Mr. Shen's little boyfriend

This Saturday, He Qiutong planned to review advanced mathematics. Like the previous few days, he came to the school library early.

It rained lightly last night, and some tung flowers bloomed on a row of sycamore trees planted outside the library, dotted in clusters of lavender.

He Qiutong chose a seat where he could see the tung flowers outside the window, and the phone vibrated before the book was opened, a string of unfamiliar numbers.

He hung up, and a few seconds later the caller ID popped up again.

He walked out of the library with his mobile phone before he answered the call.

"He Qiutong, you are too outrageous, you..."

unlucky.Answering this call was a mistake.

Before his father could finish speaking, He Qiutong hung up the phone.Pulled into the blacklist.

Just as I was about to turn back and enter the library, my phone rang again.It was still a string of unfamiliar numbers, he didn't care.

He pinched himself several times after the phone rang, until his fair skin was covered with crescent-shaped nail prints...

When the phone rang next time, he clicked on it.

"He Qiutong, do you dare to hang up on your old man's phone and block it? Do you think I want to control you? If it's not for the sake of your mother who left early, do you think I will control you?"

"Look at what you're doing now, are you sorry for her?"

"You used to be very obedient, but why did you look like a lump of mud when you went to college?"

……

He Qiutong's pupils constricted uncontrollably, and the veins in the hand holding the phone were visible.

His anger really could be easily aroused by a simple sentence.

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I took a few deep breaths, but I still couldn't suppress my anger, "Yes! I'm mud. But what about you? What right do you have to mention her! Ah? What right do you have!"

"He Li! You fucking don't deserve it at all!"

After hanging up the phone, He Qiutong's hands trembled a little. He felt that he had exhausted all his strength when he picked up the phone.

He hasn't smoked for a long time since that schedule came out.But now he misses the anesthesia of nicotine very much.

When he looks up now, there are a few clusters of lavender tung flowers, as if his mother has been watching him.

He was indeed a failure, he failed to take the exam to other places, and his college life was muddled.

In college, he smoked, drank, fought and raced, and he was completely different from him in the past.

He knew it was wrong, and he knew that it was bad for him.

But he couldn't help himself.

He was sorry for the purple figure whose memory had been blurred and also sorry for himself.

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The Tyrannosaurus quickly crossed the road on campus and drove outside the campus.

Randomly looking for an Internet cafe, He Qiutong turned on a machine, chose a shooting game, put on the earphones, turned the shooting volume to the maximum, and started chug-chug.

This is a small Internet cafe with only machines in the lobby and no private rooms.

The hall was full of smog, and many Internet-addicted teenagers who were greedy for cheap were addicted to the virtual world in their own places and couldn't extricate themselves.Everyone's eyes are deeply tired but excited.

He Qiutong is now one of them.It seems that only by being among a group of not-so-good people can you taste your own goodness.

Controlling the mouse, I don't know how long it has been chug.The phone seemed to be infected with a virus, and it started buzzing and vibrating again.

It probably belonged to that person again, and he made up his mind not to look at it.No one likes to ask for it.

But this time, that person was really so persistent that the phone seemed to keep vibrating until it was turned off before giving up.

Cursing under his breath, he picked up the phone and pressed the off button.

But it was discovered that it was Shen Chao's information.

After hesitating for a while, he put down his finger on the off button.

WeChat notifications keep popping up.

Shen Chao: I saw your book in the library.

Shen Chao: Where are you now?

Shen Chao: Answer the phone.

……

He Qiutong took off the earphones and hung them around his neck, clicked into the chat interface with Shen Chao and watched for a long time.

Shen Chao's news came one by one.

He Qiutong deletes, deletes, and deletes in the dialog box. Before the message is sent, Shen Chao's WeChat call comes.After hesitating for a moment, he picked it up.

"Hello. Where are you?" Shen Chao's voice was rarely hurried.

"Shen Chao." He Qiutong called out softly holding the phone.

"Huh? I'm here."

It was a long silence.

After a while, He Qiutong took a deep breath and exhaled again, "Who am I to you? Do you need to take care of me like this?"

The words "upper lip touched lower lip" were blurted out, but if you look closely at his lips, you can see that they are trembling slightly.

Shen Chao on the other end of the phone didn't speak for a long time, and there was only a faint sound of breathing on the phone.

Time seemed to freeze, and the people on both ends of the phone didn't move.Finally, Shen Chao spoke first.

"I read your high math exercises, and you made a mistake on the fourth question. I'll teach you when I come back."

"..." For some reason, He Qiutong suddenly felt a strong soreness welling up in his nasal cavity.

This emotion came so suddenly that he was caught off guard.He sniffed and hung up the phone in a panic.

Putting on the headphones again, the game music was surprisingly loud but still couldn't cover those emotions that had nowhere to rest.

The characters in the game ran around randomly following his mouse movements, and the characters who didn't play seriously were quickly killed by the enemy.

He stared at the dead character in a daze for a long time without pressing the exit button.

His mind was in a mess, as if someone was messing around in his mind.

……

A pack of Salem was pasted on his hand holding the mouse, the cigarette pack was cold, and the tactile sensation was obvious.

He Qiutong's body stiffened, he didn't move his hands, and he didn't raise his head.He has already seen it from the corner of his eye, and he is the last person he wants to face now.

He stared straight at the computer screen, as if the game inside was so attractive.

So Shen Chao didn't move either.

Completely different from the noise of the Internet cafe, the air in this corner seemed to be sucked dry, and the sound was completely absorbed.

He Qiutong couldn't bear this atmosphere the most.

The craving for smoking is hooked the moment you see the smoke.

But he didn't bring a lighter today.

He stretched out his hand, which broke the silence.

