Dead after eight years [rebirth]

He Mingsui should love Shao Jihua very much. After Shao Jihua came in, she became peaceful.

The loving couple sat together opposite Cheng Shuibei, and Cheng Shuibei once thought that he was giving legal consultation to them as a lawyer.

He Mingsui's story is touching, and it solved a series of doubts in Cheng Shuibei's heart about his father's leaving home, illness and death.

As a lawyer, Cheng Shuibei would even sympathize with what happened to He Mingsui.But as a neglected son, as Cheng Nan's guardian, he was unwilling to forgive her no matter what.

"Even if Cheng Nan stays in the west of the city, you obviously have so much time to see him, why not?" Cheng Shuibei's tone softened a lot, but he still wanted to tell He Mingsui that she owed her brother a lot .

He Mingsui half leaned in Shao Jihua's arms, with her husband's protective palm clasped on his shoulders.She raised her head to look at Cheng Shuibei, her eyes were soft and loving, for a moment Cheng Shuibei thought she saw her real mother.

But he also knew that the one who only gave birth to Cheng Nan and Shao He was not his mother.

He Mingsui replied: "Because my youngest son is sick, I know it's not a reason, but Shao He can't live without people every minute. People's energy is limited. I will take care of my youngest son more. The time will be less, but my love is infinite, whether it is for Cheng Nan or Shao He, I can die at any time."

"You are a failing mother, Cheng Nan didn't blame you, he was kind and careless, but I am different." Cheng Shuibei was about to say "I am your son and I will never forgive you", but At this time Zhang Ci'an walked in.

Four people were squeezed into the small toy room at once, and the atmosphere became more tense.

After Zhang Ci'an briefly said hello, he sat down next to Cheng Shuibei, and firmly held Cheng Shuibei's hands under the table. He took the initiative to explain his appearance: "It's almost time to go home, Cheng Nan told me you came upstairs , I’m afraid that something will happen to you, let me come and have a look.”

Cheng Shuibei's arrogance dissipated, and he lost interest in reasoning with He Mingsui for a moment.There is a saying that is so bad that it is almost moldy, you can never wake up a person who is pretending to sleep.

"Did you hear that, your son cares so much about a person who has no blood relationship like me? He is so kind. You waste his kindness. You let him redeem your younger son. Who will redeem Cheng Nan when he is sad?" What about him?" Cheng Shuibei looked directly at He Mingsui, telling all his grievances.

Zhang Ci'an grabbed his hand.Looking at the loving couple opposite, thinking about the little potato downstairs, Cheng Shuibei felt that it was time for him to leave.

He stood up, looked in the direction of the door, and left his back for his mother who was curled up in Shao Jihua's arms and wanted protection.

"I don't know what you want to say by pulling me here. If you ask me to take good care of Cheng Nan, then it's okay. I don't need your hypocritical instructions. I can let him live in peace and happiness. He is very smart. If you want to become a great scientist in the future, I hope you won't jump out to gain the glory of your son."

Cheng Shuibei said coldly, when he walked to the door, he remembered something and stopped again.

"Take care of Little Tudou. If you have failed one child, don't fail the other."

"Also, Cheng Nan has never resented you. You owe him the maternal love and care you owe him all these years. It's best to pay him back."

After Cheng Shuibei finished speaking, he rushed out ahead of Zhang Cian and went downstairs. When he passed by Shao He's room, he looked at the little potato-like child sleeping peacefully inside, and said goodnight softly.

Good night, my brother was not a good brother before, but he will be in the future.

Hope mom can do it too.

Cheng Shuibei was very nervous when he left the gate of Shao's house. On the one hand, he was upset after talking with He Mingsui, and on the other hand, he was nervous about meeting Aunt Dou.

"Don't worry," Zhang Ci'an walked half a step behind him, like a guardian, "Mom didn't know you were coming, I promised, you said we would meet."

Only then did Cheng Shuibei feel relieved and went into the car.

This time, instead of taking the co-pilot seat, he squeezed into the back seat exhaustedly, next to his brother.

Cheng Nan clapped his small palm on his leg. "It's been so long, what did mother tell you?"

He was worried, worried that Cheng Shuibei would embarrass his mother, and even more worried that Cheng Shuibei would embarrass himself.

The source of Cheng Shuibei's illness is He Mingsui. With today's words, can he relieve the torment in his heart?Cheng Shuibei didn't know.

He just put his brother half in his arms and talked with his head against his head.

"She said she knew she was wrong, and she would treat you like a little potato in the future."

"Mom is not wrong...it's just that my brother is sick and she can't be busy." At this time, my brother was still looking for love for her, but Cheng Nan's eyes suddenly became expectant as he spoke, "Did Mom really say that?" ?”

No matter how sensible a child is, he still wants his mother's love.

Cheng Shuibei was glad that he didn't have too much trouble with He Mingsui, so he smiled and nodded in affirmation.

Cheng Nan lowered his head slowly, and when the street lights flickered, Cheng Shuibei seemed to be crying when he saw his brother.

Fuck his uncle's sensibility, Cheng Nan has to be the most domineering kid in the world!

Cheng Shuibei pretended not to see his brother's tears, and fell asleep half leaning on the child's not-so-strong body.

