winter suicide plan

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I took Chen Shuning to the furniture city. Although IKEA has a complete set that can be assembled and sold, we are still unemployed. In addition to Chen Shuning's medical expenses, he is distressed about the money, saying that online shopping is enough, and he has to go to furniture. city.I took it off and pulled it, let him get on the shared electric car, explained to him, touched it, and looked at it to know whether the quality is good or not.Since you want to save money, you need to save money and have good quality.Chen Shuning laughed at me from behind and said I was dreaming.

It was the first time I heard Chen Shuning smile today, and I felt a little more relaxed. I put his hat on and said, "Get ready to go, let's see Qiu Mingshan's driving skills."

He chuckled behind my back, patted my waist and said, "Qiu Mingshan Rider, let's go."

In fact, I was making up nonsense reasons. I found a reason to take Chen Shuning for a walk more often. During the depression period, I always stay motionless. The doctor also said that walking and exercising is good for my mood.I still have selfish intentions, wanting to date Chen Shuning, so I can go out with him more often.

I deliberately drove faster on the path, and he would hug my waist, rest his head on my shoulder, and let me block the cold wind whistling in front of me.After a while, he suddenly covered my ears, his plush gloves felt itchy to the touch, and he wanted to shrink his neck. I was so scared that I almost braked, but fortunately, I stabilized in time and did not lose face in front of him.

"Why are you covering my ears?"

"The ears turned red from the cold, as if they were about to bleed. I was a little scared. The old man said that the ears would be frozen off."

"It's okay, I'll be there later."

He didn't let go after I finished speaking. I was turning on the electric motor, and I couldn't stop him. It should be better with gloves on. Although I said I didn't want him to cover me, I enjoyed it in my heart.

So happy!

I looked at the small road ahead and passed the green plants on the side of the road. The smog was a bit heavy and the sunlight could not penetrate.

Chen Shuning hummed behind my back, and I felt his fingers beating rhythmically beside my ears, hitting my ears, through the ear bones, blood vessels, beating the drum to quicken my heart.

When it was almost time, Chen Shuning didn't cover my ears, he moved away.Suddenly, he said: "Hands are so cold." Before I could say anything, he put his hand into the back of my neck to absorb the heat from my back. Laughing behind him, I stopped and grabbed his hand, teasing me like this every time.

"Chen Shuning, that was very dangerous just now..."

He smiled all over his face, smiled obediently, and kissed: "Wrong, dare to do it next time."

I paid for the shared electric car with one hand, shook my head helplessly, and couldn't bear to say anything more about him. I grabbed his hand, and there was really nothing I could do about him.I was afraid that he would run around, so I had to hold on to his hand all the time, but suddenly he was so full of energy that I couldn't hold it with my hands, looking around and walking around.Obviously he was here to buy furniture, so he was the first to go to the sweet potato stand on the side of the road and said he wanted roasted sweet potatoes.

Bought two, he said his hands were shaking and asked me to peel them for him to eat. I broke open the sweet potato, and the soft orange sweet potato flesh was emitting sweet white gas. Before peeling it, I took a bite and bit my finger. I felt it, but after eating the sweet potato pulp, I licked my finger comfortingly, kissed it with my lips, and looked up at me cautiously, lest I say him.

Now Chen Shuning's face has been blown by the cold wind for a long time, and his cheekbones are dry and red.Because the tongue was scalded by the pulp, the tongue hurt and a little tears wet the eyes.

If you want to apologize, just kiss me directly.How could I say such a shameful thing?I am still outside now, and I regret proposing to go out, and I really want to go back now.

"Eat slowly, don't eat all over the place." I wiped his mouth, and his chin was stained and stuck.

"I think yours tastes better." He commented after taking a bite of the sweet potato in my hand.

"Aren't they all the same?"

"Your hands are sweeter."

I exchanged it with him, and he looked at the sweet potato in my hand again, bowed his head and took a bite and said, "I found that the sweet potato in your hand is a bit sweeter."

The overtone is to let me feed him.

I squeezed his face: "Pride and pride. Eat it yourself, I won't do it."

He couldn't wait to eat the sweet potatoes all at once, just like Zhu Bajie eating ginseng fruit, I couldn't help being amused by his eating, Chen Shuning showed me all the sides completely, and his heart was involuntarily bright.

"not sweet."

"If it's not sweet, you still eat all of it."

"Don't waste food, but be diligent and thrifty with your family."

"Do people who are usually wasteful have the confidence to say this?" I spoke as a giant leftover processor.

"Didn't I have you?"

Why is Chen Shuning so good at talking, every word can solemnize the red bullseye in my heart.

While I was in a daze, he looked at me with a smug smile, squeezed my wrist forcefully, took a huge bite, and muttered, "Sure enough, the sweet potato in your hand is more delicious. I'm fine, I'll keep it for you half."

"It's really good."

