God's punishment

"Why? What's wrong? You obviously have nothing wrong, and you can find something that makes you happy." Yi Danning thought that she should give a very definite answer after thinking for so long.

Xiao Hansen squeezed the cake in his hand and lowered his eyes.When she raised her head again, there was a completely different smile on her face than usual, with a little nervousness and panic. If people who are familiar with Xiao Hansen saw her like this, they might suspect that she had been transmigrated. "It's not a problem. I don't know what is good. If you go by secular standards, most people here are not doing well.

Parents don't hear from them, sisters and brothers are dead, injured or missing, and partners change after crop after crop, there is no stability.Work is precarious, there is no social status, and life is in danger if you can't do it.

However, we are not people in the secular world. We have a thinking field. This ability has brought too many differences. So what is the standard for us to live a good life?I have no idea. "

Yi Dan was stunned.The question Xiao Hansen asked was from an angle she hadn't thought about.She thought about it, and her standard here seemed to be happiness and comfort. In terms of IPAO, no one told her such a thing.

So she asked, "Is other people's standards... important?"

Xiao Hansen took a bite of the cake, his eyelashes covered the emotion in his eyes. "It's important for people who don't have self-standards." She swallowed the food whole. "And most people have no ego. Everyone is acting according to the standards set by the world around them.

The boss brought you here from high school, as you should have seen, where everyone is committed to learning.

It happens that some people are good at absorbing knowledge, they will find their own value in learning, and then live a good life.

But students who are not good at learning are struggling in the sea of ​​questions, and they have nowhere to show their skills. This is because the standard tells them that good grades are king and can make themselves invincible.But a bad grade doesn't mean the person is useless.

This person may just not fit the existing system and can shine elsewhere.

But according to the standard, they will think that they are not doing well, they will be hit, and then they will be sad and their personality will change.

And good grades do not guarantee that they will live well in the future. There are too many variables in the future, and no one can predict it. "

Yi Danning frowned, thinking about Xiao Hansen's words. "You're not right. The class I'm in is not an excellent class. Not all of the students have good grades. They can't even do the physics problem, but they still have an art festival, and they have places where they can use their other strengths. .”

Xiao Hansen didn't look at her. "What about the teachers? What about the parents? Will they think that the first place in this specialty is equivalent to the first grade in the exam?

Even in the future, these two students may rely on their own advantages to obtain the so-called good life.

Even if two people feel that they are good, they can still hear people around them stepping on each other.The environment has too much influence on people, and no one can escape their hometown. "

Yi Danning's expression changed several times.She felt that something was wrong, but she didn't know how to refute it. She was not that good at words, not to mention that she didn't understand social affairs.

Xiao Hansen didn't care so much that he didn't get a reply, and continued talking. "That's why other people's standards matter. Human beings seek approval from others and ignore our own strengths.

As you said, you think that you are living a good life if you are happy and comfortable, so when you look at the people here, you will think that they are all living a good life.

But some people want to pursue fame and wealth, some people want to be beautiful, and some people want to live in seclusion, but they have to be stumbling by responsibility and stay.

They may be happy for a while, but they can't fulfill their pursuits. Are they doing well?

For me, in addition to the secular and underground organizations, there may be the standards of my hometown.

There are too many standards. Whenever I feel that one is suitable for me, I will find that I can't fully meet what it says, and I don't know if my life is considered good. "

She paused, not sure if Yi Danning wanted to hear about her hometown.Hometown is not a good word for them. "If you don't mind, let me tell you about the standards of my hometown."

"It's fine if you force it." Yi Danning hadn't recovered from her words, so she could only reply instinctively.

Xiao Hansen: She was very speechless, she should remember not to play tricks with this person.

"Ahem, it's nothing to be forced. Aditi has always been a very barren place. My family has a lot of people, and they all live in a small house.

Sleeping can't move, the temperature difference between day and night is large, and the night is cold, and it depends on the body temperature of the people around it for warmth.

Dangerous animals may take away my relatives and friends at any time, not to mention the chronic shortage of food. When the well is dry, we have to travel far to fetch water.It is also difficult to get out of the village.It's not that no one has tried it, but with only two legs, no food or water, no way forward and no way back, those who went out never came back, and the adults said they were dead. "Xiao Hansen was fascinated by the memories. After saying these words, she seemed to have returned to the day when the yellow sand filled her body, and the cake in her hand became cold and hard, unable to chew or swallow.

"At that time, I thought that if I could eat enough and wear warm clothes, I would be living a good life.

