The imperial brother kneels and begs me to marry my daughter-in-law
Chapter 40 Confession
The spring rain outside the cave is getting heavier and heavier, and it has no tendency to stop at all.Listening to the sound of the pattering rain, Lin Xiu was really hypnotized, and the fire in front of her kept emitting heat, making her feel a little sleepy.
Seeing Lin Xiu's head start to move little by little, Xiao Shuan took the initiative to sit closer: "If you're sleepy, just lean on my shoulder and sleep for a while."
Lin Xiu looked sideways at Xiao Shu'an with drooping eyelids, and obediently leaned her head up, rubbed it, leaned forward, and leaned back.
"It's uncomfortable, it's so painful." Lin Xiu sat up and complained, squinting, her eyes lit up.It crawled under Xiao Shuan's arm like a loach.
"Huh? Why?" Xiao Shu'an didn't understand what Lin Xiu was going to do, but he cooperatively raised his arms.
Lin Xiu leaned on Xiao Shuan's lap, with the back of her head resting on her lower abdomen.Adjusting to a comfortable position, he smiled with satisfaction, and pulled Xiao Shu'an's hand behind him, and put it on his waist, and then stopped.
Xiao Shu'an looked down at Lin Xiu's childish manipulation, and smiled dotingly.Indulgingly, she didn't take back her arm, but just hugged Lin Xiu on her lap.
The fire in front of him was beeping and beeping, but Lin Xiu lost sleepiness. He could see it, and said quietly: "Xiao Shu'an, did you blame me for letting you get caught in the rain at the entrance of the valley?"
Xiao Shu'an chuckled, recalling himself at that time, stubborn and persistent. "The weather that day was about the same as today."
"It's different. It was late autumn that time, and it was colder than this time."
"Why do you always recall that time? I don't blame you, it's just me who tortured myself."
Lin Xiu put her hand on Xiao Shu'an's and rubbed it unconsciously: "I always think about what it would be like if I hadn't come to Zhou Kingdom."
Xiao Shuan raised his eyebrows: "Do you regret it?"
The person in his arms shook his head, "I have no regrets. I just don't know whether it is good or bad for you to come to Zhou Kingdom."
"Of course it's a good thing. Otherwise, why would I be so persistent in inviting you to the state of Zhou. And isn't the implementation of the new law going smoothly now? You can see how happy the people of the state of Zhou are. The soldiers are also braver than before A lot. Our national teacher, why is he not confident in himself again?" Xiao Shu'an didn't understand Lin Xiu's sudden self-doubt, but he still took care of him carefully.
"Then what about you? Marrying me may be like this for the rest of your life. Do you regret it?" Lin Xiu finally asked the question she always wanted to ask the most, and it was also the question she wanted to know the most after she realized that she was tempted.I thought I would never be able to speak, and I didn't want to face that answer, but I asked it in such a natural situation today.
Lin Xiu unconsciously clenched Xiao Shuan's hand, as if feeling Lin Xiu's nervousness, Xiao Shuan held Lin Xiu's hand instead: "No regrets, I think it's good for us to live like this for the rest of our lives, isn't it? "
"What if you meet a man you like? Do you still think so?"
"I won't meet you."
"Why?" Lin Xiu turned over on Xiao Shu'an's lap, looked at Xiao Shu'an, and wanted to hear why she gave such an answer with such certainty.
"I don't know, it's just a feeling." Xiao Shu'an looked down at Lin Xiu and said with a smile, "Aren't you happy with me? Do you want to find a man you like?"
"No." Lin Xiu shook her head firmly: "I'm not looking for it." She just looked for it because she was stupid, and her heart was taken away by this person long ago.I thought it could be restrained, but later I realized that feelings should be sparse rather than blocked.The more restrained, the more restless.If there were not too many things going on these days, Lin Xiu might have been unable to control her emotions.
"Since you don't look for it, and I don't want to look for it, then it's good to live like this for the rest of your life, isn't it? I like my current life." Xiao Shu'an said the truth, she likes her current life, and every day is fulfilling , People are also full of hope.
In the past, she was always very heavy, and she lived every day as if death was at home. She always felt that she didn't know when Zhou Guo was going to perish, and she had to go out and do her best.In addition to practicing martial arts, he was helping the emperor's brother with political affairs, and he was exhausted every day.I seem to be a person walking on the tip of a knife. Even when I go to sleep at night, I often wake up, dreaming that my country is ruined and my family is destroyed.She often wakes up alone at night and can't go back to sleep.Because of overthinking and anxiety all the year round, she often suffers from headaches.
But after Lin Xiu came, her life changed a lot.When she goes to bed at night, she rarely has nightmares.Sometimes Lin Xiu's legs would be on her body, which would wake her up. If it was in the past, her night would definitely be over, and she would never be able to fall asleep again.But now she just helped them cover the quilt, and fell asleep after a while.
Also because of Lin Xiu's arrival, she got a chance to breathe.Lin Xiu not only gave Zhou Guo a few years to breathe, but also gave her time to breathe.In the past, she always felt that if she didn't do things, it would be too late, but now she can plan slowly and do it seriously.
In the past, she never knew how to enjoy life. After Lin Xiu came, in order to take good care of Lin Xiu, she unknowingly learned about a lot of food and fell in love with it.
"When you first came here, you always said that I was rigid, one-sided, and that my life was too heavy. Before you said it, I didn't realize it myself." Xiao Shuan recalled the past, feeling a little emotional in his heart, time flies so fast .It was only half a year since Lin Xiu came to the state of Zhou, but recalling the scenes of the past, she felt that a long, long time had passed.
Lin Xiu smiled lightly: "Indeed, you have changed a lot since then. You used to be really dull and boring. Later, you relaxed a lot, you can laugh, eat, and joke. You are much cuter than when you first met. "
"Because you're here." Xiao Shu'an said softly with a smile.
