you restrain yourself

Ji Shuyan didn't expect Duan Zhi to say this.

He frowned and asked again, "Why?"

Duan Zhi didn't understand why Ji Shuyan asked such a question.

The reasons for his departure are obvious.

He whispered, "It's not appropriate for me to stay here any longer. It will only disturb both of us." He looked at Ji Shuyan, hesitated for a few seconds, and added, "Don't worry, I won't I will come to bother you again, and you will never see me again, so you don’t have to be afraid, I won’t do anything to you anymore.”

He doesn't regret his confession to Ji Shuyan, but although he has a loose personality, he still has a bit of a gentleman in his bones. He kissed Ji Shuyan last night without Ji Shuyan's permission, which is the only thing out of line in his relationship in the past 20 years.

He whispered again, "I'm sorry."

Ji Shuyan found it difficult to get angry again.

Although Duan Zhi described himself as heinous, his eyes were as clear as water when he looked at him, restraining his usual arrogance and sloppyness, his handsome and solemn features highlighted his youthful spirit.

He looked at Duan Zhi with a complicated expression, he didn't know what to say.

While he was still thinking about how to deal with this matter, it would be best if the two of them could get along as before, Duan Zhi had already found a solution one step ahead of him, which was far cleaner and neater than him.

Just don't meet again, it's good to everyone, you don't need to pretend that nothing happened, and you don't have to worry about sitting at the same table without saying a word.

As if they never knew each other.

This is indeed a good way, but Ji Shuyan looked at Duan Zhi, but inexplicably felt a little reluctance in his heart.

He remembered watching Duan Zhi archery in the afternoon.

In the brightly lit stadium, Duan Zhi stood on the stage, holding an arrow and bow, indifferent to his surroundings. There were obviously a circle of people around him, but none of them caught Duan Zhi's eyes.

If he really let Duan Zhi get out, he would probably gradually become a spectator around Duan Zhi, leaving only a vague shadow.

Ji Shuyan became even more silent, the subtle discomfort in his heart spread round and round like ripples on water.

This is not necessary, the matter is not so serious.

He propped his chin with one hand, and after a few turns of his mind, he asked, "You just went back like this, what about Ji Yuan? You used to come to our house with Ji Yuan every now and then, and you went out on vacation with us, and all of a sudden You will never go home with him again, he must think he has offended you."

This is indeed a problem.

Duan Zhi pondered for a few seconds, "I will find a way. Ji Yuan is not someone who likes to get to the bottom of things. I have other jobs besides school courses, so I can always find a reason."

"But I don't think it's necessary." Ji Shuyan interrupted him.

Duan Zhi didn't understand, he frowned slightly and looked at Ji Shuyan.

Ji Shuyan was silent for a while, not knowing where to start.

He was really scared last night, but after this day, he has calmed down.

Young people admire Ai, everyone has it, it's not a big deal.

Even if he doesn't want to be that "Ai".

He said to Duan Zhi, "I was really surprised by what happened last night, but it didn't feel like the sky was falling. I'm a person in my thirties, so I still have the ability to bear it."

He looked at Duan Zhi, and lowered his tone a little, "So I don't want to affect your relationship with Ji Yuan because of me. Although Ji Yuan has many friends, you are one of the most important ones. I don't want He lost you. If you want to come to my house with Ji Yuan in the future, I will still open the door to welcome you. You don't have to feel embarrassed. You are only in love with me because of the influence of hormones. This will eventually fade away, so you don't have to worry about it. How we got along in the past, how we can get along in the future."

Ji Shuyan spoke casually, but from the bottom of his heart. It is not that he has never met a young pursuer in these years. When the love is shocking, it seems to be unswerving until death, and when it dissipates, it is like yesterday's cloud and smoke, leaving no trace.

In short, it won't last long, and he thought Duan Zhi would be the same.

Duan Zhi was stunned.

He looked down at Ji Shuyan, but he didn't expect Ji Shuyan to say such a thing.

He pursed his lips, looking at Ji Shuyan with complicated and unpredictable eyes, as if hiding a pool of stars, but under the stars were rough waves and wreckage.

Ji Shuyan tilted his head, not understanding why Duan Zhi had such an expression.

