You are miserable so what?

In the dark, the sound of even breathing is especially clear.

"What do you know?" Mo Shenyuan asked.

He didn't believe that Jiang Qishan already knew that he was leaving.

"I think my brother will take the initiative to tell me."

Mo Shenyuan didn't speak.Prefer not to say.

Stepping lightly on the wooden floor, he moved forward along the edge of the wall, his fingertips gliding across pictures that made him terrified.

His throat seemed to be gripped by hands, tight and dry. "Did you take all the pictures?"

"it's me."

"When did it start."

"Clubhouse, the receiver you made intercepted the signal I transmitted."

Unbuttoning the collar, Jiang Qishan followed behind Cao Shenyuan, his flat voice made people feel dreadful.

"I can smell your scent."

"At that time, I was just curious about how the long-winded teacher got entangled with the president of Minhe: I was curious about how a person who I thought was dull and boring made such a powerful thing."

"then?"

"Ah."

"Isn't life just a boring repetition day after day?"

"But you are different. The more we get along, the less I think so. You are very special.

do not.

"can not say it clearly."

After tearing off the next photo, Mo Shenyuan stopped, sliding his fingertips on the slightly raised surface - something was written on it with a marker.

He didn't want to know what it was.

Intuition is the content that will make him even more astonished.

Want to control.

In the photos across the room, Mo Shenyuan could feel the desire to control that made him breathless.

very familiar.

Fu Zhushu, the father who disciplined him severely and restricted his communication with others, also has such a familiar desire to control.

But it's not the same.

Jin Bing’s door with a small daylight surplus is in the middle of shutting down. The light of the moonlight shines in through the narrow door, and it happens to fall on Jiang Qishan’s feet.

Looking up, the opponent's Achilles tendon is extremely long, and half of it is hidden in the darkness.

Mo Shenyuan asked: "Why did you shoot?" "And why did you tell me all of a sudden?"

"Second question." Taking a step forward, Jiang Qishan smiled inexplicably, "I won't answer it yet."

"And the first question."

The silence was infinitely elongated in the cicadas.

"I shoot because I want to see it, it's as simple as that."

Cha Qishan was wanton and flamboyant, without any cover up.

Unscrupulously revealing his dark thoughts, telling Mo Shenyuan that he is a cold-blooded pervert with no sense of rules.Let Mo Shenyuan choose for himself, whether to stay away in fear, or to accept this confession.

Mo Shenyuan leaned his back against the wall, put one hand next to his ear, and the skin of the other's forearm rubbed against the tip of his ear.

The chest was pressed up, and the sound of the heartbeat like a drum surrounded him without a dead end.The cheek was rubbed hard by the bridge of Jiang Qishan's nose.

He thought Jiang Qishan would kiss him.but none.

Getting up to leave, Jiang Qishan leaned over to pick up the torn photos, folded them pitifully and put them in the box.

"About why I told you this secret." "I'll answer later."

"Wait?"

"Let's go to N University together now." Declarative sentence.

Throwing off his coat, Jiang Qishan directly grabbed Mo Shenyuan's wrist and strode out

go.

The heat in the streets makes people feel impetuous

From the moment Jiang Qishan appeared downstairs, Mo Shenyuan was in a daze.

Still flustered, he withdrew his hand and stepped back, following behind Jiang Qishan a few steps away.

Both are silent

Maybe Jiang Qishan had something to say, but he didn't say it.

He walked forward with his head down, unconsciously turning the car key with his fingertips.

Among the cicadas chirping and dogs barking, no one spoke.The street corner lights shone on Jiang Qishan's profile.

so lonely.Mo Shenyuan was thinking

Walking through the streets and alleys, the surrounding scenery gradually became familiar.

N big.

There was a rustling sound, the bushes were pulled away, one foot stepped on the edge of the flower bed, Qi Shan bent his knee and gave a kick, deftly grasping the upper side of the fence, and appeared on the opposite side of the fence in the blink of an eye.

