The life of a despised omega

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——Why are you still standing there, waiting to be bullied?

——My name is Zhu Lin, and I live next door to you.

——I am a bristlegrass Omega, which is different from a soft and soft Omega like yours. My vitality is many times more tenacious than yours.

——I have a good heart, and I will show you mercy and send you to the hotel.

——Omega needs to become stronger so as not to be bullied, you are too weak, but it doesn't matter, I will protect you.

——I am not Yun Zhan, remember, my name is Zhu Lin.

……

——I can't protect you anymore, you have to take care of yourself.

——My name is Zhu Lin, you have to forget me, don't live with guilt for me.It's my business to like you, don't feel burdened.

Everything about Zhu Lin circulated in his mind, and the high-spirited young man became more and more haggard. He gave up his freedom and chose prison for a man named Tang Yuan at an age when he should have spent his youth wantonly, and chose to die willingly at an age when he was struggling.

What did he get?

Tang Yuan's favorite?

Tang Yuan's love?

Unfortunately, nothing.

The only thing that can make Tang Yuan remember him is that insignificant guilt.

"For a person with a cold nature," I questioned him, "is it worth it?"

He smiled and said it was worth it, "Just like everything you did for Yun Zhan, you don't ask for anything in return, so it's worth it."

I’m different from him, I don’t ask for anything in return, I’m very selfish, so selfish that Yun Zhan has to remember, so selfish that Yun Zhan can only have me by his side, and selfish enough to pretend that Zhu Lin has feelings for me I don't know.

"I'm not……"

He shook his head: "Don't talk, let me see you one last time."

Zhu Lin was dissipating little by little, and I couldn't catch him.

A gust of wind blew by and he disappeared completely.

"Zhu Lin!" I called to him, "Come back!"

"Wake up, wake up."

"The patient is awake, call the doctor quickly."

It was too noisy in my ears, Zhu Lin couldn't even hear me, so I yelled at them to shut up.

The sound disappeared, and the surrounding was very quiet, and I could even hear people's breathing and the sound of the wind. I stretched out my hand and called Zhu Lin again.

No one responded to me, not even the sound of breathing.

I asked, "Is anyone around? Where's Zhu Lin? Has he been rescued? Turn on the lights, I'm going to see him."

The ears became a little noisy again, the sound of footsteps came from a distance, and at the same time a male voice shouted: "The doctor is here."

My body was touched over and over again. It was the doctor who was examining my body. I was not dead yet.I grabbed the doctor's hand and asked, "Where's Zhu Lin? Did you save Zhu Lin?"

He didn't answer me, and even wanted to shake off my hand. I beat him violently: "Where is Zhu Lin, how is he, you let him come to see me!"

"Let him come to see me!"

They held me up with two hands, but they didn't let me move. I kicked my legs and struggled to express my dissatisfaction, but my legs were restrained again.

"Turn on the lights, you despicables! Let me go!"

I struggled violently, and they played tricks on me in the dark.

"Inject a sedative!"

The needle stuck into my arm, and my body gradually lost strength. I begged them to turn on the light, and I wanted to see Zhu Lin.

"Mr. Tang, I'm very sorry to inform you that it's not that you didn't turn on the light, but that your eyes were injured and you became temporarily blind."

"Hehe." I laughed, "Blind, I became blind?"

I heard a familiar voice ask: "It's only temporary, when will it be better? Will it affect the future?"

The butler’s voice was full of concern, I looked towards the source of the sound, it was pitch black, and I couldn’t see anything, but I still smiled and asked in that direction: “The butler seems to care more and more about me, does he regard me as your son? ?”

He doesn't respond to me.

I lay on the bed and laughed, "Your son is amazing. I've never seen him before, but he made me like this. I'm getting more and more curious about him."

A voice came from not far away: "There will be a day when you see him."

The smell of blood is approaching, and the familiar breath is in my ear. Gong Huanshen's voice is filled with a smile: "Tang Yuan, how are you feeling now? I said, you can't afford to anger me, do you like it? I This gift to you."

I turned my face to the other side.

"Don't you like it? That's a pity. I even destroyed my orphanage because of this. How can you not like it?"

My jaw was pinched by hand, and he forcibly turned my face away, "Want to know what happened to your friend? I can tell you."