I put my cold hands on the back of his neck, and he shrank his neck coldly, trying to move his limbs with difficulty to grab me.

He turned around and grabbed my hand, staring at his lips, because of the sweet potatoes, his lips were also scorched red, with some blood.

I really want to kiss him in public...

He bit me, on the wrist, I felt the pain and let go, and immediately stopped the thought, thinking in my heart that coloring is emptiness, Namo Amitabha, I am not, I do not have.He ran away and walked on.

I looked at his back in the front, and couldn't help but think of the back that I saw wearing a hoodie under the big banyan tree. There was a crowd of people coming and going behind him. I was one of the crowd, and I always chased his back. Submerged and crowded.

The space overlaps, and now I am behind him, submerged in the crowds on the furniture city road, but what is different?

I watched his back in a daze, and he turned around and walked back, grabbing my wrist: "Hey, I won't be angry if I bite you, don't be dumbfounded."

It's different, he will look back at me, pull me out from the crowd, take me away, and walk side by side with him.

Most stores in the Furniture City will directly put out samples. Chen Shuning and I plan to buy a sofa. The apartment he rents is also his teeth. It is not worth renting with the little salary left over from his part-time job and court appearances in the past few years. It's big, but it's fine for two people.The lease term is only paid for three months in advance, and I pay for water and electricity so that it is cheaper than the rent. I don’t use much water in winter, but I use a lot of heating.

Chen Shuning excitedly ran up and down several floors. When he saw a sofa, he asked me to sit down and feel it. He dragged me to lie down in public and asked me, "Do you feel comfortable?"

I then felt it: "It's okay."

"I think it's okay too, how about this one?"

"Shop around."

"But I get a little tired when I lie down."

"How about I find it and ask you to look at it?"

"No, let's go and have a look."

Finally, I chose a suitable price. The warm yellow sofa looked like a long loaf of toast. Chen Shuning seemed to like it very much. Although he didn't speak, he couldn't walk when he saw it.

"like?"

"like."

"The price is not bad, so this one."

It happened to be in stock, Chen Shuning gave the address and asked someone to deliver it.We made an appointment to deliver it later, but Chen Shuning clamored for Liuzhou snail noodles, saying that he saw it outside.

Drink a bottle of mineral water and finish the snail noodles.He couldn't eat spicy food, so he insisted on being brave, and he was determined to eat it, but it was useless to persuade him, so he just rolled on the ground.He was still depressed this morning, and he was like a jumping rabbit. He was thinking about whether to give him a sedative tonight.He was still not satisfied after eating, so he said he wanted to eat Mai Xuanfeng, and said that the second one was half price.

I said no food, but he didn't leave. He squatted at the door of McDonald's. I held his forehead, which was really embarrassing, and dragged him away.

"Eating these together will cause diarrhea. If you take medicine, you will have a bad stomach."

He didn't listen, covered his ears, and said loudly that he wanted to buy it himself.

I tugged at him and picked up his collar, a little dissatisfied with his ruining my stomach: "Next time we eat, the sofa will be brought over."

"Never mind! Buy it, hurry up!"

I snatched his mobile phone and said, "Go and see if someone will give you the money. If you don't leave, I'll leave."

When Chen Shuning was in a stable normal period, he said that he would be very self-willed sometimes, try not to let him buy everything, once he started shopping, he would not be able to restrain his desire to shop and his appetite, and in severe cases he would overeat and eat everything. Can stomach.

I am also a person with emotions, and only a child can act foolishly. Chen Shuning obviously still needs to learn to control simple desires.I saw him quiet down, not speaking, with his head down.I leaned closer and lifted his chin to see, tears were on my hands, and I kept crying, saying that I don't want him anymore.

I kept saying in my heart that it's miserable, it's miserable, I can't say this sentence.

Seeing him cry, my heart softened, and I wiped his tears: "I'm sorry, don't cry, I'll buy it for you, okay?"

Still crying non-stop, I had no choice but to resign myself to buying two wheat whirlwinds and stuff them into his hands, Chen Shuning finally stopped crying.Sobbing and twitching, eating Mai Xuanfeng, tears fell into it.

"You said it wouldn't disappear."

"I'm more emotional, but my health comes first. Well, I'm sorry, I will definitely not say any more, don't cry, the snot is coming out, and other children are looking at you."

He followed my eyes to indicate the direction, and a few children looked at him, still feeling ashamed, and put on their coat hats in an instant.I pulled him away from the scene and couldn't help laughing at him, he was so childish.He bribed me with a wheat whirlwind, telling me not to laugh anymore. After he finished speaking, he wiped his tears, and said in a crying voice that hadn't passed: "I just want to try to eat with you once. I was alone before. Eat two, and the more you eat, the less you can taste it, you can only taste the ice."

He was so aggrieved that his nose turned red from crying.After he said this, it seemed like I was bullying him, and he became a different person inside and out.

But he's like this... I still think it's so cute.

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Tang Fengxing's perspective