"I'm not going." Mo Shenyuan looked around to make sure that there were no students or teachers passing by, and he held the fence helplessly and said, "Why don't you go through the main entrance?"

"Shh."

Holding out his dusty hand, Jiang Qishan said, "Keep your voice down, or you will be caught by the patrolling uncle."

"Wouldn't you be arrested if you didn't climb over the wall?" Everything was ridiculous.

"It's close here." Jiang Qishan arched his back, rubbed one foot across the gap in the fence and stepped on it, then stretched out his hand, signaling Mo Shenyuan to step on it.

"Where is it near?"

"Don't tell you."

Before Mo Shenyuan could make a move, Jiang Qishan raised his hand as if urging, "Step on it, I'll help you in."

The tone obviously expected that Mo Shenyuan hadn't climbed over the wall.He really didn't turn over.

Acting in accordance with the established rules is his consistent code of conduct.

Involuntarily getting nervous, Mo Shenyuan's breathing fluttered a few times.

He looked at the sharp top of the fence, and at Jiang Qishan's outstretched palm.

On the other side of the cold fence, Jiang Qishan raised his eyes, the soft light reflected in his pupils

"Trust me. It'll be all right," he said.

Holding his breath, Cao Shenyuan decided to obey his will, and yanked on the railing to

上

Being supported by the knees, stepping on the top of the fence, and jumping down cautiously, all in one go.

After not exercising for too long, he sprained his ankle when he landed, and he groaned and fell on the back of his head.

In a whirl, a strong arm pressed against his shoulder blades, easily turning him over.

The sound of rolling across the grass is very soft, so light that scratching my ears is very itchy.Mo Shenyuan leaned on the top, and fell on Jiang Qishan's body,

He panted heavily, turned his head to look at the seemingly insurmountable fence, then pulled the corners of his lips, his heart beating faster.

"Great." In a low voice.

Mo Shenyuan lowered his head.

On the soft grass, Jiang Qishan lay lazily with his legs bent, with the corners of his eyes raised, looking at Mo Shenyuan with a half-smile.

"It's not illegal to climb over the wall, so why go around the long way?"

"Hush." ​​Pale lips pursed together, and quietly uttered a syllable.

Not knowing why he was guilty, Mo Shenyuan hastily crouched down, trying to minimize his sense of existence.

Several students walked by.

He stood up in embarrassment when they walked away.

"Go." Jiang Qishan shook his shoulders, stepped forward and led the way.A blade of grass fell from the top of his hair, slowly, slowly.

There was another string of silence.

The strange silence was not broken until the noise of the night market sounded.The city is surrounded by darkness, except for the bustling food trucks on both sides of the street.

There are many students.

Jiang Qishan walked aimlessly with one hand in his pocket, his clothes were pulled behind him by the summer wind, bringing out the fragrance of green grass.

He is tall and has a long stride.

He likes to put on a bad face, and his mood is cloudy and uncertain.

Like Fu Zhushu, he felt troubled by pressure from many parties.

Mo Shenyuan's thoughts drifted further and further away.

"Snapped."

A snap of his fingers brought him back to his senses.

The only source of light in the street is the yellow bulbs of the food stalls.

Jiang Qishan stood in front of him, stretched out his forearm, and held a shiny lottery with his two fingers.

Staggered by a pedestrian, he stretched his brows unmoved, and sent a sign forward, "Take it."

"Fried banana?" He took it funny, and Mo Shenyuan took a bite under Jiang Qishan's fiery gaze.

Crispy on the outside and soft on the inside.

"Is it tasty?"

"Ah."

With food in his mouth, Mo Shenyuan's voice was a little fuzzy.

Jiang Qishan's ears twitched, and his heart felt a familiar soreness. "It's good enough."

The two stood side by side, walking very slowly on four legs.There were one more stick after another.

"Brother." A long-lost address.

Mo Shenyuan turned his head, and immediately pressed a tissue to his lips, and the sauce on his lips was carefully wiped off.

"call out--"

The paper towels crumpled up, drew an arc in mid-air, and were successfully thrown into the trash can

"Sit down."