Xiao Shuan's eyes were really gentle, and Lin Xiu felt as if she was going to indulge in them.A beauty who treats you tenderly and smiles at you, who can bear this.She felt an organ in her chest throbbing.Originally, she shouldn't have asked, she should have self-knowledge and put everything in her heart, but at this moment, Lin Xiu seemed to be possessed, and wanted to speak out what was in her heart.
Perhaps, the answer is not as bad as I imagined?
Almost holding her breath, Lin Xiu asked Xiao Shu'an in a daze: "Do you like me?"
Xiao Shuan's smile froze for a second, and at that second, Lin Xiu felt as if her breathing had also stopped.But immediately after, Xiao Shu'an replied naturally: "I like it. Don't you like me?"
"I like it." Lin Xiu replied like this on her lips, but she said in her heart that it was not just a friendship.
"Then do you love me?" Lin Xiu looked like a warrior in the Death Squad today, wanting to ask for an answer, either to be happy or to give up.
Lin Xiuping's lake-like eyes stared at Xiao Shu'an.She saw Xiao Shu'an seemed to be stunned, and then moved her eyes away from her face.In Xiao Shu'an's eyes, she saw the dancing flames, confusion, and uneasiness.
"I don't know what love is, and I have never loved anyone." Xiao Shu'an murmured.
"Loving someone means that you will be happy when you see her. You will be happy because of her happiness, and you will be painful because of her pain. You will pay attention to her every move, want to do everything that makes her happy, want to Give her all the best. Even if she wants the stars in the sky, you are willing to give her. When you see her with others, you will be jealous. You will not hate her shortcomings, you will only feel Cute. Her advantages are infinitely magnified in your eyes. She can make you break all your principles."
"Will you do this?" Xiao Shu'an interrupted Lin Xiu's long speech.
Lin Xiu raised her eyebrows and said with a cruel look, "Yes. She has a heavy burden on her body, and I want to help her share it. I'm afraid she will be overwhelmed by the burden. When I see her frown, I want to comfort her Flatten her eyebrows. She is in danger. I don't know any martial arts, and I am willing to use my body to help her block a knife, although it is actually just adding to the chaos.
Seeing her with other people, whether male or female, makes me jealous when I get close to her.I want to occupy the most important position in her heart, I want to occupy every minute and every second of her, but I can't think of what to do with her time, but I just feel that it is a waste of a minute and a second. I am very happy, hearing her steady breathing while sleeping peacefully fills my heart, and hearing her turning over, I erect my ears to listen to her movements, lest she may be troubled and unable to fall asleep.
Hearing that she was having nightmares and breathing hard, I wanted to pat her on the back. While feeling distressed, I wondered how could there be such a lovely person.I miss her very much every day, I want her to wake up in the middle of the night and talk to me, and I want her to sleep until dawn.During the day, I miss her very much, and I dare not disturb her at work, and I am afraid that she will give me too little time at night. Thinking about it again, I am afraid that the only time I can chat at night is that there is no topic, which will make you think I am boring.So when I was working, whenever I thought of something interesting or something to talk about, I immediately wrote it down on paper, so that I would know what to talk to her at night.
I want to give her all the good things I have, but I am afraid that she will not be able to bear it and the pressure will be too great.
That's it, looking forward and backward, worrying about gains and losses, wanting to protect but always hurting.Can't fully express my mind.Perhaps this is love. "
Even if Xiao Shu'an didn't get the hang of it, he knew at this moment that Lin Xiu was talking about him, and he also knew that Lin Xiu was confessing his love to him.But... "Among friends, it's the same, right?"
Lin Xiu laughed when she heard this.She got up from Xiao Shuan's body, turned her head to look at her, Xiao Shuan also turned her head, and the distance between the two was getting closer.Xiao Shuan stepped back.
"Don't hide." Lin Xiu's voice was a little hoarse, and she reached out to support Xiao Shu'an's back of the neck to prevent her from dodging.
She closed her eyes reverently, her fluttering eyelashes exposed her nervousness.Precisely overturn the lips.
This wasn't a perfect kiss, because Lin Xiu's lips were so tense that they trembled, she didn't even feel the taste of the kiss much, she only knew that she was so nervous that she dared not even breathe.It feels soft and cool on the lips.She could smell the fragrance of Xiao Shu'an's breath.She felt that her brain seemed to be blank, she was a little dizzy, and the hand holding her neck was also a little numb.
Xiao Shu'an let Lin Xiu kiss him for a few seconds without struggling until Lin Xiu backed away by herself.She saw that Lin Xiu's eyes seemed to have tears shining, her expression was not as confident and relaxed as before, she could feel a kind of gloom covering Lin Xiu's eyes, seeing Lin Xiu like this, her heart suddenly ached for a moment.
"If you love someone, you will want to treat her like this. Do you want to be like me?" Lin Xiu still insisted on asking her own words, but her drooping eyelashes and unconsciously clenched lower lip had already revealed the matter ending.
She guessed what Xiao Shuan's answer would be.The moment the two got close and their lips fell, she knew what the result would be.But still hold on to face this ending.
"I do not want."
After Xiao Shu'an finished speaking, what followed was a line of tears from Lin Xiu's left eye. "Yeah." Lin Xiu still forced a smile and said, "It's okay. It's okay."
Xiao Shu'an wanted to say something so that Lin Xiu would not be so sad.But she opened her mouth, but she didn't know where to start. She felt a deep sense of guilt in her heart, and even had the urge to modify the answer, but she still didn't.
Lin Xiu sat up straight and wiped away her tears. "It's okay, it's really okay, it's normal."
"sorry."
