You are miserable so what?

"Where do you want to go?"

"Holding hands, falling in love, or kissing her?"

"Shen Yuan, calm down."

"How do I stay calm?" Mo Shenyuan picked up the business card and held it tightly in the palm of his hand, his depressed voice sounded from the tea room, "I haven't seen you for so long, is this a surprise for me?"

Fu Zhushu was inexplicably guilty and nervous, but still put on airs and explained in a low voice, "We have to take some shortcuts to open the market. Nothing out of the ordinary will happen, I promise."

"Your shortcut is to deceive other people's feelings."

"They're all businessmen, each takes what he needs." Fu Zhushu's eyes were pale, his face was tired, and he frowned when he heard this, "She needs emotional value, and I want to stabilize the sales quickly."

"In this way, we can settle down sooner and have a home."

Regardless of the presence of outsiders, Mo Shenyuan was stunned for a moment when Fu Zhushu could say such words that were almost promised.

Fu Zhushu, who rejected the bondage of family and marriage, said that he wanted to have a family with him.If it was the past, you might be confused by the word "home".It was the sight he had been looking forward to.

But today, Mo Shenyuan's body was stiff and he lost his mind.

His arms were tightly bound, like a puppet, he silently smoothed the ambiguous folds of his clothes, his eyes stayed on Fu Zhushu's face for a second, and then looked over his shoulders to meet his light brown eyes.

Pure and clear.

The other party was holding hot tea, but it was still difficult to see his expression clearly.Just watch quietly.

It seemed that he was not the one who took out his business card and caused the dispute.

At the age when I just met Fu Zhushu, don't they both have that pure appearance?

kind.

Mo Shenyuan withdrew his gaze and stated lightly, "I will always be ranked behind your career."

The first time we broke up was because of studies, and the second time we broke up because of confusion.

The voice was very soft, like a feather scratching at the tip of Fu Zhushu's heart, making his heart feel inexplicably sour, and he quickly raised his voice and said:

"Don't be childish. I need you, very, very much." "You're different."

"Childish?" Mo Shenyuan laughed angrily.

"Is it just to be you forever... In the middle of the sentence, he lowered his voice and omitted the words "underground lover", and said desolately: "The one who is not childish is the one who is considerate, isn't it?" "

The skin of Fu Zhushu's neck showed tiny red dots under the alcohol, and at this moment, his veins became more emotional, "Understand me, okay?"

"I don't understand you enough! Not only you will be sensitive and suspicious, but I will also feel insecure, do you understand!"

"Then who will understand me? I am also under pressure! Not only you!"

Mo Shenyuan panted heavily, these two sentences were so sullen that the waiter ran over and leaned forward to ask politely.

He can withstand the pressure from his family and colleagues, but he can't accept that he hasn't seen each other for half a month, and all he has to wait for is quarrels and suspicions.

"Mr. Fu, please be responsible to you, me, and that lady. Don't try to take care of both. In the end, the gain outweighs the loss!"

Before Fu Zhushu could make a move, Mo Shenyuan's eyes turned red, he pushed the man away, and ran out of the tea room recklessly.

"Grass." Fu Zhushu was dizzy with anger.

He turned around neatly, and grazed the side of the boy's face with his fist, bringing up a gust of wind.

Did not hit.

Thinking that the alcohol made his movements not accurate enough, Fu Zhushu couldn't care less about wasting time, so he couldn't hide his panic and ran after him.

"Shen Yuan!"

When the two disappeared at the corner of the corridor, Jiang Qishan slowly put down the water glass, picked up the small forgotten machine on top of the water heater, put it on the tip of his nose and sniffed it.

With an unknown floral fragrance.

A gentle, refined and prudent man lost his mind because of his lover's deceit and concealment

Abandoned gentleness and calmness.

When Teacher Cao was still Teacher Mo, no matter how many children Jiang Qishan cried, he never blushed.

Just generally again, patiently guiding him to be polite.

Jiang Qishan's thoughts were very slow, very slow, the picture just now was frame by frame

floating in front of my eyes.

The tooth marks on the man's neck were still intact, his fair face was flushed, and his soft and smooth hair brushed against his cheeks following the quarrel.

Are you going to cry?Eyelashes are wet.

