Mr. Shen's little boyfriend

He Qiutong stood at the door of Shen Chao's bedroom, silently looking at the closed door, feeling a sense of loss in his heart, as if he had been kicked out.

He originally wanted to ask Shen Chao if he could sleep together...they had confirmed their relationship for so many days, but they always slept in separate rooms.

He Qiutong didn't like it, he wanted to sleep on the same bed as Shen Chao when he went up the mountain to play.

But tonight was obviously out of play, and he was turned away before he could even say a word.

He Qiutong leaned against the door to hear the sound inside, but the sound insulation in the master bedroom was pretty good, and he heard nothing except for a little water.

Um?Water sound?

Didn't Shen Chao just take a shower?How could there be the sound of water.

He Qiutong suspected that he was hallucinating.

Shaking his head, he gave up his obscene act of eavesdropping on the door, and went back to sleep in his room.

-

Thanks to going to bed early last night, He Qiutong got up early the next morning.

Armed with sports drinks, the two went downstairs one after the other for a morning run.

When the sky was bright, the two walked across the small stone road and met Uncle Wang who came to do Tai Chi as usual in front of the flower bed.

The old man called him angrily: "Xiao Tong, come and eat some candy."

"Hey, good."

He Qiutong responded, turned his head and patted Shen Chao's arm as a greeting, and ran to Uncle Wang at a faster speed.

Uncle Wang brought him Hsu Fu Chi's Crisp Heart Candy, which was packed in a transparent plastic jar, red and green.The older generation loves to eat this.

He Qiutong peeled one and handed it to Uncle Wang, but the uncle waved his hand and refused, so the candy still fell into his own mouth.

The sugar is very sweet, mixed with a nutty aroma of sesame and peanuts.

He Qiutong narrowed his eyes and smiled at Grandpa Wang.

The shadow of Shen Chao on the ground came over and overlapped with He Qiutong's shadow. When He Qiutong saw it, he felt very happy.

He Qiutong also peeled off one and handed it to Shen Chao. Shen Chao didn't show politeness to him, and just ate it with sugar in his hand.

The opponent's slightly heavy snort sprayed on the back of He Qiutong's hands after running, causing goose bumps on the skin.

He Qiutong coughed lightly, pretending to be relaxed, and folded the candy wrappers again and again.

"I'm going to take out the garbage!" He Qiutong gave Shen Chao a hard look from an angle that Grandpa Wang couldn't see. He felt his face was going to burn in front of the older generation.

After finishing speaking, He Qiutong fled to throw the candy wrappers at the trash can opposite.

From a distance, you can see what Uncle Wang was talking to Shen Chao after he left...

But the atmosphere was inexplicably serious.

He Qiutong was puzzled.

But when he got closer, he couldn't see any tense atmosphere anymore. Listening carefully, he seemed to be talking about something in college.

He Qiutong scratched his hair for some unknown reason, but didn't bother.

Before leaving, he was stopped by Uncle Wang.

"Xiao Tong, have a good time with Professor Shen."

Hearing this at first, he had the feeling that Uncle Wang had seen through everything.

He Qiutong unconsciously glanced at Shen Chao beside him, but the other party looked natural and nodded to Uncle Wang in response.

Being dull, he didn't think about it any further, and replied, "Uncle Wang, you should be well too."

After a long time, He Qiutong found out that Uncle Wang had already seen the special relationship between the two of them, and today... Shen Chao and Uncle Wang were talking about his grandson.

That is a regret that an old man has never let go of in his life.

Uncle Wang's daughter married far away, and the husband and wife worked in other places. Life was hard but passable.

The couple gave birth to a son named Xiao An. The child was handsome and fair since he was a child, and he was also a good student.

The couple who study less and rely on labor for food have great expectations for their children. Instead of sending their children to schools where the children of migrant workers study, they would rather work hard than send their children to a better private school. middle school.

The school saw that Xiaoan had good grades, and did not charge their family an outrageously high fee, so they made an exception and admitted Xiaoan.

The child's grades have always been among the best, and he has never been in the top three in the grade.

Just when the couple thought that there would be something to look forward to in the future and that the child would be successful, something happened.

Rumors began to circulate in the school that Xiao An was gay.

A poor boy who strayed into the territory of a rich man, a rumor about homosexuality - this is undoubtedly very eye-catching.

Xiaoan was silent and never refuted.

Because he didn't know how to refute, he really had some different feelings towards boys.

The boys in the class like to hold hands with little girls, but he has no desire for this.

But he would fantasize about kissing in the sun with the sports committee member in his class during his nap.

Every time he woke up from a nap, his head was covered with sweat. He ran to the toilet to wash his face with cold water, and started pumping himself after washing.

