all."

He didn't know how they had him, but he speculated that his mother endured the humiliation for the sake of power and her own reputation, and accepted the other party's arrangement, which included the family.

When he was a child, he felt that the relationship between his parents was relatively alienated, and they even slept in separate rooms at home. Compared with ordinary couples, his parents were more like partners. Of course, his father's attitude towards him was not so enthusiastic. That was the character of the other party in the past, but after he reacted, he realized that he was the only one who was kept in the dark.

My mother also felt sad to him, saying "you don't know what I have paid for you". He used to think of it as some sacrifices made by every woman for childbearing.The night when he learned the truth, Zhou Yan knew what those words meant.

During the dispute between the two, his mother mentioned again: "I just want to get back some of the benefits I deserve for the price I paid back then. You are his son, so his connections and the resources he can mobilize should also be available. You have one, and I don't see anything wrong with doing so."

But Zhou Yan couldn't understand, they were all the people who put their hands on the red book and swore an oath, how did they manage to say a set of words and principles, but violated them so thoroughly in their actions.

The pain he suffered that night was [-] times more painful than the sudden realization that he fell in love with someone of the same sex.

Because that night, the beliefs he had built up over the past 19 years, his persistent "correctness", and the ideal country he yearned to step into all lost the foundation of support in an instant.

Every time they quarreled with their mother, they talked about their reasons over and over again, and they never reached an agreement once.

When she saw her mother's eyes were red and showed a rare fragility, Zhou Yan was not without soft-heartedness and compromise.

In the year he graduated from university, he briefly accepted the other party's persuasion, returned to Nanshi, and entered the institutional work.

But in less than half a year, he found that he couldn't bear it at all. When he made up his mind to resign, he also cut off the future that his mother longed to see in him.

Before leaving Nanshi, his mother also said the phrase "When will you mature".

Zhou Yan didn't answer, but he thought in his heart that this is not a question of maturity at all, but a question of principle.

It's not that he can't see the complexity of reality, he just can't compromise with the principles in his heart.And this uncompromising confidence was given to him by his native family.

What a contradiction, they put him in a lofty position, but asked him not to be as noble as he seemed on the surface.

Fortunately, Liang Ruixi taught him another survival rule in college.

The great hermit lives in the city, and as an ordinary person, even if he is not a respectable person, he can still live a clean and pure life.

Zhou Yan stayed in the law firm for more than half an hour after get off work, until Liang Ruixi sent a message to ask him when he got home: "Why haven't you come back yet, are you working overtime again?"

Zhou Yan's frowning brows relaxed slightly, and he replied, "Come on."

Liang Ruixi: "What's for dinner? Can I order a takeaway?"

Zhou Yan: "I'll pack a copy of the spicy hot pot that I ate before and go home."

Liang Ruixi: "Okay, I want the hottest pot, and add an extra luncheon meat!"

Zhou Yan found a handbag, put all the notes collected this week in it, went downstairs and ordered a fragrant pot, and took home a bag in each hand.

Before reaching the door of the house, Liang Ruixi opened the door for him, shouting: "It smells so good!"

"Are you a dog? Can you still smell the fragrance through the door?" Zhou Yan couldn't help laughing, the mood disturbed by that phone call was relieved a lot at the moment when he saw Liang Ruixi.

"Hey, I heard your footsteps, and I'm already thinking about eating hot pot~" Liang Ruixi took the two bags and asked Zhou Yan to change his shoes.One of them was dead, Liang Ruixi glanced at it, and said in surprise, "What is this heavy? Could it be your work this weekend?"

"It's the work you have to do," Zhou Yan glanced at him with a smile, and after changing his shoes, he took the bag back and explained, "Didn't you ask me for notes last week? I can't find them anymore, so I will help you." You asked the juniors who worked together in Yintian before, as well as Yadong, and collected the notes of the top students who got high scores in the examinations in recent years, it should be no worse than mine."

He took out a stack of books and put them on the coffee table, and then said: "I have already taken the time to help you sort it out first, and labeled it according to the content, so you don't need to spend time sorting it out, just look it up when you need it." , or if you don’t understand, you can ask me directly..."

Zhou Yan, who was always noisy, didn't make a sound at this moment. Zhou Yan was a little surprised. He raised his eyes to look at him, but saw that the other party was looking at him obsessively, with a pair of eyes showing a strong sense of nostalgia.

When Zhou Yan looked back, he turned his face slightly and said in a low voice: "That's what I asked, you really went to collect it..." His tone seemed to have a hook, and every word touched Zhou Yan's heart. Heart.

Zhou Yan suddenly remembered what Ruan Yadong had revealed, and his heart skipped a beat. He didn't know whether it was shyness or embarrassment, and he lowered his eyes.

"Let's eat quickly, and I'll read the notes later."

"Ah."

Zhou Yan set up the small table, took out the food packaging box, and lifted the lid. A strong aroma filled the living room. Liang Ruixi didn't feel any more emotion, but silently removed the chopsticks beside him.

When handing Zhou Yan the rice, the two fingers touched. They had already shaken hands quite naturally before this, but now they touched each other like an electric shock, and they separated immediately.

After sitting down to eat, they were like a newlywed couple, sometimes raising their eyes to peek at each other, and once their eyes met, they both looked at the food in the bowl.

The air is full of flying sparks, and a little carelessness will wipe out the flames, causing unspeakable consequences.

Now it was Zhou Yan's turn to be nervous, as if he was worried that Liang Ruixi, who didn't play cards according to common sense, would say tiger and wolf words in the next second, so he talked to the other party cautiously.

"Is it delicious?" "Delicious..." "Eat more." "You too." "Would you like a drink?" "I'll get it."...

The atmosphere was extremely eerie.

Fortunately, after the meal, Liang Ruixi went back to the room with the note in his arms, and Zhou Yan also sat on the sofa and fell into deep thought.

He has become accustomed to restraining his desire for Liang Ruixi, and even regards dragging her into this narrow road as a grave sin.

But now, it is meaningless to dwell on the question of "whether or not", because no matter from which point of view, Liang Ruixi has already hinted at him that he is ready.

Zhou Yan sighed, looked deeply at the bedroom, hesitantly thought, let's give the other party another chance.

If Liang Ruixi couldn't hold back and took the initiative first, he would definitely welcome her with open arms. From now on, this little fool can no longer blame himself for dragging him down...