Mr. Shen's little boyfriend

You bought a piece of chocolate, you thought it was matcha flavor, and happily bit it down, but the taste of celery that you hate the most.

You feel disgusting like chewing gum stuck to the bottom of your feet, but when it sticks, it sticks, and you can't even shake it off.

The hemp rope is cut at the delicate point, and bad luck finds the poor.

God just has trouble with him.

At the end of the summer vacation, my mother's life also came to an end.

Like a candle that has burnt to the end, nothing left.

Mom finally reconciled with the world, and at the last moment of her life, she let go of the love and hatred of this life.

She panted heavily, as if someone was blowing a bellows in her throat, and her trembling voice told him not to hate He Li.

"Tongtong, don't blame your father. He loved me and you very much before...you may have forgotten that when you were very young...he also hugged and kissed you." She has nothing Gaining strength, he took another breath, "You cried a lot when you were a child, but you stopped crying when he hugged you."

"Mom, I'm sorry, you are still so young..."

"Mom is reluctant, but mom is really tired."

"I miss your dad."

……

Mom walked very quietly.

When life comes, there is a vigorous cry, and when it leaves, it is silent and desolate.Death is really like autumn leaves, falling lightly.

Those who leave bring joy to heaven, but leave sorrow to the struggling people in the world.

This was the summer when He Qiutong lived like a mess, and the pain was like a sharp knife.

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After Mom died, that person finally came forward.

Also wearing a well-tailored suit, a meticulous tie, and shiny leather shoes, with an air of condescension and indifference.

Dad simply held my mother's funeral, and death was nothing more than a handful of ashes, but it didn't matter where the ashes fell.Under He Qiutong's strict request, her mother was buried in the tomb next to her grandfather.

The nominal father actually lived in the home where he and his mother and grandfather lived together before.

He didn't understand why this seemingly rich father insisted on living here. There was a new nanny who came in with his father, and the old nanny had been fired by his father long ago.He was very dissatisfied, and even hated this man who broke into his house suddenly.

But his mother told him not to hate, he also had a father's love when he was a child...

I have to say that his mother's last words made him hesitate.If his hatred for his father was [-]% before, after hearing those words, [-]% of the [-]% will be watered.

On the one hand, there is the longing for the father's love that has been missing since childhood, and on the other hand, the so-called father's indifference hurts people.This reminded him of the forest ice and fire man he played before, with the fiery red

The other side is bitingly cold, and the two sides are entangled with each other, fighting inseparably.

The power of blood finally defeated his fear of disappointment. Although he had been disappointed with this father countless times, he still decided to give this person a chance.This is the last relative he left in the world.

Dad didn't disappoint him at first.

In September, he finally had his father attend the opening ceremony, but his mother and grandfather were absent.The two completely opposite emotions of loss and happiness subtly merged in his heart at this moment.

His father was still an elite man in a high-end suit, and he also gave a speech as a parent representative at their school's opening ceremony.

When my father read his name on the podium in the auditorium, there was such dazzling pride in his eyes. Dad was proud of him.When this idea came up in his heart, he was almost so happy that he couldn't contain himself.

But later he realized that for the scheming He Li's, this pride that a child has been obsessed with for several years is nothing more than an adult's superb acting skills.

Those are the pains in the future, and now He Qiutong is still immersed in the happiness of his family because of his pride, and he is overjoyed.

After the adrenaline faded, the excitement in my heart faded a little.Looking around, there are two important people missing from the familiar position. Every time he thinks of them, he will struggle with his feelings for his father. What is it like?But thinking about it this time, his hatred for his father actually decreased again.

He felt sorry for his mother and grandfather and spurned him, but on the other hand he couldn't resist yearning for such a father who could talk freely in school.

In the blink of an eye, he was already in the sixth grade, and he took the first grade exam every semester just to win a compliment from his father.His father has always been stern and indifferent in front of him, and he is also stiff and nervous when facing his father.The relationship between him and his father has always been difficult to get rid of. After all, he was so old when he lived with his father. He has already passed the period of childhood when he was not familiar with the world. The death of his mother and grandfather is a hurdle that cannot be overcome between father and son.

The father-son relationship that he had maintained so carefully that it would be broken if he was not careful was still shattered.