The fists are clenched tightly, and the scent of flowers will stain the business card as evidence.

It will be crumpled, unfolded and watched repeatedly, and it will become a thorn in their relationship that cannot be removed.

Once it gets stuck in the flesh, it will never be pulled out again. Once the hole is stuck in the map, it will not be able to eat.

Jiang Qishan supported the wall with one hand, his shoulders curled up stiffly.

For no apparent reason, he gripped the machine tightly and sniffed the smell repeatedly.

The door of the box was pushed open, and the rest of the young people packed up their equipment and walked out one after another, "The recordings are all sorted out, let's call it a day."

"These people are staring at the market cake by Jiang Congpan, dog eat dog, and consume each other sooner or later."

"Very good, it will be clean now." "Yes."

Several people dismissed the waiter and surrounded Jiang Qishan.

"Looking at what?" Qiu Zelin clicked the ballpoint pen, "The uncle's stuff?"

Jiang Qishan smiled sullenly, tilted his head to signal the other party to turn on the receiver

"What?"

Puzzled in his heart, Qiu Zelin was unambiguous, and the moment he connected the wire, the object in Jiang Qishan's palm buzzed.

"Damn it, no wonder he found us." "What configuration, I haven't seen this thing before."

Jiang Qishan turned sideways and easily lifted the heavy box, put the things in his pocket casually, and walked out of the tea room lightly.

"Professor Jiang, should we go back to the lab or eat barbecue?" "Can you stop calling me Professor?" "Why?"

"I would feel like I have very little hair."

"Don't worry, you not only have more hair, but also look young." "I'm already young."

Li Qiangqiang walked last with a dumb smile.

Seeing Jiang Qishan's slightly trembling hands, the policeman's smile froze instantly.The guy is excited.

Sure enough, Jiang Qishan who was at the front suddenly stamped his feet, stroked the rosary on his wrist, and asked casually, "What's the taste of tears?"

They are all in their early twenties, who has never tasted tears.

Such a joke-like interrogative sentence can only be answered by a cut-headed man who wants to win Jiang Qishan's favor.

"Saline liquid is salty."

"Ah." Jiang Qishan half pulled down his mask, his pale lips curled into a slight smile, and he looked straight at the cropped man.

This smile almost took his soul away, and the pain all over his body disappeared in an instant.

"You're gay."

"I just like you!"

Jiang Qishan's smile deepened, but Li Qiangqiang couldn't help feeling terrified.In the bright corridor, only a clear male voice was heard:

"Excuse me, can you have sex with someone else, let me see?"

The inch-cut man froze in place, everyone stopped and looked at Jiang Qishan in astonishment.

The other party tilted his head slightly, his neck pulled out a smooth arc, and his peaked cap was raised a little, revealing his eyebrows raised out of curiosity.

"Forget it." Jiang Qishan turned his head, "Wait until you are free."

The corners of Qiu Zelin's eyes twitched, "The key is not whether he is free." "Zelin."

When he was called, Qiu Zelin was shocked.

"Can you help me buy a camera?" "What are you using it for?" "Taking pictures."

"You shoot?"

"You help me to shoot."

"Why." Qiu Zelin was not happy. "Because I'm busy."

Li Qiangqiang's lips parted and he finally said nothing.Intuitively, Jiang Qishan had something good hidden in his stomach.

Teacher Mo should not have expected that his bad boy, who took extra care of him, never learned to be gentle with others from the beginning to the end.

But she can't help it.

The city is lonely and empty at night.

Mo Shenyuan's upper teeth touched his lower lip, biting extremely agitatedly.

The street lights poured down, and he watched the countdown of the traffic lights in a daze, and turned his hand on the steering wheel a few times to relieve the soreness in his wrist.

There was also a box of mung bean cakes on the passenger seat, which he rushed to the city center to buy after get off work, just to let the drunk Fu Zhushu rest his stomach.

just now...

Startled by the wandering alcoholic, Mo Shenyuan suddenly came back to his senses, started the car and sped forward.

Let the guy walk home by himself.

Or simply call a famous celebrity woman to pick him up.

Such firm thoughts lasted only a few minutes.