"The beam broke his back and bones. He was still alive when you passed out next to him. Do you know how he died? He was burned alive. When the ambulance arrived at that place, he was burnt to death. It was charred, and what was carried out of the fire was just a mummy."

"No, it won't, it won't be like this!" The heart was gripped by hands, and the pain caused tears to flow down uncontrollably. They flowed down the corners of the eyes and into the ears, blocking all external sounds.

But it couldn't be sealed, and Gong Huanshen's voice continued.

"I can't listen anymore, can I? It's not over yet Tang Yuan, do you know how many people died in the orphanage? Thirteen, thirteen children died in the flames. Do you know Tang Yuan, I like children very much, I Let them have enough food and lodging, why do you still piss me off, you see, they died because of you."

"So it would be nice if you listened to me at the beginning, and the latter won't happen."

I didn't have any strength in my body but couldn't stop shaking. I gritted my teeth: "Gong Huanshen, I will kill you! I will definitely kill you!"

He laughed loudly: "I'm waiting for you, but what do you think a blind man can do to me?"

The chin was jerked away, the breath around my face disappeared instantly, and Gong Huanshen let me go.

"Take good care of me, if something happens again, I will kill you."

"Yes." Everyone in the room answered with trembling voices.

The sound of footsteps went away, the smell of blood dissipated, and Gong Huanshen left.

The doctor's voice sounded again: "Conservative treatment for a period of time, if there is no sign of improvement, the cornea needs to be replaced. Vision recovery is certain, and the follow-up impact should not be great."

"Then trouble the doctor." The housekeeper said, "Mr. Tang takes good care of his illness. If you have something to do, you can tell the servant."

The butler and the doctor left together.

There was a lot of breathing around me, and I was upset when I heard it, and said, "Ling Jia stays, the rest go."

The sound of footsteps disappeared for a while, and I called, "Ling Jia."

"Ah."

"Where is Julien?"

"funeral parlor."

"Take me there."

"No, you are in an unstable condition and cannot leave the hospital." He paused for a while and said, "And the young master will not allow it."

"Then you go and bring him back. He is only my friend, and he has nowhere to go. It's too sad to be thrown in the funeral home with no one to collect his ashes."

"Okay, I'll go in a while."

I don't know how long it took Ling Jia to wake me up, and he stuffed me a wooden box silently.

The moment the hand touched the box, tears dripped on it, and there was a muffled sound.Zhu Lin came back and was lying in this cold square box at the moment.

I asked Ling Jia to go out, I wanted to be alone with Zhu Lin for a while, Ling Jia told me to be careful and left the room.

I talk to the box: I don’t always listen to you carefully when you are here, but now you talk and I listen.

Zhu Lin didn't speak, only weeping in the room.

I said: Why did you just fall in love with me, a bad guy? Without me, how would you end up like this.You said how good it would be for you to stay in Yandu, why did you run out with me, I can't give you anything, now it's all right, I lost your life.

I said: It’s fine if you don’t have a place to come from, but now you don’t even have a place to go back, so what should I do with you.

……

There was a commotion at the door, among which I seemed to hear Wang Jue's voice.

After wiping away the tears and gropingly putting Zhu Lin into the cabinet beside the bed, I walked towards the door.

The door was opened by me, and there was no sound at the door.

I asked Ling Jia: "What's wrong?"

After Ling Jia said a word, Wang Jue took my hand and said excitedly, "That's great Tang Tang, you finally woke up."

I pushed her hand away without a trace, and stretched out my hand in Ling Jia's direction. Ling Jia quickly helped me walk into the ward.

Wang Jue followed behind, and after I sat back on the bed, she was surprised: "Tang Tang, what happened to your eyes."

I said indifferently: "It's nothing, I'm blind."

"How could this be?" She said with worry in her tone, "After that..."

I stopped her: "Is there anything else? I'm a little tired and want to rest."

"I……"

"Thank you." It was Yun Zhan who spoke.

My heart trembled unconsciously, "Thank you, thank you for what?"

"I heard that you are looking for me."

I quickly denied it: "No, I'm not looking for you. I was, I heard the cry of a child inside. I went to save the child, not you."

Yun Zhan: "You go out first, I'll talk to him alone."

Wang Jue: "But... okay."

The door was closed, and Yun Zhan and I were left in the same space.