When the car turned into the community, Cheng Shuibei pretended to wake up from a light sleep, rubbed his eyes and threw the house key to Cheng Nan: "My legs are numb from sleep, you take the key and go up to feed Chacha, and I will leave later. "

Cheng Nan didn't know about his pretending to be asleep, so he obediently jumped out of the car and went upstairs to feed the dog.But Zhang Ci'an parked the car in an empty place in the community after Cheng Nan left, got out of the driver's seat and sat next to Cheng Shuibei in the back row.

"What's the matter?" Zhang Ci'an let Cheng Shuibei slip into his arms, pillow on his shoulder, and asked softly.

On the way, he sensed that something was wrong, Cheng Shuibei was able to deceive Cheng Nan, but Zhang Ci'an was not.

Cheng Shuibei had no intention of hiding from his lover, and told him the story he had heard, and said sullenly after the story: "She seems to be miserable too."

That's right, I was originally a well-behaved urbanite, but I couldn't go back home after going to the countryside to study.He Mingsui may have made a mistake when she decided to give birth to them, when she ignored her son, but before she passed by that grove, she was also a young and bright girl.

Zhang Ci'an lightly kissed Cheng Shuibei's fingertips on his lips: "Do you know what I'm thinking?"

Cheng Shuibei shook his head, Professor Zhang would not talk about his likes and dislikes like him.

"I'm thinking, Xiaobei, you can actually blame her. Because she did nothing wrong before and was abandoned. It's her problem that she doesn't love you, not yours."

It's not that he didn't do well, it's not that he doesn't deserve love, it's just that his mother chose to give love to others.

"Senior sister said that your illness comes from the long-term denial of yourself in this environment when you were a child, so you might as well take your mother's explanation as a reason for relief. Xiaobei, you never need to blame yourself."

Professor Zhang is always keenly aware of the problem, including Cheng Nan knowing that he is talking to his mother, does it also mean that his brother wants He Mingsui to explain something to him.

They were all using special methods to teach Cheng Shuibei to forgive themselves.

"So thinking like this will make you feel better?" Zhang Ci'an asked, and at the same time picked up Cheng Shuibei's hand, and looked at it with the light of the roadside, "Did you help Hou Chuang with something? Why are you so careless? I don’t even know if it’s scratched.”

When I moved the book in the morning, I accidentally scratched the page, leaving a shallow mark on the back of my hand. Cheng Shuibei himself forgot, but Zhang Ci'an discovered it.

Cheng Shuibei didn't want to admit that he was careless, so he quickly withdrew his hand and said, "I'm not injured, the lighting here is not good, you're wrong."

"Well, I read it wrong."

The wound was not serious, Zhang Ci'an knew that he was in a bad mood at the moment, so he simply let him coax him down.

Cheng Shuibei rubbed a thin mark on the back of his hand, thinking of Shao Helai for no reason.

Shao He has been arrogant since he was a child, such a young child has to go to see a doctor everywhere, get infusions and injections, Cheng Shuibei saw dense pinholes on the back of his hands when he was holding him today.

Little Tudou is so afraid of pain, he will definitely cry.

"Zhang Ci'an, was I very cruel to Shao He when I was young?" Cheng Shuibei asked with his face raised.

Zhang Ci'an is his big brother next door, and he has seen Shao He chasing after him like a follower.

Zhang Ci'an pinched his nose: "I only know that Little Tudou likes the jelly beans, paper airplanes, and plastic puppies you brought back the most. He will even keep the burnt fireworks sticks you played with."

When Cheng Shuibei was not at home, Little Tudou held up the bare firework stick left by his brother that was no longer in full bloom, and pretended to be chasing his brother, running round and round in the community.

"Hey, slow down, the fireworks are about to go out!"

Boo Boo, Boo Boo.

Cheng Shuibei felt uncomfortable when he thought of the "嘿嘭" every sentence.

"Little Tudou likes it the most. We will come back often in the future. You can spend more time with him. I will beg my mother to come to Shao's house often and take pictures of you, okay?" Cheng Shuibei is like this, he only cares about what he did wrong, and tortures himself over and over again, refusing to let himself go.

"it is good."

Cheng Shuibei regained half of his vitality, so he hurried to go home.

Zhang Ci'an parked the car, and the two walked slowly together.

Seeing that it was the end of the month, the last waning moon hung alone in the sky.Looking at the moon, Cheng Shuibei inevitably thought of He Mingsui who talked about the bloody past under the moonlight.

The fingertips he was holding in Zhang Cian's hand moved.

"Xiao Bei, there is one thing that I don't think should be kept from you."

Zhang Ci'an suddenly stopped while going upstairs, his seriousness made Cheng Shuibei afraid.

Could it be that Professor Zhang held back some big tricks, asking him to meet Boss Zhang? He couldn't just want a child, Cheng Shuibei held his stomach tightly, he couldn't give birth to this.

Zhang Ci'an pinched his earlobe and smiled lightly.

"What are you thinking about? I just want to tell you that in the years after you and I went to Yunan, Aunt He would fly to Yunan to see you every month. She didn't dare to appear in front of you, so she had to secretly watch One glance."

Even the day after Cheng Shuibei jumped off the building, He Mingsui took Shao He, who had just finished treatment, to carry a cake all the way to make up for his birthday, but unfortunately, he would never see him again.

"I found out many times, sometimes we talk, she knows about me and you, she just asks me to treat you better."

"She said maybe you hate her, so let you continue to hate her."

"A person's life, love and hate, must stick to one."

The author has something to say:

The meaning of the episode where a friend left a message yesterday is not to excuse her mother, but to give Xiaobei a reason to forgive herself.He's not unloved, he's not terrible, he can be fine.