Asking Mo Shenyuan to sit down, Jiang Qishan stepped forward and disappeared instantly.

A few minutes later, a coconut was placed on the ground with its mouth open and a blue straw inserted.

The two sat by the flower bed at the back of the booth, the wind was so soft that Mo Shenyuan's impetuousness was not left at all.

"Give me a drink?" he asked with a smile.

"I'll give you a drink."

The coconut milk is sweet and cold, and slides down the throat.

Jiang Qishan always sat casually, he spread his legs apart, and his knees were just touching Mo Shenyuan's.

Turning his head, he narrowed his eyes slightly, parted his lips, and finally said, "Give me a drink too."

"Hmm." Holding the coconut, Mo Shenyuan wanted to turn the straw in another direction.

In the next moment, the light brown hair brushed against the forearm, and the other party had already leaned over, lowered his head and gently held the straw in his mouth

The evacuation was so fast that Mo Shenyuan had no time to hide and see if any passers-by were paying attention to them.

Jiang Qishan supported his head, his eyes were lazily focused on Mo Shenyuan. "So what do they see?"

"if."

"If we are a couple, what if others see us?"

It was still that fearless tone.

Mo Shenyuan smiled lightly and shook his head, "It's different." "Men are different from men."

"Is it important?"

Cha Qishan raised his hand and rubbed his fingertips against Mo Shenyuan's soft hair, "Isn't it important to me?"

"Maybe."

Perhaps hearing this before, Mo Shenyuan would scoff and feel childish.

Love is not a one-person thing.

Your own, the other's family, career, friendship.

The consequences of an open relationship need to be considered, and the family's acceptance of it needs to be considered.

Mo Shenyuan has always been convinced that he is rational enough to consider issues from a lover's point of view, and chooses to wrong himself temporarily.

The premise is that he firmly believes that he will fight side by side with Fu Zhushu.

The road to being accepted by the public and being accepted by Mo Yanghe may be bumpy, but he accepts it frankly and enjoys it.

But everything is not like that.

"This road is not easy to walk, don't go on the wrong road because of impulse." Mo Shenyuan

Say.

"Advice from someone who has been here?"

Mo Shenyuan chuckled lightly, "That's right."

"I don't want to listen."

Jiang Qishan grabbed the trash into his palm and said bluntly: "I like you so much."

The noisy evening wind caressed past, bringing his voice to Mo Shenyuan's ears

"About the first question. Why did I tell you that I secretly filmed you." "Because I want to exchange an answer."

Mo Shenyuan signaled him to continue.

"Even a little."

"Do you like me even a little bit? Even if I have poor emotional perception."

"The second one. Are you going to leave? Or are you planning to leave." "Me." Jiang Qishan raised his eyes, "I just want to hear the answer to one of the questions."

An inexplicable nervousness enveloped him.

Some sweat broke out in the palms of his hands, and Mo Shenyuan forcibly calmed down.

Be cruel, he told himself.

Tell Jiang Qishan that you didn't even like him at all, and then tell him your plan to leave next week.

Why do you hesitate and haw, but hide the fact that you are about to leave from Jiang Qishan?

no need.

Mistakes over and over again will only derail things out of control

The words fell on his lips and were about to be spoken, when Jiang Qishan suddenly pressed his hand.

Jiang Qishan's palms were a little cold, he shook his head and said softly, "I just want to know one of the answers."

"sorry."

Enduring his soft heart, Mo Shenyuan stood up and said dryly, "You can say it as many times as you like.

"Yes, I will leave, and I don't like you either."

Jiang Qishan pursed his lips and shook his head lightly.

After a while, he smiled and nodded again, "Yes, I see." "I will send it to you, a gift for next year." "I'm leaving soon, aren't I?"

"Yes." Mo Shenyuan's palm was scratched.

"I'm glad you told me." Jiang Qishan withdrew his gaze, his expression gloomy.

He bent his little finger and hooked Mo Shenyuan's little finger, "Before we leave, let's watch the sunrise together."