That is the bottom line of living, but in our opinion, it is difficult to achieve in a lifetime.Then came a group of caravans.They didn't stay overnight, they just set up tents where there were people and lived for a while.They don't speak the same language as us, and they can understand each other only by gestures.

I became interested in this group of outsiders at the time, and took my sister to play with them every day.

They had some picture books, and a middle-aged man was very kind to us, showing us stories from the outside world with pictures, and would share one or two cakes for my hungry sister and me from time to time.

Only then did I realize that in addition to being full, there are still people who can change patterns and eat delicacies from mountains and seas that I have never seen before.In addition to warm clothes, some people can wear silk and cotton cloth, and Dai Hua is decorated with a rich robe.

In addition to working hard every day, there are people who can lie down and wait for others to serve them. In addition to being squeezed into a small room, there are people whose room is bigger than the house of our two families.So what is my original wish?Compared with these people, even if I have fulfilled the highest dream of the Aditi people, I am nothing.

The more she talked, the more fascinated I became.To the outside world, to the life she described.My sister was stung by a poisonous scorpion when I was looking for the caravan with me again, and no one could save her.

I was sad, but I didn't know what anger was. I just felt that I should not go on like this, and died at an unknown moment, because of such a small thing, and because of the powerlessness and incompetence of the people around me.So I became a traitor and slipped away with the caravan when they left Aditi. Xiao Hansen paused for a moment, giving her audience a little time to digest the information. She was holding the glass, the scar on the back of her hand was hideous and eye-catching, and the callus on her palm was thick and rough.

The surrounding scenery seemed to blur, and the people in front of her disappeared, replaced by boundless darkness. It was the divine punishment that hit her when she betrayed the village, her faith, and tried her best to resist.

"The people in the caravan were very dissatisfied with my arrival. They didn't have much supplies left, and they couldn't replenish anything in Aditi.

The middle-aged man bailed me out for a few days and dropped me the next time they met someone.

Coincidentally, that place may be quite close to your hometown, maybe it is the same place.I fight with people with bad intentions, and rob them of food and territory.

At that time there was no thinking field, we were all ordinary people, but we just fought with our bare hands.Whoever is injured too badly can only watch him suffer, then die and rot.

I fled my hometown, but nothing has changed much. I am still so powerless, living a life full of hunger and food, stepping on the edge of life and death every day, and the days on the tip of the knife are only crawling and unable to dance .

And... where there are many people, there are more conspiracies and desires.The class is obvious, and the status can crush anyone's head at any time.

When I finally beat everyone around me to the ground, my status is higher than them all, and people with higher status will gradually appear, and one day they will take away everything I have robbed.

I feel that life is a circle, everyone is trapped in it, like a hamster, running on a wheel, there is no end, and there is no way to move forward. "

Yi Danning did not expect her past to be like this.

Their topic was a bit off topic, but she couldn't ask other questions to pull out the thoughts of the person in front of her from the past.No one can wake up the person who pretends to be asleep, and she can't rescue her who is addicted to the past.

"Then how... did you get to Haber?" She continued to ask Xiao Hansen's topic.

Xiao Hansen shook the glass in his hand, the scene in front of him changed.After the smell of blood dissipated, another show began.It's the staggering of toasts, the ambiguous lighting and the hazy speech.

It is the wind and the wind that make people want to curl up more than hunger, and the right and left that make people shiver more than cold.

The status has been firmly pressed above the head, and the sun is covered by dark clouds, although there is no sun here.

"It's nothing more than relying on people. Forbearance with high-ranking people, stepping on the corpses of low-ranking people to climb. Only then can I leave my second hometown and go to bigger cities. At that time, I have reached my original goal. I have enough food and clothing. But I still don’t think my life is very good. I will still be used as a scapegoat, I will be outdone, I will be hurt maliciously, and I will get tired of these deals and maneuvers.

But big cities are a little better.The city is too big, there are too many things to do, and most people have no time to take care of their surroundings. When walking on the road, she doesn't know you, and you don't pay attention to her.In the past, it was very convenient to change identities.I soon went to the busiest city. Walking in the glamorous place, people seem to be very happy. The adults are holding the children, talking and laughing, and the old people are helping each other. Although they are silent, their expressions are peaceful and peaceful, yes Satisfaction with the past.They are satisfied presumably with their own lives.