"No, love is what you love and what I want. There is nothing to be sorry about." Lin Xiu pretended to be very free and easy. "I'll be fine in two days. I'm just sad for a while. Don't worry. You don't need to be born because of it. We will still be good friends in the future, and I will still help Zhou Guo. Don't worry, I will definitely give you a treat." From the mighty state of Zhou, hehe."
Seeing Lin Xiu's pale face, which was obviously smiling, but it was difficult to hide the sadness in her eyes, Xiao Shu'an also felt a little sad and out of breath. "If it pains you, don't push yourself."
Lin Xiu smiled, and this time she said really freely: "Xiao Shu'an, don't worry. There's nothing to force me to do. I'm not a person who is depressed because of love, nor is I a domineering person. The love between two people is something that can't be met. I will not hate you because of this, nor will I do anything because I don’t get a response. I love you, it has nothing to do with whether you love me or not. If you don’t love me, I still love you. If you love you, you will want to give Your best, I can’t get you, but I still hope you can be happy. If you want Zhou Guo to become better, I will try my best to do it. Besides, this is not only for you, but also my own wish. Even if one day I don’t I love you again, and I will still finish what I have to do. It is fate to meet each other once. I cherish the fate between you and me, although it seems that I am not very happy at the moment.
But time heals everything, doesn't it? "
"I……"
Xiao Shuan wanted to say something else, but Lin Xiu got up and interrupted her. "The rain outside seems to have stopped, can we go back?"
Lin Xiu touched the clothes that were baked by the fire: "The clothes are already dry. You can wear them, here they are." She handed Xiao Shuan's clothes to her, then put on her own clothes and lowered her head to tidy them up.
Xiao Shu'an stepped forward to help her tidy up, but she avoided her. She smiled and said, "Let me do these things myself, or I will think about it. Anyway, you have to learn, it's not difficult, Look, isn't this all right?"
Lin Xiu didn't lose the chain this time, and quickly got dressed. Seeing this, Xiao Shu'an felt a little disappointed, but could only say: "Okay."
Lin Xiu took the lead out of the cave: "Wow, the air is so fresh, Xiao Shu'an, come out quickly, the rain has stopped."
Xiao Shu'an came out of the cave, only to see that Lin Xiu had already walked a few steps away, opening her arms, embracing the fresh air after the rain.
"After the new rain in the empty mountain, the air will come later in autumn! No, no, wrong, this artistic conception is wrong, I will recite a few sentences for you!" Lin Xiu's voice was very happy, as if everything that happened just now was Xiao Shu'an's illusion . "The weather in the mountains is beautiful every day and night, and the birds return each other. How about these two sentences, don't they fit better?"
Lin Xiu turned around and asked Xiao Shu'an: "Look, it just so happened that the sun was setting, and the birds were flying home in the sky. Can I recite it well?"
"Okay." Xiao Shuan said with a smile.
Lin Xiu smiled like a child, "I still have a lot. I used to memorize a lot of good poems in school. I can write about all kinds of scenes."
The two got into the carriage, and Lin Xiu lay down in the carriage regardless of her appearance. The curtain in front of the carriage was lifted, and she could see the scenery along the way outside the carriage with her head turned sideways.It looks so uncomfortable.Xiao Shu'an was driving in front, and she was talking non-stop all the way behind her, reciting poems for a while, and talking about things in school before.Xiao Shu'an knew that she was unhappy, so it would be a good thing to say something else to make her feel better.She listened quietly all the way, answering a few words from time to time.
When the carriage entered Ganzhou City, Xiao Shuan lowered the curtain behind him, and Lin Xiu finally stopped chattering.She looked at the curtain of the car that was lowered in front of her, and whispered a poem that fit the mood: "Luohua intends to follow the flowing water, and flowing water has no intention to love falling flowers."
Before dark, the two finally returned to the Prince Consort's Mansion.Everything was as usual, Lin Xiu really acted as if nothing happened.On the contrary, it was Xiao Shu'an, who was always a little sad in his heart, and always felt that he couldn't get excited about doing anything.But Lin Xiu had to eat and do whatever she wanted, and it wasn't affected at all, so much so that Xiao Shu'an wondered if the confession in the cave today, as well as that kiss, were all just a prank.
Before falling asleep at night, Xiao Shu'an returned to the bedroom and found that Lin Xiu asked Xiao Jiu to set up an extra bed in the room.
"What's the meaning of this?" Xiao Shu'an asked, pointing to the bed at the back of the room, leading to the bathtub.If you stand in the direction of the door, you can't see the bed. The position of the bed is very particular. If you don't go to the bathing pool to take a bath, if you don't pass by this place, you won't find that there is a bed here.If they slept in their original bed, they would not be able to see this bed.
"Oh, I asked Xiao Jiu to let me go. I will sleep on that bed from now on." Lin Xiu went straight to the bed and began to take off her coat.
Xiao Shu'an suddenly burst into anger: "Why do you want to do this?"
Lin Xiu paused the movements of her hands, and asked doubtfully, "Today...in the cave...you don't understand what I mean?"
"What do you mean? Like me, have feelings of admiration for me?" Xiao Shu'an said carelessly, but instead choked Lin Xiu.
"You know everything, what else do you ask?"
"I don't understand the relationship between the two." Xiao Shu'an said seriously.
Lin Xiu's eyes widened. It was unheard of for someone to say something very explicit. She scratched her head helplessly and temporarily discarded her shame: "I said I like it. What is the difference from a friend? Do you still remember?" ?"
"You kissed me. If you like someone, you want to kiss me. If you don't like someone, you don't want to." Xiao Shu'an replied solemnly.
"Yeah." Lin Xiu nodded, don't you understand everything?Don't you remember everything in class?