"The day after tomorrow, are you going?"

Taking a deep breath, Mo Shenyuan's voice was very gentle, but the firmness in it made the other party suffocate and uncomfortable, "I'm not going."

"Climbing to the top of the mountain with you at night to see the fireworks, I like it very much, and I have left a good memory."

"That's good."

Went to Qishan's home and rode a bicycle to send the same family back to Qishan's home, which cost a lot of money, and then was sent home by bicycle. The whole journey was silent.

Before going upstairs, Mo Shenyuan waved his hand, "Be careful on the road." Not goodbye, but be careful on the road.

He believed that Jiang Qishan could handle the affairs of the Mei family well, and he also believed that he would not go beyond the boundaries of the law and do anything out of the ordinary.

There is no need to make redundant exhortations before parting, just say a word of caution on the road.

Jiang Qishan was very obedient, got on the motorcycle and put on his helmet, all his expressions were covered by the thick eyepieces.

Without stopping or hesitating, he suddenly started the car and rushed towards the endless night.

In the silent night, two lonely people parted ways to go where they should go.

Let the memory stay on the sweet coconut water and the straw that I drank several times.

When you get busy, time goes by so fast.

The departure flight was a few days earlier, which caught Mo Shenyuan by surprise.Meeting with friends is also scribbled.

After getting out of the car, he took the hand of his friend's child, and after thinking about it, he decided to take her with him.

Arrived

Helping a friend pick up the child, you can't put the person in the car and go to work on your own.

At that time, they left in a hurry, and some things fell into Fu Zhushu's place—strictly speaking, the house was their common property.

When walking upstairs, Mo Shenyuan lowered his head and coaxed Luo Le in a friendly voice, "Wait for uncle at the door, okay?"

"Okay~" She climbed the steps on short legs.

The reddish-brown door is so familiar that it takes your breath away.

Even when drunk and sleepwalking, Mo Shenyuan can skillfully take out the key to open the door.

It's two o'clock in the afternoon, a weekday.Fu Zhushu will not be at home.

This place is far away from the company, and since they have already broken up, Fu Zhushu has no reason to live here.

When the door was opened, the strong smell of smoke came to the face, accompanied by a wisp of smoke.The balcony door and kitchen door were wide open, and the hot and dry wind penetrated the entire living room, and the smell of smoke could not be dispelled.

Mo Shenyuan paused for a few seconds, squeezed the key tightly and did not speak, simply opened the door and brought Luo Le into the house together.

"Ah! It's the uncle who often comes to play!" Luo Le pointed at Fu Zhushu

Mo Shenyuan glanced at him, signaled Luo Le not to speak, and then walked into the study alone to get something.

Several heavy documents were scattered on the coffee table in the living room, and the ashtray was full of cigarette butts.Not decadent.

The man holds the report in one hand and pinches a cigarette in the other.He fell back on the sofa, his brows furrowed tightly, and his sharp gaze closely followed Mo Shenyuan

Suddenly covering his mouth with the back of his hand, he coughed twice, and the lingering smoke escaped from his lips.

Knowing that Fu Zhushu and Mo Shenyuan used to be lovers, Jiang Qiyang naturally became wary of Mo Wu, and even wanted to send her to the newly established little princess on the island.

manage.

Mo Wu worked for Jiang Renhe, and Jiang Qiyang's talk was pure nonsense.

Fu Zhushu was afraid that Mo Shenyuan would be even more annoyed if he knew this, so he spent several days on a whirlwind just to deal with the matter of Cao Wu and Jiang Qiyang.

This is what he owed Mo Shenyuan.

Staying up late, taking too much alcohol, squeezing a lot of moisture, my left leg has been aching.

The physical fatigue disappeared instantly because of Mo Shenyuan's appearance.

Fu Zhushu twisted half of the cigarette into the ashtray, stood up, and wanted to talk to someone.

Unexpectedly, a small child opened his arms and stood in front of him. "Don't get close to Brother Momo!"

"Mom said you are a liar and a villain!"

