time never speaks

Perhaps it was because of the psychological preparation, when Chen Yin saw the news broadcast to Quanhuacheng, Chen Yin still held the water glass and sipped it bit by bit.I didn't drop the water glass in shock after hearing the news like in the TV series.There was no panic, it was unexpectedly calm.

Especially when I saw the figure wearing a hood and short sleeves on TV.Although the clothes he was wearing were different from what he remembered, his body shape hadn't changed much, so he could tell who it was at a glance.

At first, Chen Yin thought it was difficult to catch Fu Shi, because he was too smart and good at acting.However, Chen Yin didn't know what method the Huacheng Public Security Bureau used to catch Fu Shi.Originally, he was still thinking about whether he should take another risk and inform the Huacheng Public Security Bureau about the "Bliss Gate".

Well, it doesn't seem necessary now.

As long as you grasp the talisman, you are only one step away from opening the "Gate of Ultimate Bliss".

The Rainbow Bar was destroyed and Fu Shi was arrested. For Chen Yin, everything he had to do had been done.Now--

Only his own business remained.

Chen Yin would drink the water in the cup slowly, then put down the cup, and when he looked up again, the news channel was broadcasting another news.

Chen Yin stared at it for a long time, then let out a breath.

While there was still time, Chen Yin felt that he should do something.He got up and started wandering around the living room.

His eyes slowly swept over each piece of furniture, checking whether there was any garbage or dust on it, but after scanning around, he found that everything was clean and there was nothing.

This is also due to his usual cleaning, after all, he is not so dirty that he doesn't care about anything after he moves in.

Since he doesn't need to clean up, what should he do...

When he was thinking this way, he walked into the bedroom unconsciously.

The bedroom was dark, Chen Yin stroked the wall for a while, and turned on the light.

The air conditioner on the bed had already been turned off, it was late at night, and there was no need to tidy it up, after all, it was going to bed soon.

His eyes fell on the desk, somehow, he wanted to write something.

After thinking about it, Chen Yin went straight over. He opened the chair and sat down. He also pulled the drawer and took out the letter paper inside.

There is a pen on the table, it is a signature pen, and there is plenty of ink, so you don’t have to worry about it running out halfway through writing.

He unscrewed the pen cap, looked at the letter paper on the table, and began to write the first line——

"Dad, Mom."

The first letter after coming to Huacheng was actually written to the closest blood relative without thinking.

"I really want to say that it is good to see the letter, but I think you should not see this letter."

After writing this, Chen Yin paused for a moment, as if he remembered something, and continued to write the next paragraph.

"Because of the special nature of the task, I can't let anything that will reveal my identity stay with me. Therefore, I can only think and read this letter in my heart. It is impossible to send it. So, please forgive me."

"This should be the fourth month I have been in Huacheng. If you ignore the tasks on me, Huacheng is actually a very good place. The climate is warm, the sunlight is sufficient, and the temperature is higher than that of Chucheng. You need to wear a very thick down jacket. If you have a chance, Dad, you can bring your mother to play, it will be very good for your rheumatism."

"Huacheng is near the sea, so many industries related to the sea have been born. Mom, I remember that you like to eat squid. The squid here is not only big, but also tastes good. The price is slightly higher than that in Chucheng, but Dad, what do you think? My mother has always been very willing, and I believe that if she is invited to play such a thing, she will not feel bad."

"After finishing writing about Huacheng, let me tell you about myself. Before I came here, I thought this mission would be very hard, just like when I was undercover in the mountain village a few years ago. Unexpectedly, the material conditions here are not good. That’s right, you don’t need to rent a house, and you have your own canteen, so mom, you don’t have to worry about me, at least in terms of living conditions, I live pretty well.”

When he wrote this, Chen Yin seemed to see his mother's anxious eyes again, and he twitched the corners of his mouth, feeling a sense of warmth in his heart.

"But if you ignore these, the task becomes difficult."

Chen Yin carefully wrote down this line of words on the paper.

"The 'Changsheng' Group is a colossal entity. It is rooted in Huacheng. It involves a wide range of relationships and people. It is unimaginable. If there is no insider who proves that 'Changsheng' has indeed done illegal and criminal things, I believe that even the police, There is nothing to do about it.”

"Before coming here, although I was full of confidence, I have to admit that this task is a bit tricky. Just when I thought I was going to fight 'Changsheng' to the end, I met a person, because his Because of this, certain things went much smoother. Guess who he is? He is Ying He."

"That's right, Ying He also came here. He came here earlier than me. He came to Huacheng about two years ago. This is exactly why Mom asked me why I can't see Ah He all the time. I am I really don't know, he ran here."

"Now, Ying He is my upline. We work together, go on missions together, and protect Huacheng and the country together. This is the oath we made to the national flag when we became policemen. So you don't need to worry about me, nor Need to worry about him. We're here and we'll fight together till the end. It's just..."

After writing here, Chen Yin stopped writing again, staring silently at the letter paper that had written more than half a page.

just what?