But status still weighs on everyone.Those who are good at school have a higher status than those who are poor, those with a good family background have a higher status than those with a poor family background, leaders at work have a higher status than employees, and the elders in the family have higher status than the young.I don't want to be entangled by it anymore, and the world's standards don't suit me anymore.And I walked in a cold corner where the sun couldn't shine, and the laughter disappeared.It is so similar to the city and hometown I have stayed in.I gave up looking for a place to stay, it's the same everywhere anyway.Maybe I'm too oddly shaped to fit in a standard container.

Later, with the thinking field, I went underground.It doesn't look very good, a dark gathering place, it's hard to be alone, let alone lead others into a world.But it's not that bad, at least people are not hypocritical and don't say high-sounding words.

I want to fight for what I want, and the human feelings are much more indifferent, but I live a lot more comfortably. "

Xiao Hansen seemed to be thinking about how to continue.Yidan pondered for a while, and dutifully guided her to continue talking. "Didn't you get what you once wanted? You don't have to worry about food and clothing now, and the money you have saved is enough for you to live a peaceful life in the future. Where is the dissatisfaction? What is not good?"

"I want to walk in the sunshine." She paused, staring at the non-existent distance, gaining courage. "I also want to make up for the pain and regrets of the past, want to go home and see, and want to help my old friends and acquaintances.

I don't want a thinking field, I don't want status, I want equality, everyone can get something, find their own standards, and fulfill the desire hidden in their hearts. "

"But the thought field alone is very difficult... Sorry, I didn't want to hit you."

Xiao Hansen smiled and shook the cup. "It's okay. It's not a bad thinking field, it's not a problem with superpowers.

Even if this superpower is solved, people will install other superpowers on themselves and others, which will treat the symptoms but not the root cause.

There is no difference, people will create differences, and then draw circles around others and label them differently.Oppression persists and discrimination runs deep. "

Yi Danning couldn't understand.She felt that what Xiao Hansen said was somewhat similar to Shao Wanwan's previous encounters, but she had never experienced them. Her growth experience was more like a killer machine than a human being, which made her ignorant of the ways of the world and the warmth of the world.

She is now learning to feel and try to experience, but the further she moves forward, the more she feels that the cold is more than warm, and the bitterness is more than sweet and sour.Xiao Hansen has been at a loss all along, and after today, she seems to start to get confused too.

"I don't understand. The misfortune of most of us here is caused by the thinking field. As you said, they are separated from their family and friends because of the thinking field, because the thinking field bears inexplicable responsibilities. If the thinking field is really what? One day it's sorted out and we wouldn't be better off?"

Xiao Hansen saw Yi Danning's firmness and her purity, and suddenly understood why he was moved.There is a different light in Yi Danning's eyes than her own.

I have already fallen into the fog, no one cares, no one rescues me, and I don't want to open my heart to others, so I grasp the light that has entered by mistake.After all, I am not the same as her.It's time to choose.

"You don't have to understand. There are too many puzzling things, like those monsters hanging in the sky, we don't understand, but we are used to it." Yi Danning looked like she wanted to say something, and smiled at Hansen He raised his hand to stop her from continuing. "I can't achieve what I want in this life. I blame me for seeing too much and thinking too much. It's good to keep my little happiness."

"Don't go my old way." These are the last words Xiao Hansen said to Yi Danning today.

After Shao Wanwan returned to Haipo, Yi Danning picked and told Xiao Hansen's words to Shao Wanwan.

Shao Wanwan has more social experience, and she can basically understand some parts that Yi Danning can't understand.

It's just that she's not such a pessimistic person, and her heart is not so open-minded, so naturally she doesn't fully agree with Xiao Hansen's words.

"But she is right about one thing, even if there is no thought field, underground organizations will exist.

It may not be the name, but the core is still a place where the evil of the world gathers, a dirty sewer, people outside don't know its existence, people inside wear upside-down glasses, think they are committed to the Garden of Eden, and see black as White.

It will always be the incarnation of desire, a demonic realm that devours reason, it feeds the forbidden fruit of depravity to the guests, and pulls out their ribs to build its own unique chaos. "

Shao Wanwan was exhausted after running around for a whole day, as if she was the one who had her ribs taken away. She leaned on Yi Danning's body, scratching Yi Danning's chin with her fingers from time to time, and Yi Danning narrowed her eyes, agreeing with her statement .

"But she also takes herself too seriously. It's not about this person's behavior. She behaves recklessly, doing whatever she wants, very bold. It's about her thoughts, she refuses to let herself go, and she doesn't Willing to find someone to solve it. Even if there are many close friends, they won't do this." Yi Danning wanted to complain that you are not the same, and Shao Wanwan and her have a heart-to-heart, so she grinned and started to giggle.