Xiao Shu'an was still frowning, looking at his expression, he still didn't understand, Lin Xiu was really mad: "You don't like me, but I like you, so I want to kiss you and get close to you."
"So you sleep with me and you just keep kissing me?"
……… Gan!Why does such a poignant love story become a happy comedian when it meets Xiao Shu'an!Lin Xiu said angrily: "Yes! I want to kiss you! Not only do I want to kiss you, but I also want to touch you! I will strip your clothes! Touch you! Not only want to kiss your mouth, but also want to kiss your face! Eyes, nose ! Every inch of your skin! Isn’t it scary! So you have to sleep by yourself, understand?”
Xiao Shu'an seemed to be taken aback by Lin Xiu's words, and he didn't know whether he was recreating the model with CG in his head, or he couldn't digest it. Anyway, after a while, he said in a daze, "I don't mind."
? ? ? "What did you say? Say it again." Lin Xiu felt as if she was hallucinating.
"I don't mind what you said." Xiao Shu'an said seriously.
"How can you not mind? You!" Lin Xiu was speechless in anger: "What! How! How can you be so frivolous? You don't like me, so how can you not mind? These things can only be done with people you like. Do you understand, can anyone do this to you? You don't mind?"
"If that person is you, I don't mind."
"........."
Hearing this sentence, Lin Xiu didn't know whether to be happy or sad.What did Xiao Shuan think of herself?
"You said today that you don't have this desire for me, right? You only like me as a friend, not in love." Lin Xiu guided Xiao Shuan patiently.
"Well, I don't want to, but if you really want to, I can accept it, and I can cooperate with you." Xiao Shu'an felt that she didn't hate Lin Xiu kissing her today.Just now she also thought about what Lin Xiu said she would do, and she thought that if that person was Lin Xiu, she could accept it, it didn't matter.Anyway, she doesn't need such things as chastity, and she doesn't plan to remarry in this life, so she will live like this with Lin Xiu for the rest of her life, which is fine.
"Huh!" Lin Xiu took a deep breath: "What do you think of me? A beast? What I want is yours... Do I want to do those things with you? I think it's good here."
Lin Xiu pointed to Xiao Shuan's heart: "I have those desires for you because I have you in my heart. The prerequisite for you to do those things with me is that you have me in your heart, understand? This is not what Anything."
Lin Xiu realized for the first time that the ancient people's concept of love is really strange.
"I have you in my heart." Xiao Shu'an didn't understand anymore, he also cared about Lin Xiu very much, he had her in his heart.It's just that I don't have those desires for her, but if she wants, I won't refuse, why do I have to sleep in separate beds?
"You have a fart!" Lin Xiu couldn't hold back her swearing: "It's different, okay? I really can't explain it to you. Anyway, I can't sleep with you anymore. Go back to sleep!"
"I can't sleep without you." Xiao Shu'an said so solemnly and pitifully that Lin Xiu almost softened her heart: "I'm used to sleeping with you."
"It's useless, don't test my willpower. Hurry up and go back to sleep." Lin Xiu pushed Xiao Shu'an back to where she should go.Some things, you can hold back when you don't talk about it, but once you talk about it, you can't help it.Especially since this person said he didn't mind, isn't this a test for her?
Xiao Shu'an couldn't hold back Lin Xiu, so he had to sleep alone in a sullen mood.Although the two were still in the same room, they were not on the same bed, and they suddenly felt as if they were far apart.Xiao Shu'an could even hear Lin Xiu's breathing.She could hear that person tossing and turning, not falling asleep at all, she didn't understand, it was obviously uncomfortable for both of them to sleep separately, why did they have to separate?
It wasn't until midnight that Lin Xiucai fell asleep because he was really tired and had no energy.
Hearing that Lin Xiu's breathing became even and steady, Xiao Shu'an lightly got off the ground and touched Lin Xiu's bed.As soon as he lay down, the people around him rode on him as usual.
Xiao Shuan smiled in satisfaction, this feeling is right, listening to the breathing of the person beside her, touching her skin, and feeling the familiar body temperature, Xiao Shuan finally felt at ease in her heart. Soon, sleepiness hit her, and she Finally fell asleep contentedly.
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The author has something to say:
Sorry for not updating yesterday, I accidentally fell asleep when I came back yesterday afternoon.Maybe it's because I haven't slept well recently. I'm a little sleep-deprived. I fell asleep immediately yesterday, and I had the longest sleep these days. Today I feel much more comfortable.
Some friends care about my mood, and some even go to my Weibo to comfort me. I am really touched, thank you very much.In fact, the mood is more or less affected.I haven't slept well in the past few days. I've been thinking about some messy things in my head at night, and I even hid in my girlfriend's arms and cried twice (but don't worry, nothing happens usually. I shed two tears in nightclubs a week~ Crying is my personality!), I have a lot to say.It may not be enough to write 1 words.So in the end, I chose to remain silent and say nothing.
If you think about it carefully, there is really no need to explain it.Some readers don't accept the plot, and some think it's unreasonable.After thinking about it, it may be that my writing level is limited, and I can’t accurately express my thoughts and thoughts completely. It’s really unnecessary to explain. ripped off.
A few days ago, I was indeed in the mood of being sprayed, but my girlfriend said that I just didn’t like to leave a message with those who didn’t accept it, and most of the people who could accept it didn’t leave a message.There are so many people reading the book, and there are only a dozen or so who leave a message. Of course, there are those who don’t accept it, but those who still read it. I think they are still willing to continue reading, but everyone didn’t comment.So, thinking about it this way is actually okay.
Thank you very much for your willingness to keep reading. I will continue to write the stories I want to write.The mountains are high and the water is far away. If they meet, they will gather, and if they don't, they will disperse.Nothing is always perfect, but fortunately we can still persevere.
Thank you...every reader who reads.Love you guys.
