time never speaks

"Sasha?"

Didn't move.

"Sasha?"

Still not moving.

Looking at the steaming food in front of him, Chi Yunran helplessly raised his voice again: "Salsa? Don't be in a daze, don't eat anymore, do you want Xiaojing to heat it up again?"

As if hearing the keyword "Xiaojing", Sasha, who had been in a daze, suddenly came back to her senses. She looked at Chi Yunran, then at the food on the table, and suddenly said, "Ah, is the food ready?"

"It's been up for 5 minutes, but you didn't even look at them. Why, don't you like to eat farm fried pork?"

Chi Yunran picked up the chopsticks and took them apart, and then pretended to put the chopsticks on the farm's fried pork: "If you don't eat it, I will take the chopsticks."

"Eat it if you like it..." Surprisingly, Sasha didn't grab food with Chi Yunran like before, her light brown eyes were no longer smiling, they were full of worry.

It was also impossible for Chi Yunran to take advantage of her bad mood to really steal rations. She stared at Sasha for a while, then suddenly said, "Is it because of your father's return?"

Sasha was taken aback, and subconsciously said, "How do you know?"

Chi Yunran said: "Your phone is a bit loud, so I can hear it so close." After saying this, she picked up a chopstick and put it into Sasha's bowl: "Shouldn't Dad be happy when he's back? Maybe I'll bring you a present?"

Sasha looked at the fried pork in the bowl, then hooked the corners of her mouth.She seemed to be smiling, but that smile was a bit forced.

"I know, he'll bring me presents. It's just..."

Chi Yunran raised her eyes: "It's just that you don't like it?"

Sasha didn't seem surprised why Chi Yunran had such strong observation skills, her emotions had completely fallen into her own world.

Sasha said quietly: "Ah Ran, what do your parents look like in your memory?"

Chi Yunran was slightly taken aback.

parents……

If you talk about why she applied for the police academy, a large part of the reason is because of her parents.

Chi Yunran's father is a firefighter who has been in the fire brigade since he was 19 years old. He can rush into the fire scene and recite a ninety-year-old old lady, and he can climb a three-story tree to save a two-month-old girl. kitten.

And Chi Yunran's mother is an ordinary police officer at the police station. What she does most every day is not to investigate cases and save lives, but to welcome all kinds of people to the police station to report cases and ask for help.

In Chi Yunran's memory, she often did not see her parents together.Sometimes my father came back, but my mother was busy in the police station again.When the mother was about to come back, the father had to rush back to the team immediately because of the sudden police call.

She grew up eating fried noodles made by her father and meals cooked by her mother, but she seldom had a decent reunion dinner with her parents.

Has Chi Yunran ever complained about her parents?To be honest, I complained when I was very young.Because no one wants to be in the parent meeting, it is very likely that the parents are not present, even if the child is in the top ten of the class.When her parents were not present, she could only curl her lips and call her grandpa to ask him to come to the rescue.

But as she got older, she suddenly understood again.

Her parents, they don't have high positions, and they don't have a family background that can give away a lot of money.Everyone is extremely ordinary, living an ordinary life, doing ordinary things, and raising an ordinary child.

But it is such ordinary people who can become the screws in this society, fixing the entire social system together and allowing society to function.

I don't know what happened to my parents...

Chi Yunran gently hooked the corners of her mouth: "My parents are ordinary people, but they are also the greatest people in my heart."

Sasha looked at Chi Yunran's smile infatuatedly, and she murmured: "That's great...I'm different."

Chi Yunran looked at Sasha and said, "If you don't mind, can I hear your story?"

Sasha was silent for a while, then nodded slightly.

"You know, my sister is Roman, but if you don't tell me, you usually can't tell, because she is three years older than me."

If Rosasha were to name the two people who influenced her the most in her life, it must be her sister Roman and her father.

Why don't you say mom?Because her mother, when she gave birth to her, was weakened due to heavy bleeding, and then fell ill intermittently for two or three years, and passed away when Rosasha was three years old.

Three years old, a period of ignorance when she didn't know anything, Sasha could feel Roman's faint hostility towards her.

Sister, why are you hostile to her?

She couldn't figure it out, she just felt very scared, but those weak and cold hands had been reduced to ashes in the raging fire a few days ago.

No one is willing to comb her hair, braid her braids, or call her salsa in a low voice.

When she got older, Sasha read books and read a lot of stories. When she thought about this incident again, she seemed to understand something.

——My sister's hostility towards her is probably because her birth not only took away her mother's love for her, but also killed her mother.

Sasha feels very guilty. She wants to ask her sister to apologize, but what can an apology do?Mother has been buried in Nanshan Cemetery, and father will not take them to visit the grave except for Qingming Zhongyuan.Even if the tomb is swept, my mother will not be resurrected suddenly.