The summer rain came suddenly, and the rain hit the glass like stones,

Drunk and rainy again. "Mo Shenyuan laughed at himself, almost biting his lower lip until it bleeds.

He is sick.Soft-hearted disease.

When the steering wheel was turned, the black car drove in the direction it was going.

Mo Shenyuan stopped the car and opened his umbrella. He found Fu Zhu at a barbecue stall.

The man is tall and straight, and his suit is soaked in rainwater.

He stood like a clay sculpture, and the whole body was splashed with a layer of white mist by the heavy rain.

The open-air shed of the barbecue stall was crackled by the rain, and the guests hid under the eaves

On the damp steps, a middle-aged man squatted laughingly, tied two plastic bags on his daughter's feet, then lifted his coat, hugged the child in his arms, and cheered and led people to the distance.

Fu Zhushu's hair was soaked, and his eyes were fixed on the father and daughter.

Reminds me of my dark childhood.

Mo Shenyuan raised his arm and tilted the umbrella over.When the palm of his hand was pressed against Fu Zhushu's broad back, he could feel the other side trembling crazily.

"Shen Yuan." With a desperate call, the man quickly turned around and pressed Mo Shen Yuan to his chest.

He kept fumbling with his palms, looking for a posture that would make the two of them fit better.

In the voice, there was a greed and obsession that he himself would never realize.

Cao Shenyuan has difficulty breathing

After a while, he asked softly, "Did you miss me? It's been half a month." "Yes, I miss you."

"It's raining, are your legs hurting?"

The man grasped the life-saving straw tightly, pressed against Mo Shenyuan's skin, and hummed heavily.

"go home."

"Well, go home, let's go home together."

In the rainy city, the house is warm.

After pressing Fu Zhushu's leg for a while, the man soon fell into a deep sleep.

Mo Shenyuan sat on the edge of the bed and leaned over, propping his elbows on his knees, and kneaded his sore wrists instead.

Fortunately, tomorrow is a rest day, and there is still time for occupational diseases to be postponed for a day.

He looked at the wrinkle between Fu Zhushu's eyebrows, and suddenly stretched out his hand in annoyance, smoothing it out with his chest.

The man's skin was still hot, and the smell of alcohol had been covered by the fragrance of shower gel.

"Shen Yuan..." The murmur was possessive.

Lightly tap the fingertips between the eyebrows, and trace down the eye sockets, outlining the outline of the sleeping man.

Nothing is going well today.

Just after taking a shower, Fu Zhushu received another text message that made him falter.Maybe it was because he was afraid of Mo Shenyuan and ignored him, but this time Fu Zhushu made it clear--

The beautiful girl who had been on his mind since junior high school had returned to China.

It's easy to talk about other things, but matters related to her are like a minefield in Fu Zhushu's heart, which should not be touched rashly.

Every time Mo Shenyuan felt jealous and uncomfortable, Fu Zhushu would emphasize that she not only helped him, but also his savior.

"But."

Pale lips touched, Mo Shenyuan rolled his eyes, pressed against the man's ear and said softly, "I saved you too."

It's just that the person concerned forgot, and he didn't mind, so he didn't bother to talk about it like taking credit.

Forget it.

It wasn't until today that Mo Shenyuan realized that the rift in their relationship might never have been healed.

And all he has to do is follow his heart.

When he went out the next day, Fu Zhushu was still in a deep sleep because Mo Shenyuan's temples were swollen from staying up late.

For no reason, he didn't want to have direct contact with Fu Zhushu today.Life is the shadow of Fu Zhushu, he wants to take a break and take a breath.

Rust, who was sitting by the side of the stall, took a small bite and swallowed the tofu flower

"Doctor Mo, aren't you going to work today?" the stall owner asked,

Mo Shenyuan shook his head, wiped his lips before replying, "It's the rest day. My cousin is going to college, so go and see her today."

"What university?" "N University."

"Hey, that girl is amazing. Dr. Mo's family are all smart people. Mo Shenyuan smiled and didn't speak, just picked up the newspaper and started to read.

It was the day of the N University Science and Technology Exhibition, and when Li Mianxin learned that Mo Shenyuan had passed by, he was not polite, and directly called her to move the display boards together.

The campus was full of cheers, and Mo Shenyuan held up a corner of the display board.

