winter suicide plan

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I didn't wear any socks, so I put on my shoes indiscriminately, closed the door, and ran outside.Stepping on the snow and mud under my feet, I looked back at the community belatedly, and suddenly couldn't remember whether I had closed the door.He touched his pocket, but he didn't take the key, the other key was with Tang Fengxing.

I saw the frosted leaves, and the frost melted, and I touched the wet leaves.The sun is covered with a layer of white mist, as if immersed in gray milk, hazy, not dazzling, and the trickle of warmth flowing here.I couldn't stop running, and kept running along this road.

I don't want to stay in that place, like a cage that hasn't been out for a long time, I can't run out of energy, I didn't take today's medicine, I will become calm after taking it, and I enjoy the happiness that is gushing out of my heart now, showing Sweet popping honey.

I ran up the pedestrian bridge, and ran to a commercial square against the biting winter wind.The huge LED billboards rotate in turn, and there are people everywhere in winter, wave after wave, and the crowd is turbulent.

In front of the store, a Chinese New Year discount sign had to be hung early. I saw a men's clothing store that said 88% off for two items.

That's right, it's January, and it's the Chinese New Year.

I rotated around the shelves inside, groped around, and browsed at random. The shopping guide who came came greeted me with a smile and introduced this winter new style to me.

This coat is made of woolen cloth and is warm, and the fabric is the best.

I laughed in my heart, whose fabrics are not the best.Looking at the coat in front of him, he thought of Tang Fengxing, Tang Fengxing's black down jacket that he has worn for the longest time. He has been wearing it since he met him, and he has never washed it. Is there anything special about that down jacket?

I looked at the blue-black coat in front of me. It was tailored around the waist and looked tall and elongated.

I took off my clothes, put them on myself, and played around with my posture, thinking that I was extremely handsome.Looking at himself in the mirror, he was pale before, and there was a blush on the cheekbones and cheeks on his face that was frozen red.

I touched the top with satisfaction, the texture was smooth, and the quality was really good, so I happily said, take one of these.

The shopping guide kindly reminded me to buy two pieces with 88% off. I started to play tricks on her and bargain with her. I opened the price tag and found that one piece was not cheap. I shook my head and said 350 for two pieces.

The shopping guide was a little dumb, and said with a smile, no, we can't make money at such a low price.Look at the material, it's fine cotton.

It's useless for her to tell the material of the clothes and the flowers, and I don't understand.

I laughed, took a step back and said 450 pieces. There are no other stores with your style, and I can still buy them online.I will take another step back, and I will leave if 499 and two items are not enough.

She seems to be still in a dilemma. At this time, everyone is rushing to make a profit. Besides, the quality of the clothes is a little better than ordinary clothes. She really wants to sell me two for 599. It's a beautiful idea.

The shopping guide looked at me, looked at my face and pondered for a moment, I was about to step down and leave, the shopping guide finally stopped me, took down the hanger and said that I was handsome, and he would give me a cheaper price.

In fact, the origin of bargaining is somewhat similar to the idiom of turmoil and turmoil. First, raise the expected value, and then find it unacceptable. I think this time is better than the last time as a compromise.

But it can only be bluffed for a while, and it is still necessary to speculate on the minimum expected value of the opponent in order to choose the most suitable expected area.

It's like when I was a student, the teacher said that there are five essays tonight, five papers will be handed out together at the end, and handed in together on weekends.The students groaned, the teacher said to write two essays tonight, and the remaining three papers were all finished on the weekend, and the feeling was different all of a sudden, the students silently accepted this line of weighing expectations. fact.

In fact, there was not so much homework, but the original standard was raised, and it was found to be acceptable when it was lowered.

Although this is something I just came up with, I convinced myself that what I was thinking was still very interesting, and I laughed to myself, causing the cashier to pay attention to me.

It's not bad to be 100 cheaper, maybe the ex-factory price is not so expensive in the first place.Putting up the name of discount also wants to cut my leeks, which is a good idea.

In fact, I thought that if it can’t be free, 599 is also fine, I don’t mind so much, but in fact, my mouth is itchy and I want to talk.

I actually wanted to buy a dress for Tang Fengxing on a whim.I also have a little selfishness, wanting to wear the same clothes as him.

I swiped the card, and at that moment, an inexplicable pleasure surged in my heart. After swiping, I took the bag and went to the next shop.

The glass chandeliers shone with warm yellow light, creating a joyous festive atmosphere.The whole shopping center was so bright and frightening in my eyes, I looked up at those lights, burning my eyes, and I thought of Tang Fengxing again, those eyes were always staring at mine brightly.

I ran out without telling him, the phone rang, it was Tang Fengxing, I just wanted to answer the phone while walking.I saw a skirt on a window model in the corner, a sky blue skirt, white gauze like white clouds wrapped in the blue sky, my thoughts drifted back to my seven years old, memories of the beautiful blue gauze skirt dangling in front of me, seaweed Curly hair.

My mother was so beautiful when she was young, and she is still young at her current age, and she will never grow old.

The phone rang and rang, I hung up the phone, dragged Tang Fengxing's phone number into the blacklist, and kept calling, it was too noisy.I got close to the summer dress as if obsessed, I admired it through the window for a long time, and I bought it.

I don't remember how much it cost, but I figured, I'm going to buy this dress, and it wouldn't be that expensive if it wasn't out of season.

