winter suicide plan

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[Tang Fengxing's perspective]

Two days before New Year's Eve, Chen Shuning and I packed our bags and drove back to our hometown in Hunan to celebrate the New Year.The small roads in the countryside are different from the previous years. Some sections of the road have been built with beautiful concrete roads and surrounded by silver railings. The previous muddy stones have disappeared. The dangerous bridge has also been demolished and a new bridge has been built.

But the tiles of the house are still red tiles, the walls are still blue-gray walls, and the snow is still white and flawless.Chen Shuning didn't take the cold as usual. He had already wrapped himself in two sweaters, took a blanket and slept in the passenger seat in the car. He fell into a hazy sleep, like a sleepy kitten. He took medicine and fell asleep for nearly a few hours. Wake up, sleep is on the road, half-dream, half-awake, feed two sips of water, do not eat, greasy food such as instant noodles cannot be eaten, and it is easy to spit out motion sickness after eating.

His cheeks were hot from the heater in the car, and a little sweat broke out on his forehead, which soaked the broken hair on his forehead. I wiped the sweat for him, and muttered something nonsense.

When I first started driving, I felt distressed that I was driving hard, and said that I was tired, so he drove.But I feel sorry for him even more. His energy is exhausted especially quickly when the weather is cold. After a lawsuit in the morning, the rest of the time he has no energy, depressed, and unwilling to move.Driving is exhausting, and his mental state is not ideal. Let me tell you the truth, he knows his own situation and has not entangled in this place.Qian reminded Wan Wan not to drive fatigued, just take a break at the service station, he was afraid that he would fall asleep and pass out, and he would not be able to pay attention to my state at all times.

I tried to comfort him so much that he took the medicine obediently.

We set off early in the morning, and there was a traffic jam on the road. It was almost nine o'clock in the evening, and we were already on a small road in the country, and we were almost at our home.The bushes next to it were dark, passing by like shadows, and it was only when you looked not far away that you could see bits and pieces of light.Chen Shuning moved a bit, sat up, was stunned for a few seconds, then sat stupidly watching the scenery skipped for a few minutes.

The way he woke up slowly, his hair was fluffy and disorderly, gave me a reason to touch his hair.

"almost there."

"Ah."

Chen Shuning turned around and went to pick up the box of chocolates under the handbrake. I immediately said, "I agreed to make four chocolates a week, and I've already eaten the week's amount. Let's see who breaks the agreement first."

Chen Shuning immediately stopped his hands, and started to lean over to smell me, the tips of his hair fluttered in front of my eyes, his eyes were filled with the tiredness of just waking up: "You smoke."

This is really a dog's nose. When I was at the service station just now, the cold wind was blowing outside for half an hour before I dared to go in.

This agreement started a week ago. The last few cases at the end of the year were so busy that they couldn’t miss the time. They stayed in the office almost 24 hours a day. Both can work.But the more these things happen, the more things about Chen Zhima and rotten millet will always increase at this time.Intimacy time is getting shorter and shorter, office hours are getting longer.

Chen Shuning got even more busy and turned on the airplane mode to block all external disturbances. Nothing could stop him from finishing things. He wished that he could only finish everything in one day. He was afraid that the next period of time would be a period of depression, and he would not have the energy to do things , things will be messed up by him.Anyway, in the manic period, full of energy, I couldn't sleep anyway, and desperately took the time to sort out the case.

There is always a bottleneck period in the progress of the case. When I became anxious, I couldn't help but start smoking to relieve my nervous fatigue. After Chen Shuning passed the manic period, the colder the weather, the essence would be taken away by the cold air. Eat chocolate to relieve anxiety and prevent depression from overdoing it.At some point in the morning, Chen Shuning finished a barrel of Snickers bars, and I finished a pack of cigarettes.

Coming out of a pile of case materials as white as snowflakes, the two of us looked at each other.The ashtray next to a table is full of cigarette butts, and the ashtray next to a computer is full of Snickers bags, one on top of the other, swelling into a ball.

Not surprisingly, I smoked so much I started coughing.He started to have toothaches because of too much chocolate, and too much caffeine aggravated his anxiety and compulsion.

The two of us sat on the bed face to face and began to find each other's problems.

"A'Ning, don't you think you eat too much chocolate? You eat too much caffeine and sugar."

"Tang Fengxing, why are you talking about me? You don't know what your cough is like. Is a pack of cigarettes a day reasonable?" Chen Shuning crossed his feet and crossed his hands as if confronting me.

We have been together for more than five years, and the words that are directly distressed are not the same as before. When we were first together, we could speak directly. The closer we are, the more embarrassed we are. The more we live, the more we go back. Feel sorry for each other.

"We are a bit addicted. We both start smoking and eating chocolate when we are free. From now on, I will quit smoking and you will quit chocolate. Supervise each other. Whoever breaks the rules first will pay the other two hundred and fifty." I started out with ideas first.

Chen Shuning nodded in agreement. Of course, this number was deliberately chosen. Chen Shuning has a very high self-esteem. Money is not a problem. I have always been in charge of money. Occasionally I will give some money that Chen Shuning wants to eat, drink, and have fun, but Chen Shuning spends it lavishly. One inadvertently bought messy things for Tomatoes. Some tomatoes were completely useless, and they were piled up in a big express box in disgust.The money came back and forth, and it was in his hands, and I was in charge of the card.He cares but the "two hundred and five", he must not be the first to lose, it must be compared with me.