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Seeing Lin Xiu's head start to move little by little, Xiao Shuan took the initiative to sit closer: "If you're sleepy, just lean on my shoulder and sleep for a while."
Lin Xiu looked sideways at Xiao Shu'an with drooping eyelids, and obediently leaned her head up, rubbed it, leaned forward, and leaned back.
"It's uncomfortable, it's so painful." Lin Xiu sat up and complained, squinting, her eyes lit up.It crawled under Xiao Shuan's arm like a loach.
"Huh? Why?" Xiao Shu'an didn't understand what Lin Xiu was going to do, but he cooperatively raised his arms.
Lin Xiu leaned on Xiao Shuan's lap, with the back of her head resting on her lower abdomen.Adjusting to a comfortable position, he smiled with satisfaction, and pulled Xiao Shu'an's hand behind him, and put it on his waist, and then stopped.
Xiao Shu'an looked down at Lin Xiu's childish manipulation, and smiled dotingly.Indulgingly, she didn't take back her arm, but just hugged Lin Xiu on her lap.
The fire in front of him was beeping and beeping, but Lin Xiu lost sleepiness. He could see it, and said quietly: "Xiao Shu'an, did you blame me for letting you get caught in the rain at the entrance of the valley?"
Xiao Shu'an chuckled, recalling himself at that time, stubborn and persistent. "The weather that day was about the same as today."
"It's different. It was late autumn that time, and it was colder than this time."
"Why do you always recall that time? I don't blame you, it's just me who tortured myself."
Lin Xiu put her hand on Xiao Shu'an's and rubbed it unconsciously: "I always think about what it would be like if I hadn't come to Zhou Kingdom."
Xiao Shuan raised his eyebrows: "Do you regret it?"
The person in his arms shook his head, "I have no regrets. I just don't know whether it is good or bad for you to come to Zhou Kingdom."
"Of course it's a good thing. Otherwise, why would I be so persistent in inviting you to the state of Zhou. And isn't the implementation of the new law going smoothly now? You can see how happy the people of the state of Zhou are. The soldiers are also braver than before A lot. Our national teacher, why is he not confident in himself again?" Xiao Shu'an didn't understand Lin Xiu's sudden self-doubt, but he still took care of him carefully.
"Then what about you? Marrying me may be like this for the rest of your life. Do you regret it?" Lin Xiu finally asked the question she always wanted to ask the most, and it was also the question she wanted to know the most after she realized that she was tempted.I thought I would never be able to speak, and I didn't want to face that answer, but I asked it in such a natural situation today.
Lin Xiu unconsciously clenched Xiao Shuan's hand, as if feeling Lin Xiu's nervousness, Xiao Shuan held Lin Xiu's hand instead: "No regrets, I think it's good for us to live like this for the rest of our lives, isn't it? "
"What if you meet a man you like? Do you still think so?"
"I won't meet you."
"Why?" Lin Xiu turned over on Xiao Shu'an's lap, looked at Xiao Shu'an, and wanted to hear why she gave such an answer with such certainty.
"I don't know, it's just a feeling." Xiao Shu'an looked down at Lin Xiu and said with a smile, "Aren't you happy with me? Do you want to find a man you like?"
"No." Lin Xiu shook her head firmly: "I'm not looking for it." She just looked for it because she was stupid, and her heart was taken away by this person long ago.I thought it could be restrained, but later I realized that feelings should be sparse rather than blocked.The more restrained, the more restless.If there were not too many things going on these days, Lin Xiu might have been unable to control her emotions.
"Since you don't look for it, and I don't want to look for it, then it's good to live like this for the rest of your life, isn't it? I like my current life." Xiao Shu'an said the truth, she likes her current life, and every day is fulfilling , People are also full of hope.
In the past, she was always very heavy, and she lived every day as if death was at home. She always felt that she didn't know when Zhou Guo was going to perish, and she had to go out and do her best.In addition to practicing martial arts, he was helping the emperor's brother with political affairs, and he was exhausted every day.I seem to be a person walking on the tip of a knife. Even when I go to sleep at night, I often wake up, dreaming that my country is ruined and my family is destroyed.She often wakes up alone at night and can't go back to sleep.Because of overthinking and anxiety all the year round, she often suffers from headaches.
But after Lin Xiu came, her life changed a lot.When she goes to bed at night, she rarely has nightmares.Sometimes Lin Xiu's legs would be on her body, which would wake her up. If it was in the past, her night would definitely be over, and she would never be able to fall asleep again.But now she just helped them cover the quilt, and fell asleep after a while.
Also because of Lin Xiu's arrival, she got a chance to breathe.Lin Xiu not only gave Zhou Guo a few years to breathe, but also gave her time to breathe.In the past, she always felt that if she didn't do things, it would be too late, but now she can plan slowly and do it seriously.
In the past, she never knew how to enjoy life. After Lin Xiu came, in order to take good care of Lin Xiu, she unknowingly learned about a lot of food and fell in love with it.
"When you first came here, you always said that I was rigid, one-sided, and that my life was too heavy. Before you said it, I didn't realize it myself." Xiao Shuan recalled the past, feeling a little emotional in his heart, time flies so fast .It was only half a year since Lin Xiu came to the state of Zhou, but recalling the scenes of the past, she felt that a long, long time had passed.
Lin Xiu smiled lightly: "Indeed, you have changed a lot since then. You used to be really dull and boring. Later, you relaxed a lot, you can laugh, eat, and joke. You are much cuter than when you first met. "
"Because you're here." Xiao Shu'an said softly with a smile.
Xiao Shuan's eyes were really gentle, and Lin Xiu felt as if she was going to indulge in them.A beauty who treats you tenderly and smiles at you, who can bear this.She felt an organ in her chest throbbing.Originally, she shouldn't have asked, she should have self-knowledge and put everything in her heart, but at this moment, Lin Xiu seemed to be possessed, and wanted to speak out what was in her heart.
