When the drama comes

Because Chu Shangqing directly ordered the store's signature Tomahawk with Girardeau oysters and truffle wild mushroom soup, the others were no longer polite, and ordered the seafood salad recommended by the clerk and the liqueur ice cream with chocolate.

Everyone poured wine into their cups, ate meat with big mouthfuls and drank with small sips, and the atmosphere of chatting became more and more lively.

Lu Yiyao, the oldest, talked about her previous blind date:

"As soon as we met, the introducer said that I am an independent woman in the new era. Do you know that you can't let others say that you are independent or not? The independent woman you think is that you have independent hobbies and independent life circles. 、You don't expect to spend a man's money, and you don't want others to judge you, right? We use our sociality to fight against the tradition that we are an appendage of a family. But in the eyes of others, you are an independent woman , or it means that you can support your family, take care of your children, go to the hall and go to the kitchen, and you can resist the sky falling, and you don’t need a bride price.”

Yu Lulu and Su Rui both laughed as soon as the word bride price came out.

Lu Yiyao waved his hand: "Don't laugh, I'm serious, men are thieves, and some people use the word 'independent women' to coax women, isn't it because of the taste of soft rice? It's a dream to cheat a wife empty-handed." Let's go home!"

After taking a bite of the steak, Lu Yiyao looked at the giggling Su Rui, and then at Yu Lulu: "There is another kind of person who frowns when they hear the word 'independent women', independent women, do you still go on blind dates? Are you still married as an independent woman? Why do you still buy a house with your family’s money as an independent woman? Good guy, you just want to have a little living space of your own. Others regard you as a superman from an alien. But some girls are also fooled Now, I yell not to get married every day, and I don’t accumulate assets for myself. I work for paper people and male idols every day. Still feel that they are not independent, why don’t they think about it, how many independent men are there in the world according to this standard? Men are not independent, so why should women be independent? Why do women always use higher standards?!”

Su Rui's eyes widened, and she held up a fork and asked Yu Lulu, "Why do I feel that Lu Yiyao is scolding me?"

Yu Lulu quickly held her down: "How is it possible, you don't need to spend money chasing male idols."

"That's right." Su Rui chuckled, "I'm a prostitute for nothing!"

Two young girls laughed across the dining table.

Lu Yiyao took a sip of red wine, and looked at Chu Shangqing who was sitting diagonally across from her.

Chu Shangqing was pouring wine for himself.

The red wine is slowly poured from the decanter into the glass, and the splashed liquid hangs on the wall of the glass, and it needs to be shaken lightly to blend into the red at the bottom of the glass.

The eyes staring at the wine are sober and bright, making it impossible to tell that this is someone who has already drank most of the bottle of red wine.

"Secretary Chu, this is the third time I've seen you drinking." Lu Yiyao said with a smile, the last time was the annual meeting where Secretary Chu suffered from stomach problems.

Chu Shangqing's eyes turned, looked at her, raised his wine glass with a smile.

Lu Yiyao followed suit again.

The first time we drank together was at the welcome reception of the new chairman, Fu Nanshang.

The girl standing behind Fu Nanshang was too young. Although her manners were capable, one would think that she was easy-going.

Lu Yiyao watched from a distance, and could feel that it was difficult for this girl to get along in Fu's.

"Hi, I'm Chu Shangqing, the boss' secretary."

The girl came over and said to her.

Lu Yiyao was flattered.

"Your heel is bleeding."

The newly bought high heels scuffed Lu Yiyao's shoes, she was so numb from the pain, she didn't even know that she was bleeding.

People came and went, only the young Chu Shangqing saw her feet.

When Lu Yiyao was holding on to the wall and wanted to look at her shoes, someone came over again: "What's going on?"

"Does Fu have a dress code for female employees? Why is everyone wearing high heels?"

Lu Yiyao heard Chu Shangqing ask the next man back.

"...So mentally handicapped? Let's talk about it at the meeting tomorrow. How can someone wear high heels to work?"

Lu Yiyao, who was just a small clerk, was taken aback by the tone of these words, and when she raised her head, she couldn't even dance.

It was the new chairman who was talking to Secretary Chu.

And Chu Shangqing nodded: "Okay, I will write this down."

The manager of the marketing department carefully said that the chairman should not worry about such trivial matters. The new chairman said, "Is this foot growing on your body? You know it's a trivial matter?"

Chu Shangqing did not know where to get a pair of slippers, and carrying the slippers, she crossed the entire reception scene.