"It's just... If you want to ask me, how are we doing besides work? I'm sorry, but I can't give you an accurate answer."

"I have always been guilty of not being able to bring you a daughter-in-law like other ordinary men so that you can have grandchildren. But I have always been very happy that you accepted me who is different from ordinary people. But The matter between me and Ying He can no longer be explained clearly in a few words."

"Perhaps you will think, young man, if you lose your temper, and then work together, your relationship will get better again. But... will it really get better?"

"The difference between me and him is not one day, not one month, not one year. It's two years, 24 months, 730 days. 730 24 hours have passed, my anxiety, my doubts, my dissatisfaction solution, not only did not disappear, but it became hotter."

"When we meet again, I don't even dare to ask him if he still loves me. I don't want to become a sad and humble person because of a love that may never come back. But... if you ask me, I will Do you still love him? I..."

Chen Yin stopped writing again, he closed his eyes slowly, and the scene after being with Ying He flashed through his mind.

do i love him

Even if you cross the mountains and the sea, even if the road in front of you is covered with thorns.Even if you hold a candle against the wind, even if you fall into the bottomless abyss.

That heart is gradually exposed in the dust called years.Its surface is smooth and flawless, as always, unchanged.

There is a warm liquid, slowly slipping from the opened eyes, from the cheeks to the chin, and then dripping into the dust.

"I love him."

Chen Yin wrote down this sentence heavily on the paper.

"Yes, I love him. Even after two years of separation, even if he no longer loves me. But I have to admit that in this most likely one-sided game, I have already been one step ahead of him and become the loser .It’s just that I have been reluctant to admit it, as if I can fool myself.”

Tears flowed more and more, and faster and faster. A few tears even fell on the letter paper, and a small circle faintly blurred on it.

"When I say this, does it contradict what I said earlier? But now, I am so contradictory. I don't want to get another answer from him that I don't know how to explain, and I don't want to tell him what is in my mind. Maybe, It's because I'm still angry with him for leaving without saying goodbye. Or maybe, this is my most vicious punishment. Punish him who may love me, and punish me who is not rational in certain things."

"If I let you know, you will definitely laugh at me? What are you talking about, 'Why are you still like a child'? If possible, I really want to hear your voices reprimanding me, but... I'm afraid it will be too late .”

"For the completion of the mission and for his safety, I took a risky move. Although this risky move will not cause a big loss to the 'Changsheng' Group, it is also open to my colleagues and the Huacheng Public Security Bureau. A new way to hit 'longevity'."

"If there is a sacrifice, there must be a price. I don't know what my price is. I just think that if I go to the final outcome, then I have nothing to regret."

"If it really comes to the end, my only regret is that I can't see you again. I can't let my father pat me on the shoulder and listen to my father's evaluation of me. I can't eat my mother's fried dishes anymore. Listen Just say a word, I lost weight again."

"I don't know how long it will take before you receive my news. I want you to know, but I don't want you to know. But...whether you know it or not. I believe that you will all be proud of me .”

"It's like what my father said before I joined the team: establish a heart for the world, and a life for the people. To inherit the knowledge of the past, and to create peace for all generations."

"I don't regret it, I never regret it."

As far as I write here, I have said everything I want to say.Chen Yin put down the pen, raised his hand to cover his eyes, and let the tears wet his skin and overflow between his fingers.

He didn't wail or sob, he just shed tears silently.

Tick, tick, tears flowed like sweat, and the paper that stretched out from the edge of the table was also soaked.

After a while, Chen Yin felt relieved. He put down his hand, grabbed the pillow towel from the pillow, and wiped his face indiscriminately.

Opening his eyes again, he threw the pillow towel and looked at the three-page letter.

If the final outcome is the most serious, this may be his suicide note.

Suicide note...

Chen Yin took another deep breath, and then exhaled the stale air in his chest and abdomen.In doing so, he became sober up a lot.

Chen Yin took the suicide note, got up and left the table, walked out of the bedroom, and went directly into the bathroom.

The toilet lid was opened, and Chen Yin squeezed Xin's hand hard——

With a sound of "tearing", Chen Yin tore this thick letter of concern into two halves!

This was not enough, he tore up the letters in his hand expressionlessly, then threw them into the toilet, pressed the flush button, and watched them whirl in the vortex before disappearing.

Emotional vent, once is enough.

Chen Yin turned around and turned on the faucet on the sink. Regardless of the cold water, he poured both hands on his face.

The sound of splashing water was mixed with the sound of splashing water. I don't know how long it had passed. Chen Yin turned off the tap. He raised his head and looked at the mirror on the sink.

Because he made too much movement just now, and splashed a lot of water on the mirror, but it still allows people to see himself in the mirror clearly.

Chen Yin stared at himself in the mirror, his hair was slightly wet, his face was dripping with water, his eyes were a little red, but calm enough.

After a while, the lips in the mirror opened and closed, and he mouthed something to himself.

——I am Chen Yin, and I am about to face what may be the last battle.

——I will definitely fight to the end.