Perhaps, the answer is not as bad as I imagined?
Almost holding her breath, Lin Xiu asked Xiao Shu'an in a daze: "Do you like me?"
Xiao Shuan's smile froze for a second, and at that second, Lin Xiu felt as if her breathing had also stopped.But immediately after, Xiao Shu'an replied naturally: "I like it. Don't you like me?"
"I like it." Lin Xiu replied like this on her lips, but she said in her heart that it was not just a friendship.
"Then do you love me?" Lin Xiu looked like a warrior in the Death Squad today, wanting to ask for an answer, either to be happy or to give up.
Lin Xiuping's lake-like eyes stared at Xiao Shu'an.She saw Xiao Shu'an seemed to be stunned, and then moved her eyes away from her face.In Xiao Shu'an's eyes, she saw the dancing flames, confusion, and uneasiness.
"I don't know what love is, and I have never loved anyone." Xiao Shu'an murmured.
"Loving someone means that you will be happy when you see her. You will be happy because of her happiness, and you will be painful because of her pain. You will pay attention to her every move, want to do everything that makes her happy, want to Give her all the best. Even if she wants the stars in the sky, you are willing to give her. When you see her with others, you will be jealous. You will not hate her shortcomings, you will only feel Cute. Her advantages are infinitely magnified in your eyes. She can make you break all your principles."
"Will you do this?" Xiao Shu'an interrupted Lin Xiu's long speech.
Lin Xiu raised her eyebrows and said with a cruel look, "Yes. She has a heavy burden on her body, and I want to help her share it. I'm afraid she will be overwhelmed by the burden. When I see her frown, I want to comfort her Flatten her eyebrows. She is in danger. I don't know any martial arts, and I am willing to use my body to help her block a knife, although it is actually just adding to the chaos.
Seeing her with other people, whether male or female, makes me jealous when I get close to her.I want to occupy the most important position in her heart, I want to occupy every minute and every second of her, but I can't think of what to do with her time, but I just feel that it is a waste of a minute and a second. I am very happy, hearing her steady breathing while sleeping peacefully fills my heart, and hearing her turning over, I erect my ears to listen to her movements, lest she may be troubled and unable to fall asleep.
Hearing that she was having nightmares and breathing hard, I wanted to pat her on the back. While feeling distressed, I wondered how could there be such a lovely person.I miss her very much every day, I want her to wake up in the middle of the night and talk to me, and I want her to sleep until dawn.During the day, I miss her very much, and I dare not disturb her at work, and I am afraid that she will give me too little time at night. Thinking about it again, I am afraid that the only time I can chat at night is that there is no topic, which will make you think I am boring.So when I was working, whenever I thought of something interesting or something to talk about, I immediately wrote it down on paper, so that I would know what to talk to her at night.
I want to give her all the good things I have, but I am afraid that she will not be able to bear it and the pressure will be too great.
That's it, looking forward and backward, worrying about gains and losses, wanting to protect but always hurting.Can't fully express my mind.Perhaps this is love. "
Even if Xiao Shu'an didn't get the hang of it, he knew at this moment that Lin Xiu was talking about him, and he also knew that Lin Xiu was confessing his love to him.But... "Among friends, it's the same, right?"
Lin Xiu laughed when she heard this.She got up from Xiao Shuan's body, turned her head to look at her, Xiao Shuan also turned her head, and the distance between the two was getting closer.Xiao Shuan stepped back.
"Don't hide." Lin Xiu's voice was a little hoarse, and she reached out to support Xiao Shu'an's back of the neck to prevent her from dodging.
She closed her eyes reverently, her fluttering eyelashes exposed her nervousness.Precisely overturn the lips.
This wasn't a perfect kiss, because Lin Xiu's lips were so tense that they trembled, she didn't even feel the taste of the kiss much, she only knew that she was so nervous that she dared not even breathe.It feels soft and cool on the lips.She could smell the fragrance of Xiao Shu'an's breath.She felt that her brain seemed to be blank, she was a little dizzy, and the hand holding her neck was also a little numb.
Xiao Shu'an let Lin Xiu kiss him for a few seconds without struggling until Lin Xiu backed away by herself.She saw that Lin Xiu's eyes seemed to have tears shining, her expression was not as confident and relaxed as before, she could feel a kind of gloom covering Lin Xiu's eyes, seeing Lin Xiu like this, her heart suddenly ached for a moment.
"If you love someone, you will want to treat her like this. Do you want to be like me?" Lin Xiu still insisted on asking her own words, but her drooping eyelashes and unconsciously clenched lower lip had already revealed the matter ending.
She guessed what Xiao Shuan's answer would be.The moment the two got close and their lips fell, she knew what the result would be.But still hold on to face this ending.
"I do not want."
After Xiao Shu'an finished speaking, what followed was a line of tears from Lin Xiu's left eye. "Yeah." Lin Xiu still forced a smile and said, "It's okay. It's okay."
Xiao Shu'an wanted to say something so that Lin Xiu would not be so sad.But she opened her mouth, but she didn't know where to start. She felt a deep sense of guilt in her heart, and even had the urge to modify the answer, but she still didn't.
Lin Xiu sat up straight and wiped away her tears. "It's okay, it's really okay, it's normal."
"sorry."
"No, love is what you love and what I want. There is nothing to be sorry about." Lin Xiu pretended to be very free and easy. "I'll be fine in two days. I'm just sad for a while. Don't worry. You don't need to be born because of it. We will still be good friends in the future, and I will still help Zhou Guo. Don't worry, I will definitely give you a treat." From the mighty state of Zhou, hehe."