He thought he had shown the greatest kindness. To be honest, if it wasn't for the half a year of getting along with him, he would have some affection for Duan Zhi, he would have taken the suitcase and told Duan Zhi to get out.

But just now Duan Zhi smiled at him as if nothing had happened, telling him not to embarrass him, not to be afraid, and he would not do anything anymore, and he felt a little heartache again.

Even he himself didn't know why, but he couldn't bear Duan Zhi to show such an expression.

Because he wasn't afraid, and he didn't feel that Duan Zhi had become obscene ever since.

In his eyes, Duan Zhi is still Duan Zhi, the young man who sat on the floor of his house drinking coffee and writing programming with Ji Yuan on a rainy day.

He and Duan Zhi had eaten at the same table, chatted, watched movies, and comforted Duan Zhi when he was sad and frustrated.

He didn't want Duan Zhi's 20-year-old to become so bleak, just because of a ridiculous and irrelevant confession.

Seeing that Duan Zhi was still standing there motionless, looking at him in disbelief, like a big golden retriever who just got into trouble and dared not act rashly, he smiled helplessly.

"Don't look like this," he said, "I didn't hate you because of this. You don't need to leave early, and you don't need to avoid me deliberately in the future. Since I invited you out to play this time, you have to start and finish. Tomorrow , didn’t you agree to go to the fireworks display together?”

Ji Yuan has always wanted to watch the fireworks, if Duan Zhi left the scene temporarily, he would definitely feel lost.

Ji Shuyan doesn't want to leave any regrets about this trip, no matter who it is.

Duan Zhi stood still.

He maintained a slightly bent posture, looking straight at Ji Shuyan, but he couldn't tell what it was like.

Ji Shuyan is so easy to understand, everything he thinks is written on his face, if he doesn't always have a cold face, as if he is not easy to get close to, he might have been deceived by others.

Obviously now is the result he wanted, and what Ji Shuyan gave was also the answer he wanted, but he felt mixed feelings.

"I don't hate you."

A month ago, when he was staying at Ji Shuyan's house, Ji Shuyan said this sentence. A month later, he kissed Ji Shuyan and confessed his love desperately, but Ji Shuyan still said that he didn't hate him.

So what is it that makes Ji Shuyan hate him?

Or that no matter what he does, Ji Shuyan will be tolerant to him.

Duan Zhi simply didn't know what to say.

He had actually taken a step back. If Ji Shuyan really hated him, he would consciously disappear.

There is no point in harassing a loved one, it will only cause them pain.

He didn't want Ji Shuyan to think of him in the future, and his memories would be full of embarrassment.

But Ji Shuyan said he didn't hate him, he didn't even look at him with disgust.

This made Duan Zhiqing involuntarily want to touch Ji Shuyan.

In fact, he was just betting, betting that Ji Shuyan cared a little about him, and betting that Ji Shuyan would allow him to make progress.

He is not sure about the final result, the air ticket and hotel are confirmed, and the luggage has already been packed.

Just wait for Ji Shuyan's verdict.

Fortunately, Ji Shuyan let him win the bet.

Duan Zhi kept silent, Ji Shuyan was not happy anymore.

"What on earth do you mean?" Ji Shuyan frowned, not very happy, "You don't want to, you still want to leave?"

Duan Zhi chuckled, "No, I was just too surprised. I didn't expect you would still let me stay by your side."

Ji Shuyan always felt that this sentence was weird, but he couldn't tell what was wrong, but when he looked up again, Duan Zhi looked at him with gentle and dependent eyes, and he put this thought behind him again.

Calculating the time, Ji Yuan probably will be back soon, he stood up from the sofa, "That's good. We're talking, right?"

Duan Zhi nodded.

Ji Shuyan let out a long sigh of relief, he was really tired this day, now that a stone in his heart has been suddenly lifted, he feels much more comfortable.

He stood up, walked out of the study, and comforted Duan Zhi, "You are still so young, one day you will meet the right person, that person is not me, but he will definitely treat you very well."

Duan Zhi laughed, but did not refute.

Anyway, he wouldn't believe what Ji Shuyan said now.

But that’s okay, it’s better to do it than to say it.