I walked back and forth here with my shopping bag, sneaked into every store to look like a headless chicken, and would not buy it after wearing it. I even went to the beauty store and bought colorful nail polish. Bought a lipstick, I don't know why I want these things, but I want to own them, want to spend money, in exchange for a week of happiness I haven't had.

The setting sun gradually sinks into the horizon, and the outside is stained with a blood orange, like a bucket of paint has painted the entire city.I am ignorant, unable to feel the flow of time.My feet were numb, and the pain came from the other side of my feet, but I still walked around.

Out of the shopping mall, cross the square, walk along the bridge, pass a cake shop, buy a cake that I think looks good, and directly buy a two-pound ready-made one, which is a candy house on the cake, surrounded by fruits and chocolates .

Carrying cakes and a bunch of bags, I walked along the road, facing the glaring bloody sunset, next to the continuous flow of traffic, and my hair could blow up as soon as the car passed by.My blood was boiling, and I accelerated step by step to the vegetable market.

I bought some vegetables, and when I arrived at the gate of the apartment, it was already dark and thick like a quagmire. I was reluctant to turn on all the street lights in this street. I turned on two lights and it was done. It was perfunctory, and some places could not be seen clearly road.

Tang Fengxing stood at the door and made a call. When he saw me, he grabbed my collar suddenly. His veins burst out on his forehead. Before I could speak, he said, "Where did you go? Why didn't you answer the phone?" ? Why can’t you get through the phone all the time? You..."

I suddenly remembered that I pulled him into the blacklist, I let him hold everything in my hands, and quickly called him in the phone, then I took the things over, pulled him who was in a daze, and kissed him : "Honey, don't be angry, I'm back, I'm here to cook, I've gone grocery shopping, and I've bought clothes for you. It's Chinese New Year soon, and I'm going to add new clothes. It's freezing here, go, go Now, go back and try."

"What kind of wife..." Tang Fengxing was obviously dissatisfied with this title.

I said a lot in one breath, without any logic, I just counted things out one by one, speaking quickly, without fear of slipping my tongue.

Tang Fengxing was half dragged home by me, and after a while, I dropped my things and grabbed him and kissed him.Holding his waist, I feel that his eyebrows and eyes are particularly pleasing to the eye, perfect lip shape, heroic beauty, and straight appearance.

How to look, how pleasing to the eye.

I exerted some strength to lean him against the wall, kissed his upper and lower lips over and over again, and adjusted my posture left and right to prevent the nose from being uncomfortable.His shortness of breath hit the skin of my face hotly.He was unprepared, dazed by my unstructured kiss.

I ran to his earlobe first, rubbed it with my hands, and saw the black earrings on it, I took them off and put them in my pocket.Stretch out her tongue, lick his earlobe carefully, hold it with her lips, and play with the tip of her tongue.He was itching to grab my head and run his fingers through my long hair.

I then shifted the place and stuck my tongue in, and the tongue stuck together, sticky and hot.He should be smoking, didn't he say no?The smell of tobacco lingered in the mouths of both of us, like the accelerant of a fire, burning little by little.

A hand clasped his, warming his cold hands.A hand began to feel into his clothes, how to feel like a hooligan.Feeling his bumpy abs, running my fingers over the beating heart above his head, he flinches, and my hand moves down to grab his zipper.

The atmosphere is on point.

He opened his eyes instantly and grabbed my hand.We both stopped, and he covered his eyes on my shoulder, panting.

I kissed his neck and said, "I don't know why, but all I can think about is that I like you so much, Tang Fengxing."

He suddenly looked up at me, what he said just now made his neck, face and ears all red with embarrassment, there was no white spot, no different from a tomato.

I touched his face: "Surprised I would say that?"

"If you like, I can say it every day." I dangled my arms around his waist.

Shy and worried, he touched my forehead and asked me, "Why are you so energetic today? I couldn't hear you talking downstairs just now. Have you taken your medicine at noon today?"

"Eat it."

"Chen Shuning, you're lying, I counted them, and it's the same as what I counted this morning."

I choked, I didn't expect Tang Fengxing to count my medicines, so I took his hand and said, "Just this time, can you take it again at night, I feel very good now."

"No."

I let him go without telling him much, and gave him the clothes I bought. He opened the bag of the clothes, I put them on for him, and took pictures of him with my mobile phone.

My imagination was right. Tang Fengxing was at least 1.8 meters tall, with broad shoulders. He should have been in the gym. His muscles were well-proportioned. He looked like a model in clothes, and he was a little jealous.

While patting, he grabbed his cheek and kissed him and said, "Handsome, my boyfriend is so handsome. He looks tall and has long legs, so handsome. Don't go fishing in this suit for Tang Lv from now on."

He bowed his head shyly and said no, he only likes me.He is so pure and innocent, like a primary school student, I feel ashamed afterward.He took out another one that was exactly the same as him and asked, "The same?"

I took it and put it on and said, "Couples should wear couple outfits, right?"

The two of us were wearing the same blue and black coats, and we took a group photo on the sofa. I leaned back, and from the angle of the camera, I leaned on his shoulders. His smile was still as bright as the sun, and could melt the ice picks of winter. Into spring water, the melting warm current flows in my heart.

He looked at me, and our eyes met for a long time, and within a few seconds, the fire broke out.He held my face in his hands, rubbed my lips carefully, licked my lips with his tongue, but didn't stick it in, sucked me outside for a while and then let me go.

I quickly stood up, picked up the vegetable bag and said, "Today is a special day, I will cook you a good meal, let me give you a face, boyfriend."

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Chen Shuning's perspective