After a few minutes, some service staff at the venue came with slippers and asked every lady wearing high heels at the venue if they would consider changing their shoes.

A few days later, Lu Yiyao, the assessment assistant in the chairman's office on the top floor, signed up immediately.

"Secretary Chu, you are very kind. In fact, it is really his blessing that you are in love with the chairman."

What a wonderful Chu Shangqing.

Seeing that they have been secretly in love with each other for so long, Lu Yiyao always sighed in her heart, Secretary Chu is so kind, always safe and capable, and always full of vigor.

It is very, very lucky to be liked by such a person.

Chu Shangqing smiled.

Yu Lulu and Su Rui were also nodding.

Especially Yu Lulu, she will always pay high respect to Secretary Chu's eyes that break through the limitation of species.

Chu Shangqing poured himself another glass of wine and drank it down in one gulp.

"Do you think I am an independent woman?" She asked Lu Yiyao.

Before Lu Yiyao could speak, Yu Lulu and Su Rui had already looked over.

Su Rui said, "Secretary Chu, the benchmark for independent women in my heart!"

Yu Lulu also nodded.

Chu Shangqing lowered his head and smiled:

"Aside from making money, I'm not interested in many things, and I don't have any hobbies. The independent women you mentioned are choosing a lifestyle that gives them more autonomy when they can make choices in life. I am not like this, if I don’t have a choice in how I want to live. So, I’m not an independent woman at all.”

The tomahawk steak was sliced ​​into long slices and placed on a bone china plate that was continuously heated. Chu Shangqing took a slice with a fork, but didn't eat it. He just turned the fork and looked at it.

"I was admitted to the history department of P University when I was 14 years old."

Speaking in a casual tone, the lines that can only be spoken by genius girls, Yu Lulu and Su Rui were shocked, and they couldn't help hugging each other to resist mental attacks.

Seeing their expressions, Chu Shangqing shook his head: "I studied history because I thought the most respectable job was to be a teacher before I went to university. A 14-year-old kid who grew up in a small county town has only so much experience. "

Teacher Fang used to be the person Chu Shangqing wanted to be the most, so she learned the majors she had studied and wanted to get closer to her.

Therefore, even if Lu Xu and Sheng Luo told her how economics, finance and even law can make money, and Fang Zhuo also told her that a foreign language major is also very decent as a translator, she still chose history major.

This is contrary to her ideal of making money, but it gives her the illusion that she can touch her ideal life.

14-year-old Chu Shangqing could not refuse this illusion.

What's more, economy and finance will remind her of that person

——She should be called her father's man legally.

A man who escaped because of embezzlement of public property during the coal mine restructuring.

The man who abandoned her and her mother.

The man who came back after 12 years to assert his control over his children.

Even the bonus for being admitted to P University was taken away, and she went to Beijing with the 5000 yuan that Teacher Fang gave her. Seeing other students being sent to school by beaming parents, Chu Shangqing suddenly realized that she had only briefly owned it before. Friends and ideals, but in fact these things are still far away from her. She wants to keep moving forward, let herself live, and live like a normal person first.

She can't wait to work in Beijing to maintain her own life, but there are too many "abnormalities" in her body, she can't enter the small space dominated by adult men to be a tutor for children, and she can't get help from middle-aged men. After receiving the reward, she can only find a single family where the child follows the mother.

Sensitive and tired mothers will also look at this too thin and thin girl with critical eyes.

Chu Shangqing can only let herself have more skills. She went to a bookstore and memorized all the textbooks and supplementary content for Beijing junior high school and high school students just like when she was a child, and then she got the same job opportunities as others.

Is this "independent"?

This is "survival".

The classmates thought she was sensitive and thought she was arrogant, but she just couldn't talk to them calmly.

Fang Zhuo also won a youth boxing match and got a few thousand yuan in bonuses, which was transferred to her in half, and she texted her to tell her that she was doing well.

Grandma Qin from Sheng Luo's family delivered new clothes, shoes and sausages to her. Others thought it was rustic, but she liked it very much.

Besides, she didn't know how to be happy.

Better grades, more money, let others show envy to her because of her school, and let others praise her as a genius with an unforgettable memory... She runs fast, firmly believing that these things can make up her life in this world. position on the

Wolves without a pack roam the grasslands. Even if they kill a rabbit by chance, even if they occupy a cave, they have to worry about whether they can live until tomorrow.

This is her long life.

"In your eyes, you may have added a lot of brilliance to me, thinking that I can do a lot of things, and I don't have many negative emotions. In fact, these are my survival skills. It doesn't mean that I have a good education. It doesn't mean I'm a worthy companion."