Seeing Lin Xiu's pale face, which was obviously smiling, but it was difficult to hide the sadness in her eyes, Xiao Shu'an also felt a little sad and out of breath. "If it pains you, don't push yourself."
Lin Xiu smiled, and this time she said really freely: "Xiao Shu'an, don't worry. There's nothing to force me to do. I'm not a person who is depressed because of love, nor is I a domineering person. The love between two people is something that can't be met. I will not hate you because of this, nor will I do anything because I don’t get a response. I love you, it has nothing to do with whether you love me or not. If you don’t love me, I still love you. If you love you, you will want to give Your best, I can’t get you, but I still hope you can be happy. If you want Zhou Guo to become better, I will try my best to do it. Besides, this is not only for you, but also my own wish. Even if one day I don’t I love you again, and I will still finish what I have to do. It is fate to meet each other once. I cherish the fate between you and me, although it seems that I am not very happy at the moment.
But time heals everything, doesn't it? "
"I……"
Xiao Shuan wanted to say something else, but Lin Xiu got up and interrupted her. "The rain outside seems to have stopped, can we go back?"
Lin Xiu touched the clothes that were baked by the fire: "The clothes are already dry. You can wear them, here they are." She handed Xiao Shuan's clothes to her, then put on her own clothes and lowered her head to tidy them up.
Xiao Shu'an stepped forward to help her tidy up, but she avoided her. She smiled and said, "Let me do these things myself, or I will think about it. Anyway, you have to learn, it's not difficult, Look, isn't this all right?"
Lin Xiu didn't lose the chain this time, and quickly got dressed. Seeing this, Xiao Shu'an felt a little disappointed, but could only say: "Okay."
Lin Xiu took the lead out of the cave: "Wow, the air is so fresh, Xiao Shu'an, come out quickly, the rain has stopped."
Xiao Shu'an came out of the cave, only to see that Lin Xiu had already walked a few steps away, opening her arms, embracing the fresh air after the rain.
"After the new rain in the empty mountain, the air will come later in autumn! No, no, wrong, this artistic conception is wrong, I will recite a few sentences for you!" Lin Xiu's voice was very happy, as if everything that happened just now was Xiao Shu'an's illusion . "The weather in the mountains is beautiful every day and night, and the birds return each other. How about these two sentences, don't they fit better?"
Lin Xiu turned around and asked Xiao Shu'an: "Look, it just so happened that the sun was setting, and the birds were flying home in the sky. Can I recite it well?"
"Okay." Xiao Shuan said with a smile.
Lin Xiu smiled like a child, "I still have a lot. I used to memorize a lot of good poems in school. I can write about all kinds of scenes."
The two got into the carriage, and Lin Xiu lay down in the carriage regardless of her appearance. The curtain in front of the carriage was lifted, and she could see the scenery along the way outside the carriage with her head turned sideways.It looks so uncomfortable.Xiao Shu'an was driving in front, and she was talking non-stop all the way behind her, reciting poems for a while, and talking about things in school before.Xiao Shu'an knew that she was unhappy, so it would be a good thing to say something else to make her feel better.She listened quietly all the way, answering a few words from time to time.
When the carriage entered Ganzhou City, Xiao Shuan lowered the curtain behind him, and Lin Xiu finally stopped chattering.She looked at the curtain of the car that was lowered in front of her, and whispered a poem that fit the mood: "Luohua intends to follow the flowing water, and flowing water has no intention to love falling flowers."
Before dark, the two finally returned to the Prince Consort's Mansion.Everything was as usual, Lin Xiu really acted as if nothing happened.On the contrary, it was Xiao Shu'an, who was always a little sad in his heart, and always felt that he couldn't get excited about doing anything.But Lin Xiu had to eat and do whatever she wanted, and it wasn't affected at all, so much so that Xiao Shu'an wondered if the confession in the cave today, as well as that kiss, were all just a prank.
Before falling asleep at night, Xiao Shu'an returned to the bedroom and found that Lin Xiu asked Xiao Jiu to set up an extra bed in the room.
"What's the meaning of this?" Xiao Shu'an asked, pointing to the bed at the back of the room, leading to the bathtub.If you stand in the direction of the door, you can't see the bed. The position of the bed is very particular. If you don't go to the bathing pool to take a bath, if you don't pass by this place, you won't find that there is a bed here.If they slept in their original bed, they would not be able to see this bed.
"Oh, I asked Xiao Jiu to let me go. I will sleep on that bed from now on." Lin Xiu went straight to the bed and began to take off her coat.
Xiao Shu'an suddenly burst into anger: "Why do you want to do this?"
Lin Xiu paused the movements of her hands, and asked doubtfully, "Today...in the cave...you don't understand what I mean?"
"What do you mean? Like me, have feelings of admiration for me?" Xiao Shu'an said carelessly, but instead choked Lin Xiu.
"You know everything, what else do you ask?"
"I don't understand the relationship between the two." Xiao Shu'an said seriously.
Lin Xiu's eyes widened. It was unheard of for someone to say something very explicit. She scratched her head helplessly and temporarily discarded her shame: "I said I like it. What is the difference from a friend? Do you still remember?" ?"
"You kissed me. If you like someone, you want to kiss me. If you don't like someone, you don't want to." Xiao Shu'an replied solemnly.
"Yeah." Lin Xiu nodded, don't you understand everything?Don't you remember everything in class?
Xiao Shu'an was still frowning, looking at his expression, he still didn't understand, Lin Xiu was really mad: "You don't like me, but I like you, so I want to kiss you and get close to you."
"So you sleep with me and you just keep kissing me?"