"I'm not, with you. It's not that I don't talk about it at all, and I don't pay much attention to those annoying things, and I don't have such a high goal. It's good if I can keep what I have. I don't want anything else. Please. The old employees all think that we are going to take care of our retirement, and we have settled down for several years before Wu Mingshi made a move." Shao Wanwan suddenly jumped up and left Yi Danning. "I have to ask someone to hand over the task of Xiao Hansen. She can tell you these things today, so she probably chooses to stay with Y."

As Shao Wanwan expected, Xiao Hansen found her the next day and explained his willingness to leave Harper.

It is impossible for Shao Wanwan to force people to stay, not to mention that Xiao Hansen is not a sweet potato, but more like a hot yam.It's also good to go to Yanhua's side, with the alliance covering his head, he is not afraid of problems.

"I'm really leaving." Yi Danning was a little busy, so she didn't say goodbye to Xiao Hansen.

"Yeah, I left you a letter, do you want to open it?" Shao Wanwan guessed that the rotten peach blossom in her hand was Yi Danning's rotten peach blossom, so she really wanted to cut it off.

"Ah? What else does she want to say?" Yi Danning temporarily took the letter and opened it in front of Shao Wanwan.

The two of them put their heads together and stared at the letter paper for a long time, but they didn't understand a single word.

"This...encrypted call? Do you have any secrets with her?" Shao Wanwan rubbed Yi Danning's face, and Yi Danning gave her a look, not very happy when she said that.

"How could it be, besides, I can't understand it either." "Just kidding, just kidding. I know you can't." Shao Wanwan hurriedly comforted Yi Danning.Yi Danning pursed her lips.I turned over the letter paper, but I still couldn't read it, only that the same hieroglyphic characters seemed to be used on both sides.

"Well, is it possible that it is Aditi language? Just her hometown." Judging from their intersection and conversation, this is the most logical explanation.But Yi Danning is not sure whether Xiao Hansen still remembers the dialect and characters of his hometown.

Shao Wanwan was fascinated by the pattern at the end of the back.

Hearing this, she nodded subconsciously, then stared at it for another half a minute, and took out her booklet from her bag.

"Ningning, look at this. Does it look alike?" Shao Wanwan pointed to the pattern in the picture in the booklet.

"It's a bit... Although your inheritance is not very clear." "That's right, after all, one is a pictograph, and the other is a mural record. It's normal for them to look similar."

"Xiao Hansen seems to have mentioned the village that betrayed her, that is to say, what religion does Aditi also believe in?" After a fleeting guess, Yi Danning only grasped a little inspiration.

Shao Wanwan is still identifying. "Isn't it normal to not believe in a religion in that kind of place? I just don't know what that religion has to do with the one in my hand and the group in the sky."

"I have to find a chance to go. And my aunt's side... Well, these two people and things happened a long time ago, so it's very difficult." Shao Wanwan stretched her waist. "It's been a busy time."

"I'll help you." Yi Danning didn't say much, just stayed by Shao Wanwan's side.Actions are the most sincere. Shao Wanwan watched Yidanning take over 2/3 of the work and finished it at about the same time as herself, she was moved to tears, and said that she would make persistent efforts to train this successor, and strive to start a new life as soon as possible. Live like a salted fish in retirement.

"Xuanyuan, don't you think the work these two days doesn't look like the boss's handling style? It doesn't mean that there is a big difference, but there are subtle differences." Wan Ying, who was reviewing on the other side, complained to Xuanyuan.Xuanyuan thought that Yi Danning had done the agency work that day, paused, and then replied that it was not impossible, leaving her with an unfathomable back view.Seeing her attitude, Wan Ying gritted her teeth angrily, and quarreled with Xuan Yuan again.

Bickering is quarreling, as long as the conflict does not escalate to the level of quarreling, it can enhance the relationship, and Xuanyuan is also happy to argue with her.At least they are communicating, much better than before.

"Our boss may want to retire early again." Xuanyuan finally answered Wan Ying's words directly.Wan Ying put the documents on the table, "I think so too, maybe the atmosphere in Harper is too salty, and we can't find any big targets, so why don't we find a place to live in seclusion, anyway, money and so on don't matter." enough."

"Come on, what can you do after you retire, sleep at home every day? It's better to find something for you." Xuanyuan poured a glass of water for her, sent it over, and patted her head by the way .

Wan Ying paused, then took the water with a calm expression. "Okay, listen to you. I'll continue watching." Xuanyuan didn't continue to tease her, and returned to her seat.

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