He didn't dare to slap himself, otherwise he would be seen, so he could only slap his arms red...

It seems to be reminding myself in this way to stay awake.

For people of that era, homosexuality was still a mental illness—the kind that was locked up in a mental hospital.

Xiao An really wanted to know what happened to him.

By chance, he stumbled across a book about homosexuality in the bookstore in front of the school, and bought the book by saving money.

He intends to study his own disease.

But the book he thought could save him turned out to be the evidence that dragged him into the abyss.

This book was dug out by the young masters in the class, and when he read it aloud in class, he only felt that he was finished.

The fact is, he really is finished.

Things got serious, and the principal invited his parents.

A call was made to the mobile phone of my parents who were still laying cement on the construction site.

At that time, mobile phones were still PHS or the like, and the sound was not very clear.The couple thought they had heard it wrong, otherwise how could the principal of the school call them.

The two went to the water pipe below the construction site and tried their best to wash away the cement under their fingernails, but they had no time to change their clothes.Grab your wallet and take a luxury taxi to school.

He rushed over excitedly, but was not greeted with good news.

The son who has worked so hard to raise him for so many years is gay?

They don't believe it.The mother's rough fingers picked and picked the dusty corners of her clothes, and finally mustered up the courage to refute the well-dressed high-ranking headmaster loudly.

"My son can't be gay!" The woman's voice was so hysterical that it could pierce eardrums.

There was no other sound in the office except for the woman's voice, and the people in suits and leather shoes seemed to be watching a secular farce.

"An'an, tell me you're not gay."

"Why don't you speak? You speak!"

The mother suddenly rushed over and grabbed Xiao An's arm. The force was so strong that he felt raw pain, as if his nails were going to be dug in.

His mother's voice changed from unwavering to gradually wavering, but his vocal cords seemed to be stuck with super glue, and he couldn't make a sound to reply.

Xiao An opened his mouth in vain, but couldn't say 'I'm not gay'.

He thought he was screwed.

He's gay, crazy.

The book says that homosexuality is just one of the countless sexual orientations in human development.Love has nothing to do with gender, it's just about feeling.

Realistically speaking, you are farting.

In the end, the reality wins, and the price of losing is very serious.

The books were dug out and shredded by the elders and youngsters in the class, he was expelled from school, and his parents' work on the construction site was ruined because of the spread of this incident. After returning home, he was interrupted by his father who hated iron and steel. leg.

The usually amiable mother became irritable and irritable, and the father who took him to buy toys picked up the drying rack.

These changes made him dread and panic.

But he doesn't blame his parents, and even thinks that his parents are right to do this, and he is just a drag.

He blames himself, he wants to atone.

One sunny afternoon, he walked out of the small rental house with a cane.

At the end of his life, he thought a lot about his parents' struggles and expectations, the candy his grandfather bought for him...

He even uncontrollably thought of the sports commissioner who smiled at him in the sun.

At this moment, he even forgot the boy's name, all he remembered was this smile.

-

Uncle Wang was looking forward to the first snow in the cold winter, but he didn't look forward to his grandson.

During that winter vacation, Xiao An didn't come back.

When the Spring Festival comes, Uncle Wang's daughter comes back alone, bringing Xiao'an's story and a ray of dead souls with her.

Not long after my daughter came back, she went out to work again.

Uncle Wang didn't even think about it, and cried every day holding the family portrait taken several years ago.

Uncle Wang doesn't care about being gay or not, he just wants his grandson.

Even after that, an old man with severe presbyopia learned to go to the library to borrow books.

He wants to find out by himself, what's wrong with Xiao An? !

Originally, the stone table with the chess board engraved downstairs was filled with books. A chess player from Uncle Wang came over and turned it over curiously, then left immediately.

'This old man is still gay at his age? '

The adult's words are not so direct, but the tone is disgusting after all.

Uncle Wang thought about Xiao An countless times while reading on the stone table.

How did Xiao An get here?How could such an obedient child dare to jump off the building?

He must be in pain.

It wasn't until 2001 that the country officially delisted homosexuality from mental illness.

Uncle Wang saw the page of this news from a small corner of the newspaper, he cut out this small page and set it on fire for Xiao An.

He asked Xiao An to see that Xiao An was not sick.

Uncle Wang cried when he was burning the newspaper, and the old man cried when he learned that his good grandson didn't shed a tear when he jumped off the building.

Dou Da's tears fell into the iron basin where the newspaper was burned, and were instantly swallowed up by the raised flames.

He didn't think it was worth it, for Xiao An.

"Xiao An, wait a few more years."

After saying this, Uncle Wang was silent for a long time, but changed his words.

"Forget it, it's fine to leave." I don't know how many times I will be stared at while I'm alive.