"Who is your mother?" Fu Zhushu narrowed his eyes dangerously.

Luo Le didn't say anything, "Anyway, don't even try to hurt him!"

Fu Zhushu recognized Luo Le.She is often with Mo Shenyuan, and they have met before, not to mention getting along well, at least they can live in peace

Judging by the child's appearance, it was obvious that they broke up and shared the embarrassing news.All of Mo Shenyuan's friends already knew about it.

I feel uncomfortable, depressed and unhappy.Fu Zhushu turned his head and coughed a few more times.

Smells like smoke.

Hearing the sound, Mo Shenyuan hurried over with something,

He turned a blind eye to Fu Zhushu, took Luo Le's hand and walked out the door.

The upstairs is being renovated, and steel plates are piled up between the corridors in violation of regulations.

Cao Shenyuan walked in a hurry, and the board was not stable, it was wobbly and was about to fall

"Shen Yuan!"

Fu Zhushu moved very quickly, before his brain could react, his body rushed out and pushed the two away.

The heavy steel plate hit his painful leg, and he squatted on the ground, dripping with cold sweat.

Mo Shenyuan hesitated to speak, and finally just said thank you in a low voice.

Fu Zhushu raised his head.Luo Le's disgusted gaze and Mo Shenyuan's indifference are more deadly than the dull pain in his leg.

His throat tightened, and he said in a hoarse voice, "Don't catch a cold at night."

"En." Mo Shenyuan turned around without hesitation.

Don't be softhearted.

The plane will take off tomorrow afternoon, nothing to do with him.

After sending Luo Le back to her home, Mo Shenyuan knelt down and said with a smile: "You know?

"Uncle has to concentrate on being himself."

"While listening to his mother, Luo Le must also learn to express his own thoughts.

Luo Le hooked him, "Ang!"

hook.

Jiang Qishan also likes to pull the hook with his little finger.

Swiping away the memory, Mo Shenyuan exhaled and got up, completely forgetting his thoughts.

the following afternoon.

A shoulder bag, a computer bag, these are all the things that Mo Shenyuan brought

He took out his car keys, unable to hide his expectation and longing.

Everything is well planned.

Except for the unknown variable Fu Zhushu.

In the open parking lot along the river, there is an unexpected person.

Holding a cigarette with his fingertips, he stood silently against the driver's door.The cigarette ash shook all over the ground, and some of it also fell on the leather shoes.

Squinting his eyes, the man smiled lowly, still looking upright and arrogant, but his words were pitiful, "Why didn't you tell me you were leaving."

"Why did you say that?" Mo Shenyuan felt a little angry, pulled Fu Zhushu away, and then got into the driver's seat.

After inserting the car key, I failed to start the car for a long time, and the car was dead silent.

Turning his head, the man stood by the car with his eyes downcast, sipping his cigarette one after another, keeping his mouth shut, but the expression in the smoke couldn't be more familiar.

Fu Zhushu, don't let him go.

Pushing open the car door suddenly, Mo Shenyuan stepped out clutching the computer tightly, but Fu Zhushu was a step ahead when he was about to speak.

"Shenyuan."

"I won't leave the country, so don't you either. The company's development focus is not shifting so quickly, please give me some more time? Then we will work together."

"Work together?"

"Just find a job and put me in it?"

"Your words are moral kidnapping. No one stipulates that we must stay in the same country."

Don't want to say more, Cao Shenyuan is a good thing, turned around and walked outside the parking lot

go.

Sure enough, the wrist was caught.

"Don't go."

Shaking the soot, Fu Zhushu smiled slightly, "If only I could remember the feeling of you saving me from the river."

"I want to kiss the mole on your ankle."

"release."

Unexpectedly, the strength in the wrist was relieved.

Mo Shenyuan turned his head and noticed that Fu Zhushu was walking towards him step by step.

back.

The wind blew across the river, blowing the soot on his fingertips far away

With a cigarette in his mouth, Fu Zhushu retreated, retreated, left the concrete floor of the parking lot, and stepped on the lawn along the river.