He Qiutong smoked a cigarette, peeled off the outer layer of cigarette paper, took a pinch of tobacco and threw it into his mouth.

Rubbing tobacco on the back of the teeth will have a strong tobacco smell.

Chewing tobacco has much more aftertaste than smoking, and many smokers can't stand the stimulation.

The strong taste of nicotine exploded in his mouth, and his brain seemed to be paralyzed. He Qiutong gave up on himself and said, "You have to control me. I didn't go to the library according to the schedule today. I'm just muddy Not on the wall."

"Don't waste your time on me, either." After moving his lips several times, the words were still spoken.

The air in the lungs wanted to rush out urgently, which made the boy's breathing become short.

He Qiutong took out the end-of-term planner that he had been carrying all the time from his pocket, and the corners of the four-folded planner were a little worn out.

It was once taken out of one piece of clothing by a teenager and put into the pocket of another.

But its mission seems to end here.

In front of Shen Chao, He Qiutong unfolded it, but hesitated when tearing it open, and only tore off one corner.

This is the only witness of my normal life since college.

He Qiutong looked at the confetti on the ground and realized that his hands were shaking all the time. He lowered his head slightly, letting the hair on his forehead cover his eyes, "Professor Shen, it's not worth it. Really."

Shen Chao frowned fiercely. He watched the boy's actions, and of course he could hear the strong exhaustion and self-denial in the boy's voice.

But Mingming boy said on WeChat a few days ago that he had learned three chapters of organic chemistry in one afternoon, and posted an emoji.

Turning around, he turned into this decadent look. It would be a lie to say that he was not angry, but he felt distressed when he heard that what the young man said was not worth it.

He took off the boy's earphones and put them aside, holding the back of the boy's head and turning to himself.

"He Qiutong, look into my eyes."

Shen Chao's voice was unprecedentedly serious, and He Qiutong raised his head after a pause.

"He Qiutong, listen carefully. You deserve it. Your 681 score in the college entrance examination is by no means a piece of mud."

"If someone says that about you. Then you should prove it to him."

"I think you're good."

……

Shen Chao's voice seemed to come from far away, frame by frame into his mind.

But in fact, Shen Chao's face was very close to him, so close that he could feel the other's breath, so close that the other's voice was like a whisper in his ear.

Shen Chao's eyes are so clear that he can see his reflection in Shen Chao's eyes.

Once upon a time, a little boy fell down, but he was very strong and didn't cry out for pain.But when someone came to hug him, he would cry loudly.

He Qiutong felt like this little boy, once the grievances in his heart found a breakthrough, they would erupt like a flood that burst a bank.

The taste of tobacco in my mouth has also become bitter and astringent.

He tried to open his eyes wide, but couldn't stop the tears.He knew it was embarrassing to cry in front of others, but he couldn't help it.

After a while, he heard a low sigh from the man as if hesitating, and then the man pressed his head into the other's neck, and the faint scent of the man's body was inhaled into his lungs along with his rapid breathing.

He breathed hard, taking in the smell like he was smoking.

He thought he could calm down quickly, but the tears flowed more fiercely when he felt the man's hand pat his back, and fell down like beads with a broken thread.

When he was crying, his head was empty, he didn't think about anything, and he didn't have to think about anything.

It seemed like he had been crying for a long time before he noticed that Shen Chao's collar had fainted a large water stain, which should be from his tears.

He had never thought he could cry so much before.

I hiccupped, it was so embarrassing.

He quietly raised his eyes and glanced, only seeing the man's perfect jawline, but he couldn't see the man's expression clearly.

Sensing his movement, Shen Chao rubbed the boy's soft hair again, "Have you cried enough?" After a pause, he said, "Then let's settle the score."

He Qiutong was inexplicably nervous, swallowed his saliva, and swallowed the tobacco along with it, "What's the deal."

Hearing the still muffled voice of the boy, Shen Chao suddenly couldn't say anything serious again, picked up the planner with a corner missing and put it in his bag.

"Spit out the tobacco, wipe away your tears, and take you to lunch." After Shen Chao finished speaking, he handed over the tissue.

He Qiutong glanced at the other party in embarrassment, and whispered: "Swallowed."

"What did you swallow?" Shen Chao's anger, which had been suppressed so easily, flared up again.

He took a deep breath, "Do you dare to swallow this?" After speaking, he confiscated all the remaining cigarettes on the table.

He Qiutong glanced at the other party's somewhat ugly face, and stood silently.

"You're so young, who did you learn to chew tobacco from?" Shen Chao lowered his head slightly, looking parallel to the boy, looking into the other's eyes and asked.

"I didn't learn from anyone. If you feel uncomfortable, just chew a few mouthfuls." He Qiutong avoided Shen Chao's eyes.He couldn't help but look up at the back, the man's eyes didn't show any other emotions after hearing this, he breathed a sigh of relief and continued, "I bought my first pack of cigarettes when I was in high school, and I was very addicted for a while. But after being seen by my dad, I couldn’t smoke. Later I found that pulling out the tobacco is not easy to find, and chewing is more enjoyable than smoking.”

After hearing this, the man didn't say anything to him, but just rubbed his hair.

Shen Chao went to the front desk to buy a bottle of water and handed it to him, "Rinse your mouth."

He Qiutong rinsed his mouth with mineral water twice, while staring at Shen Chao's collar.

He waited until the smell of tobacco was gone before he spoke, "Your shirt...I, I can pay you back for one."

After hesitating for a long time, he still spoke again, "And that schedule, can you return it to me? It's still usable." The voice became smaller and smaller.

He also knew that it would be annoying for him to do so.I tore it myself, and I still want to come back.

Shen Chao glanced at the young man, but said nothing.Instead, he took him out of the Internet cafe without taking out the schedule.

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