He took the pear he had just simmered from the kitchen, hollowed out the inside, and stewed the sugar water in it. It was sweet and sticky, crystal clear. I found it on the Internet and tried it several times before serving it to me.

He put it on the table and asked me to open my mouth to see if the throat inside was still red and swollen.He is not very talkative in winter, his face is expressionless, and sometimes it always makes me feel that during this time period, he is very annoying to me, and he doesn’t dare to talk to him for a short period of time. He really noticed it carefully and told me with his behavior that he During this period of time, you can't focus on making facial expressions, but you can focus on caring for me. It's just that the heart is different from the appearance.

Carefully stewed sugar water to nourish my lungs, and took the initiative to talk to me.

Very!Very!Useful!

He pinched my chin and looked at it, and I took advantage of it and said obediently: "Don't look at it, it's not swollen anymore, and I don't cough too much."

He raised his eyebrows and said, "Then I'll take this."

I quickly put my arms around his waist and said, "Don't, it hurts now, it hurts to death, give me a drink."

He giggled, feeling the shock from his slender waist, it was really hard to see him laughing this once, with a blank face, it was fine, if he had a bitter face in the morning, he would have been half asleep and half awake last night leaning against my My chest began to sob, I went into hysteria, and after a while I fell asleep crying myself.

When I wanted to make him more happy, it was too difficult to make him happy. I took a sip and said, "It's so sweet and delicious."

"Really?" When Chen Shuning was praised and recognized, his eyes would light up instantly.

This is also a way to give him short-term happiness.

Praise more, build confidence.

I put my arms around his waist, put down the bowl, kissed his lips, put my tongue into his jaws, and sucked hotly, my tongues were intertwined, because of the stickiness of the sugar water itself, when the lips parted, a thin strip was pulled out The long silver thread is inseparable, and the fiery eyes full of lust collided for a second, and they kissed for a while.The breathing of the two was disturbed, and he blushed and panted.I said to him face to face: "Is it sweet?"

"Sweet, really...very sweet." Chen Shuning stretched out a small piece of tongue and licked my lips, and went to bed after making a fuss.He took off his pants three times and five times, tossing back and forth like a beast.After venting my lust for a few days, I turned sideways and subconsciously went to get a cigarette.It is said that a cigarette afterwards is better than a living god.Chen Shuning grabbed my arm, leaned close to me and whispered in a hoarse voice: "Two hundred and five."

As soon as the number came out, I burst out laughing, let go of the cigarette box, kissed his forehead, and wrapped him in my arms: "Wait for me?"

"Student Tang Fengxing, I am doing my best to supervise. Let's see who will do the [-] first."

"It's definitely not me."

"Wait and see."

As the words came true, I grinned and said, "Driving, it's really only half a cigarette. You can't take a breath of cigarettes to refresh yourself. Special circumstances don't count."

Chen Shuning slowly approached me: "Well, double standard, right? Two hundred and five, bring it here."

I sneered helplessly, I was afraid that this nose was not a dog's nose, so I stopped the car on a deserted path and gave him a 250 red envelope.After he received it, he turned half of it back to me. I stared blankly. He broke off half of the chocolate and stuffed it into his mouth: "We are each other, I can't help it."

The car continued to drive all the way, my mouth was itchy and I wanted to smoke, Chen Shuning's hands were not well-behaved, he kept playing with the chocolates in the box.I parked the car on the country road again, and we both turned our heads at the same time, looking into each other's faces.

"Just smoke half a stick."

"Just eat half of it."

When the two people heard it, they looked at each other and smiled. Once the agreement was broken, there were only 0 times and countless times.Both of them lost in this competition. I opened the window and smoked half of a stick. Chen Shuning ate the last half of the chocolate. As a result, he came here once or twice, and all the addiction that he had held back before was drawn out, and the addiction came up all at once.The two looked at each other again, and Chen Shuning said, "What should I do if my mouth itches?" I scratched my head, touched my earrings and said, "Oh...what to do, we have broken our agreement."

In the dimly lit car, they could only see each other's faces clearly by the dim light.Chen Shuning unbuckled his seat belt, leaned close to me, kissed my lips lightly, rubbed it, took out a box from the drawer of the passenger seat and said, "There are many ways to relieve addiction, let's find another way to relieve addiction."

I bit the kitten's lip in a bad way, wanting to punish him for flirting when he shouldn't, and sometimes being crazy.

In the wilderness, although it is a country road with few people walking, it is inevitable that there will be cars passing by.When Chen Shuning took out a box, no matter how stupid he was, he should know what he wanted to do.

The car itself was hot, and when the car drove into a dark place, the light was dim, and the ambiguity spread, like a small door was left open, and the clothes on the floor leaked wisps of ambiguous aura from the small cracks.Chen Shuning was biting his mouth, and he was already straddling my body, and a ball of fire burst out of his body at this moment.

"A-Ning, are you sure?" My Adam's apple rolled, and fine sweat rolled down my neck.

Chen Shuning had already adjusted the chair, took off a sweater, twisted his waist, unzipped his hands, kneaded me with warm fingers, leaned over and said ambiguously: "Good senior brother, I'm in a bad mood right now. My chocolate, quench my addiction."

I am his addiction.

I was so emotional that my reason could no longer restrain me, I put my mouth on his lips and said: "Senior brother will definitely feed you."

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The New Year's episode is here!Tang Fengxing's perspective