After entering his alma mater for the first time in nearly ten years, his attention was sucked away by his surroundings, and he couldn't help but lose his mind.

"Brother Shenyuan, be careful!"

Mo Shenyuan quickly lifted up the display board, and he was relieved after confirming that there was no gap in the side.

The boy moving the equipment behind joked, "Li Mianxin, isn't it just a display board, what are you doing?"

"Yes, this is Professor Jiang's achievement, can she not treasure it?"

Mo Shenyuan's ears trembled.

"So you admire him, what score did you get in that subject?" Li Mianxin blushed, "61!"

"I'm good, but it doesn't affect my appreciation of genius!"

The student in front turned around and taunted, "There is no such thing as a genius, you can study hard without sleeping!"

"That's different! Professor Jiang eats this kind of food, and so does my brother!"

"Pfft." Mo Shenyuan staggered, persuading with a look of embarrassment: "Mian Xin..."

Unexpectedly, the little girl got angry and vowed to fight for right or wrong.

She slowed down and looked around, finally pointing at the backs of the students behind her, "Brother Shenyuan, tell me, what is written on the display board?"

"You think your brother has clairvoyance?"

Those few people had already walked half a street carrying the display boards. "Brother Shenyuan!"

Focusing on his body, Mo Shenyuan was urged to panic, and the answer blurted out: "SOM self-organizing map."

Li Mianxin immediately shouted, "Hey! Turn around!"

Those few people realized that they turned around with the display board, and Mo Shenyuan said exactly what he said.

"Understood? Can this observation and memory be obtained through hard work?" "You have rehearsed in advance!" "Fart."

Mo Shenyuan turned his face away and pretended not to know them.

"Your brother is so cool. Are you married?" Someone asked curiously.Li Mianxin fell silent.Still married.

Her brother doesn't even talk about love, this has long since become something that the Mo family hates.

No one can figure out how Mo Shenyuan, who is outstanding in every aspect, has actually reached 31.

Mo Shenyuan's smile also faded.

why?

Because for the sake of enterprise development, it cannot be made public,

Because Fu Zhushu used to be able to eat him to death,

Waiting for a few students to bring the exhibition boards upstairs, Mo Shenyuan stood by the flower bed at the bottom of the building, let out a long breath, trying to dispel all the gloom,

A meow drew attention, and he walked over lightly.This place is shaded, and ordinary students will not step into it.

A black cat was squatting under the bushes, and beside it lay a ball of brown hair, and an unknown liquid splashed on the ground.

Mo Shenyuan's heart beat violently.The cat has lost its breath.

He turned his head abruptly, then spread his legs and ran forward along the building.

The hair became messy, Mo Shenyuan grabbed someone's arm vigorously, and gasped, "Wait, wait."

There was a gust of soft wind, and the man turned around slowly.

Where the shadows meet, the opponent's eyes are free of impurities and appear brighter.He was neatly dressed, vigorous and aggressive because of his appearance.

"Excuse me."

The student smiled half-smile, turned his head and pursed his lips, and put his palm on the back of Mo Shenyuan's hand, "What's wrong?"

Light-colored but thick eyelashes swept down the shadows, and Mo Shenyuan felt a little disobedient in his obviously friendly smile.

"Have I seen you? So familiar."

"I haven't seen it before."

Mo Shenyuan grabbed the student's wrist with his backhand, and said seriously, "Tell me. You poisoned the cat, didn't you?"

"why?"

For some reason, Mo Shenyuan intuited that what the other party asked was: Why did he know?

Road.

The student turned his wrist, lowered his beautiful eyes, and looked at the man's hand, "Why should I poison the cat?"

"Your trouser legs are stained with grass fruit there." "Ah, so."

Mo Shenyuan worked hard, raised the student's hand and sniffed it lightly, and the student gasped.

"Smells like those liquids."

"Well."

Without quibbling a word, the boy nimbly withdrew his hand and lowered his voice, "Chronic renal failure, it will live a very painful life."

Mo Shenyuan was speechless for a moment.

"Brother should be very gentle. If it is your cat, you will take good care of it."

The boy stared at Mo Shenyuan very intently. "But wandering in school, it can only suffer alone."