"Tang Yuan." Yun Zhan called me.

"Ah."

"I'm Yun Zhan."

I laughed: "I just said that I didn't... I didn't admit my mistake."

"I don't have amnesia, I remember you from the beginning."

"Then why... why are you pretending..."

"Why pretend not to know you?"

"Well, why?"

"I don't want to have anything to do with the past. You have my unbearable past."

Yun Zhan still remembers me, I should be happy.

But why not be happy or sad?

I said, "Thank you for remembering me."

Thank you for not breaking your promise and remembering me, an Omega with a bad reputation.

Before the joy reached the bottom of his heart, Yun Zhan said again: "I never liked you. At the beginning, I deliberately approached you to prevent you from telling me about me. Later, I also wanted you to take the contraband out of the country for me. From the beginning to the end, it was all about me. I'm using you."

"Stop it." I don't want to hear it.

He didn't stop, "I'm sorry, I apologize to you for what I did before."

"I told you to stop talking, I don't want to hear it!" I begged him, "Can you stop talking?"

"Sorry, you can tell me if you need help in the future, but I may not be able to do other requests."

I laughed and burst into tears uncontrollably.

Is this my compensation?

"Get well soon, I'm leaving first."

The footsteps got farther and farther away, and I called him to stop.

"Yun Zhan, the price of liking you is too high, I can't seem to bear it." I wiped away my tears, not to embarrass myself so much in front of him, "So, I decided not to like you anymore."

"Thank you," he said.

Thank you, thank you for letting him go.

The door was opened and closed, closed and opened again, I pulled out my pillow and threw it at the door, hoarsely shouting: "Get out, get out!"

Headache, heartache, body aches.

I'm dying of pain.

There is no one who can save me.

"what!"

Ridiculous, too ridiculous.

Tang Yuan, you are a joke.

I smashed all the things that should be smashed, and the chaotic noise can calm my emotions.

Smash it, smack it all...

There was a muffled bang bang, and the feet were covered with a layer of dust.

Julien...

I raised Zhu Lin's ashes...

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I didn't mean it." I knelt on the ground and apologized, "Zhu Lin, I miss you, I don't like Yun Zhan anymore, can you come back?"

"I beg you to come back." With my forehead resting on the urn, I begged him word by word, but he never responded.

"Painful, let me accompany you! Let me share your pain, you can rely on me as much as you want, and I will never harm you."

I put Zhu Lin back into the box, ignoring the voice in my head, Zhu Lin said that it was a bad thing, don't be manipulated by him.

"Let me come out, I will help you, I will satisfy you whatever you want."

"Go away, I don't need you!" I took out the dry medicine in my pocket and swallowed it.

I have killed so many people, why should I escape.

Putting Zhu Lin in the box intact, I hugged the box and said to the voice: "I will never let you out, you are so determined."

Zhu Lin is good for me, I want to listen to him.

It is correct to listen to Zhu Lin, and don't release bad things.

"Ling Jia!" I shouted into the air.

"What's the matter?" The voice was nearby.

I turned to where he was speaking, "Let's find a home for Zhu Lin, he's had a miserable life by my side."

"Even the ashes were scattered by me..."

"This..." He hesitated.

"What's the matter? Gong Huanshen still won't let me go out? It's okay if I don't go," I handed the box to him, "Then please find him a good place, remember to tell me when I come back, and I'll go when I get better." To see him."

After a while he said, "You can go out."

"what?"

"You can go out, but you must follow me."

I withdrew my hand, "Then let's go."

My feet should have hooked on the sheets scattered on the ground, and I couldn't stand still. I rushed forward, caught and straightened me with both hands.

"Thank you Ling Jia, otherwise Zhu Lin will be spilled by me again." I asked, "Are there other people around you? Why are there two breathing sounds?"

"No, it's just me. You might have misheard when you were nervous just now."

"Oh, let's go then."

After negotiating the cemetery, I bought an extra location next to Zhu Lin.

After Zhu Lin was buried, Ling Jia consciously went to the other side, and I stroked his tombstone, "Although I don't know where you came from, this is where I belong for you. Come with you again."

"I am your only friend and relative. I should be buried next to you. Don't dislike me. Even if you dislike me, you still want to stay here."

I have nowhere else to go but this.