……… Gan!Why does such a poignant love story become a happy comedian when it meets Xiao Shu'an!Lin Xiu said angrily: "Yes! I want to kiss you! Not only do I want to kiss you, but I also want to touch you! I will strip your clothes! Touch you! Not only want to kiss your mouth, but also want to kiss your face! Eyes, nose ! Every inch of your skin! Isn’t it scary! So you have to sleep by yourself, understand?”
Xiao Shu'an seemed to be taken aback by Lin Xiu's words, and he didn't know whether he was recreating the model with CG in his head, or he couldn't digest it. Anyway, after a while, he said in a daze, "I don't mind."
? ? ? "What did you say? Say it again." Lin Xiu felt as if she was hallucinating.
"I don't mind what you said." Xiao Shu'an said seriously.
"How can you not mind? You!" Lin Xiu was speechless in anger: "What! How! How can you be so frivolous? You don't like me, so how can you not mind? These things can only be done with people you like. Do you understand, can anyone do this to you? You don't mind?"
"If that person is you, I don't mind."
"........."
Hearing this sentence, Lin Xiu didn't know whether to be happy or sad.What did Xiao Shuan think of herself?
"You said today that you don't have this desire for me, right? You only like me as a friend, not in love." Lin Xiu guided Xiao Shuan patiently.
"Well, I don't want to, but if you really want to, I can accept it, and I can cooperate with you." Xiao Shu'an felt that she didn't hate Lin Xiu kissing her today.Just now she also thought about what Lin Xiu said she would do, and she thought that if that person was Lin Xiu, she could accept it, it didn't matter.Anyway, she doesn't need such things as chastity, and she doesn't plan to remarry in this life, so she will live like this with Lin Xiu for the rest of her life, which is fine.
"Huh!" Lin Xiu took a deep breath: "What do you think of me? A beast? What I want is yours... Do I want to do those things with you? I think it's good here."
Lin Xiu pointed to Xiao Shuan's heart: "I have those desires for you because I have you in my heart. The prerequisite for you to do those things with me is that you have me in your heart, understand? This is not what Anything."
Lin Xiu realized for the first time that the ancient people's concept of love is really strange.
"I have you in my heart." Xiao Shu'an didn't understand anymore, he also cared about Lin Xiu very much, he had her in his heart.It's just that I don't have those desires for her, but if she wants, I won't refuse, why do I have to sleep in separate beds?
"You have a fart!" Lin Xiu couldn't hold back her swearing: "It's different, okay? I really can't explain it to you. Anyway, I can't sleep with you anymore. Go back to sleep!"
"I can't sleep without you." Xiao Shu'an said so solemnly and pitifully that Lin Xiu almost softened her heart: "I'm used to sleeping with you."
"It's useless, don't test my willpower. Hurry up and go back to sleep." Lin Xiu pushed Xiao Shu'an back to where she should go.Some things, you can hold back when you don't talk about it, but once you talk about it, you can't help it.Especially since this person said he didn't mind, isn't this a test for her?
Xiao Shu'an couldn't hold back Lin Xiu, so he had to sleep alone in a sullen mood.Although the two were still in the same room, they were not on the same bed, and they suddenly felt as if they were far apart.Xiao Shu'an could even hear Lin Xiu's breathing.She could hear that person tossing and turning, not falling asleep at all, she didn't understand, it was obviously uncomfortable for both of them to sleep separately, why did they have to separate?
It wasn't until midnight that Lin Xiucai fell asleep because he was really tired and had no energy.
Hearing that Lin Xiu's breathing became even and steady, Xiao Shu'an lightly got off the ground and touched Lin Xiu's bed.As soon as he lay down, the people around him rode on him as usual.
Xiao Shuan smiled in satisfaction, this feeling is right, listening to the breathing of the person beside her, touching her skin, and feeling the familiar body temperature, Xiao Shuan finally felt at ease in her heart. Soon, sleepiness hit her, and she Finally fell asleep contentedly.
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The author has something to say:
Sorry for not updating yesterday, I accidentally fell asleep when I came back yesterday afternoon.Maybe it's because I haven't slept well recently. I'm a little sleep-deprived. I fell asleep immediately yesterday, and I had the longest sleep these days. Today I feel much more comfortable.
Some friends care about my mood, and some even go to my Weibo to comfort me. I am really touched, thank you very much.In fact, the mood is more or less affected.I haven't slept well in the past few days. I've been thinking about some messy things in my head at night, and I even hid in my girlfriend's arms and cried twice (but don't worry, nothing happens usually. I shed two tears in nightclubs a week~ Crying is my personality!), I have a lot to say.It may not be enough to write 1 words.So in the end, I chose to remain silent and say nothing.
If you think about it carefully, there is really no need to explain it.Some readers don't accept the plot, and some think it's unreasonable.After thinking about it, it may be that my writing level is limited, and I can’t accurately express my thoughts and thoughts completely. It’s really unnecessary to explain. ripped off.
A few days ago, I was indeed in the mood of being sprayed, but my girlfriend said that I just didn’t like to leave a message with those who didn’t accept it, and most of the people who could accept it didn’t leave a message.There are so many people reading the book, and there are only a dozen or so who leave a message. Of course, there are those who don’t accept it, but those who still read it. I think they are still willing to continue reading, but everyone didn’t comment.So, thinking about it this way is actually okay.
Thank you very much for your willingness to keep reading. I will continue to write the stories I want to write.The mountains are high and the water is far away. If they meet, they will gather, and if they don't, they will disperse.Nothing is always perfect, but fortunately we can still persevere.
Thank you...every reader who reads.Love you guys.
感谢在2020-12-1519:17:45~2020-12-1717:43:40期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~
Thanks to the little angel who threw the landmine: Xixi 5; 473985283; Leslie loves to read novels, 19, 111;
Thanks to the little angel of irrigation nutrient solution: 1930 bottles;
Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!
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