"Some diseases are like this. They can't kill you, but they just can't be cut off or shaken off, and they consume your energy."

"I'm helping it."

"If you want to be reborn, you must first accept death." The meaning is profound, and there is something in the words.

"Brother is a doctor." "Yes."

"That brother should be more aware of the joy of helping patients who are in trouble get rid of their illness."

One brother at a time, and the shouting is very familiar.

Unconsciously, the distance was much closer, and Mo Shenyuan could even see the fine hairs on the opponent's skin clearly.

Every time he said a word, the boy's Adam's apple vibrated a few times, almost transferring the heat from his neck.

Under such a candid gaze, Mo Shenyuan took a step back, completely losing the aura of "interrogation" before.

so weird.

This awkward silence lasted until the phone rang

I thought it was Cao Yanghe who came to grind his ears again, but unexpectedly, it was Fu Zhushu.

Cao Shenyuan frowned and thought about it, and nodded apologetically to the boy after a long time, then turned around and answered the phone dawdly, and walked to a place where there were few people.

"Why aren't you at home?" The man's voice was lazy and hoarse

"Just woke up? There's sandwiches in the fridge."

"come back."

Mo Shenyuan stopped by the river, pinched his eyebrows and said dejectedly, "I'm sorry I have to go to school, see you tonight."

"Does your leg still hurt?"

"It doesn't hurt anymore."

"I'm going to dinner tonight. You'll come back now, won't you?"

"Where to eat?"

"Binan."

The magnetic voice seemed to be holding a hook, repeatedly pulling on Mo Shenyuan's heart.

Immediately following this call, the man's breathing became heavier. "Shen Yuan, talk to me."

Mo Shenyuan's heart beat faster, realizing what the other party was doing.

"Well..." Fu Zhushu urged: "Come back." "Come back and let me kiss, and then fuck me."

Taking the initiative to let go of shame and arrogance and crouch down is Fu Zhushu's way of seeking peace after the second breakup.

Mo Shenyuan's heart beat like a drum, his face flushed instantly, he held his breath and said in a panic, "Fu Zhushu!"

The person on the other side was not affected, but murmured in enjoyment because of the call.

"What are you doing?"

Qiu Zelin, who was debugging the equipment, called out in confusion.

The young professor stood by the window, outside the window was covered with trees, and the wind ran through his hair.

He bent his fingers, pressed the small bluetooth headset, turned his head and raised his fingers, "Shh."

Turning around, his expression was gloomy.

The lush trees were reflected in the light-colored pupils, his lips were tightly pressed, and then loosened suddenly, revealing a smile of unknown meaning.

Mo Shenyuan was at a loss as to what to do with the teasing, his heart almost jumped to the base of his tongue.

"Ding", a text message came in.

Fu Zhushu's emotions are scorching sun, and this text message is another extreme.

[Dear Binnan members, warm reminder, the dance will start at 9:[-] p.m. Please bring your dance partner and invitation letter and arrive half an hour in advance. ]

Unknown sender.

Perhaps it was the prey's natural defense against the hunter, Mo Shenyuan's body was stiff, and he turned around instinctively.

Passing through the trails lined up with exhibition boards, green trees, under the shade of the trees, and in the open windows on the first floor, the corners of clothes floated by, but there was no one.

The man's breath on the phone was still sticky, and he called over and over again.Mo Shenyuan's lips turned pale.

Perhaps, Fu Zhushu never concealed it.

It's him who trusts too blindly, and only knows how to make hangover soup at home—even if he's dizzy from working all day.

"Who are you going to dinner with tonight?"

"Work partner." Fu Zhushu replied nonchalantly.

"Women?"

"Correct."

His voice trembled, and the shaking wrist in front of him remained unchanged.Mo Shenyuan didn't notice the change at all.

"Ah, it's so noisy." The Bluetooth headset was suddenly dropped.

"cough!"

Qiu Zelin, who was almost walking on tiptoe, scratched his face with guilt, "Am I noisy...

The other party sat heavily on the chair, and the earphones were crushed by the heels, "Endless and endless." "Sows can't hoot like that."

Qiu Zelin said hesitantly: "The school does not allow pigs to be raised."

"wild."

"A wild boar with slimy hooves and a mouth full of slobber."

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