Kindness is a very expensive thing, she just learned a little bit from many kind people, it doesn't mean she is kind.

"I am very proud that I can go all out to live to this day, but I am not kind, nor independent. Surviving alone is not independent. Surviving alone is an instinct that is stimulated. Independence is the way to choose happiness. Fu Nan and I It's not that I chose happiness..."

Shine in the lights.

The waiter delivered a complimentary Christmas cake and a small sandwich made of turkey.

"Happiness is coming to me."

On Christmas Eve this year, it snowed in Beijing.

Countless couples took to the streets, cheering to the snowflakes illuminated by lights.

Fu Nanshang sat leaning in the room, watching his planet slowly rotate.

"Sole, what is the probability that the orbits will coincide now?"

In the silent room, an electronic voice suddenly sounded:

"After calculation, the probability of orbital coincidence is 47%."

"Oh." Fu Nanshang sighed, "It's not yet 50%. If my proposal is successful now, how much will the probability increase?"

"After calculation, the increase probability is between 2% and 4%. If the marriage proposal fails, the probability of orbital coincidence will decrease by 7%."

Fu Nanshang: ...

"Sole, I miss her so much, it's snowing outside, can I take the little snowman to wait for her?"

"The outdoor temperature is minus 7 degrees. After calculation, the probability of the designer catching a cold is 64.78%."

Fu Nanshang sighed.

"It's so busy now, if I get sick, her workload will increase."

There seemed to be a gust of wind, and snow particles slapped on the bed.

Fu Nanshang was still looking at his planet.

When the door opened, before he could react, he suddenly smelled alcohol.

"Who? Chu Shangqing?"

Turning over from the sofa, Fu Nanshang was pressed against the window before he could turn on the light.

"Chu Shangqing, have you been drinking?"

The woman reeking of alcohol covered his mouth with her hands.

"Don't ask me, I'll ask you."

Caressing his cheeks with cold fingers, Fu Nanshang froze for a moment, and did not continue speaking.

Chu Shangqing's face was very hot, but the tip of her nose was cold. She rubbed Fu Nanshang's ear and said:

"The planet, you gave it to me, right? Not just the one in the sky, but also the private kitchen that brings me breakfast every day."

The secret that had been covered up for three years was exposed.

Fu Nanshang pressed his back against the cold window, and besides the sound of breathing, he heard snow particles beating against the glass.

"Yes, your stomach is not good, breakfast is always..."

His mouth was gagged again.

Although they have only dated for a short period of time, they are already very good at kissing, as if their bodies have automatically become the most suitable for each other during the long wait.

But this alcoholic kiss still made Fu Nanshang feel numb.

Looks like he's getting drunk too.

"For three years, you made my breakfast?"

"Yes." Fu Nanshang's breathing also became rapid.

"why?"

Chu Shangqing asked him.

Why do you want to do this?

Why didn't you tell her after we got together?

Why do you have to do this for her?

She has walked lonely and restless in this world for so long, a little warmth can make her feel ashamed, why do so much for her?Her values ​​are collapsing, and she can't afford anything beyond her solvency!

"I miss you." After Fu Nanshang finished speaking, he felt that what he should say was "I love you", but he didn't choose "should".

"I think Chu Shangqing is in good health and in a good mood."

16-year-old Chu Shangqing wants to be happy.

20-year-old Chu Shangqing wants to be happy.

Chu Shangqing wants to be happy now.

In the future, Chu Shangqing will also be happy, not tormented by stomach pain, and will be in a good mood because of the delicious breakfast.

"We're together, why didn't you tell me?"

"because……"

Because the chances of us being together for the rest of our lives are too low.

It's less than half as of yet.

"Because, if one day you want to leave, I still want you to be in good health and in a good mood."

The light coming in from the window allowed Fu Nanshang to see Chu Shangqing clearly at this moment.

Carefully, he kissed away those crystals.

It's melted snow.

Not tears.

Soon, the tentative kiss was replaced by Chu Shangqing's biting like a wolf cub.

They left the cold window, bumped into the sofa, and bumped into the door.

The planets slowly turned in the room.

Chu Shangqing raised his head and looked at the planet.

"Fu Nanshang, are you mine?" She clasped the man's cheek with her hand, making him raise his head.

The man looked at her with a smile: "I am."

"Are you mine?"

"I'm."

barren wilderness.

The boundless universe.

He is all hers.

So she has a place to stay in this world.

Chu Shangqing owned Fu Nanshang.