An ordinary evening coming home from school.There is one more in the family, no, two are more accurate.There are two more strangers in the family.

A beautiful young woman with a child in her belly.

His father still told him in a tone that had been calm for thousands of years, "This is your future mother."

"..." For a moment, he froze in place, not knowing how to react.

What is the future mother?He has only one mother, and he doesn't recognize this unknown woman.

He Li asked him to call his mother.This was the first time he got angry with this father. He didn't dare to get angry in the past, and he didn't want to get angry. He was careful to maintain this relationship.But he didn't want to maintain it at that moment, fuck father and son.

Jealousy had never burned so strongly in him.

His father put his arms around the woman's shoulders tenderly, just like the way he hugged his mother gently in the wedding photos he saw in his mother's bedroom when he was a child.This is something that belongs to his mother, and it is something that his mother has longed for until death, but has not got it. Why should this strange woman get it?That woman had Daddy's new baby in her womb, a baby that would take away the few affections he had, the ones he'd never had.

The hatred towards his father that had been buried in the past was still revealed. Those hatreds are like old wine, the longer they are buried, the stronger they become.This made him almost unable to control his desire to destroy something, he was trembling almost all over, he felt that his restraint was too strong, he just stared hard at his father with red eyes and then slammed the door back bedroom.

The moment the door closed, he heard He Li's voice comforting the aunt.

It made him almost lose his strength.

The marriage of Mom and Dad for so many years seems to have become meaningless at this moment.

Yes, it was meaningless in the first place. In his impression, He Li always had a cold face, and his eyes were always filled with ice.Yes, he never loved his mother, never!Maybe he loved before he had any memory, and that was just love.

Since then, he has experienced the pain of his mother before, and he has also seen the early morning sunrise that his mother has seen.

The feeling of insomnia is not good, especially when he has to go to school after every sleepless night.

He who used to be very energetic began to lose his mind frequently in class, and it became difficult to persist in the originally easy four laps in physical education class.The black and blue under his eyes became more and more serious, and his whole person became more and more gloomy.

The most ridiculous thing is that even the head teacher found out that something was wrong with him, but his nominal father didn't notice at all. His father only noticed his serious drop in exam rankings... It was only because of this mid-term result that He Li found out that he had insomnia Almost a month of fact.

Insomnia at night made him irritable and irritable during the day.

When he accidentally smashed a pair of bowls and chopsticks, He Li said that he was sick with the crackling sound that would rather be broken than broken.

He was sent to a mental hospital by his father.

He Qiutong felt that he was not sick, but He Li's tone was unquestionable.

The hospital is full of patients wearing blue and white striped gowns, some real patients and some fake patients.

Every morning, two nurses would take him out to bask in the sun—too basking in the sun, or to let the wind out.After staying in the garden downstairs of the hospital for an hour, I went back to the ward.

After lunch is the lunch break. Whether you want to take a lunch break or not, the nurse will close the curtains and lights, and open them an hour later.

At 10:30 in the evening, the doctor came back to make rounds and gave them medicine by the way.

At eleven o'clock in the evening, people who have taken the medicine will fall into a deep sleep and sleep until dawn.

Everyday is the same, mechanical, maddening.

The person on the hospital bed next to him is a little girl who is about his age. When you first see it, you will have a creepy feeling.

At that time, he found that the pseudo-myopia correction glasses he brought were missing, and he didn't pay much attention to them, thinking that he had accidentally put them somewhere, and maybe he could see them again unintentionally.

When the glasses were finally found, they were broken—the little girl broke them herself.

The lens is made of resin and cannot be broken, so she broke the temple of the glasses, and polished the sharp fractures on her arm one by one, until weird bright red blood gushed out one after another.

The nurse carried away the bleeding girl who was still struggling and yelling, leaving only a mess and an undeniable smell of blood in the air.

The bright red blood stained on the pure white quilt was so shocking.

After staying here for a long time, he didn't know if he was really sick.It is possible that they were assimilated unconsciously.

He wanted to get out, every moment in this hospital made his nerves tense.He didn't want to be crazy like that girl, although something seemed wrong with him already.

He didn't want others to find out that something was wrong with him.

So he learned to pretend, he is obedient every day, takes medicine quietly, and does not make noise.

As he wished, the nurses relaxed their supervision on him.