"Don't remember, just let me feel it again, okay?"

He wants to jump into the river.

This thought made Mo Shenyuan feel cold all over.

His lips quivered, his chest rose and fell dramatically.

In the name of love, he was imprisoned at home with strong means

Now that he is suffering from hidden illness and looks tired, he is joking with his own life in order to prevent him from going abroad.

It's really capricious.

He wants to go, this is a decided matter, and if it is decided, there will be no turning back.

Resolutely turned around, intentionally ignoring Fu Zhushu's actions, Mo Shenyuan gripped his bag tightly and ran forward suddenly.

It's best to be so fast that Fu Zhushu's voice can't be heard.But he heard it.

I heard the sound of water and the terrified calls of tourists.

Nothing to do with him.

"Savior" is not a qualifier, there will be a second savior to save Fu Zhushu.

Running to the side of the road, trucks and cars roared by.

Mo Shenyuan was sweating hotly, panting on his knees, shaking his head and trying to take a taxi.

"Bah--"

The familiar sound of rubbing turned around on the ground.Throwing the scorched helmet into his pocket.

He heard Jiang Qishan say lightly: "Get in the car."

The speed of the car was very fast, and the heavy vehicle would sometimes lower down and overtake the car in front with a flick of its rear.

They seem to be flying, speeding on the scorched and smelly asphalt road baked by the sun.

Jiang Qishan was very courageous, he tore off his helmet halfway, and let the dry wind brush his hair.His clothes fluttered, he lowered his body, and his light-colored lips were tightly pressed.

The airport is very close.

Against the wind, he suddenly let go of his lips and shouted wantonly.It's like venting the emotions that have been blocked for a long time.

With a cry, he speeded up, flapped his jacket, raised his chin slightly and let out a more forceful cry.

At a speed as fast as light, any passer-by is just a passing shadow.

Inexplicable emotions were brought up, Mo Shenyuan bit his lip, suddenly let go of one hand, and also took off the helmet.

The hot wind is like a knife blade, brushing the eyeballs, throat and all muscles.

The scorching sun pierced his eyes into tears, he hugged Jiang Qishan's waist tightly, raised his head and shouted loudly.

At that time, all the troubles and worries no longer invade the brain.

Mo Shenyuan's heart was beating very fast, such wanton feeling made him almost out of breath.

The sound echoed throughout the sky.

Neither of them spoke, and all their emotions were released with the exhaust pipe of the car and the shouts.

At the gate of the airport, the motorcycle among the taxis is particularly abrupt.

The sun was in the sky, sweat dripped down his chin, Mo Shenyuan wiped it off casually, panting

Get angry.

The same was true for Jiang Qishan, his hair was soaked in sweat, and he was even more embarrassed than being in the rainstorm.

They looked at each other and smiled, without any extra words.

"Bon voyage." Jiang Qishan said.

"You too." Mo Shenyuan replied.

He tightened his bag and lowered his eyes, stopped talking, and walked towards the airport entrance.Standing in the queue, the hot sun shone on the neckline, making it very painful.

Without the roar of the motorcycle's engine, he knew that Jiang Qishan hadn't left yet.

"elder brother!"

With his long legs on the ground, Jiang Qishan suddenly leaned forward and shouted with all his might.Sweat rolled over Adam's apple and fell to the ground.

Mo Shenyuan didn't look back.

"Everything is going well!" He heard Jiang Qishan shout.

After the thick glass separated the two, Jiang Qishan said loudly: "I like you!"

In the ward, the man slowly woke up.

He suddenly pulled out the needle and rushed to the window like crazy.

Cicadas sing summer, this summer is very long.

The plane flew across the sky, leaving a very pale white shadow.

The doctor walked into the ward, frowned and asked the man to lie back.

"No family members? Have you been messing around in the past few years? Are you under a lot of pressure at home and need to make money? You smoke all the time, and you are not in a good mood, right? I have to tell you that you can easily get sick if you don't pay attention to your lung health."

"It doesn't matter."

The man looked towards the sky, "To live, that's all."