When she was entangled in such extremely powerful resentment and thoughts, Roman didn't care about her, or in other words, since this younger sister was born in this world, she has always had this indifferent and alienated attitude.

In Sasha's third year of junior high school, Roman's third year of high school, she didn't apply for a domestic university. She graduated directly from high school and went abroad to study.

Now, Sasha couldn't find a chance to chat with Roman.

As soon as Roman left, she and her father were the only ones left in the house.

What should I say about dad?

Dad is a man who likes to laugh, but also a man with a gentle attitude.At least when Sasha failed the exam, Dad never blamed her for it.And when she excels in the exam, her father will reward her with everything she needs to play and eat.

At the beginning, she was proud of having such a father, but after a long time, she felt that her father was a little strange: her father would often look at Sasha with his eyes when she didn't look over, and when Sasha turned her head, he would Another gentle smile appeared.

But she still remembers the feeling of that scrutinizing gaze resting on her back, that kind of gaze doesn't look like father's loving eyes, but rather... an extremely stingy poor ghost, examining how much his last property is worth .

She indulged in her father's care, but was afraid of his father's eyes.

"Do you know? During the four years when my sister went abroad, he looked at me like that for a longer and longer time, and I felt more and more that he didn't regard me as a daughter, but a chess piece that could be used. .No, it should be said that I am a meat pig, and he is a butcher with a knife. Although he is smiling, his knife will fall anytime and anywhere.”

Chi Yunran looked at Sasha silently. On Sasha's beautiful face, her eyes wandered away, as if she was avoiding something, and her facial expression gradually became distorted.

"In his eyes, I became more and more frightened. I began to wonder if he had a purpose for being nice to me. Did he want to sell me? Or, did he want to kill me?"

During the four years when Roman went abroad, Sasha lived in more and more panic. She began to miss the days when Roman was here, at least when Roman was here, her father would not look at her with such terrifying eyes.She also began to be afraid of her father's kindness to her, because she was really not sure what his father's purpose was when he gave these gifts.

That originally gentle face gradually became distorted in Sasha's memory.

She didn't dare to stay at home anymore, she wanted to apply to live in school, at least the teachers she saw in school were real, and so were the classmates, even the male classmates she hated the most, at least had a real face.

But will Dad agree?Will he scold himself when he makes a request?What school do you live in if you live well at home?

Sasha was terrified, but felt that this was her only chance.

Maybe Dad will agree?Maybe... he would kill himself?

When Chi Yunran heard this, she understood that if Sasha's father wanted to kill Sasha, then Sasha would never be able to sit here safely.

"Your father, agrees to let you live in school?"

Hearing Chi Yunran's voice, Sasha nodded: "He agreed."

Unexpectedly, Dad didn't have any objection to Sasha's idea. He nodded cooperatively and said that he would call the teacher immediately to see if there was any room in the school.

Sasha studied in a private noble high school, and there are eight, six, four, or two-person dormitories to choose from.Dad naturally chose a two-person room for Sasha. When entering the dormitory, Dad thoughtfully prepared a small gift for her roommate: a newest mobile phone.

Sasha didn't care about her father's actions. She was immersed in the joy of leaving her father's sight range. When everything in the dormitory was settled properly, her father led the people away, and Sasha also sat down.

The roommate played with the new mobile phone that his father gave him, and said in an envious tone: "Your father is so kind to you."

Sasha, who was playing with the chair into a swivel chair, froze when she heard this sentence.

She opened her mouth, as if she wanted to say something, but in the end she could only close her mouth.Salsa pursed her lips, got up and walked out to the balcony - they lived on the fourth floor, and there was another room for two, so there was a balcony for drying clothes.

When the moon was bright and the wind was light, Sasha stood on the balcony. She looked at the sycamore tree not far away, and her tense nerves gradually calmed down.

It's all here, at least for a while... Her sight suddenly landed on the plane tree, where a figure stood quietly.

As if aware of Sasha's gaze upstairs, the man raised his head and smiled slowly at Sasha.

"He was standing downstairs, looking at me. I exhausted all my strength to keep from screaming."

Recalling this, Sasha couldn't help shivering, but her light brown eyes were full of horror, as if that person was the most terrifying person in the world to her.

Seeing that something was wrong with Sasha, Chi Yunran quickly stretched out his hand to hold her: "Don't be afraid, I'm still here, if you don't want to say it, then don't say it."

Sasha stared blankly at Chi Yunran, then moved her gaze down and landed on Chi Yunran's hand.

From that hand, there was a steady stream of warmth.

The cold heart was relieved a little.Salsa reached out her hand and placed it on the back of Chi Yunran's.

She said softly: "No, let me continue. These things have been in my heart for too long. If I don't talk about it, I will go crazy."